Through the loophole
Should I stay? Should I leave? Would it be peaceful? Would it be worth it? I think, I think, I think that maybe if it all ended it would be bliss...
Am I wrong though? Or could I be right? Maybe my pain would end? What if this creates a void? What if it causes others some pain? But why would I think like this... Cause others pain??? That implies I at least have to matter to someone somewhere, or a bit to myself...
But why doesn't it feel like it?
Why would I want to end it all then if that's the case?
Why then do I feel the pressure even when they say "Life's not a race"?
I need a loophole to escape this loophole that I'm looking to put my head through...
But damn, this loophole is looking like the best solution right now.
One step closer to the edge of insanity towards the uncertainty. I am taking each breath, in and out slowly, this air is full of people's dreams that never made it, full of passion that has been sedated and the hopes that have become outdated.
Should I find a loophole to crawl through and start anew or should I just go through this loophole and rest by drawing my last breath???
Signed, Samuel OJ.















