Jace Dawnsorrow

IC musings of Jace Dawnsorrow on Wyrmrest Accord FC: Mariano di Vaio, [I do occasionally use Paul Wesley/Stefan Salvatore and/or Jensen Ackles/Dean Winchester for gifs.] Any journals or short stories posted, they are not authorized use for meta gaming or IC information. Warning: I do post nsfw content; these are tagged so if you do not want to see any of that, just scroll past the post.

[jacedawnsorrow]

OOC - Blog Update for new followers

I haven’t actively posted on Jace’s blog for almost a year. I know that people enjoyed his journals and his stories. But he’s been shelved for quite some time now. I apologize for this, but there are rare times that I will post any journals or short stories.

But most are involving his mother @ayamicross, his wife and children.

I'm mostly posting on his IC father's page, Kane.

@kanekuran​

Or on my Alliance character, Rhoran.

@rhoran-rutherford​

If you wish, you may follow those. Again I apologize for the intrusion and the lack of posts here.

[demon-hex]

Reylain or Jace

For the sake of this, I’m just going to say you’re a dick. But, I loveyou. But, you’re still a dick. Dick.

Alright… all joking insults aside.

But, this answer is pretty damn easy to be honest. He’d pickhis brother over his child. He doesn’t know Jace well enough to actually careso much. Yes, he does love his son but it’s just sort of like Hey, you’re my son, I’ll love you.Reylain’s always been there for Kane just as Kane has always been there forReylain. Yes they bicker and fight. But what siblings don’t?

Kane sees Reylain as his best friend, and it’s someone he’dmention that to proudly. If you’ve seen their interactions together, Kaneteases his older twin brother just to get under his skin, but Reylain knows it’sjust Kane’s nature. Kane has that silly side to him, and it comes out when he’swith his brother.

So, he’d choose his brother. He won’t choose his son.

[ @reylain-dawnsorrow @jacedawnsorrow alt toon ]

[avayathyndawnsorrow]

Jace or Feylan

Jace for sure. She and Feylan don’t have that good of a relationship and wasn’t there for most of her life, as for Jace she raised him from infancy. Her son is her everything.

@kanekuran 

@jacedawnsorrow

@feylansilverlight

[jacedawnsorrow]

Letter to Ayami

Tags: @ayamicross @keyeradawnsorrow @klausdawnsorrow

Jace smiled as he watched his son run around his office waving pictures they had taken just days before. He was a little over four now and was already full of life. It felt like just yesterday that he was born. As Klaus began to slow down and become more tired. He finally felt it was time he can write to his mother. He dipped his quill into the ink pot and wrote down the first few words.

Dear Mother,

     I know it’s been a while since we’ve spoken last and I’d...

Jace was stopped as his son laid on top of his desk and eyed him. “Is that for momma? You going to send to momma daddy?” Jace smiled at his son and nodded. “Yes this is going to momma, just like you asked.” He began to write once again not knowing if his son would ask another question.

     And I’d like to get together some time. I don’t like how we left things off and I understand that you’ve been busy. I have as well, but I do want to see you. So do the children. Klaus has gotten bigger since the last you’ve seen him and he was upset you missed his birthday but I told him you were working. He understood but also told me that you had to get him a present and give him a hug. I’ll give you a little hint, he wants his favorite candy. Which would be my favorite candy. So maybe you can get an extra one for me?

     Anyways, inside there is a selection of photo’s he wanted to take for you. He calls them his birthday pictures. Please don’t show these to your friends, well the silly ones of me anyways. Of course you’d be the embarrassing mother and do it anyways. He wanted me in some of them and of course Keyera took them. Bella was cheering him on from the side lines. I do hope you like them and I do hope I get to see you again. I love you and I’ll see you soon.

Love your son, Jace.

A knock came on the door as he sealed the letter along with the photo’s. A warm smile met him as his as wife came closer. “How long has he been asleep like this?” He turned to eye his son who had already begun drooling all over his desk. “Think it was a while now, he’s drooling all over the place.” His wife chuckled as she went to see if he was. “Sleeps just like his father.” She cooed and leaned down to meet her lips with his. “I’ll take him to bed and we can relax in front of the fireplace.” She smiled and twirled her finger around his hair before walking out towards the hall.

He stood up to grab hold of his son and took him to his room. He rocked his son from side to side like he did when he was a baby and was met with his daughter. They both smiled at each other and she went to open his bedroom door. He whispered softly just enough for her to hear so he won’t wake him up. “Thank you, and don’t be out to late.” Bella nodded and whispered back. “We’re just going to the pond to skate, we’ll still be on the yard.” He nodded and took his son towards his bed and carefully placed him down. The covers went over his small body perfectly with him shifting to sleep in the same position he did. “She was right... sleep just like me huh?” He leaned over to kiss his son on the head before slowly getting up.

He was met with his wife who stood at the door way, stretching her arms out to grab hold of him. Once out he closed the door behind him and went towards their bedroom with the fireplace already lit. He followed as she lead him towards the window seat as they sat watching the snow fall slowly towards the ground.

Pictures are below the cut!

[jacedawnsorrow]

Interview: Jace Dawnsorrow

Tagged by: @ayamicross​​​

FILL IN THE QUESTIONS/STATEMENTS AS IF YOU ARE BEING INTERVIEWED FOR AN ARTICLE AND YOU WERE YOUR MUSE.

TAG FIVE PEOPLE TO DO THIS MEME: @keyeradawnsorrow And anyone else.

1. WHAT IS YOUR NAME?

“Jace Dawnsorrow.”

2. WHAT IS YOUR REAL NAME?

“This is going to be a long hour.”

3. DO YOU KNOW WHY YOU WERE CALLED THAT?

“My... uncle named me, as for what reason. I do not know.”

4. ARE YOU SINGLE OR TAKEN?

“I’m not going to answer that.”

5. HAVE ANY ABILITIES OR POWERS?

“Why don’t you get to know me first and then ask me.”

6. STOP BEING A MARY SUE.

“... a what?”

7. WHAT’S YOUR EYE COLOR?

“Just like my fathers, blue-hazel and sometimes black as night. It depends on our moods.

8. HOW ABOUT YOUR HAIR COLOR?

“Black.”

9. HAVE YOU ANY FAMILY MEMBERS?

“I do, family I made with my wife, and the family I was born into. Neither of which are on good terms with the other.”

10. OH? WHAT ABOUT PETS?

“None that are my own, my daughter does have several.”

11. THAT’S COOL I GUESS, NOW TELL ME ABOUT SOMETHING YOU DON’T LIKE.

“Annoying people mostly, and you’re one of those that fit into that category.”

12. DO YOU HAVE ANY HOBBIES/ACTIVITIES YOU LIKE DOING?

“I enjoy reading, writing, spending time with my family. That’s mostly it.”

13. EVER HURT ANYONE BEFORE?

“Definitely.”

14. EVER….KILLED ANYONE BEFORE?

“No... of course not. I would never.” A smirk curled on his lips as he finished answering the interviewer’s question.

15. WHAT KIND OF ANIMAL ARE YOU?

"A wolf, I suppose. One of my favorite animals.”

16. NAME YOUR WORST HABITS.

“My wife, well she’s my worst and best habit.”

17. DO YOU LOOK UP TO ANYONE AT ALL?

“My adopted mother and my biological father. Well figuratively speaking, I’d have to look down at my mother. She’s rather short.” He chuckled a little knowing full well she’d smack him over the head for that response if she ever heard of it.

18. GAY, STRAIGHT, OR BISEXUAL?

"Straight, I’ve haven’t ever fancied a man. Woman on the other hand.”

19. DO YOU GO TO SCHOOL?

“No.”

20. DO YOU EVER WANT TO MARRY AND HAVE KIDS ONE DAY?

"I am married and I do have kids.”

21. DO YOU HAVE ANY FANBOYS/FANGIRLS?

"I have no idea what those are I’m afraid.”

22. WHAT ARE YOU MOST AFRAID OF?

“Losing my children… and my wife.”

23. WHAT DO YOU USUALLY WEAR?

“Black leathers… when I’m home, usually more casual clothing.”

24. DO YOU LOVE SOMEONE?

“You’re seriously asking me this? My wife, I love my wife.”

25. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU WET YOURSELF?

“Not answering that.”

26. WELL, IT’S NOT OVER YET!

"Why the hell not?”

27. WHAT CLASS ARE YOU? (HIGH CLASS, MIDDLE CLASS, LOW CLASS)

“High Class.”

28. HOW MANY FRIENDS DO YOU HAVE?

"A few, but I haven’t spoken to them in months.”

29. WHAT ARE YOUR THOUGHTS ON PIE?

”Depends on what flavor.”

30. FAVOURITE DRINK?

“Rum. I blame my father.”

31. WHAT’S YOUR FAVOURITE PLACE?

"My home.”

32. ARE YOU INTERESTED IN SOMEONE~

“Definitely.”

33. WHAT’S YOUR BRA CUP SIZE AND/OR HOW BIG IS YOUR WILLY?

Jace chuckled lightly as he scratched his head. “You can ask my wife that.”

34. WOULD YOU RATHER SWIM IN THE LAKE OR THE OCEAN?

"The ocean.”

35. WHAT’S YOUR TYPE?

”My wife is my type. Everything about her is what I look for in a woman.”

36. ANY FETISHES?

“There’s a list, but I won’t say them out loud.”

37. SEME OR UKE? TOP OR BOTTOM? DOMINANT OR SUBMISSIVE?

“You can ask my wife.” “You say that I can ask her these questions. Why?” “She knows me more than I know myself.”

38. CAMPING OR INDOORS?

“Both, I enjoy doing both.”

39. ARE YOU WANTING THE QUIZ TO END?

“I’ve been wanting it to end since you first opened your mouth.”

[goatrocket-moved]

So I’ve hit another follower milestone awhile ago.  This is my way of thanking people for supporting me and what I do in the best way I know how, free art! The rules are simple

You must be following me, I will check! (You can follow me for the giveaway but make sure you want to stick around if you do)

No giveaway blogs

Only reblogs count. Reblog as many times as you want, just be courteous of your followers

You must have your inbox enabled so I can contact you if you win. If I don’t get a reply within 24 hours, I’ll choose a new winner.

Three people will win a fully rendered portrait of whatever they choose

I will close the giveaway on May 1st, 2016

Good luck to you all! ♥

[jacedawnsorrow]

friend: so i have this new oc

me, crashing through the wall of their bedroom on a wrecking ball: HEIGHT? WEIGHT? BLOOD TYPE? ZODIAC SIGN? PERSONALITY TYPE?? HOBBIES AND HABITS? LIKES AND DISLIKES? SHIP? APPEARANCE? PHILOSOPHIES? FAVORITE FOODS AND DRINKS AND SLEEPING POSITIONS? WHERE DID THEY COME FROM WHERE DID THEY GO-

[demon-hex]

Jaylien and Kayien Announcement Card

An announcement card different from the other was sent out to close family and friends. Inside the envelope was a card with the twins’ names, weight, length, time of birth that was made by Alissa and Rayiah and a hand hand written letter from Kane.

Family and Friends,

Alissa and I would like to thank you all for celebrating the birth of Jaylien and Kayien with us. The twin girls are healthy and are already full of life. Their gentle smiles warm the hearts of many. Both have already been keeping the both of us on our toes even at their young age.

The mother and babies have been resting well in the past week. Rayiah has been a big help to the both of us. She’s watched and cared for the girls as we’ve both gathered our strength, even just for a little while.

Once again, we’d like to thank each and every one of you for sharing this time with us.

Kane Kuran, Alissa Emberblade and their older siblings, Jace Dawnsorrow and Rayiah Cross-Emberblade

[ @alissaemberblade @rayiahemberblade @jacedawnsorrow @reylain-dawnsorrow @ayamicross @feylansilverlight  @keyeradawnsorrow @shadowed-vixen @elexxyia @aeviaras

[lovemeiansomerhalder]

#LoveMeIanSomerhalder

[demon-hex]

@jacedawnsorrow @reylain-dawnsorrow

[demon-hex]

A proud mother has given birth to two beautiful little girls. Ten tiny toes, ten tiny fingers, two healthy beating hearts and of course two sets of healthy pair of lungs.

The time has finally come and Alissa could not be happier with the two new additions to the Dawnsorrow family.

An announcement was sent out to close friends and family in the city and around their estate.

                   To the Dawnsorrow Family and Friends,

The Dawnsorrow family is excited to announce the birth of their two beautiful little girls, Jaylien Kay and Kayien Jade Emberblade. Jaylien was born at 8:35 PM and Kayien at 8:37 PM on the third of March. They are both healthy and strong. Mother and babies are resting well while the father and their sister Rayiah take turns caring for the small ones.

Thank you for sharing in this wonderful time with us.

Kane Kuran and Alissa Emberblade

Tagging all of the Dawnsorrow family and friends: [ @alissaemberblade @rayiahemberblade @reylain-dawnsorrow @ayamicross @jacedawnsorrow @keyeradawnsorrow @feylansilverlight @aeviaras @shadowed-vixen @elexxyia @dawnsorrow-wra ]

If I’m forgetting anyone I do apologize.

[rayiahemberblade-deactivated201]

"Talk about us"

What they define their relationship with your muse as: “He is my brother. One I did not know I had till very recently. Actually when I met him daddy had killed him. He was later brought back but I have only talked to him once of twice.”

Something they like about your muse: “Uhm… I like the couple of times I met him and he found me in the city he was just as protective as daddy and that despite our age he knew how to make me giggle.”

Something they dislike about your muse: “I guess that he isn’t around or that he hasn’t tried to get to know me. Maybe its the big age difference but I am still his sister so would it hurt to at least say hi once in awhile?”

Their first impression of your muse: “Well daddy killed him so I thought he was just some stupid guy that was getting in the way again.”

Their impression of your muse now: “Ask me this when he remembers who I am.”

How they feel about your muse:  “He is my brother. I love him like family… family I never see or speak too…. Jerk….”

Something they are hiding from your muse:  “Everything. He doesn’t know me and I don’t know him. Daddy may tell him things about me but I haven’t.”

Something they wish they could to tell your muse:  “I dunno I mean, I guess I wish we knew each other a little bit but I don’t even know my biological father that well so…”

@jacedawnsorrow  -Mentions, small but they are there- @kanekuran @reylain-dawnsorrow

[demon-hex]

The Introduction: Rewrite

Trigger Warnings; Below the cut, please read with caution.

The man sat behind a broad desk with candles that softly illuminated the room. The shadows danced with the candlelight as he sat quietly thinking of his previous engagement just hours before.

     Cole growled with his fist slamming onto the table with his voice rising into a yell. “We need to address the situation with Vyanus Yuki. He’s betrayed our family and he is withholding information from us brothers and sisters.” Cole shook his head as he brought a cup up to his lips. The doors swung open with a man dressed in dark clad leathers and black hooded cloak. The man’s face was covered with the cloth hanging over his shoulders. The cloak he wore had a musty smell to it as it was drenched in splattered blood by his most recent escapade. His light booted foot made their way towards the center of the room where his brother sat. He pulled the chair out and sat down with his legs crossing. His fingers drummed against the old cracked wood. The hood he wore fell down to his shoulders exposing who he was. Cole watched as the man’s hood fell down before speaking.

“Kane….”

Keep reading

[avayathyndawnsorrow]

Important! (please read)

I would like to encourage everyone who receives messages or spam from @lordveje to screenshot and please send them all to me via submit or message me for my Skype and or other info to send them. 

I will be using these as evidence in the case I am building against this person for extreme harassment and stalking ect. 

This has gotten WAY out of hand, and too far in my book. Whoever this person is needs serious medical help. Doing this to someone for the simply fact that I did not send a Screenshot of my Character Roster on WoW is just outrageous. Idk where people get this sick idea that I am some shitty person who deserves this because frankly, I am not. I’m a fucking wonderful person when I can be, unless I don’t like you and well.. if I don’t like you, that’s your fault and if you don’t want to hear from me, don’t speak about me. It’s as simple as that. 

I want to apologize to all the people who have received hate mail and spam from this person and for all the drama with this particular person. I encourage you block them and report them to blizzard & Tumblr. Even if there isn’t anything they can do, at least you tried. 

I’ll tag those of you that I know have gotten these spam messages from him/her. 

and please, screenshot everything you receive from this person. (unsure if you’ve received some but I will tag you anyway) 

@kanekuran @rayiahemberblade @zyralith @jacedawnsorrow @feylansilverlight @dylibird @itsalburton @jessipalooza

[jacedawnsorrow]

GO BACK TO FUCKING AYAMI LOLLOLOLOLOOLO

Are you serious right now? Well letme tell you this Anon. NONE of my characters have “fucked” Ayamiexcept for those two times with a different story line we had 5 years ago. Thatwas FIVE years ago. Other than the relationship we’ve had with that differentstory line, this one is between a mother and son.

Now, Idon’t know the reason why you had to go and speak such idle things like this.ICly Jace is a happily married man. I must apologize; I am not one of thosepeople that have a kink for incest. I’m assuming you must do. So Iam also assuming you’re just a jealous person that has stopped receiving special attention by her. Well toughshit.

So haveyourself a good day anon hater. Now shoo.

[lynn-gunnulfsens]

[givemecuddlez-deactivated201503]

Well ok Kesha, maybe it’s because you’re an auto tuned peice of shit who shouldn’t be famous, you have no Buisness being in the music industry, it’s not even your music you fuck, someone else wrote it for you to record and them to auto tune yourself. And it’s not at all good . It’s not positive either. So complain some more.

[eymo]

I don’t know if you know this, tumblr user koolkidseatgreens, but Ke$ha is a certified genius. She has an IQ over 140 and an SAT score of 1500. When she was younger she would go to the library and do research for fun. Ke$ha is a both feminist and an advocate for equal marriage/rights for people of any sexuality, being a queer woman herself.

Ke$ha is a smart, professional woman, and just because she sings songs about wanting to let loose and have fun every once in a while doesn’t make her a piece of shit.

Ke$ha’s songs are meant to point out the sexism in our media. She treats men the same way many men in the music industry treat women, and she is hated on for it. Relentlessly. She sings on multiple occasions about taking charge in a sexual relationship, of how she only uses men for their body parts. She sexualizes men to make them uncomfortable. She sexualizes men for a reaction, so that people can both see why women are so uncomfortable with their sexualization and also to point out the inequality between the sexes both in the media and in the world at large.

She is judged so harshly for singing about things that make many men famous.

If you listen to Ke$ha’s deconstructed album you will see that she actually has some talent, which may be hard to hear because she does in fact use a fair amount of autotune. This is because of her genre and because of the kind of music she chooses to create as an artist. Ke$ha may not write her songs, but this doesn’t meant she isn’t a good artist or a good person. This doesn’t mean she deserves your harsh words. Some singers are good at writing, but that’s hardly a requirement. Last time I checked whether or not you can sing has nothing to do with whether or not you’re a poet.

You should not be calling anyone a piece of shit, my friend, especially someone you’ve never sat down and had a conversation (or even taken the time to wonder about her feelings!), but if anyone deserves that kind of language it’s not Ke$ha.

You may think that by shaming women for expressing their sexuality and having fun every once in a while, that you are somehow abolishing sexism. That in weeding out the less ‘deserving’ women you are gaining our sex more respect. This is not the case, and the fact that you and many others feel such a strong need to shame this woman who has done nothing wrong, especially not to you, shows that we still have a very far away to go.

[quinnmorgendorffer]

Um I’m just going to add, Ke$ha actually does write her own songs. For example, here’s her first album’s tracklist:

She has also ritten for other artists, probably most famously “‘Till The World Ends” by Britney Spears, which is part of why she’s on the remix of it. She wrote for years and was even the female voice on Flo Rida’s “Right Round” but refused to be credited because she didn’t want her first single to not be her own work. She spent years, starting at the age of 15, writing music before she came out with her album because she wanted to make sure it was all her own and all what she wanted to do.

You can even get all her unreleased music which, combined with her actual albums, is 10.3 hours according to my iTunes playlist. Some artists have been around for twice as long as her and haven’t written that many songs. 

Not only have critics proclaimed she could be a country star if she ever leaves the pop music business (which is showcased on her unreleased track “Goodbye”), but she’s actually the daughter of a very talented country songwriter. Her music is actually fairly well praised by the music critics community and if you listened to any of her songs that her record won’t let her release as singles—“Last Goodbye”, “The Harold Song”, “Only Wanna Dance With You”, any of her ballads—she can write multiple styles of songs. She’s just stuck in a box of what she can release and then shallow minded people call her dumb for having fun.

[kirkstarfleet-deactivated201408]

That’s a big fuck you for hating Ke$ha.

[shadowed-vixen]

Resulting chat log after a certain someone cried to someone else about my page. Hey if you wanna bitch about me posting this too do it yourself and don’t have others message me

Today at 1:02 AM xaedynbloodpath You really ought to consider seeing more than just your side of things. Amir talked to me beforehand and asked what was the best way to tell someone you still wanted to be their friend, but didn’t want to RP with them anymore because they were depressed and felt trapped. I knew how to answer this and I knew who she meant, because I had the same problem with you. I felt trapped into RP with you. I advised her to tell you up front how she felt. “I don’t want to RP anymore” doesn’t mean, “I don’t want to be your friend and I don’t want to hear your problems”. You really need to learn to decipher IC from OOC. Just saying.

rayiahemberblade Ans she did it at the worst time. I don’t mind people walking away from me but to do it at that time when she knew I was going through enough as is and to have her sit there she can’t be a supportive friend because of her age. No she is old enough to understand and then turn around and say I attacked her.rayiahemberblade You walked away from our rp and that was it. Nothing more has happened. No dramatics but you didn’t do it at the worst time possible. Well you did but you didn’t run crying to my best friend about it rayiahemberblade I didn’t run to you and make you feel like shit when you were loosing your mom so why do that to me when I am going through the same thing?

xaedynbloodpath She is STILL hearing about what she did wrong and that was HOW long ago? Why can’t you just drop it? You’re not the only one going through problems. And she’s a 15 year old KID. How much do you REALLY expect from someone who is JUST starting to go through high-school?

rayiahemberblade I wrote that post awhile back and finally made it public because I’m tired of the hate messages from HER friends Her age isn’t a factor. She is old enough to know what she was doing

xaedynbloodpath Lol. Okay, then. I’m just saying, if you want her friends to leave you alone, dropping it all together and being mature about it is probably a better choice than to keep dredging it up.

rayiahemberblade I did drop it and they have continued so fuck it now my friends can see what was going on. I’m tired of the one sided bullshit.

rayiahemberblade Why are you watching my tumblr anyway. I assumed you unfollowed me like the rest of them

xaedynbloodpath I did. She came to me and said she saw it so I came to you directly to talk about it.r

ayiahemberblade She can stay off my damn tumblr

xaedynbloodpath Well, I’m not her parent, so you might want to talk to her about that.

rayiahemberblade I’m not threatening anyone or attacking. My page and I can and will write how I feel because I am fed up with her friends and her messages telling me how to rp my toons. Guess what I can kill off my toons as I please. *gasp* what a concept

xaedynbloodpath Just like she can choose who she wants to/doesn’t want to RP with.

rayiahemberblade Sely could of just said “hey I don’t want to rp anymore.” She* rayiahemberblade Instead I get this whole drama filled bullshit at the worst fucking time possible. She knew that. She fuxking knew I was gone for 10 days and sitting in a hospice everyday wondering if that day was the last or not.

xaedynbloodpath She could have said a lot of things but she was TERRIFIED to tell you that she didn’t want to RP anymore. You intimidate her. You and Kane intimidate a lot of people, especially introverts. I dream of a world where people understand every single mental health disorder, but unfortunately, it isn’t that way

.rayiahemberblade No. No one fucking cared about me thru all that. It was about Amir. Think of that in your shoes when you were dealing with that with your mom. How would you feel

xaedynbloodpath I DO know how it feels. I told you about my mom and you went, “i’m sorry” and that was the end of the discussion. You didn’t even know she died, when I’d already told you she died. xD

rayiahemberblade I have mental health issues and I have for a long time so don’t say I don’t understand. Kane is the same

xaedynbloodpath So am I. I didn’t say you DON’T UNDERSTAND MENTAL HEALTH DISORDERS. I said people don’t understand EVERY SINGLE MENTAL HEALTH DISORDER.

rayiahemberblade I didn’t understand the situation with your mom. I don’t pry. You told me and I gave condolences

xaedynbloodpath And you can’t because they’re all singular to the person that has them.

rayiahemberblade This is the first death I have delt with

xaedynbloodpath Unfortunately, it isn’t the first I’ve dealt with. All of my grandparents are dead and my mom was my best friend and my anchor. One death doesn’t prepare you for another. It NEVER gets easier.

rayiahemberblade It’s hard for me and no one cares how I felt. It was all about Amir. I’m sorry I’m a scary person but I am very open and I love to talk

xaedynbloodpath Yeah, but you get upset easily. That’s what throws people off.

rayiahemberblade But thru everything I had one friend there for me. You all left me and never once did anyone else other then Allie ask how I was holding up I’m bipolar and wear my emotions on my sleeve

xaedynbloodpath Nah. I left because I was tired of drama. I’ve got anxiety, chronic depression, social phobia, PTSD, ADHD, but this isn’t a dick-measuring contest. I only messaged you to tell you that letting things go is much easier than continuing to talk about it, especially when you’re going through hard times.

rayiahemberblade No one said this is a dick measuring contest. I’m an emotional person, always have been

.xaedynbloodpath Okay. I don’t really know how to respond to that because I JUST said this isn’t a dick measuring contest and…I mean…okay. Anyways.

rayiahemberblade All this talk and I’ve asked about you and said my condolences and you never said anything to me about it. I don’t think you understand what I am saying anyway

xaedynbloodpath I hope things go better for you, i’m sorry about your loss. Loss is never easy no matter how many times it happens. I wish you the best and you should just ignore the haters. Eventually they’ll go away. If you keep feeding them, they’ll keep coming back

.rayiahemberblade I’m sorry you felt trapped in our rp. You let vara go and she was gone. She tried to leave for good and xae pulled her back. She tried to stay and he pushed he away. All that could of been avoided if he knew what he wanted but that doesn’t matter anymore.

xaedynbloodpath You’re right. It doesn’t. We aren’t RPing anymore for reasons and it shouldn’t even be brought up.

rayiahemberblade You mentioned it first so I was gonna have my say in it. You removed me while I was away without a word which is a bitch move because before I left you said. “I’ll be here for you.

”xaedynbloodpath I mean, if that’s what you want to say. I’m not going to have petty arguments about past bullshit with you, so say what you want. I decided I was done dealing with drama, I was going through far too much shit to deal with RP drama that refused to stay IC. Plus, I mentioned MANY times I wanted no interaction with Kane, yet they were constantly showing up. So yeah. I don’t feel the slightest bit guilty, honestly. Call me a cunt, bitch, whatever.

rayiahemberblade You didn’t want anything to do with kane yet you came to me and tried to fix it. She is like me though. We do better talking then typing and as for rp I can’t control when and where he shows up. I asked him once and told you ahead of time he would be there because being noble means doing things by the books. Vara is noble and giving up her child was going to be official unlike a commoner who can just give their kid away. And yes some of my shit went ooc because if I can’t figure things out ic I ask ooc. Xae confused the fuxk out of vara that why I asked you “What does xaedyn expect from vara?” Seems like a simple question imo

xaedynbloodpath I’m not going to discuss the RP, but as far as Kane goes, the RP with my guild where you followed and Kane showed up? I’m talking about AFTER I TRIED TO FIX THINGS. After. You know, WELL AFTER I asked you to relay to Kane that I did not want to interact with them. Look. Basically, I’m done discussing things. This is silly and I feel like I’m repeating things I’ve said hundreds of times, before. I only messaged you to tell you that if you want people to leave you alone, you should drop the subject all-together. Feed the trolls and they keep coming back

.rayiahemberblade I wrote my peace and I am leaving it there. I have nothing more to say about that issue and as for Amir I have blocked all contact with her so if she has an issue she can come to me and not send you.

xaedynbloodpath As I’ve said already like four times, I came to you to tell you that. She didn’t SEND me.

rayiahemberblade Well don’t come to me next time. Because you know damn well I am going to let my friend see this

xaedynbloodpath I mean, I’m an adult. So…that’s what adults do. When we have a problem, we go to someone directly instead of being dramatic and slipping our friends secret notes under the table like teenagers. Lol. But, as you wish. Here. I’ll block you just so I don’t get tempted.

@kanekuran

[jacedawnsorrow]

Well... First of all. This girl. Did not act like a fucking adult from the get go. As for not wanting me around, it was also my rp. Rp that I was involved with because Vara brought me in. To resolve an IC issue.

An issue that did not need to be prolonged. ICly Xaedyn wanted nothing to do with Vara yet you strung along feelings, and manipulated her. Which was beginning to go ooc. I saw it. Sorry but I knew this girl longer than you. I saw manipulation after the first night. And you wonder why I've been wary of you.

I'm outspoken and I tend to be more outspoken when it comes to my friends. Vara came for reconciliation with you yet you only ignored on multiple times. Even when I was not present. So don't try and make yourself high and mighty. Sorry but I am not the only one fed up with this melodramatic bullshit. I'm done, my friend, you and Amir have been dealing with a lot. But having to result in such drama when it was time for her to mourn was just a tad bit too far. You both could've handled it better. You both could've spoken in such nicer ways. Been supportive but I saw none of that.

Yes I am that person that's seen all the conversations. Don't like it, deal with it. I'm sick of this shit. So get your friends to stop their anon hate and their threats because I am sick of their bullshit.

Sincerely, a person you cannot stand Xaedyn.

[rayiahemberblade-deactivated201]

Journal: Kane

Things had finally settled down around the estate. Our guests had left, each with their own battle wounds. Rayiah’s mind went back to the day the whole mess started. The brief conversation with her father she had while sitting in the garden and watching the torches on the horizon. He told her to write these things in her journal, the one he gave her and she used as a paperweight. She sat in the garden and sighed looking at the blank pages. She hated writing.

Kane…

     My father…

     The only man I have known as my father despite meeting you when I was four. I don’t remember that meeting but I have heard the story enough times I can picture it. A carefree child in a dress that I did not want to be in, playing games with you, a stranger like there was no danger. Some of the earliest things I do remember are the endless days sitting on the window ledge waiting for you to come home and when you did there was hugs and usually a new toy to play with. I never noticed when I was younger but looking back now I can see you were tense around me. Unsure about having a child in the home. Was it because I was Reylains biologically or because you were not ready to settle down?

    Reylain… The one who disowned me while I was still little. Lied and left the woman who gave me life. She could of left me, abandoned me like he did her. Revenge… Throwing away and leaving a child he said he could not have but he did. I am here. Finding out he was my biological father… I could have taken that better but then again he could of picked a better time to throw that at me. I didn’t want to believe it and I still don’t but yet, I want to talk to him about it all… He always runs away from me. There are things I want to know. Find answers. Would he of killed me? Taken me away from Lex and had me raised in the estate but, by who? He was never home more then a day or two. Why tell me he was my father? What was there to gain but to see me come undone? But do I really want those answers? If I let them go long enough then maybe I will forget my question but he will never be my father. I just wish someone told me sooner.

  I have always had these fears since I could remember. The fear of loosing my father. All that time away with me and mom waiting. Each day a mystery if he would come home or would there just be a letter that said he wasn’t coming home this time? These fears are progressing each day but now, they are getting worse. I feel myself pulling away and detaching from them. Not only mom but daddy too. There is two more on the way. Biological children to my parents. Twins. Two of their own. They will love them differently then they will me. I worry about him forgetting me. Pushing me away because I am not his. I don’t want him to forget me. I was pushing away. I see that but not by choice. Maybe it is a defensive thing.

   Kane is the only man I would ever call that and I don’t care if there is disrespect in it but Reylain doesn’t deserve it. He wasn’t there. All the birthdays, holidays and training. It was all Kane. It was all my father. The man who was there when I was sick or hurt. He made me the young lady I am right now. Who or what would I be had he not adopted me? A priest like Lex wanted? What if Rey had been there with her when I was born? Would I have still been what I am today? Bah! Questions again that can not be answered. I know he loves me, they both love me. I also know they got me as a toddler and on a whim mostly based on a mistake of my aunt. They didn’t have all the time to prepare for my arrival to their home like they have with the new ones. I liked being in their room growing up though. It kept me from being too lonely since mom was there too. I remember when they finally gave me my own room. I was pissed and banged on the locked door to be back in their room and fell asleep crying curled up at the foot of the door.

   I was always the stubborn one, now that I think about it. Spoiled with affection but I favored it from dad more then anyone. Perhaps because he was often gone so much or that he tried to keep it a secret. He still does. He doesn’t like to show he cares but I can see it. I saw it when I had my fit and how he came to find me before Rey did. I see it when he shows up and scares away the boy I am flirting with and how he will not let me work with him. Not like Jace. Jace gets jobs as does Lex and Vara. I don’t and I am not sure why but I think he is worried I will get hurt. So why is it I feel he will abandon me the minute the twins are born. Perhaps this is all in my head. If anything I should look at it as some new found freedom. Two of them and daddy only has two wolves. I have my pup I am raising and he would be a good guard wolf and I can probably get away with more then with Mortem since it is my pup. 

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