I will be ever so slender

My name is Hope. This is my little world, my little escape. This is the hole in which I find myself falling back into the pits of an eating disorder. This is my only way to communicate about it. If you have a question, feel free to ask~

[pathologising]

[iwillearnit]

Tonight, I sat in my car for (I honestly don't know how long) with the engine running and garage door closed. I'm tired... so very tired...

[lovebalm]

god im reading a text about romance fiction (especially targeted at young adults) for class and one sentence in it literally made my brain explode because ive been thinking about this kind of stuff too, how “Many people wouldn’t fall in love if they’ve never heard about it before.” and like…imagine there was no ideal/overaccentuated image of love and romance painted in postmodern mass media….how would we love? would it be purer? more authentic? what would we do differently? would we fall in love at all if we werent constantly being fed an ideal concept of love as the norm in mass media? like what is a natural process of human feelings and what is just a projection of how we want to love and want to be loved based on what we’ve seen on tv and read in books etc? in this essay i will

[c0ntemplations]

“Are you alright? I know it can get lonely sometimes when you wander in your own mind. I know you worry sometimes that no one will ever be as curious about you as you are about them.”

— (via c0ntemplations)

[letmebethinsblog]

[skinbonesandana]

I miss being skinny :(

[openmindeddating]

Newbies.

[brok-envessel-deactivated201809]

“You don’t know what you’ve put me through. Do I seem right when I speak to you?”

— Hank Compton What You’ve Put Me Through

[penicillium-pusher]

my counselor: how are you doing?

me: good, how are you?

my counselor: good, what brings you in today?

me: im doin real bad karen

[bernerstahp-deactivated20210328]

Them: I love romantic girls!

Me: Oh, you misunderstand- I’m a Romantic girl. I’m only interested in ghosts, Nature, and how the Industrial Revolution is crippling my spirit.

[staythenightandbeinlove-blog]

“Being cheated on is the worst feeling ever. You forever have this constant worrying in your mind that you’re being cheated on. They may promise you that they will never cheat on you but you can’t believe them because you were cheated on. That person ruins your trust with everyone.”

—

[parentlesspositivity-blog]

You are not your mother.

No matter how much you look like her.

Talk like her.

Or other have eyes like hers you aren’t her.

You can move past her abuse someday.

It’s going to be okay.

[thin-encounters-myjourney]

Sometimes I lay in bed and wonder why im doing this, why im in that constant cycle of eat starve eat starve, why I cant just be normal and not look at food and be overwhelmed by the thought of how much fat,sugar, calories are in it, sometimes I envy other girls, I envy them not for their looks but those girls that eat anything they want and never gain a pound,I think back to when I had so much power over food,when I diddnt have a care in the world about food, but food has power over me now and that will stay with me forever…

[adoreslim]

tips for people new to ana/fasting

• leave • leave • get help before it’s too late • leave • delete this app • LEAVE

[venuzdelmonixo]

One day

I’ll become a thinspiration.

I promise myself.

[jamwich]

Y'know, you could just make up accents in dnd. Tried to give ur character an Australian accent and failed? Well, there is no Australia in this fantasy universe, but there is conceivably a settlement of people who all speak in an accent which sounds, to our ears, like really bad Australian.

What I’m saying is just use the worst fuckong voices for all ur characters and if u get called out on then just say it’s how people talk in fricking green-mushrooms or wherever ur character comes from. Make your party suffer.

[ana-makemeperfect]

Does anyone get ‘flare ups’ of their ED. Like one week you can be fine with eating whatever foods you like then the next you can’t even look at food from the fear of gaining.

Or am I just a fake hoe?