I’ve just watched Jack’s video on his first actual break and I’m–
I don’t know. I’m just really glad he finally took his own advice and actual stopped and took a break. I’m so glad that he actually looks so happy and so well-rested. Like he’s literally glowing. And just listening to him, realizing all these things about himself and planning to move forward to be better just inspires me.
I’ve recently had a huge change in my environment. Everything is different from what I know and what I’ve become comfortable with. The attitude of everyone around me is so different from what I’m used to. I can’t keep up with it. And it’s so much harder not having any of my friends with me. It’s not that they left or anything but they used to be with me all the time but I don’t even know anyone now. Knowing the socially awkward me, I don’t think I can make any friends or at least not anytime soon.
I’ve honestly thought I was finally changing, that I was finally moving forward in the past year but having that huge change put me back in my shell. Everything’s so scary now that it’s overwhelming me. It feels like nothing’s working out anymore, that I’ve hit my limit. I know I should’ve opened up to those near me and to those I love and get the support I needed but I don’t know how to, I want to but I couldn’t. It’s hard to change when you’ve only known how to be what you have been...
But thank you Jack. I also knew that I should stop and compose myself. To actually get myself together and understand what I want to do and how I should do it. To find my own drive. But I didn’t do that. I just did what I kept on doing. But thanks to you, thanks to seeing how you’re trying to work things out yourself, I think I can move forward again. I think I can make myself change. I don’t exactly know how it’s going to work but I’ll change stuff bit by bit, to make myself better. It might be slow but I know it’s still progress
I love you so much Jack and I don’t know how much I can emphasize that <333
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