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Skye J. 25. AB+. Seattle, WA. Funny. Giggly. Not looking. Spontaneous. Dedicated. Loyal. Committed. Hardworking. Poet. LPN. Chasing a dream of being a RN. Dreaming of travel and excitement. Living in Nature in a concrete jungle. Final goal is to be successful, livin' the life and making the world a better place with my own two hands one person at a time. Read the About me for more.

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THE NEW IMESSAGE LOOKS AMAZING

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Whoaaaa

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Kimsooja’s Room of Rainbows in Crystal Palace Buen Retiro Park, Madrid Spain. Created in 2006 by multidisciplinary artist Kimsooja, To Breathe – A Mirror Woman was an elaborate installation at the Palacio de Cristal, Parque del Retiro, in Madrid. 

Originally built in the late 1880s to house a collection of flora and fauna from the Philippines, Kimsooja transformed the Palacio de Cristal into a multisensory sound and light experience. A special translucent diffraction film was used to cover the windows to create an array of naturally occurring rainbows which were in turn reflected by a mirrored surface that covered the entire floor. (Source)

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Beautiful.

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When I'm whiny and scared.

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     Kingdom Hearts Original Worlds

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Just when I thought....

there would be no other. That it would be just like it was before... you’ve smashed all my feelings about how I thought it would be, and I’ve never been so damn happy to be WRONG. 

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Help me out.

My boyfriend is an intern and listener at this site online called 7CupsofTea. He’s asking for people to click this link = http://www.7cupsoftea.com/11910623 Which is pretty much a referral that he was the one to introduce you to this site. If you need someone to talk to, vent, or sort your feelings out, a lot of the listeners on this site are very good to chat with about your situation and you can remain totally anonymous.  Please and thank you, in advanced. :)

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Day 10 out of 33

I'm a third of the way there puppy. Today I had my last day of work for the next 6 days. Afterwards I return for 4 long days on duty. Not sure if I'm happy about that but I have a lot of days off towards the end of the month. I'm not sure if that's good or bad. I have about 6 days off before you return home... and another 4 days with you after that. I went off to playtest today and I kept busy through the night.  I came home to make stirfried noodles out of a bag... and some bbq pork.. some how after a few bites (though this was supposed to be my first actual meal of the day) I was no longer hungry and infact felt kind of sick. Not sure if it's because it's processed or what, but I just didn't feel hungry anymore after those bites.. My stomach hurts now. I also noticed when I'm out of the house for a while.. the heartache comes back. I feel pathetic because of it. It's like an odd mixture of panic and heartbreak.

I was happy to hear though that you could get your visa renewed, I can't wait for you to come home,

Kitty

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Day 9 of 33

Honestly, this trip apart has taught me I’m such a turtle when it comes to you not being here. All I’ve done is come into my room after work, shower, wash clothes and study. I mean while it’s productive, I don’t go out and honestly, it’s cause I don’t feel like it. Am I weird?

I ate so much today, I’m not sure if it was cause I was trying to compensate for not eating much lately but I filled myself will junk food today. I’m not sure what I’m going to do for food tomorrow. I guess I’ll figure it out as it goes.

I’m trying to effectively study… I keep thinking about the date but honestly I’m more concerned about my grandmother possibly dying soon. I’ve got to keep it together and do this even if it’s for her sake. I need to do better. My mom will be back about 5 days before you return. At least you can give her the sandals when you return.

Not sure where this is going but I really don’t feel like going to work tomorrow.

Restless and weary,

KITTY

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Day 8 of 33

You know, ending my night with anger is one of those things I don't like to do. Luckily, I'm not the one angry tonight, but I also hate it when you're angry before I sleep.  I slept a lot today. I woke up around 7 to you calling, and I was so happy to have you talk to me. When you fell asleep around 10am, I watched the dark screen for a little bit before passing out till 2pm myself. I didn't realize I was tired enough to want to sleep that long. I ate twice today only cuz you wanted me to. I studied and reviewed a few questions and a small portion of the book. About medium when it comes to trying to be productive.  I managed to clean dishes and be an overall bum today. I guess I needed it.  Feeling awkward, because you seem inconsolable...  Kitty

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Day 7 out of 33

Love is like a drug.  Love is so much like a drug. It comes int your life taking everything away from you, giving you all sorts of feelings that you want more of. And when it is away, you feel starved and shaky. Just like a drug addict in withdrawal. I have neither slept or eaten properly since you've left. The hunger pains grow weak and I wake often trying to find you. My hand gliding across the sheets to find yours only to be cruelly by the cold air in the room in the dead of night, and I am left eyes wide open staring up into the ceiling wondering where you are.  Today was a good Sunday with my family. Dad was chill all day, and we had a good long talk about what was going on with the people around us. I told him about you and JC's sandal conversation yesterday, and he laughed. I also told him a lot of other things, the longer I'm apart from my dad, the easier I feel it is for me to open up to him and for him to confide his feelings in me too. After church and lunch we headed to Best Buy and ended up getting Snyder a PS Vita and a new game. Dad spoils him too much but I always seem to see my siblings being spoiled more often when I'm not in the household. I hate listening to them always say, "I'll definitely pay dad back for this," and yet I never see anything to show for it. They don't try to pursue jobs or get better grades, nothing. There seems to be no incentive for them receiving the things they want. No drive or determination for them to do better.  Afterwards I talked to dad a little longer, and left with a small bag of pig goodies. Before then I told you about that odd message I got and while I'm glad that it seems to be clearing up, it only makes me appreciate more how we make up and forgive each other easily and often without large fights. Sometimes I'm more thankful for our small squabbles that allow us to talk things out and tell each other the little things we feel verses allowing all of it to build up and eventually bubble over and explode into a hot mess.  I came home and tried to relax and study, I also tidied up a bit. Pretty much cause I wasn't sure if another visitor was coming. But luckily it's just been me in my room. Peter outside as usual. And Kev and Train gone.  Though sleep desperately wants to touch my eyes since I've been up since 4am this morning. I'd rather wait for you to come home. There haven't been any pains all day luckily. Seeing your facial reaction to the Kindle was definitely a happy moment for me. :)  Ready to hold you and give you a big kiss, next month couldn't come any sooner, 

Kitty

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Day 6 out of 33

"How lucky am I to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard" - Winnie the Pooh Today I ended up having a decently fine day at work. Worked hard.. got socked in the jaw by an old lady and accomplished the day's tasks with ease. Later when I got home I realized as I was watching you sleep, I'm too lazy to cook. So I tried inviting JC out and he wasn't able to go eat at first, you know what happened afterwards and I ended up going to eat with Remhar and him. I had an enjoyable time talking with the two. It was some good much needed catch up time with those two considering every time we hang out now it's usually cuz there is some sort of activity going on. So to not have that going on and sitting down and talking about all sorts of things was nice. It helped me get out some much needed talk relief and just allowed me to catch up with them. Often times I don't get much one one one time with either of them so to at least have some one on one time with one of my favorite bros was really good. I feel like sometimes being able to talk at ease with some of my friends I'm able to release some built up tension and find some solace in their presence.  Sometimes I wish we talked that much and I know you know this. I know it'll get there someday, just not right this minute. But having these talks with others that are close helps strengthen my patience to wait for these sorts of talks with you.  We talked about all sorts of things from family, to the past, to how we felt about certain people at current. Sort of analyzing our lives and kind of giving feedback which I appreciate from JC a lot. I think it's good to have those talks every now and then.  We went to AFK E&E and afterwards drove to Southcenter to drop Rem and then headed to Walmart where we browsed the men's section and the electronics section. I almost bought the old school Ninja Turtles movies but couldn't find the third one which highly disappointed me. Oh well, another time, another place.  Thanks for encouraging me to get out and go chill, I enjoyed it tonight. I know I'm just gonna turtle up in the room and study for the next few days but it was good to get this breather in and allow myself to bond and chill, because it was definitely long over due for some one on one time to sit and talk.  Missing being able to tell you this kind of stuff in person, and talking with you until we sleep,  Kitty

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5 days out of 33

You might find this hard to believe but without you around I don't quite feel like leaving the apartment or the room unless it is really important. You know like my usual Sundays with family or if I need to get money or food or work. I just don't enjoy leaving. I'd rather curl up or study than go out and do something. It might change after PAX but I highly doubt it. I just need to focus on my exam, so I don't really want to go out. Besides, there is plenty of distraction here in the room that is free and only requires time. Better than going out and spending large amounts of money on gas and things I don't necessarily need right at this moment.  I'm not trying to restrict myself, I just feel more comfortable staying here at home than venturing out. I'm sure there will be a point in time after PAX when I feel like going out, but at this moment there isn't a reason for me to.  I worked just fine today, I've been getting awful hunger pains though lately towards the end of work. It's a bit worrisome but I'm not sure what to do aside from just taking a break and eating something. That just means though that when I come home I'm often not hungry and I don't want to eat. I guess that's just what sucks.  It was good talking to you today, thanks for getting up so early to answer my call and for staying with me. I'm sorry to have disturbed your sleep  Trying to finally get comfortable enough to rest,  Kitty

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I am a princess…

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Day 4 out of 33

29 more days to go, not sure how I feel. It was wonderful having you skype me for such a long time, even though a good majority of it was you sleeping. I still enjoyed it immensely. I studied hard for my exam just like you asked me to. Thanks for helping me motivate myself often. Sometimes I think if you weren't doing that I wouldn't know where I would be.  Makes me think of the first time I had to tell you I failed... You held me so tight that day, and the tears that I couldn't cry all day, finally fell in your arms. I was so disappointed, but some how in your arms, you telling me it'll be okay. You gave me hope. I can still remember you pressing my face into your shoulder and letting me cry. I'm So sorry.  I spent the rest of the day relaxing and reading after studying. I stopped at maternal studies, not sure I was ready to go into that. I'll continue it tomorrow.  Ready to work hard after work tomorrow, thank you so much for being there for me,

Kitty

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Lots of TRUTH here.

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Day 3 out of 33

I woke up this morning... and noticed I was 30 mins short of being able to see your face before you hung up after calling me at around 2:30am yesterday morning. I stayed in bed until 5:45am wanting to continue my awkward routine of never leaving the bed until the very last moment. I made it to work on time with a minute left to spare on the time clock before I officially had to be on the floor. Work was work as usual, made me sad to find that either a few had gone home or died while I was gone. 6 days gone from that place can change so suddenly. I wonder what it will be like after this month is over, will there be a lot of changes or a few? How will our relationship fare once you return home.  Everyday I miss you, I'm not sure if it's more or less, but at different times through the day when I realize you're not here or notice the quiet in the room. There is some heartache in my chest, I know I miss you.  When I came home from work, I had time to shower before heading to H-Mart and Fred Meyer with Kev and Train. I watched this quick interview with the World's Smallest Woman, she is 20 years old and is only 23 inches tall, I couldn't believe it. I only got into watching the interview because I noticed she was gonna be in the next American Horror Story series that is coming out. Train and I ended up finally buying that electric kettle, so I don't have to boil water as often for the milo and tea. What's funny is that our counter tops is slowly becoming full with appliances. I bought meat and some veggies, though to be honest I haven't been so hungry. Like I know my body is hungry, but I don't have the appetite to eat as much anymore. I'm trying my best to take care of myself, but it's hard when even though I wanna stuff my face, I can't even really feel like getting up and trying.  I'm doing my best to make progress in my book. I'm gonna try to dedicate a lot of time to it, tomorrow. I finished up one chapter this evening after a very long nap. I hadn't realized I was that tired. I bought croquettes and madelines for a small breakfast tomorrow, and left a small container of beef in the fridge to cook for myself for lunch.  I dunno why I'm still up, usually if you were here, we would be in bed by now, sleeping. Or if we weren't so tired, watching a movie and laughing together. I want to sleep, but it's like I can't, cause I'm waiting for you when I know I shouldn't.  Still wondering what it's gonna be like when you come home,  Kitty

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Day 2 out of 33

Day two, full of haircuts and family hanging out. Snyder the night before told me that the hair cut appointment was going to be at 11am. So I got up and outta the house by 10:15 to get there "on time". I end up calling Shyer telling her I'm ready and then she tells me that the appointment is at 3pm and that snyder probably hadn't told me. Bugger. ><; So I hung out in his room and ended up filling in the perler bead thing he was working on. It's so cool, I think I'll make at least a studio gibli one myself. That would be awesome.  Eventually I came home, back to the apartment, ate some leftovers with egg, and made rice again. I'll guess I'll stick to 4 cups... I suppose it'll last me a while, I don't think I'm going to be cooking a whole lot this next month... and if I do, someone is gonna have to join me for dinner. Probably Snyder...  I appreciate that you called so often today, and it's great to know you missed me dearly. I'm still puzzled that you don't feel like your home is home... perhaps that changed once you saw Noodle today, who knows.  I have work tomorrow so, I'll have to see you later. When you wake up again.  Missing you like crazy...  Kitty