Jadeee💕

Noah James 30/11/15 my boy, my son, my world! 👶🏻💙😘

[jade-ryan10]

Fed up of being alone and let down 😞 Noah keeps my sanity without him I i don't know what I'd be doing! If i didn't have Noah I'd still been at my other job and not the shit hole I work at now! If I didn't have Noah I probably would of gone travelling and worked abroad. If I didn't have Noah I would have money 😂 but I do have Noah and he's the best thing that ever happened to me and I wouldn't change it for the world!!! I just want some company I want to be out the house I'm wasting days doing nothing waiting for people to just ignore me or come up with an excuse it's doing my nut in!

[jade-ryan10]

Amazement!

I've not been on here in a while over a year. And reading everything I put on in the past to how I am now is such an amazement how far I've come:) I'm a mummy to the most gorgeous boy ever and I couldn't wish for anything to be different 😍yes I have my ups and downs everyone does but I don't have the thoughts I used to have, I don't hurt my self anymore and I don't drink anymore. But I tell you one thing it's lonely I know my son is there and he's the best thing to have happened it still gets lonely 😞

[jade-ryan10]

My world🌍💙

The day I had you was the most amazing day ever, then they placed you on my chest and I held you I fell in love your little cry just melted my heart! I would do anything for this little boy because he means so much to me Im going to make sure I give him the best life he could possibly have!!! Noah James you are just perfect😍💙😍💙😍💙👶🏻

[jade-ryan10]

My boy 👶🏼💙😘

My boy means the world to me, nobody will ever come before my little man I love him so so much and he's not even here yet. I just cannot wait to hold him in my arms and no one can take him away from me or that moment! To hold your little hands to kiss your cheeks mummy loves you lil man 😘👶🏼💙 Your the making of my life and I can't wait to give you the best life you deserve😘😘😘😘

[jade-ryan10]

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My little man kicking away is the best feeling ever!!!!

[jade-ryan10]

This is a snip of me singing ed Sheeran thinking out loud sorry if there mistakes just let me know what you think ☺️ thank you 😘

[jade-ryan10]

Seeing the scars from your past just reminds you of the stronger person you are now and how far you've come without thinking about hurting again:)

[jade-ryan10]

If it was easy to walk away i could but you have no chance of survival on your own but you make me mad!!!!

[jade-ryan10]

People make mistakes and get in with their lives I say we've made a mistake and we can't get past it we can't stop arguing I can't stop crying I can't change the way I feel being alone atm is my thing I want to do I don't want to see you I don't want to speak to you i certainly don't want you to maul me or cuddle me!

[jade-ryan10]

Feeling my baby move is the most amazing thing ever 🙊☺️😘💕👶🏼

[jade-ryan10]

When I'm with my friends I'm smiley and laughing and when I come away I'm sad and crying again 😞😭😢

[jade-ryan10]

Must be bad when your own dad turns round and says you look depressed you are depressed :/ I can't stop the panicking I can't stop the worrying & I can't stop the crying 😭😩👎🏼😢

[jade-ryan10]

As we come to the end of Mental Heath Awareness Week 2015 #mhaw2015 Everyone will go through some hard times at some point. Life isn't easy. Just something to think about. Did you know the people that are the strongest are usually the most sensitive? Did you know the people who exhibit the most kindness are the first to get mistreated? Did you know the ones who take care of others all the time are usually the ones who need it the most? Did you know the three hardest things to say are I love you, I'm sorry, and help me? Sometimes just because a person looks happy, you have to look past their smile to see how much pain they may be in. To all my friends who are going through some issues right now--let's start an intentional avalanche. We all need positive intentions right now.

[jade-ryan10]

Everyone thinks we are fine but we aren't I don't feel fine at all I just want to get away

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I'm happy for what's to come I'm scared of what to do I'm worried I can't afford I'm ecstatic about my life change

[jade-ryan10]

Happy scared worried is all I am feeling rn!!! Mixed emotions 😕

[jade-ryan10]

Yeah a friend who's scared to tell you because she's worried about what you'll say! After last time I went home crying questioning everything in the end having to talk to my mum for her to say she hadn't said anything to you and I haven't told you yet because it's still on the down low put it on here because I don't know anyone forgetting about you but you made me scared to talk to you you was the one who made me cry and you was the one screaming and shouting in my face so In all honesty don't blame me! I've been waiting for an apology or even talk to me but you haven't! After all I'm not in the wrong here