1: What does their bedroom look like?
Toki’s room is small, since he shares a little apartment with his mom. His furniture is really basic; the room is pretty sparse in terms of decor. He probably has up some poster of an action movie or fighting game that his mom got for him. He has shelves but not a lot of books; just some fitness magazines and scattered issues of manga anthologies like Weekly Shounen Jump, some video games, and some stuff he’s probably had since he was a kid, like action figures of robots and miniature build-it-yourself plane models and stuff, and random trinkets like a wood puzzle and a weird modern looking alarm clock.
Later on he might also have some weights and fitness bands on the floor or somewhere he can easily and frequently access them.
2: Do they have any daily rituals?
He sorta plays it by ear every day. If he feels like doing hygiene stuff, he’ll do it. If he feels like getting ready for school, he will, though sometimes he’ll get ready and then not feel like going. (Eventually he starts forcing himself to be hygienic and go to school whether he feels like it or not.) One thing for certain is that he’ll always check his hair real quick and either freshly gel/spike it up or just… rely on yesterday’s styling and just kinda move it around till it looks passable. And if he really needs to wake up, he’ll splash water on his face.
If he’s cutting class, he won’t stay home. He’ll find some place to go kill time/loiter.
Evenings are a toss up. Not much for rituals, but the stuff he does often would be bathe, nap, stargaze, stare at his mask and think about stuff, work out… Eventually he takes up running some miles at least once every day, at no particular time.
3: Do they exercise, and if so, what do they do? How often?
Toki doesn’t actively start working out until he really accepts the responsibility of fighting shadows. Before then, the closest thing to exercise would be walking everywhere he goes, and occasional fist fights lmao?? Once he starts working out, he lifts weights and does push ups and sit ups and various other floor routine type stuff (whatever he can do in his own room) and goes out for runs of increasing duration. He gets in some kind of exercise every day, usually evenings. (He likes sleeping far too much to get up early to work out before class.) Sometimes he counts fighting shadows as his workout for the day, because that can really leave him without the energy to do more exercising. Same with banging his boyfriend.
4: What would they do if they needed to make dinner but the kitchen was busy?
With just Toki and his mom at home, this doesn’t really happen, but hypothetically… if cooking is happening but not for him, he’ll slip in to find some form of grab-and-go edible… or he’ll just wait. Lay around and feel vaguely grumpy. Toki cooking is pretty rare anyway though. He can probably only make really simple stuff, like too-salty almost-burned pretty-much-edible fried rice.
5: Cleanliness habits (personal, workspace, etc.)
Toki is a lazy teenage boy about hygiene. He gradually gets better about everything. When he starts bleaching his hair, he starts taking better care of it and styling it too. When he hits it off with Sho, he starts being a bit cleaner and eventually even caring about cologne and stuff. (Probably to match Sho’s cleanliness a little.) And when he starts working out, he likes bathing both for relaxing and washing the sweat away, so he does that daily if he can.
Toki’s room is almost never completely tidy, but he always at least tosses things in the general area where they belong, so it doesn’t get out of control either. So there might be clothes on the floor near his closet and laundry bin, papers and magazines and sometimes food packages around his table. He will clean up, even if he just does a shoddy job of it, if he knows someone is coming over. His bed’s a mess because he sleeps in it, hangs out on it, and naps in it all the time. He’s not one for proper workspaces. He’ll take the task to the proper place like a table or whatever, but he’s good to settle with whatever space he has, messy or not, and if he really needs more room, he’ll just kind of shove stuff out of the way.
6: Eating habits and sample daily menu
He doesn’t think too hard about eating. He just goes for what’s convenient or available. He definitely can’t be assed to prepare food for school, so he probably buys something packaged or brings leftovers every day. His mom doesn’t have time to cook much either, so there’s probably not a lot of fresh stuff in their house. Processed food all day \o/ He doesn’t eat very healthy at all, even after he starts working out. But when he’s with Sho, he probably ends up eating better because with Sho, that’s what’s available.
A sample day… probably just yesterday’s rice maybe with some seasoning like furikake for breakfast, some packaged bread thing from the school cafeteria for lunch, and maybe like…rice and cold instant curry from like two days ago for dinner. Add some tea if he feels slightly less lazy.
7: Favorite way to waste time and feelings surrounding wasting time
Oh god. He probably thinks almost everything he does is a waste of time. Going to school. Walking. Reading. Playing games. Napping. Always “bored,” always “killing time.” He really has a terrible sense of purpose/motivation. Once he awakens to his persona and figures out wtf it all means and what he’s supposed to do, his mindset starts to shift, he finds things to do that DO have purpose, and he starts to evaluate the stuff he does. At that point, then he’ll like to kill time mostly as a means of relaxation between doing other stuff. And he'll think of entertainment as separate from actually wasting time. Even with "idle" activities like stargazing, he'll have more to think about instead of just absentmindedly laying around feeling like it's all pointless.
8: Favorite indulgence and feelings surrounding indulging
Omg Sho the answer is Sho. SHO'S PROBABLY A HUGE GUILTY PLEASURE FOR HIM not even just sexually lmao but like, because Sho is...someone other than his OWN MOTHER who really cares about him and will engage him and love him, it makes him wanna spend lots of time just basking in that. He has a whoooole spectrum of feelings about Sho which can make him really contradictory but...yeah. He loves to be spoiled by Sho but he doesn't like to be spoiled, so he gets really tsun about it all.
Generally, he's pretty self indulgent in that he lets himself slide a lot. He doesn't have a lot of discipline so he indulges a lot by just doing whatever he wants. But, he has a sense of guilt toward it too, so it's not even the most pleasant indulgence when he does something like cut class.
It's all kind of dull until he starts to assign value to the things he does. Then, he's able to enjoy indulgences, work for them, be grateful for them...but he stays pretty quiet/humble about it.
He'd say that's for girls. And kabuki. He doesn't understand it and has no perception of how much time/effort/skill it takes, nor what an art it can be.
10: Neuroses? Do they recognize them as such?
Toki is a pretty simple guy and not prone to anxieties or mental disorders. I guess the closest thing would be his lack of a sense of self-worth, and his contradicting thoughts which cause him to struggle with expressing his honest feelings. As for recognizing those things...he's so often confused about what he wants or feels, he wouldn't doubt there's a thing or two wrong with him, but he doesn't grasp it at all. He doesn't like to think too hard about stuff. I'm probably going to be saying that a lot.
Another thing might be his dependence on Sho. He loves Sho a lot, and Sho has brought out the best in him and driven him to improve, which is great, but at the same time, Toki idealizes Sho immensely. He pretty much has an obsession with Sho and feeds on him for motivation, appreciation, validation, direction... More and more his emotions and actions stem from Sho...the perfected Sho in Toki's mind. Deep down, Toki comes to feel like Sho can do no wrong...even if he does little things that make Toki yell at him a lot, Toki gets such a huge high from Sho that it's all just positive, and he just...needs Sho...too much.
11: Intellectual pursuits?
Haaa. He doesn't have the patience for studying or reading much. He pursues knowledge about things he likes and can understand. Anything that's too academic, the kinds of disciplines that only get more complex as you work your way through layers and layers of academia...he can't stand that stuff. He prefers knowledge that is immediately logical, sensible, direct, useful. He only wants to know what he needs to get by. And occasionally to explain some of his "why"s.
He probably likes sci-fi novels with great interwoven moral and political and social themes that... don't really reach him... but at least the story was interesting. 8) But more so when he was younger. He probably doesn't read much of anything except comics anymore.
13: Sexual Orientation? And, regardless of own orientation, thoughts on sexual orientation in general?
Now here's a topic he'll avoid at all cost. <:') As a kid, he probably doesn't particularly care for girls, (nor anybody for that matter because what is friendship) but he probably imagines he might marry him a honey later in life, cause...that's what boys do when they grow up, right? And then he learns about sex, and learns that girls are sexy, and he ought to want to have sex with girls, and all that. But, other than that he wouldn't think much of sexuality.
Then he gets with Sho and then starts the weird conflicting ideas. He has a terrible aversion to considering himself gay, but he hasn't really been into any girls romantically. Only sexually, like in porn mostly haha. Enough to consider himself straight, I guess. So when he gets with Sho and likes it, romantically and sexually and the whole deal, he's kind of like...wtf. because he won't be caught looking at porn of guys and he never wanted to bang a dude before, let alone hold hands and text all day. He tries not to think too hard about that stuff so he probably wouldn't have come to a decision on what he identifies as, but he could be pansexual (not that he would know what that even means) in that he fell for Sho with no regard for gender, but just because of everything that Sho is to him. In his head all that matters is he loves and needs and wants Sho. So he doesn't even need a stated "sexual orientation" because... he has Sho.
As for in general...as implied earlier, he probably grew up with a socially conditioned notion that LGBTQ and the like are just a weird little minority that won't ever have anything to do with him, and that he does not want to be a part of. He's learned to be offended if someone implies that he's gay, and be a little disgusted if others are non-cis/heterosexual, and all of that...but Toki kind of doesn't care about anything so he won't go out of his way to be hateful or anything. He'll just think it's weird and maybe kinda gross but to each his own.
14: Physical abnormalities? (Both visible and not, including injuries/disabilities, long-term illnesses, food-intolerances, etc.)
Toki just has that scar on his hairline. Otherwise, nothing physical of note. He generally doesn't get sick too often. He's awfully allergic to cats though. He mostly gets congestion. Runny noses everywhere. And if he gets scratched, there will be hives. No food allergies that he's discovered, though he's not a very adventurous eater to say the least.
15: Biggest and smallest short term goal?
God this is kinda hard. Depends on where he's at in life. Well, once he's with Sho and fighting shadows, his biggest short term goals would be stuff like getting better exam grades and little fitness goals like visible muscle growth and like. staying alive while fighting shadows lmao. And small ones would be dumb like telling Sho he loves him and stuff <:')
16: Biggest and smallest long term goal?
Ahhh biggest long term goal is to eradicate the shadows!! With Sho at his side! ;w; This is what he fights for, trains for, puts his life on the line for. He awakened to this persona thing and from there he eventually figured out that the purpose of it is for him to save the world from this threat. He doesn't know much about it, but he hopes to figure out that stuff along the way, too. And make mama proud of him in his normal life, too! Smaller long term goals...well, a lot of things are smaller than saving the world hehe. But he wants to graduate high school and he'll eventually figure out that he wants to become a cop. And be together with Sho which for him is maybe actually a big goal and not a small one because HE'S VERY IN LOVE RIGHT NOW......
17: Preferred mode of dress and rituals surrounding dress
Toki is a comfy mofo, and of course he comes to really like athletic wear, the flowy movable stuff that is cool in summer and warm in winter and always gives his body breathing room. He doesn't have a terribly good fashion sense, but his style can be described as relaxed urban. One of his favorite pieces to wear is his red jeans. He wears pretty muted colors otherwise. Not a whole lot of rituals for him; it's all about being comfy with a somewhat average standard of having to look presentable.
Being with Sho probably prompts him to amp up his awareness of style a bit, but it might be a while before he starts to actually change how he dresses to reflect that. He probably remembers very clearly any time Sho compliments (or makes ANY kind of comment on) what he wears and is embarrassingly conscious of that ahahah. Sho is so hot and stylish that it is just one more way that Toki feels unworthy of him so...he wants to improve... He even tries to wear his school uniform more properly.
Lychee juice!! And fruit juice in general. He probably has a couple favorites that he always buys from vending machines.
19: What do they think about before falling asleep at night?
SHO. FRICK. ALWAYS SHO. HE JUST LAYS IN BED MULLING OVER WHAT HE AND SHO DID OR TALKED ABOUT TODAY. Hell, he's probably texting Sho until he falls asleep. Or actually in Sho's arms. He is massively infatuated with Sho, and he doesn't have a lot of other friends so... unless he really has something big to worry about, it's like. boyfriend time. He probably also thinks about shadows especially if he fought that day. If he's sleeping alone, he probably has a bit of uneasiness/tension kinda leftover that might give him nightmares.
20: Childhood illnesses? Any interesting stories behind them?
The first time child!Toki got really sick after dad left, mama had to go to work, telling herself he'd be fine at home just sleeping. But while she was at work she got so worried that she cried and they sent her home and when she got there he was sitting on the toilet waiting for her to help him wipe his bum. He would have waited all the way until she got home from work but other than that he was fine and not even bedridden, just had a little cold and a poopy butt and no daddy and that was what she cried and left work early for. It's that story that she tells everyone. That story Toki never wants her to tell and she always tells it. And laughs so hard. Every time..... Toki dies inside. Even tho he was probably like 3 at the time.
Other than that there's his scar.
God umm. HERE WE GO. Turn-ons. DIRTY TALK omg it embarrasses him so much and makes him feel shameful and gross in a way that makes everything seem a lot more erotic. For him, that feeling kinda goes with anything somewhat exhibitionist or explicit though. He's not into doing the talking (he's not very creative with words) but he likes hearing it and he might try to respond sometimes. Tickling the cartilage of his ear; that can include licking or kissing or even just whispering/breathing on his ear, it's just sensitive so subtle/gentle sensations there make him shiver. Ah, same with the area right between his hipbones, like about where the elastic band of his boxers would rest. Cause if you're touching him there, it's like...almost there, YA DIG? A somewhat teasing feeling. He really likes whispering/soft speaking, it feels really private and close and secret. He doesn't mind a little noise though, once...things have reached that point... He likes being able to hold onto the person, like to wrap his arms around their shoulders or hang on somehow. Or being held. Even being held DOWN, if not embraced. It feels kind of scary and impersonal and out of control if he's just like...GETTING FUCKED and not...feeling grounded or stable in some way if that makes sense. Teasing in general really riles him up!! He lovehates having someone try to push his buttons, like...just the attention makes him kinda excited and embarrassed, and the denial of gratification makes him want it more. He likes being built up slowly, gradually driven to the point that he can't hold it all in anymore. There's a certain level of shame and embarrassment that massively turns him on but then if you go too far beyond that he really dislikes it. He kinda likes feeling like the person knows exactly what to do with him, being at their mercy just a bit. He really likes massage... It's like appreciation for his hard-earned muscles :') And it's like a normal physical pleasure that can easily transition into other...stuff lmao. Also, most of the time he forgets about them, but any moment when he can actually FEEL Sho's lip piercings on him is like, woah yes. He really digs the sound of girls moaning softly, and soft looking girl thighs and girly panties...LINGERIE...girls with all their secrets behind lace and peekaboo things...ah, so close but so far. Modest but subtly flirtatious. not that he's ever experienced a girl in person oops AND THIS IS GETTING TOO LONG I NEED TO STOP.
Turn offs!! Um. Toys kinda freak him out. He can probably deal with simple bondage and stuff but the idea of like...designated tools for sex is just kinda weird to him. He's just kind of uncomfortable about anything too kinky? I guess it's just sort of a fear-of-the-unknown thing, but he doesn't feel the need to experiment. He doesn't like being treated TOO roughly... Nor the other way around. Pain is okay, a little biting or restriction or what have you, up to a certain small level, but he has to be feeling good too or else it starts to feel wrong and worrisome. He definitely doesn't wanna see blood. He doesn't like a lot of... fluid... drool or...yknow. whatever lol. He doesn't like anything too loud unless it's really warranted by the feeling/mood, like it's been built up to. And he generally doesn't like super explicit stuff of girls, bare boobs and spread legs and whatever...unless he's just like super horny haha;; Again, he gets more hot & bothered over peekaboo stuff; I guess part of his teasing thing. The allure of that Japanese modesty~ A nice way to sum it up is that it's all about moderation with him.
22: Given a blank piece of paper, a pencil, and nothing to do, what would happen?
He would probably spend like 30 minutes trying to remember how to make an origami pinwheel that spins on the pencil tip like he probably did in elementary school, but fail horribly and end up just spinning the crumpled paper on the tip of the pencil instead, but it would keep falling off and he'd just keep putting it back on and trying to spin it. Then he'd give up and poke the paper with the pencil and then eventually fall asleep trying to balance the pencil on the tip of his nose. BASICALLY FAIL TO DO ANYTHING PRODUCTIVE.
23: How organized are they? How does this organization/disorganization manifest in their everyday life?
Think lazy teenage boy... I think a good way to explain it is that he organizes on a larger scale, but on a small scale he's a bit of a mess. Like I mentioned about the mess in him room--there's stuff lying around that doesn't exactly belong where it is, but it's still in a general area that suits it somehow. He's not prone to losing things among clutter, but he honestly just doesn't have a lot of stuff to clutter with anyway. He can really come off as a trainwreck, but especially if he actually cares, he can be surprising with how on top of things he is in terms of physical items and schoolwork and stuff. He doesn't get urges to tidy things up or anything though; he's more likely to work with the way things are.
24: Is there one subject of study that they excel at? Or do they even care about intellectual pursuits at all?
Sort of covered in #11...but basically he's pretty bad at school haha; Maths and sciences and the technicalities of language and the depth of history eff him up, but he can handle things that are practical and direct. which isn't much in academia LOL But he does well once he's able to focus his studies on what he really wants. He's also horrible at visual and performing arts. He is a talentless boy but he finds something to do eventually.
25: How do they see themselves 5 years from today?
Future...he doesn't even wanna think that far...and his future is, dare I say even more uncertain than most high schoolers'. But basically, he probably has weighed the notions of things either staying the same or changing. Like, either... thinking about just continuing with Sho this way forever because the shadows seem endless, and some part of Toki is okay with just living like this and not having to make final confrontations or worry about what it will be like when everything is over. Or, he might consider the world after Sho and Toki have won, whatever that entails, and being able to just focus on life and not worry about survival or shadow victims, and him having a job and helping his mama... But one of the biggest things is always having Sho. Imagining Sho gone, or himself gone, is really dreadful to him to say the least.
26: Do they have any plans for the future? Any contingency plans if things don’t workout?
He's still kinda working on getting his life in order, but once he decides what he wants to do, he has a vague idea of just finishing high school, and doing whatever it takes to become a cop (although he doesn't come up with his idea of becoming a cop until after he graduates high school). So far, it's that or bust for Toki. He doesn't come up with backup until a problem arises. He may also entertain dreams of living together with Sho and supporting each other and maybe one day feeling like he deserves Sho. He certainly plans to some day repay his mom, and he'll work that one out no matter what.
27: What is their biggest regret?
Probably just becoming what he is. He doesn't want to be a lazy punk ass delinquent disappointment, but he's gradually walked himself into this hole and he feels like he can't just change, he doesn't know how, doesn't want to put forth the effort, and he feels like it's kind of pointless. And later on he'll just view that time of his life as kinda a waste, though it was really a time in which he found himself...and Sho, who helped lead him out of that rut.
28: Who do they see as their best friend? Their worst enemy?
Best friend is Sho :')... Sho is the first person he truly connects with. In the past, others didn't really give him enough of a chance, and he didn't give them a chance either. Toki only got less amiable after that. When circumstance pushes him and Sho together, just working as a team, he begins to understand mutuality and truly caring about someone to a level he never really knew before. He has his mom, but with her there is a sense of gratitude and filial piety as well, rather than pure reciprocated love from someone who's not family, someone who was once a stranger, someone who technically doesn't have to stay friends.
Worst enemy would I guess be the *~big bad~* shadow...because she is what forces Sho and Toki to have to fight and risk their lives all the time, and she is what effed Sho up in the past, and caused so many deaths, and all that... Or I could be cliché and say Toki's biggest enemy is himself because what he really needs to do aside from save the world is just sort himself out and he could fix a lot of his problems if he put his mind to it.
29: Reaction to sudden extrapersonal disaster (eg The house is on fire! What do they do?)
Well, he would probably freak out in a way that involves a lot of yelling and running around and, "where's Sho?" He actively seeks solutions, but in a frantic, aggressive way, which could make things worse... He would have a few priorities that he would do everything in his power to take care of, but he might become forgetful of the smaller things that might end up important after the adrenaline runs out... He's not quite level-headed, but he doesn't freeze up with shock or anything.
30: Reaction to sudden intrapersonal disaster (eg close family member suddenly dies)
DONT TALK TO ME. no but like I'm just thinking about Sho dying and that would just tear Toki to bits. same with mama dying. The two most important people in his life. Losing one of them, he'd probably just lose all his fire and come to a grinding halt...he'd have familiar thoughts like "Why am I doing all this?" and get into a horrible rut until he can drag himself back to life again. The worst things would be if he lost his mom to shadows, or if he lost Sho... That would eff his shit UP. He'd probably become recklessly vengeful against shadows, only to get himself hurt a lot... He would still go on with life and get things done eventually, but it would take him a long long time to cope with the idea of one of his muses being gone. He doesn't really place much value in himself, so he sort of finds purpose/a reason to live in his gratitude toward those who have loved him.
31: Most prized possession?
This is surprisingly hard. Idk he does have an mp3 player that his mama gave him and that he really treasures, even if he doesn't think or talk much about it...it's more like he just has a fondness for it and uses it maybe more often than he realizes. Not to mention it was a pricey gift from his single mama and so he has a lot of appreciation--practically guilt--for that. And maybe he would at some point get a gift from Sho and treasure it the same way only it's from his boyf so he WOULD actively admire it and think of Sho and fap to it.
Oh...and then there's his mask, that he uses to evoke his persona. He may also feel a little resentment toward the thing, but it's extremely important... And as an essential tool to him, it has a sense of being his partner. Plus the eerie way in which it's a reflection of him.
32: Thoughts on material possessions in general?
He typically doesn't place a lot of sentimentality in objects. He doesn't really covet a lot of things, but once he does have them he can get attached to them. To him, his own material possessions are mostly conveniences and aesthetic things for him to arrange around himself to make him feel better. He's quite simple, so he generally tends to just deal with what he has and not worry about what he could have...to a degree that sometimes he doesn't even realize what kind of conveniences are actually available to him and is really impressed if he gets his hands on em.
33: Concept of home and family?
Hrm, Toki's home life is an interesting sort of, distant warmth. He and his mama are the only ones, but he never really felt like anything was missing. The two of them can be really close, with mama being all cuddly and always all up in Toki's space, and they're really affectionate even if Toki is a surly teenage boy about things. But, they spend a lot of time apart because mama works a lot and Toki is busy with school and...skipping school and fighting shadows, which he can't tell her about which leads to some lies being told...and in that sense, his mama leaves him to his affairs because she's not the type to push him very hard about if he's getting in fights or cutting class and getting caught...she prefers him to be honest on his own. She does inquire sometimes and worry, but if he keeps coming home it's okay... He's a teenage boy after all~
Then his home gets a little different as Sho gets very close. Sho's not that noisy of a guy, but he makes their apartment so much livelier somehow when he visits. And Toki feels like he spends way less time home alone. Then, he eventually meets Sho's family and he gets this whole sense of siblings and noise and different personalities all under one roof and it's pretty exciting. But I think he likes his quiet home. Especially because with Sho's family he has that whole nervousness of...being with boyfriend's family and all.
34: Thoughts on privacy? (Are they a private person, or are they prone to ‘TMI’?)
Toki probably gets way less privacy than he wishes for. He's not all that talkative, certainly not about himself. He keeps stuff to himself most of the time, and it works out pretty well that what he wants to keep private stays that way because...there are just so few people who even care or inquire. This is something that Sho changes as well, because he has this ability to bring stuff out of Toki, read him and make him admit things, make him think about feelings... And Toki is really embarrassed to talk about these things, because putting them in words is a level of manifestation of these private thoughts that Toki has never had to deal with before. He has to confront himself a lot more in this way. Plus Toki's mom caught them screwing on the couch at least once so he's pretty sure most hopes of privacy are doomed to fail him. They also have V, Toki's voyeur classmate, always watching them.
35: What activities do they enjoy, but consider to be a waste of time?
I pretty much covered this in #7... Short answer is, anything he does for fun, video games and stargazing being his main pastimes...he's a bit of a pessimist. If he's not studying or working out, then...WASTE. Except banging Sho that's not a waste I TALK ABOUT THIS A LOT BUT HONESTLY TOKI IS A HORNDOG seriously though he doesn't think of time spent with Sho as wasting time because...idk he's horribly infatuated.
36: What makes them feel guilty?
EVERYTHING...THIS GUY IS SO GUILT-RIDDEN AND HE'D NEVER ADMIT IT... He's guilty about his horrible grades and how he gets into trouble and how he never manages to say what he really feels, and about having to lie about what he's doing when he goes to fight shadows... He feels guilty that Sho is always saving his ass and helping him and loving him because he doesn't know what he did to deserve it. And he feels guilty about being a horrible son to his kind mama. But, it should be noted that he never feels guilty about cutting class and dicking around and blowing off work, until after the fact when he's reflecting on it, or struck with consequences.
37: Are they more analytical or more emotional in their decision-making?
Between the two words I would say emotional, but it's more like he just immediately chooses what seems logically best without the analyzing part... It isn't always emotionally driven, but more just hasty, kind of sloppy. Most of the time he ends up with a decision pretty quickly, and even if he does bother to spend a lot of time debating about it, he tends to end up with a choice that he was leaning toward from the very beginning anyway. I guess that sounds pretty emotional.
38: What recharges them when they’re feeling drained?
When he feels drained he just seeks comfort and familiarity in doing nothing at all... just lazing, moping, rotting with his thoughts until he just gets so bored and tired of thinking about it that he gives up and is okay with functioning again. Happy times with Sho are also good, but maybe only a particular kind, the kind when he lets his guard down, when he feels so at ease that he forgets to get mad about silly things, and when he's too happy to feel embarrassed about soft kisses or falling asleep with Sho's arm around him.
39: Would you say that they have a superiority-complex? Inferiority-complex? Neither?
Toki has the inferiority complex from hell. Honestly he doesn't think highly of himself at all, even though his actions sometimes imply he's selfish or arrogant. He feels immensely inferior to Sho in just about every way too. Sho is better looking, smarter, older, taller, more experienced with persona and shadows, he's a better lover, has a job, nice family relationships... Toki thinks Sho's flawless, if you couldn't glean that much from this questionnaire thingy so far. So he's happy to have him and be loved, but boy does it make him hate himself even more, feel like he doesn't measure up, doesn't deserve it. But Toki has his way of denying these feelings, like many things.
40: How misanthropic are they?
Toki's sort of balanced in this I guess... He doesn't really hate other people or fully mistrust them right off the bat. (He certainly makes judgments though.) But, he doesn't have much faith in the goodness of others, he can be a bit cynical when it comes to whether he expects others to act righteously when they have the chance to misbehave and get away with it. He figures people are a bit mischievous and everyone likes to be a little evil when they're allowed to... He scorns himself probably more than most others. He does feel enough concern for human lives to put his life on the line for them every day though.
See also #7 and #35! He's not at all crafty or creative or artistic, sadly. Most of his hobbies are pretty unproductive in nature and generally not things he gets very invested in, but just stuff he does to relax. He likes stargazing enough to have a somewhat decent telescope and a few star charts and books and magazines on it. He can also recognize and name a handful of constellations and has a few astronomy trivia tidbits up his sleeve. He likes video games but very casually. He just plays various arcade games, fighting games, racing, and maybe some online PvP type stuff...things that occupy him but don't require commitment to a storyline or anything. He likes to read comics but doesn't follow them very religiously nor consider himself a fan of them. He doesn't mind if he misses an issue/chapter. He likes action/shounen genre. He also likes physical puzzles, little mental games and the like...though that's not much of a hobby. I guess his biggest real hobby would eventually be fitness? At least the exercising aspect even if not the nutritional. That's something productive that he learns to schedule time into every day, and also has practical purpose for him.
42: How far did they get in formal education? What are their views on formal education vs self-education?
Toki is still a high school student. Once he graduates, he'll move on to study just what he needs to get to his job, only the minimum amount of time and degrees. I guess... if we're talking currently, he doesn't have a lot of respect for formal education just because it doesn't feel useful to him, and it's a lot of work he doesn't want to do, for an outcome that feels pretty pointless to him... He'll later accept that he basically needs to do it to get through this society so he may as well. Even when he gets learning though, he doesn't have much academic interest. He's not very disciplined by way of self-education, but he would choose it between the two. He prefers to pursue things that interest him directly, and leave out the stuff that's too complex.
He wouldn't call himself a practitioner of any particular religion, but he does observe some Shinto and Buddhist traditions which have sorta just been accepted as part of Japanese culture. To him there's not much spiritual significance, but he can respect things like bowing and making offerings at shrines and such. He doesn't rely on religion to comfort himself or answer his questions in life; he seeks the concrete, or just stops asking.
44: Superstitions or views on the occult?
Much like his religious habits, he isn't very superstitious and doesn't really think ghosts and the like exist, but he still observes some practices for superstitious, spiritual, and supernatural purposes. Just little things like being wary of bad luck omens and not messing with the occult or the dead or anything that would get him killed in a horror movie. He won't go out of his way for it or anything, and it's not like he really believes... but he won't be careless, just in case... He also likes good luck charms and fortunes and such, though he sort of forgets about them and never really finds out if they worked or not.
45: Do they express their thoughts through words or deeds?
I've probably already said a few times, Toki is god-awful with words and expression. I guess the answer between the two would be deeds, though he's not even so great with that either. More often than not, his words and actions actually contradict what he's feeling as if in defiance toward himself. His thoughts usually remain a jumbled mess in his head; he can't even sort himself out, let alone figure out how to explain himself to others. This is why he's not so great at making friends, it actually helps him to have someone who can kinda read him or who can at least be forgiving and show interest in him.
46: If they were to fall in love, who (or what) is their ideal?
I feel like I've answered this one so many times in different ways by just talking about how Sho is perfect for him hahaha;; Well, then let's not talk about what turned out to be ideal for Toki, but instead about what he'd think is ideal for himself. So, he would love a cutie with sweet lil thighs and just enough curves to be cuddleable and grabbable, and who will spoil him but not nag him, and she'll be okay with just doing nothing with him sometimes. She'll be outgoing enough to make him do stuff with her, but she'll also rely on him enough to let him take the lead sometimes. She'll be friends with his mama, so she can keep her company. And she'll love his muscles 8)
The thing with Sho is that he's such a good fit, that Toki makes him into his ideal... Sho does bring out good stuff in Toki, not just by actively encouraging him, but also by inspiring him, being a role model that he wants to be good enough for. But Toki idealizes him so much that he gets maybe a little obsessed and dependent on him.
47: How do they express love?
Expression... geez... On a basic level, Toki shows love by using nicknames (even ones he made up) and just being friendly and casual with people. He can be rather inconsiderate or rude to his friends, but just the fact that he starts conversing with someone and using their name, it's a pretty good indicator of affection. He can be pretty surly with most people otherwise. Birthday or Christmas gifts mean you're really in his heart. He doesn't have any family other than his mom, but he's really sweet on her. He can yell at her sometimes and lose his temper if he thinks she's being overbearing or annoying or something, but most of the time he's quite careful and loving with her, and will do little things like tell her she's pretty when she's getting ready to go out, and give her little greeting hugs/kisses and such. With his boyfriendo, he's typically even more surly than usual because of his dumb complex and inability to express feelings right, but he does all sorts of small occasional things like just sit/walk close to him, lean/sleep on him, try to hold his hand, give him random/impulsive kisses, casually drop compliments... and sometimes he'll sort of "reward" Sho by playing along with things he usually doesn't like, like calling Sho "senpai" (the way he used to before they became close) and public displays of affection, and all that. And when he feels especially loving he will of course try to initiate sex.
48: If this person were to get into a fist fight, what is their fighting style like?
Fist fighting is what Toki does. Even with shadows LOL; Let me just take this straight from his charahub because I'm a lazy fool: Toki fights in an untrained, undisciplined, hand-to-hand street fighting style, picked up from tussles with local delinquents and such. He relies mostly on the brute force of his fists, using other types of strikes (elbows, kicks, etc.) occasionally. After a while of fighting Shadows, he learns to start wearing gloves and/or knuckle weapons to add damage to his punches. He has a decent offense, but he lacks efficiency, defense skills, and strategy to fully utilize his strength and stamina, or keep himself from getting hurt.
49: Is this person afraid of dying? Why or why not?
Yes... Although he has a lot of self-loathing and doesn't consider himself worth saving, he still doesn't feel ready to accept death. I think he just has this constant feeling that he has more to do, like... he would just keep finding some loose end that keeps him from thinking, "Okay, I guess I can die now." For example his mom. And then Sho. One he has Sho, he really can't die, because he just wants to be with Sho, and that desire wins over his self-hate. Enough that it not only keeps him from being okay with dying, but also makes him strive to improve his life. Plus, when he fights for his life every time he battles shadows, and now that he has the responsibility of saving people, more than ever he feels like maybe, it would actually be a waste for him to die.
