QJR

He/him || 30+ || neurodivergent || mentally ill || queer || trans ||

[iwilljustletyoudown]

*pokes my head out of the sand*

I am so tired of living in an attention economy. I am tired of the humiliation rituals demanded of us as a way to "earn a living", as though life is something to be earned instead of a happenstance of biology and timing. I'm so fucking tired of the "I got mine" people pulling the ladder up behind them. I'm tired of trying to exist safely as a trans person because genuinely even in a "blue state" it's not inherently safe, bigots and 'phobes are everywhere. I'm tired of being on high alert all the time. I'm so tired of going to events with my husband or our friends and being worried about being a) clocked and then b) harassed/assaulted. I was saying to said husband just the other day - the fag part is fine in this state, but the trans part is still iffy and dangerous.

This is a very long winded way to say I'm raising money for my top surgery as a way to

a) keep me safe

b) alleviate the dysphoria

c) help keep my mental health out of the shitter.

If it would entertain you to see me do a silly dance, I'm on TikTok as @ QuinnHasADHD and I'm doing a silly dance every day until I get the Yeetus the Teetus funded. Or you can just click the gfm link below.

Donate to Help Quinn get Top Surgery, organized by Zach Upton

Hi, I'm Quinn. I'm 30-something transmasculine and looking to raise money for my top surgery. I … Zach Upton needs your support for Help Qui

[swiftielr]

You look like taylor swift in this light. We’re loving it. @taylorswift @taylornation

[evermoredeluxe]

https://twitter.com/jackantonoff/status/1789364002272780486

donation link in jack’s post

[cages-boxes-hunters-foxes]

i'm pavlov's dog and surprise song still isn't next

[cages-boxes-hunters-foxes]

give me back my girlhood it was mind first vs. I’m pissed off you let me give you all that youth for free… the whole idea of something being taken vs. something being given but they both have somewhat similarly devastating consequences. I can’t imagine what it was like standing and staring at this guy she thought she was going to marry and seeing flickering mosaic pieces of all her previous traumas coming back bit by bit

THANKS I HATE IT

[belladonnaprice-deactivated2025]

[iwilljustletyoudown]

I genuinely believe TTPD has done more for me than a year of therapy ever did.

(@verytamenow in the background: yeah, because you lied to your therapist through your teeth, and were doing virtual therapy where your shitass now ex-husband could hear you)

TW for discussion of mental health, personal family stuff, and SA under the cut

He has a point. Because TTPD gives me a framework to actually be honest with myself about a great deal of things even if they weren't what Taylor meant when she was writing and recording this album.

The Black Dog in particular has given me a way to reflect on how I feel after being ghosted by and subsequently ghosting my entire family. "I just don't understand/how you don't miss me" brings me to tears every time I listen to the song because how does my dad not miss me? How is the last face to face conversation we ever had him telling me he wouldn't help me and to beg my (absolutely unhinged) landlady to let me keep renting from her? How is the last communication we had his email telling me that he believed me when I was 18 and said I hadn't been raped, even after I had laid out exactly what happened and why I hadn't said anything for 13 years (spoiler - because if I had admitted to myself at 18 that what had happened was in fact rape, I'd have killed myself), and him telling me that "[I've] always been a pathological liar and a storyteller" and that he no longer believes a word out of my mouth. I truly *do* hope it's shitty in whatever version of a neighborhood pub fits my dad.

This feeling that the majority of people I've ever been close to has been subtly or outright warned away from me is reflected back to me in The Albatross. My experience as a queer person shines through on But Daddy I Love Him.

There is so much of Taylor's mess in this album and it's such a mirror to my own messes and every listen through is more processing but less weight on me. And that's the painful magic of this album - the way she's still a mirrorball, but this time allowing us to truly see her pain and her mess reflected back to us. I don't know, man. This might be the album I treasure the most.

[diamondseaside]

brb gonna get a lobotomy

[thisisctrying]

on a heavier note re: the manuscript I’m thinking about “he said since she was so wise beyond her years everything had been above board” vs “you said if we had been closer in age maybe it would’ve been fine” 🙂

[speaknowtaylor]

the peaked at high school girls who have cosplayed being a swiftie for a year are having a hard time comprehending ttpd lyrics and it's sending me. taylor swift is for the nerds, artists and daydreamers you bullied in school. you wouldn't last an hour in the asylum they raised me, the world is healing

[always-rolling-my-eyes]

I can’t help but be reminded of this right now 👀

[tayloralison]

i want money AND someone who wants my company

[lookliketaylorswift]

what i think this album did was separate people who treat taylor as taylor swift the human vs taylor swift the brand

[folkloregirlfriend]

last kiss // the black dog

[cages-boxes-hunters-foxes]

Ugh I’m thinking about how we’ve always said that killa handles her with so much care and gentleness and how much more sense all of it makes after ttpd

i also have not stopped thinking about this

[nocompassnosign]

i don’t know if this is anything but you know all the football imagery in the alchemy? what else happens in football stadiums? eras tour. and we joked all fall that eras tour was Barbie’s dream house and football was the mojo dojo casa house. so what if the alchemy we don’t need to fight is maybe our relationship as fans to Taylor.

“I haven’t come around in so long but I’m coming back so strong” she hasn’t toured since rep and she missed us.

“Hey, you, what if i told you we’re cool? That child’s play back in school is forgiven under my rule” she addresses the listener directly here, as she does in other spots in the album but specifically in but daddy i love him where she grapples with outsiders (and fans) judging her. Here she’s saying ok back to you, we’re good. Under my rule it’s all forgiven.

“Cause the sign on your heart said it’s still reserved for me” what do we do every night on tour? 🫶🏼 we’re always hearts opened for her, regardless of all the critic and push back we give her. Idk

[ilostyou]