Damaged Goods @j-u-n-e-20th - Tumblr Blog

that weird trauma dichotomy where you’ve always been considered more grown up and mature than your peers but now that you’re an adult you feel like you’re still a child emotionally

sickmessss

hey siri how do i explain that my behavior is a part of The Disorder without sounding like im using it as an excuse

OCD

me: I have OCD.

NT: but you aren't, like, obsessively clean and organized!!

me: if I told you about half of my intrusive thoughts and compulsions you would never speak to me again

mykingdomforapen

hickorywind

TACO NEEDS TO KEEP HIS LITTLE MOUTH SHUT

perplexful

I am honestly terrified of dying unloved, of never being someone’s late night thoughts, of just no one looking at me like that. I’m terrified of watching my friends all get into beautiful relationships and being the only one left behind pretending I’m happy when I really know alone is the last thing I want to be

furiousgoldfish

me when having a trauma episode: This is just what my life is now. I will never be okay. I will never be normal. I’m damaged and ruined too much for anything. I’ll never be healthy. What they did to me destroyed me. I will suffer for as long as I live.

me when I’m having a good day: I have done it, I have achieved a good life, everything is fun and life is endless possibilities maybe I will climb mountains today nothing is out of reach!! Also I will not be in a single bad mood ever again!

thefloret-deactivated20190114

The 20 year old child in me pleads “Protect me, please. Make me feel safe. I just want to be worthy of empathy, kindness and protection.”

The 11 year old adult in me explains “We can only depend on ourselves for protection & safety. Others are not to be trusted. The way to survive in this world is to be self-reliant.”

We have not found a compromise yet.