Now we are lost somewhere in Outer Space

Dog & Cat Mom 22 Gay She/Her

[fighting-ghosts]

[itstheothergays]

Losing my dog has made me realize

How much I hate the night

Which is weird for me

Nights used to be my favorite time

As a teenager

I guess that just shows I am growing

As a human

I hate that it took losing two people

That I love

To realize this.

Nighttime gives me to much darkness

It’s like I’m tired

But my brain is like

‘No! Think of this. Cry. Be emotional.’

Which when I get like that

I cannot control

My emotions

I cannot regulate them

I usually require medicine to help

Calm down

It feels as though I am permanently exhausted.

My eyes feel heavy

Like I just could pass out at any time

Is this what extreme grief feels like?

I also know that if I have caffeine

Then my body will go into severe anxiety mode

It’s a never ending cycle

Will this become a permanent thing

Within my life

That I have to constantly fight?

The constant worry of

‘If I had fought more maybe

Just maybe

I could’ve held my baby for more than a year

Maybe I could’ve made my angel boy better

Maybe just made

What if what if

Why why why?’

Constantly rummage through my head

Sometimes, however

My mind is blank.

Blank as the sky on a cloudless day

Blank as a piece of paper not yet

Written on

Blank as anything really

Nothing going in

Nothing going out

So in essence

I hate the night

I hate the darkness

And the overwhelming level of grief

It brings.

[rainbowkarolina]

ABBY & HARPER in HAPPIEST SEASON

[aubrey-plaza]

Happiest Season (2020) dir. Clea Duvall

[rainbowkarolina]

KRISTEN STEWART & AUBREY PLAZA in HAPPIEST SEASON

[jo-constantine]

[aubrey-plaza]

Happiest Season (2020) dir. Clea Duvall

[domprovosts]

[itstheothergays]

I’m going to cry in ✨lesbian✨ for the rest of the season

[charitydingle]

HAPPIEST SEASON 2020 – dir. Clea DuVall

[behbuh]

Aubrey Plaza and Kristen Stewart in

Happiest Season (2020)

[mae-martin]

Happiest Season (2020) dir. Clea DuVall

[nevermind-i-forgot-whats-that-d]

Look I know I’ve always loved Aubrey Plaza in general but seeing her play the hot lesbian ex who’s a doctor and has impeccable taste in suit jackets is something I never knew I needed.

[booasaur]

Happiest Season (2020) - Abby and Harper

[caroldanversenthusiast]

i’m sorry but gay Aubrey Plaza looking this fine in ‘Happiest Season’ is all i can think about for the foreseeable future

[rainbowkarolina]

DANI & JAMIE in THE HAUNTING OF BLY MANOR

[lesbian-misandrist]

Me, driving to Mike Flanagan’s house at 3am to discuss how he pulled me in with terrifying ghosts and ended with giving me the best wlw love story and had me sobbing on my couch like a hot mess:

[rainbowkarolina]

DANI & JAMIE + kisses