This is my stage now

“At least be so gair and respect my wish and let me rest here in peace. I don’t want to deal with you dickheads anymore in this forsaken live. I’m fine here and you should go out and suffer through this mess of a live that you made yourself a living hell.” he rampaged but wiht an amused undertone. Then he looked away and crossed his arms in front of hi chest. “And stop looking like a fangirly cheerleader. This is sick.” He would really loved to kick him and even set his foot into motion but Zack wouldn’t feel the pain anyway. Too bad, honestly. “And don’t blame it on me that you’re an idiot. You’ve been one before I found you. A giant one on top of it.”

“You sound like an old man.”, he stated without even exaggerating. “And if I don’t do anything reckless, we will never know what you sound like when you actually are an old geezer some day.” Zack still couldn’t be bothered to stand up, he always felt like these moments with Kaito were the only calm and peaceful times he had in life. True. in fact he really shouldn’t complain. He has made friends and maybe even a bit of a career as a dancer overseas, but what did it matter if he couldn’t share this with the man he always lo...nged for to be by his side?

“You can’t tell me it’s your wish to never properly touch me again.” This sounded like a joke to him, but he knew quite well what Kaito was thinking. “You worry too much, really.”

Dancing without you is like a broken pencil - pointless.... - @iwalnutbow

“Stop that bullshit, Zack. You know that you’re not dancing without me. Never. I’m always there. Watching, judging and scolding you for fucking up your steps. Like always.”

@iwalnutbow

“Don’t you dare doing anything funny, idiot.” he warned him. Yggdrasil might be tempting for him but Kaito would prefer staying dead instead of owning those bastards anything, not to speak about what Zack would have to give. But unfortunately it wasn’t too unlikely for him to try something like that. Then he huffed and stood up. “So basically you’re asking me to leave you alone so you can live your life? Fine by me if I don’t have to see your perm-suffering face anymore. This expression sucks a lot anyway.” Kaito looked down to Zack, completly aware that this wouldn’t work on the other anyway. “Shoo, Shoo, go away, dickhead. Me and my squirrels don’t want you here until you got your shit together.”

Yes, Zack was tempted to sell his very soul to Yggdrasil if it meant that Kaito would be able to walk the earth again. Maybe there still was a future for the two of them, he never gave up on that thought, as stupid as it may have been to even consider it as a possibility.

“You’re funny as ever.” His expression indeed lit up a bit, but still he shook his head. “But you still haven’t learnt how to lie to me. I know I still fancy you too much to let go of me.” There it was, a faint hint of his old self. Slowly he calmed down a bit, though that certainly didn’t mean he was less broken. Zack lifted his gaze to finally meet Kaitos’ eyes and gave him the most loving look he had.

“I know you’ll beat me up if I manage to resurrect you properly. But that’s worth it if it means I can properly touch you again. See, that’s how selfish you made me.”

Dancing without you is like a broken pencil - pointless.... - @iwalnutbow

“Stop that bullshit, Zack. You know that you’re not dancing without me. Never. I’m always there. Watching, judging and scolding you for fucking up your steps. Like always.”

@iwalnutbow

Why was that fucking idiot doing this to him? Kaito’s throat felt strangled and he looked away until he regained his composure again. The anger vanished as fast as it appeared. “Because you still live in the past. Always looking back and turning your back to the light of your future, shithead.” He sighed heavily and mildly frustrated with the man he cherished so much. “You can’t go on if you don’t want to move on deep in your heart. And don’t think you can lie to me. You never honestly tried because it feels like betrayal towards me. One step forward and five back. You walk like this. And you should really look for another best friend than a fucking tree. You need someone who slaps those dark thoughts outta your head every now and then.”

Once more Zack chuckled without actually being amused, even though he very well knew how much Kaito hated that. “After all this time you still seem to know me better than I know myself.” And on top of it he didn’t even wonder. “Of course it is betrayal, it doesn’t only feel like it.”, he tried to explain but wasn’t sure the other one would understand his reasoning. “You say yourself you’re always there. Always by my side. And I need to keep you that close, else I’ll go insane.” Maybe he was still a lovesick fool, but the times Zack cared about that were long gone. “That fucking tree will always be so much more than my best friend, because it is you. And trust me, I would pay any price to give your soul a proper body again.”

Dancing without you is like a broken pencil - pointless.... - @iwalnutbow

“Stop that bullshit, Zack. You know that you’re not dancing without me. Never. I’m always there. Watching, judging and scolding you for fucking up your steps. Like always.”

@iwalnutbow

That unnessecary joke made him angry and he clenched his teeth. How much he would had loved it to just whip him with one of his branches right in the face to get rid of that toxic grin. “This or you get the fuck out of that shithole grave you dug for yourseld so desperately to hide away and live a proper life like the man that I wanted by my side. Live the life that is denied to me, that I can’t live anymore, you little piece of emo shit. Goddamn, Zack, look at yourself and stop pitying yourself. Get over me and everything that happened. Life goes on for you so stop wasting it, unholy shit.” God, Kaito was angry now.

Zack couldn’t even have blamed the other one had he slapped him that very moment. “Do you think I haven’t tried that?”, he just whispered as a reply. “It’s been five years now, and here I am, you see?” Finally, he let go of the grip of his hair again that left a mess on his head, but he couldn’t care less. Heavily, his head sank back against the tree and his glassy eyes stared towards the sky without actually looking at anything. “I have tried to live. Tried to love. But in the end, the past always came crushing down on me.” For the very first time he felt like he was actually able to speak his mind to someone who understands him. Never could he have told all of this anyone, always forced to carry the baggage alone. “Does time for you feel the same as it does for me? Because you must have been damn lonely here, all of these years.” Gently he carressed Kaito’s hand with his thumb, before lifting it to his mouth to breath a kiss against transparent skin. “I don’t think I’ll ever get over you. On the outside, maybe, but not in my heart.”

Dancing without you is like a broken pencil - pointless.... - @iwalnutbow

“Stop that bullshit, Zack. You know that you’re not dancing without me. Never. I’m always there. Watching, judging and scolding you for fucking up your steps. Like always.”

@iwalnutbow

#bananabaronda #i'm not crying you're crying

There it was, the question he never wanted to answer because.. he simply had no satisfying answer for both of them so he turned his head around and looked up to the slightly clouded sky.

“I never asked about your past, Zack and you never did the same with me. We both know it was for a reason because the past shaped us and our beliefs. It still controls our way of thinking and our doings.” he sighed a bit because those words costed a lot of strengt. “The things that were important yesterday isn’t neseccary the same tomorrow and the day after it means nothing to you anymore.” Kaito really wasn’t able to anything else than describing the feeling he had back then and how he feels about it right now. Anything he would say now would destroy the other even more anyway so it should be the softest blow possible. There was just one thing that bothered him.

“But what makes you think that I left you? Aren’t I here? Still.”

Upon hearing all of his words he couldn’t stop shivering on the inside. Why had he even bothered asking? He should have known what the answer would be, and yet all he did was running voluntarily down the cliff which he knew he wasn’t able to climb back up.

Means nothing. The words pierced his heart, stung deeply, and he felt like he wasn’t able to breathe anymore. “Is that the price I have to pay for trying to blow you up?” A dry laughter escaped his lips. There literally was nothing funny about all of this. “Am I doomed to live as a psychotic madman who talks to the dead just because I was.. I am….”

He couldn’t finish his sentence, couldn’t speak any further. The hand on which his forehead lasted grabbed his hair and clenched to a fist. Of course he was alone. Of course Kaito had left him. And ther was nothing, nobody, to comfort him right now and tell him it was all just a dream, because it was not.

Dancing without you is like a broken pencil - pointless.... - @iwalnutbow

“Stop that bullshit, Zack. You know that you’re not dancing without me. Never. I’m always there. Watching, judging and scolding you for fucking up your steps. Like always.”

@iwalnutbow

And still he just stood there, letting Zack get rid of a bit of the immense frustration and pain that he was carrying around unnoticed by the most people around him. Kaito would have noticed it right away…. It took some time until Zack calmed down a bit and maybe he was able to feel that Kaito sat down next to him. He looked at him closely before he actually raised his voice.

“What do you really want to hear, Zack?”

Zack sank to the ground himself, leaning back against the massive tree, and buried his face in one hand. Nobody, not even random strangers, should see him like that. His other hand reached out to where Kaito’s hand was supposed to be and tightened his grip to not allow him to leave once again.

“For once I want you to be honest...”, he started talking with a think voice. “Why have you left us - me? What were you chasing that was so much more important to you?”

Dancing without you is like a broken pencil - pointless.... - @iwalnutbow

“Stop that bullshit, Zack. You know that you’re not dancing without me. Never. I’m always there. Watching, judging and scolding you for fucking up your steps. Like always.”

@iwalnutbow

For the moment Kaito just stood there and watched him, his eyes wandering over that pale face. It was almost as if the man in front of him was a whole different person by now. There was no reason to become angry because Kaito simply knew better. He knew Zack better. So he just stood there, let him rage and being upset and let him blame him and Kaito also knew that this was just the beginning and that Zack had a lot more things he had to spit out.

Because both of them knew: If the Kaito in front of Zack stopped caring… it was only Zack who stopped caring in the end.

“Don’t you have anything to say in your defense?” His words were much more quiet now. “Are you just taking all of my accusations and prove me right...?” His voice cracked.

“We could have been so much, Kaito. But you became a beast hungering for power. An egocentric bastard.” With full force he punched the giant tree next to him. A bit of tree bark crackled down, slightly colored in deep red blood. But the pain in his chest was so much stronger than the pain in his knuckles.

Dancing without you is like a broken pencil - pointless.... - @iwalnutbow

“Stop that bullshit, Zack. You know that you’re not dancing without me. Never. I’m always there. Watching, judging and scolding you for fucking up your steps. Like always.”

@iwalnutbow

“You know how tasteless and outright stupid these words sound coming out of your mouth?” Zack flickered a bitter smile. Long gone were their good times, happiness out of reach so that he barely was able to remember what it felt like.

With one hand he reached out to grab the wine red collar of his former team leader, but pulled away. He would never be able to hurt him physically the way Kaito had hurt him emotionally. Gritting his teeth he turnt his head away and clenched his fist. “You say you’re there, always, but in fact you stopped caring, didn’t you?”

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@soulsbetrayed

Tsukasa faced end of the world scenarios time and time again It wasn’t new in the least to see the chaos in Zawame. Taking photos of the gnarled tangle of vines the wandering Rider tilted his head. His outfit was that of a reporter no doubt who’d be assassinated if discovered. “Eh, are you worrying about me by any chance?” he asked as he held out the camera, a magenta Blackbird Fly twin lens camera, carefully taking a photo of the Beat Rider.

“Don’t worry too much yeah. If something comes after me I’m prepared.” he replies in a rather undisturbed manner. “I’m here for a reason, I just need to find out why I’m here.” He wasn’t wrong when he said that since where ever he went there was a purpose. Unfortunately for Zack he couldn’t feel much for the man who succumbed to Helheim Sickness. He was unable to feel much but when he does it hits hard.

The raven furrowed his brow upon seeing the stranger take photos of the scene while staying completely calm, and he didn’t yet know what to make out of this behavior. Was he a scientist working for the enemy who was ordered to document the catastrophe for future research? Was he some kind of reporter? After all, in the TV reporters often seemed to be stupidly free of fear. Whatever the reason was, Zack was inclined to not let him go so easily.

“You need to find out why you’re here?”, he wondered, stepping towards the other man and stopping in front of him. “Who sent you here?” That was the real major question.

As if he just now realized, his eyes widened and a faint smile crossed his lips. “I’m Zack, by the way. I’m sure what you have just witnessed must be confusing. Let me guide you to a safe place.” With his flat hand between Tsukasas’ shoulders, he carefully guided him towards the streets, intending to head to Baron headquarters.

#soulsbetrayed

『 𝓭𝓪𝓷𝓬𝓮 𝔀𝓲𝓽𝓱 𝓶𝓮

𝓼𝓮𝓽 𝔂𝓸𝓾 𝓯𝓻𝓮𝓮 』

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#random

Headcanon Time

Kaito and cats

Kaito really loves cats but cats don’t like him back and so he got really frustrated over pets with time passing by.

@theheartsofheroes

“I’ll…consider it,” He said quietly. He had thought about leaving Zawame, they had relatives further north but never spoke to. He couldn’t really go to them, they wouldn’t understand.

“If you ever need help, hit me up, okay?” He tried to sound reassuring, but didn’t quite know if it worked. “One of these days, I’d really love to dance with you.” These at least were his honest feelings. In case Micchy actually managed to get a hold of his life and morales again, he truly would love to share a stage with him. That is, when his leg is healed and his soul is ready to dance again.

@theheartsofheroes

“That sounds nice…going away…” There was something in his voice, something that could have implied darker thoughts. “I could…but I don’t know if I can…or want to.” This was the longest conversation he’d had in a while. Even conversations with Takatora were short and held few words, though his brother tried.

Of course Zack noticed the strange tone in his voice, something off he couldn’t quite put into words, so he kept it in mind for now without actually pushing him into the direction to say something more about that. “If it sounds nice, why not simply doing it?” Sure, it sounded easy when talking about it but got harder the more you had to plan. “Even if it’s just for a while. A change of scenery could be exactly what you need as well.”, he suggested.

@theheartsofheroes

“I’m still figuring that out,” Micchy replied honest fir the first time in a while. He wouldn’t tell Zack about the therapy appointments. He didn’t want to be seen as that far broken.

Zack would be the last person to laugh at anyone for getting professional help after all that they’ve been through. But he also wouldn’t force anyone to talk more than they were ready to. “I’m still figuring it out myself.”, he commented truthfully. Perhapy that alone would help Micchy already; to know that he’s not the only one, as obvious as it may seem. “I don’t even know if I will stay in this city. Or in this county. I don’t know if I can.” The faint smile on his lips turned bitter with these words.

@theheartsofheroes

Micchy flinched at the contact and took a step back. “I’m…I can’t…” He shook his head.

He couldn’t what? Forgive himself? Let them forgive him? Micchy didn’t know for sure. All he knew was that he wasn’t ready to face the dance teams again.

“Sorry.”, Zack simply stated and let his hand sink down again. Of course he didn’t intend to be pushy, but sometimes he couldn’t help. “Then tell me, what do you intend to do now?”, he asked carefully, his head turning towards the dancers again. Watching them having fun was really delightful. “Any plans on what to do with your life?”

@bananabaronda

A really faint and fairly bitter smile rushed over his lips just before he sighed. His eyes wandered over the memorial wall behind him, a good opportunity to avoid Zack’s gaze after all. Just when the other threw the tin over he turned around in the last second and caught it casually. “Not really. Mainly here for another set of clothes and a shower.” he answered defensively. Kaito wasn’t too sure why he was so afraid of letting Zack close but he realized that his panic was getting stronger every time they meet. Keeping him at bay always had been the best solution to all of his problems. Kaito opened the tin and took a sip of the cold coke. Even the coke tasted better here and for a second he closed his eyes. “You better don’t tell anyone you saw me here. It never happened, alright?”

With a splish he opened the tin, leaned his head back into the nape of his neck and enjoyed the cold drink that would hopefully cool down his mind again as well. The veins of his well trained neck clearly showed with every sip he took, and his whole body was still shimmering from sweat. “I’m sure a proper bed would do your body a favor.”, he slightly dared to talk back to him while grabbing one towel to throw over his shoulders. Kaito knew where everything was stored, so why bother tossing him one as well? “You look awfully uptight.” That wasn’t even joking. Kaito’s whole posture let a well trained eye like Zack’s assume that he had slept on hard ground for the past few nights. Walking past him towards the showers which he urgently needed himself, he stopped next to him without looking at him now. Hair was covering his eyes and laying a shadow over half of his face. “I’m not telling anyone under one condition.” Second talk back within two minutes. Zack didn’t feel especially couraguous today and his heart pounded heavily, but maybe this was the only chance he would ever get. “You will visit me here more often. Deal?” He knew he sounded selfish and for the time being he hated himself for that, but it was better than to completely lose track of Kaito. Maybe one day he wouldn’t return anymore at all. Like this, he would still have a chance to bring him back eventually.