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Day 44

Hi ansh, its Christmas day today, and it seems like just an ordinary day for me. How are you spending it there in US now? I hope you're happy. remember this was our meet month? How funny and silly we were back then?.. I wish i could go back.. im sorry if i dont send you message anymore. Please dont think that im mad at you. I just dont want you to be pissed with me again. Im sorry that I really miss you na ansh but i know i cant write to you now so im just gonna write everything here. I know you can never read this but i wish you do. I wish you knew.

" I cry because I have no shoes, until I met a man with no feet "

Its amazing how this quote inspires me not to be jealous of things that other people have and whine about the things that i dont have.

Someone special inspires me to write this today and i cant get him off my head since morning, someone who wishes his dad to be proud of him like how his brother achieves, though I know he is as important for his dad too, but still, I can imagine how frustrating that thought must have been.

I can see no harm in being human enough to ask for recognition from the people we look up to, however, we only have control over ourselves, over our own emotions, and we cant be mad at someone for not feeling something, though we always have a choice, a choice to either keep trying and stay or, accept or, ignore and walk away.

Oh well, welcome to the real world where we really can’t have it all, to live like there must always something to be missing. I guess it’s just God’s way to show us that we are all equal, and that we should not be upset about the things that we dont have but rather be grateful of the things that we already have, because we never know, it might be something that other people misses too..

Ohhh,. anyways, I miss my dad, wish I could have a day with him, maybe thats possible in my dreams. sending kisses from earth to heaven.👼

how lovely 😍😍😍

She has not always been loved... I wish that I could get to see her and take a selfie with her someday, i dont know how much im so stoke to see her up close, so its a surprise for me that "The Iron Lady" as it is sometimes called, used to be unwanted too.. The Eiffel tower, named after its designer Gustave Eiffel, went some dramatic conflicts too after being built in 1889. Many protested against its construction back then, many called it an eyesore, it used to have a lot of haters and one of them is a novelist, Guy de Maupassant but still went to its restaurant everyday, he said its because it is the only place in Paris where it can't be seen. If the tower could only be upset and cry, the Parisians might have been drowned in tears. But as time passed by, many and many people started to like the tower. So feel blessed and value the people who instantly loves you as not everybody is luckily loved, acceptance is not easy to have, though can be gained over time. I hope I'll have the same fate as the tower does.. They may not like me for now, but eventually..

The unconditional love of a true Queen

Ive spent almost 3/4 of my life with her, but as i get to widen my horizon and meet new people and friends along the way, on the other hand, diminishes the time i have for her.

I'm getting too busy growing up that i tend to forget she is getting older too.

Sometimes we are blinded by the lies of the world that feeds our desires, the never ending hunger for satisfaction, seeking that happiness from dear life.

But a priceless gift of life has been handed to us all along. Something we didnt asked but more than we've ever been hoping for.

A woman who never got tired of teaching us back when we were starting to learn how to walk, who doesn'nt mind staying up all night to make sure we're sleeping fine, a woman who puts our needs before her own, and a woman who never fails to love us unconditionally.

"Now that youre getting older i guess its my turn"

"To support you if ever you'll start to have a hard time walking, like how you support me when im starting to learn how to"

"To listen to your never ending stories because everybody is out for work & you were so bored, same as how you listen to my senseless stories when i was small"

"To endure your smell same as how u endure mine back when you were chasing me for a bath when i dont want to"

"I know i dont say this because you dont say it too, though i do love you" "And i know you love me too"

"Sorry for the things that i might have done wrong"

"And thank you for everything"

"Happy Birthday Mom"

"Chandelier" by Sia

Gonna be my favorite for a week or so :P ,. i love that freedom, that crazy like feelin which positively influences me whenever i hear this.. i mean extra crazy crazy coz i already am crazy. Lol. XD

♫ ♪ ♫..im gonna swiiing, from the chandeliiiieer, from the chandeliiiieer.. ♫ ♪ ♫ im gonna live… like tomorrow doesnt exist…like it doesnt exiiiist… ..help me im holding on for dear life.. ♫ ♪ ♫

Sia has such a wonderful crazy mind in writing songs. oh! trivia. she wrote “Diamond” of Rihanna in just 14 minutes. see how “HALIMAW” she is??

" ♫ ♪ ♫ so shine bright,.. tonight... you and I,.. were beautiful like diamonds in the sky ♫ ♪ ♫"

A King..

People thought kings are just kings who have nothing special about them, no special abilities like flying, to be invisible, can breath underwater or special powers like "kamehame wave", "sharinggan", "haduuken", LOL, i mean they were ordinary people too but still soo blessed and have all the pleasures of life. True. But not all people can find the balance when responsibility is thrown at them. Back then- kings did not have ‘all’ the resources to keep troubles at bay. There were epidemics that they knew no cure of, there were fear of attack from the neighbouring countries, and there was the constant fight over the throne. Such liability can NOT be taken away with the abundance of grapes in the kitchen or women in the harem. A king may not have to worry about food, but he has much bigger worries - something he did not choose, but was born into. When it exceeds the level of his ability to cope - his happiness begins to run thin.

My man just did a toon to put on a broken link for his webpage.. wondering if this is how he dance too :P ( ♫ ♪ ♫ wiggle* wiggle* wiggle*♫ ♪ ♫) XD ✌💓💏 LOVE U BABY :*

forever tangled

you are the best thing thats ever been mine,. circumstances of life wont break us,. and if ever i'll get busy and wont have time as well.. i do hope you read this and know that you were always here (heart) and here (mind) .. forever tangled..

my love for you is greater than my ego

06/05/14 zero pride if you want to keep it going.. love’s not gone.. only life circumstances it is..that makes it worst

The Proposal :))

We were surrounded by the happiest people on earth, youre making me happy and i hope i make you the happiest man on earth… and tonight you will make me the happiest woman on earth by saying “yes”…

"will you be my happily ever after? "….

I'd rather die today.., than live another day of this death...

Snowhite and the Huntsman

Son of God

This major motion picture about the story of Jesus’ life comes in theatres this February 28, 2014 and open to audiences of all kind.

Saw the trailer and I must say this movie is awesome.. effects, best picture, actors, soundtrack and all, almost brought me into tears, but for some people, this is just about “money-making”, for it seems to be like a rerun of “The Bible”.. but why not just believe in the goodness of everything? I believe the purpose is there, and that is to awaken the faith and remind people about His love for mankind, sad but true, but people needs to be reminded often, and by recreating things into a whole new level will pretty much caught their attention, coz’ nowadays, people get so much caught up in life that they almost forgot who gave it to them, Either you watch it or not, atleast you got reminded about Gods love like no other, right? you might be reading a bible by now, or talking with someone about your opinion about Jesus’ life if you cant spend a single coin for this movie.

But as for me, i don’t need to know much, as long as I know God exist, He is the reason of my existence, I know Him, I believe Him, I have faith in Him, I love Him and I know he loves me too, not much question about why?… why is this?… why is that?.. because we, finite human beings, will never understand an infinite God.

#SonOfGod