I'm an angry rat

 4 months 

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okay Y’ALL 2019 is in 1 day are you ready for life to be BULLETPROOF????

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we got like 3 months of 2018 left and I still don’t know what I’m doing???

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the big s a d

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Sometimes I can’t believe that I feel so bad all the time. It took 1 thing to make me this way. 1 thought to destroy me. Just 1 thing destroyed the happiness I once felt for so long. I probably wouldn’t believe it if I had told myself that about 2 years ago. I am so undeniably weak.

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I wanna cry so badly but I can’t and besides, I have no one out there to help me. no one really cares about me.

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the only thing going through my mind is the song hallucinating by Elohim.

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My mood is falling out of a tree and hitting every. single. branch. on the way down

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My mood is just thunderstorms and hiding under blankets

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I feel like crying but that’s the last thing I’ll be able to do.

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Sometimes I just think about this person a lot and then I see them and it’s really great. They’re a really good distraction from all the bad things happening. I just wanna spend all my time with them. The only problem is that they kind of ignore me by spending a lot of time on their phone and will look at me occasionally but what’s almost it. I don’t know what to say to them without me thinking that they'll get mad at me. They won’t but I get worried about pointless things all the time. Also, I can’t keep a conversation going for that long.

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i wanna throw everything around me 50 miles away. (My computer just fucked up thats my reasoning)

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Yeehaw