Jimmie by Heart

[itzjusjimmie]

I love you Anh. I love you so much. But Im hurting so much Anh. I miss you so much Anh.

[itzjusjimmie]

I didn’t understand what it meant when people say, “If you love them, let them go.” But I finally do, because I’ve given everything I can emotionally and physically into this relationship we had. I saw the times we went through it was never as happy as I imagined we could. I went from really happy to see you to not really expecting much when I see you. I guess we weren’t meant to be and it hurts me so much because I wanted us to grow old together so bad. Four years and nothing changed the way you act with me. I’m not mad I’m just disappointed on how time never changed anything.

[itzjusjimmie]

You took every last drop of hope I had for us. Every dream of happiness was taken and manipulated by and I can see it so clear now. I never meant a damn shit to you.

[itzjusjimmie]

All I ever want is simple

I really just want to all the negative and drama to go away. I just want the simple life with you and truly fall in love with each other and understand how to respect each other. I honestly feel like there is not one day that we get to sit down and really listen to each other because we just expect the other person to do it without talking. I can cry but you can just look at me and tell me that all I do is cry. I can look at you and just wonder how come you can’t hold me like you once did. All I want is things to go back to the way it was. Where I can hold you and think about the future. Now all I can think of is how to talk to you so you don’t get angry at me. I just want you to treat me with respect even though. Maybe to you I don’t respect you enough, but to be honest I have given you more than what I would normally give to anyone else. I can say I love you with all my heart but I just need you to look at me and tell me the truth and talk to me like I am someone important in your life anh. I love you more than I can ever tell anyone or show anyone. I just want all the bad times to go away and I just want us to finally sit down and be happy. I know I’m not ever going to be perfect in your eyes, but everyday I start over again and hopefully my emotion does not take over like you always tell me anh. I just want to hold you in my arms like before and wake up with so much life and happiness. I don’t know how to bring it all back when everyday I feel like I’m just annoying you no matter what I say or what I do. No matter what happens I still love you the most amongst anyone I have met in my life anh.

[itzjusjimmie]

          Sometimes I don’t know why I try anymore. I really really need a try to give myself a break. Guys need to stop trying to ask me out and I need to stop trying to ask guys I like out. In the end...I’m the one that gets hurt... I just hate how I try so hard to care, I try so hard to make an imagination come to life. I try to make it seem like how it is in the stories. Because in reality thats now how love is. I just hate how I can’t find someone that will love me the way I love them. Just when I want to think that I don’t want to deal with it, someone tries to walk in my life. Thinking that it’ll be fun to fuck with my emotions. I’m a pisces...I am sensitive, I’m easily jealous, I’m clingy, and I also hate being easily attached. Its draining me, its killing me on the inside. Maybe someday it’ll happen when I can finally grasp the concept of what it is like to date, whats it like to keep someone’s attention, and whats it like to be in an everlasting relationship. But not today. Not when guys think I’m crazy. I’m too emotional attached. 

[itzjusjimmie]

It hurts...and I don't need to be reminded of why it hurts. I don't want it to keep hurting. I'm tired of all of it. What's the point?

[veryfunnymemes]

[gifson-net]

[unscrupulous-things]

He is too innocent for this world

[spiderfong]

I audibly gasped when the puppy looked into the camera

[raihsae-menai]

o-ohhh….. look…look at him… 

[itzjusjimmie]

I KNOW You’ve been trying, i know you’ve been wanting to talk. I just don’t know why. You didn’t feel the same before. You didn’t want it before. So why now, especially when I'm making it obvious I don't need you anymore to make me happy.

[foodffs]

LEMON GARLIC CHICKEN

Really nice recipes. Every hour.

Show me what you cooked!

[jimmielovesyou]

Don’t get me wrong, I love sex. But when it comes to someone I’m interested in, it is the last thing I want to be talking about after I get to learn and build something with them.

[itzjusjimmie]

Do I think I can love someone one day? Yes Do I believe someone will love me back as much as I will love them? No I don’t need or want to get myself into a love game again.

Some people think I’m just a low self confident person and think I’m insecure, but it’s not that. It’s the feeling of falling for someone and realize they end up not liking you. The feeling after you realize you have let someone be the reason why you’re smiling. Every smile activates a bad memory to every reason that smile is gone and heart aches.

[sandandglass]

[itzjusjimmie]

I will be the one.

-When you smile I want to be the one you're smiling about when someone ask who do you like. -When you fall I will be the one to catch you. -when you're hurt I will be the one to pick you up and carry you to the safest place. -when you cry, I will be the one to wipe away your tears and tell you everything will be okay. -When you're at your lowest times, I will be there cheering you on. -I will be there no matter what, as long as you're mine.

[kushandwizdom]

[hplyrikz]

Clear your mind here

[itzjusjimmie]

I wasn't always insecure, accumulation of disappointments and heartbreaks caused it. Sometimes insecurities are overwhelming, but it only happens if you like someone and you actually care to be jealous or afraid they will be talking to someone else. But everyone shows affection differently. You can't change the way someone loves but you can change their insecurity and have them believe in you. It's not something you can change over a few weeks, over time if you give them enough reason to trust you, insecurities will be gone. They will then believe in love again. No one wants to be insecure but i guess letting someone know more about your past and in hopes they will accept you are signs of weakness.