★~Ivy~ ★

ℝ𝕖𝕒𝕝𝕚𝕥𝕪 𝕤𝕙𝕚𝕗𝕥𝕖𝕣, 𝕣𝕖𝕓𝕝𝕠𝕘𝕘𝕖𝕣, 𝕠𝕦𝕒𝕥/𝕒𝕟𝕪 𝕠𝕥𝕙𝕖𝕣 𝕗𝕒𝕟𝕕𝕠𝕞𝕤 𝕚𝕤 𝕝𝕚𝕗𝕖 18 wlw

[ivyvalentino]

The darkness consumed me, waves floated in the soft wind, my body floated around in the thin air. Waves splashed against the vintage ocean floor- snaps of small crabs danced along the sand near side my bare feet. Salty wind blew my hair softly against my face-and for the first time in forever? I was free. Letting the patronizing darkness eat me alive until I fell into the graceful soft light.

[ivyvalentino]

-Heaven & Growing up-

You wake up, starting the day with a nice big bright light in the sky. Opening your first looks you see something so wonderful so inspirational, eyes gleaming with stars as you blink your eyes twinkle in the light. Waiting till night has shown, you start to imagine what Itd be like on your own. By now you’re over the sweet age of 10, everything seems so great and happy to you. Playing with your toys wheather that be cars or stars, sometimes even more. Throughout your stages in the savoring smell of life and air, tasting everything you wanna feel. Love passes onto you like a flowing train through the wind. At first your confused, sensual, wondering what this new feeling you have is in you. Your heart flutters each time you pass by a certain someone, waiting on hearing a ‘bing’ on your phone as if it’s your life support, ‘what is this feeling’ you ask yourself daily. All your friends got boyfriends but you? Youve never seen a boy in that feeling of emotion. When boys would ask you out at a young age, saying they wanted to go ‘play’ on the slides, wooden castle playground. You’d always turn them down and respond with, “ew, boys are nasty’’. Nasty as they seemed was no for-fit to the way they made you feel disgusted inside. Years and years pass by, taking a first swig of a burning sweet addicting taste of called ‘alcohol’. As a child you was told to never even let your curiosity run that far, as you’d go to hell seeing a scary thing Christians call a ‘Satan’. While they was on subject teaching about how bad everything was they said, “Girls should always fall for a man, as that’s what Jesus would want in order for you to get into a gate called “heaven”. Heaven? A. Magical place. You was called to as a child, memories of your. Head. Being tilted back into depths of water, that a preacher has blessed. Everyone cheered and Prayed around you as if you was Jesus himself, the moment was joyful and exciting to you. Wondering what more feelings and actions that filled with emotion would lead you too far on in life. More and more years pass, the internet swarms you with websites made for adults and kids. If that goes on with the websites being p0rn or as some adults censored the word as ‘corn’. Among more ‘popular’ websites a dating website has you jumping with excitement. Meeting a girl, yes a girl; you’d only be friends right? Hopefully at least. Passing after the date you two got and months after that, her ‘boy best friend’ came into your life. At first no such thought of it, until they started hugging certain ways and excluding you out of certain things. Breaking your heart, you went home crying your eyes out. Grabbing the scissors slicing your wrists, blood poured from the open wounds. That’s when you looked in the mirror, disgusted in your appearance. Wondering if you wasn’t pretty enough for the girl you used to call your love. Staring at the slim chub on your stomach, it made yourself ill, ill to the point you quickly darted over to the toilet throwing up ever meal you’ve ate since what felt like a week ago. Tears streaming your eyes, the wounds on your wrists stinging as you clung to the toilet for dear life. Wiping your mouth, you caved the numbness alcohol brought you in your teens. Getting up with a groan of tiredness and pain, walking all the way to your kitchen. Finding the bottles of wine and tequila, you normally kept when guests came over. Popping the cork out, downing them both as if you wanted to drown. The bitter taste of both made you mind hazy and your body numb. Something you craved to feel. Passing out on what you hoped was your couch considering you couldn’t even Stand properly. You knew there was no getting into heaven now…

[ivyvalentino]

“We’re like fire my love..”

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“Fire is a dangerous destructive.”

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“Burns like crazy, and with one little blow”

*The candle bows blows out*

“"It's gone...you can always relight it. But it will never be the same as when you first lit it."”

[ivyvalentino]

.You are my Raven.

Your smart. Your curious. Your protective.

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“You only like certain things-to the certain people in your life..If the room turns to dark you oddly are the darkness. You may-be loud but you’re loud enough to make the world around you silent when you want it to be.”

[ivyvalentino]

It’s only crazy if you make it seem crazy.

[teathattast]

wake up babe new tags dropped

[ivyvalentino]

I loved him, not his intentions/actions

[ivyvalentino]

I probably use tumblr wayyy more than any other app

[ivyvalentino]

I need pennywise so bad

[ivyvalentino]

Reddie is endgame.

[ivyvalentino]

Happy kinktober my slvts and whores

[wallsofparadis]

happy kinktober to those who celebrate

[ivyvalentino]

The universe knows it all.

Everything is always connected.

[naevisnova]

Your desired reality is only an awareness away

[ivyvalentino]

I just got called, “good girl” by my guy friend and my woman friend.

SO HERES HOW IT WENT

I was talking to my friends on a gc call on disc, and basically we all was flirting as a joke right? WELLL I told them I liked to be praised cs who don’t?? And I said “Yes mommy” to my woman friend. And she goes “good girl” MY BREATH HITCHED BRO-

And THEN not to soon after that, I said smt and my guy friend goes “good girl”

AGAIN MY BREATH HITCHED. By the way this was all texted in the group gc. So my guy friend deleted his message, but like I could just FEEELL the smirk raising off of him. As for the girl? She kept her message. But like - US THREE WAS HEAVILY FAKE? FLIRTING BRO.

[ivyvalentino]

Someone was born today while another died.

Someone took their first breath while someone took their last.

Someone was happy the whole day, while another was sad.

We all experience every day differently.

[ivyvalentino]

Overstimulate me till I’m in pure tears of pleasure