Goddess Jades Paypig

i am owned by @dominantjade. This is my story, plus tips that you can use to be a better paypig for Her.

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Dominant Jade Sun scheduling FETCON 2017 sessions

If you’re a slave and want to meet, I will be doing real time sessions at Fetish Con August 10-14 in St. Petersburg FL. It’s a great chance to meet me in real life and see why so many boys get so addicted to me. You will find me demanding, beautiful and always in control.

Does the idea of kneeling before Me and begging to kiss My boots and give Me your money make your cock twitch? If so you are in luck.

You can setup a cashmeet, where you get to hand Me your cash.

·        Maybe I will make You drop to your knees and lick the dirt from My heels.

·        Maybe I will kick you in the balls and walk away laughing as you curl into the fetal position on the dirty ground.

·        Maybe I will take your wallet, look you in the eyes and take the cash out of it, spit in your face and throw the wallet on the ground and dare you to say something other than “Thank You Goddess”

Or maybe you want a longer session. These vary but are a great way to make a good impression. If you do exactly as you are told, are respectful and obedient, you might be lucky enough to become My property. During a session you might expect

·        Cock and Ball Torture

·        Cum Eating Instruction (CEI)

·        Cuckolding

·        Boot or foot worship

·        Forced sissification

·        Public Humiliation    

·        Many other fetishes

You will not have sex. In fact, You won’t even see Me naked and certainly will leave with an empty wallet, swollen blue balls and an addiction that lasts a lifetime.  Are you ready for an experience to change your world?

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The difference between Goddess and slaves.

I was noticing that @dominantjade doesn't drink coffee. While I drink way too much coffee. It got me thinking, which isn't normally something I do. I'm not really supposed to think unless it's about earning more money but sometimes it just happens, like while i was doing the dishes for Her...

I realized I drink a lot of coffee to keep me going. When I was with Her I got up at 6AM, worked remotely for my job for 4 hours (so I didn't need to use as much vacation time) and then when Goddess woke up around 10 I logged off, cooked breakfast for Her and Her man and then did the dishes, errands for them etc. My day ended at 3AM after massaging Her feet, legs, back, arms and hands until She fell asleep. Then I crawled out of the room and slept on the couch.

I needed the coffee to keep me going. I was exhausted.

Goddess though slept until She was rested and then got up and if She got tired and wanted to lay down during the day, She did. Usually after giving me a list of chores to do for Her to keep me busy. She didn't need coffee to keep going, if She wanted a nap, She took a nap.

If there's something that needed to get done at a certain time and it was too early, She would have a slave do it. I'm thinking things like waiting in line to get tickets, or to be there when a store opens. Or to make sure to make a reservation at a hot restaurant as soon as they opened, annoying things like that. She would assign the job to a slave and go about Her day, unworried about if it happened, since She knows Her slaves would die before letting Her down. Now clearly there are ALOT of differences between a sub and domme, but I thought I'd share this since I just noticed it for the first time.

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There are so many things i love about Goddess Jade. She is perfect from head to toe, but She also has an amazing personality, not just Domme wise, She is incredibly smart and i really just enjoy talking to Her about everything. She won my heart even more when we were chatting and I mentioned what i did and She knew what i was talking about and asked intelligent questions. I mean my family still has no clue what i do, other than they all say how good i am at it. Though since they can't explain what it is i'm good at they sort of lose credibility, but i digress. Goddess Jade is way more than drop dead gorgeous. She is even way more than dominant. Spend some time with her. Sure it's expensive, but worth every second. But someone asked me what three features turn me on the most about Her, and I think they mean physical features... I'm not very good at expressing myself, words don't really flow from me like some of my friends but please bear with me as I try to explain. Be patient and gentle with your comments. i know i'm no Shakespeare but here goes.... My three favorites 1. Her eyes. She has the most amazing brown eyes.  I could literally stare into Her deep brown eyes for days and never get tired of it. They are just so incredible and expressive. When She is about to tell me something i don't want to hear, like "go get the whip, oh and better get the rope and ball gag too" They sparkle mischievously. When i do something that makes her happy they dance with glee and my heart dances with them.   For real i have probably missed 3 or 4 meetings because i was in the bathroom, staring at one of Her photos on my phone of Her face. She looks incredible in sunglasses too but it always makes me a little sad that they cover Her eyes. I have always been attracted to a woman's eyes but never have i seen any as beautiful as Hers. 2. Her ass. OK i can't help it, i know it sounds a little sexist but, wow. I would love to have Her facesit me until i passed out. That view being the last one i see, would be heaven. Seriously though Her ass is to die for. Now i know i will never be good enough for Goddess Jade, but just getting to see Her walk makes me so weak. We went shopping last week and walking through the mall behind Her was a dream, even though i was wearing red lingerie, sucking a candy cock and wearing a bright pink "Birthday Girl" sash couldn't take away from getting to walk behind Her. i tried not to stare but really there was no way to help it. She could have been shocking my balls every time i looked and i still couldn't have stopped... 3. Her smile. She has one of the most gorgeous smiles. When She looks at me and smiles, the rest of the world melts away. I've said it many times when She smiles at me i melt. I would do anything to make Her smile. I'm not a pain slut, by any stretch of the imagination. It was one of the few "hard limits" i had. During our first session She smacked my balls because i had left something in the car and smiled as She did it. Right then and there i told myself i would learn to like pain just to see Her smile like that again. Now don't get me wrong, Her legs stop traffic and time. Her boobs are perfection. Her laugh is like music to my soul, not just my ears.... Her feet make me want to crawl across glass just to be near them. There is nothing about Her that can be improved. As Brooks and Dunn say "There aint nothing about you, that don't do something for me..." aside from the poor grammar, trued words were never spoken. Everything about Her just draws me in deeper and deeper....

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How many hours

How many hours a week do you work... 

I get that question a lot, because if you read my tweets I'm sort of always tweeting about Goddess Jade (http://www.twitter.com/dominantjade), or working. I talk about how Her slaves should be working 168 hours a week and earning Her more money. So am i full of crap? Do i talk the talk but not walk it? Let's see.

Really during the week it's 7am until 10pm I do break for dinner and maybe watch the news but then back on the computer. i work through lunch, unless it's a work lunch. I sometimes meet with clients and will take a lunch, though i guess technically a sales lunch is working...

Weekend varies and depends on what you count. This weekend i spent 15 hours repairing septic lines but it saved me paying someone which would have cost money. Does that count? I also spent 4-5 hours a day working online for @dominantjade. Retweeting, or tweeting, or posting blogs on tumblr. I wrote three this weekend...

I do have a full-time 40hr a week job, a part time contract for roughly 20 though I told them I'd do more if they have the work, plus I write blog posts in my "spare time" so maybe another 5 or so hours a week there. 

And I will get other jobs as well. I will be teaching a class in July, that's an extra 32 hours. Not sure how I'll do the 100 hours of work that week but I'll figure it out.

I'm working to build another class that I will teach that takes time. I estimated i will take me another 200 hours to finish. It's going too slow actually.... Once it is done I can charge a lot of money, and travel to do it (and fund Goddess Jade to come with me if She wants). Plus my regular job and my contract job both let me work remotely, so I can teach plus still do my regular 60 hours a week.

I also do work for @dominantjade like retweeting, research, shopping etc. I've even donated blood and collected​ cans or scrap metal when my contract work wasn't going yet. 

I rarely will sit down and relax, if I do its usually because I'm on my laptop working for Goddess Jade...

But I do exaggerate i don't work 24x7 for Goddess. She is actually pretty adamant that i get enough sleep. Some nights She will make me go to bed early, or if I say i'm not feeling well. She is good about that. 

Sure there are some other nights when She tells me to turn off my alarm in the morning, but then makes me edge until my balls are really full, sore and swollen, Then She laughs and makes me go to sleep like that. i toss and turn but find it hard to fall asleep because i am thinking of Her and how much She teases me, when i finally do fall asleep i dream of Her. I like my sleep but love it even more when i dream about Her.

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My brother is a perv by DominantJade - https://www.manyvids.com/Video/437399/My-brother-is-a-perv/

Part 1: I caught my brother listening in on my conversation, realized how boobstoned he was and proceeded to coerce him to jerk off for me. I transformed him into my brainwashed slave, and then slid his cock between my perfect tits

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[losersissy91]

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Locked out

I try my best not to think. I mean @dominantJade is better at thinking so i almost always leave that to Her. i do spend a lot of time thinking about how to earn money and that allows me to focus. She worries about everything else. But sometimes i do...

Like yesterday, She told me to get strawberries, and the chocolate and a bowl. I had picked up strawberries from the market and the melty chocolate that you heat in the microwave and dip stuff in. So i grabbed a bowl put the strawberries in put the chocolate in the microwave, and stirred it every 30 seconds. I had just stopped it when the slave bell rang, so i ran over to Her and She asked why it was taking so long. I explained that the chocolate was still heating and then She told me not to heat it but bring it cold instead. Thinking...

The first night She set down a few ground rules. First was use the bathroom downstairs off of the lobby. The bathroom in the suite was off their bedroom and She didn't want to be bothered. Makes sense and I mean a little inconvenient, but no worse than having to ask to use the bathroom and it's slave inconvenience, not real inconvenience.

Anyway.. That night after i had finished putting everything away, cleaning the room and other chores it was around 2AM. She gave me another hour of work to do and told me to have breakfast ready at 10:20. I did my hour and then realized i had to go to the bathroom. So i got dressed, and as quietly as i could opened the door and went downstairs. I felt in my pockets for the key card before i left so i wasn't worried, until i went to use the keycard to get back in and found out if was actually my credit card.

Now credit cards are really useful, we used this one a lot the last few days, but they do not hep getting in the room. In my mind i  had two choices, i could sleep in my car or go to the front desk, Really one of those two. Luckily the desk manager printed me a new card and i let myself back in. Simple.

The next day Alpha and i were going somewhere and i mentioned it to Him. He laughed and said you could have just knocked on the door. We would have let you in.

Seriously waking them up?? That never occurred to me. When He asked what i would have done if the desk clerk wasn't there I said "DM'ed Goddess to let Her know, then slept in the car.". If She was awake and wanted to let me in She would have replied something like "HAHAHA dork, i'll open the door" and probably smacked my balls or face for the mistake.

If She was sleeping She would have seen it when she woke up and known where i was.

[losersissy91]

My second session

I am definitely addicted. I have a serious Goddess Jade addiction…

I got to serve Her less then two months ago and already begging Her to let me serve again. And as you know, if you follow her, she is in NY. It’s a 287 mile trip (one way) and i messaged her to let me come take Her to lunch. I actually meant Her and i since we really didn’t get to talk that much when i was in Florida and i’m desperate to learn as much as i can to be a better pet for Her. Things like favorite food, music, color, hobby, anything so i can hopefully surprise Her with a unique gift.

She thought it would be a good time to meet Her boyfriend and his brother and his girlfriend. I was super nervous about that. I mean here i am sneaking away (as in no one knows where i am) to meet 4 people in upstate NY. Could pretty easily turn into Hostel 14 or what ever number they are up to. Especially since all Goddess Jade would have to do is tell me to put the handcuffs on and then they could torture me, kill me and sell my organs. OK I didn’t think that at all actually but i was nervous i would do something wrong to embarrass Her and that would be worse than torture. (No that’s not a challenge…)

But i have only served Her once and while I tried to remember everything She told me, i can’t honestly say i haven’t forgotten. Plus i’m meeting Her boyfriend… He has to know how hot She is and how much i am addicted to Her and love Her, and that has to be a problem. Goddess told me he was cool with it and actually was good friends with all Her slaves, but still i was nervous. As it turns out though he is super cool. He greeted me like an old friend and i had to look a few times to make sure he wasn’t someone i’ve known for years. OMG in like 2 minutes i went from about to wet my pants to still slightly nervous, but way more relaxed.

Goddess again had given me specific directions what to do when She arrived and what car She would be in. It’s one of the things i love about Her. Clarity helps make sure i don’t fuck up and makes me less nervous. The directions were simple, open the door for everyone and then walk back to Her and wait for instructions. Just an example of how badly i wanted everything to be perfect. I asked if i should let Her out first or last. First, by the way. Though i’m guessing if it’s raining maybe that changes. Another thing i need to ask. She had me carry Her purse and open the doors.

We went to this awesome restaurant and as it turns out Goddess all but owns the place… Literally everyone there knows Her and adores Her. No surprise, except i didn’t know She had ever been to NY. So they gave us a table in the back. Goddess had me make reservations specifically asking for that. Which is sort of funny since clearly She could have just asked for it and they would have done it for Her, but hey why should She call when She can have a slave do it. I guess the same reason She makes me to the paypal transfers when She has the password, it’s just easier, and honestly i’m glad to help Her do anything. We had a great meal and drinks, well i don’t drink but everyone else had some and fillet steaks. Goddess loves Fillets…. Conversation was actually super normal and relaxed. It sort of went, normal question “Where did you grow up?”, normal question “What do you do for work?” then an awkward one (at least for me) “So when did you suck your first cock?” I’m a new england catholic boy, sex is never talked about… so that always makes me feel a bit nervous. I answered everything honestly and without hesitation, other than “So what’s the most extreme thing you’ve done?”

The hesitation wasn’t for anything other than thinking what that would be. I mean i sucked cock a lot, licked a mans ass, i have a gay phone sex line, i once had to cum in a cat box and then eat it out, i licked toilets, i’ve done some pretty fucked up stuff that i’m not proud of like that. But Goddess owns me and so i don’t keep secrets and She accepts me anyway and loves that i am open. So i went to my most extreme, i used to have a weekly BJ session with a local crossdresser who paid me $30 to suck his dick every week.  Her boyfriend thought $30 was a good deal for a BJ but also said “I don’t think we should make him suck dick. It’s not safe”. Which i agree with and Goddess had actually told me the same thing. It was great to hear someone worried about me actually.

He did tell me Goddess had a few surprises, for me. The first was a nice new purple buttplug which She had me put in my ass before lunch and keep in until i got home. My ass was pretty sore after 7 hours…

At some point during the meal She took Her heels and ground them into my balls. She smiled, i cringed a little, but i know She likes inflicting pain and a lot more pain than i can take. She is gentle on me, but i try to take as much as i can. It’s about what She likes, not what i like. I think most “slaves” forget that. After dinner, She said “Give me your wallet/” normally I’d hesitate since it has all my “real” information. i’ve always had this fear of blackmail and tried to hide my real name, phone number etc. But I handed it to Her without hopefully any pause. I clearly made a face that said I wasn’t comfortable… She reads me perfectly. I suspect this was partly a test, When She first owned me She asked for my email. i was clearly uncomfortable with that too and told Her. I gave it to Her but thought it was important for Her to know that was a huge deal to me. Trust building moment…

She took my wallet and we moved on. I don’t know if She went through it. i haven’t checked to see if She took anything. I don’t need to. If She wanted something it’s Hers, and more importantly i trust Her completely.  Actually She did take my corporate card out and asked if that was the one i’d be using for dinner… But She kept the wallet and i didn’t ask for it back. Like me, that belongs to her too, and She knows i’ll need it before i leave so when She is ready, i’ll get it back.

We finished desert everyone had another round of drinks, or two and by then i was pretty sure the $150 i had left in my pocket to pay wasn’t going to be enough. It wasn’t..by a lot.

They brought the bill and i picked it up, but She said “Give it to me”. i wasn’t sure why, but my job isn’t to ask why it’s to do what i’m told, so i handed it over. She looked at it, Her boyfriend looked at it and She had me put the card in and have them ring it up. She said She would take care of filling in the tip. i won’t get into how much it costs. it was a lot more than i thought, but i have good credit and the card covered it. i was shocked at the bill, but wouldn’t want to embarrass Goddess by saying anything. She knows my finances and if She wants to spend that much on lunch it’s her call. My job is to earn, Hers is to spend…

She took my hand. Then took a pen and wrote on them “Jades Sissy Bitch” on one and then drew a cock and “I love cock” on the other and told me to leave it on until i got home. Of course i had a few stops on the way home, but i left it on. She told me to.

She went to say hi to some more people She knew, so i had a chance to ask Her Boyfriend what i could be doing better or start doing. He said makeup and nails, which i knew, but he also said Sephora does classes. I’ll have to try and get in one. He also said Goddess talks about me all the time. My heart melted. 

The surprises weren’t done, when we left we turned right (the cars were left) to a cute gazebo in the town square. She had me kneel down, which i love doing now, even in public. Funny Public used to be one of the things i didn’t do. There weren’t many people but apparently there was one lady across the street. She probably thought i was there to propose, you know on one knee in front of a gorgeous woman. And I would, with all my heart i would beg Goddess Jade to marry me every day, but that’s not really my role in Her life, though i can’t say i don’t dream it.

I’m pretty sure when the pig mask and leash went on the lady figured out it wasn’t a marriage proposal. And if not when I was licking the dirt off of Her heels well that probably gave her a hint too. We shot some video and took some pics, i guess. I was just following orders. It was until i actually saw the pictures and videos i realized there were any cameras. It’s funny when i’m around Goddess i don’t actually notice anything else around except Her. After the pictures we walked back to the car, of course i was still carrying Her purse for Her, I suspect partly for humiliation, partly for convenience but i really don’t care why, i just do… I got to kiss Her heels and we took a few “normal” pics. I look like a dork, but She looks amazing. Obviously.

Since i still had money in my pocket and they were going to another bar (i had to get back to work and home) i gave Her another hundred. I’m Hers after all and She is going to get my money anyway, so why wait… One of the best moments was after i kissed Her shoes (on main street again) She had me stand up and said “I am so proud that You are my slave”. I felt like the grinch at the end of “How the Grinch Stole Christmas” and his heart grows 3 times larger and he had the strength of 10 men times two… Like that.

Maybe i’m just an odd slave, but one “I am so proud that You are my slave” means more to me than a thousand “Fuck you pay me, stupid slut”. I guess i’m motivated more by positive re-enforcement. I just know i’ve served other dommes who were just demanding and degrading and that always wore off for me. Fun sometimes (usually when i was really horny) but not really what makes me think “long term”. Goddess Jade though, i can totally see serving for the rest of my life, or at least as long as She wants me.

It was an incredible day. I was really worried about it, but if anything i came away even more in love with Her than before.

[jades-pigpen]

Why @DominantJade for me

I've actually been into online findom for a long time, i think my first time sending an online domme money was back in 2001. She turned out to have stolen someone else's photos, which explains why when i begged her to sell me the outfit she was wearing and paid the $500 fee she kept forgetting to send it. After a while she was exposed and i realized i had been scammed. 

It didn't turn me off though and i continued to serve off and on for the next 16 years... Some dommes for a few months, some a one time tribute, and one domme, or set of dommes really, for 6 years. I wasn't always a good slave, though i did always respect their time and always honored my commitments. If i said i was going to buy something i bought it. 

Being an online slave isn't easy but being an online domme isn't either. I left some dommes for being too easy on me, and i got bored. Other times i left because they demanded too much. Though i tried to be clear, i also hate conflict. It's actually my biggest flaw both in my fetish life and my vanilla life. I've tried to be better about it...

But i've served and learned and one of the main lessons that i learned... be honest. At the end of the day i might not be a good match for a particular Domme and that's OK. Many Dommes think it is all about them but the truth is, like any relationship, it's a two way street. Ideally what i want to do, is what my owner wants and if so, perfect. Some times it starts out that way and people drift apart, that's OK too. We are all adults, let it go and move on.

But this is about why Goddess Jade is right for me. Maybe it means She is right for You too. Maybe not, but here is why Her and i will be together until the end.

1. We are honest. When She first started owning me, there was another domme who i had been playing with. I wasn't trying to hide anything, but wasn't as clear about it with Goddess Jade as i should have been and it caused some challenges. Not just for us but for Her as well. I regret it, but was super honest about what i had done, and why i had done it. At the end of the day She forgave me and i think liked that i was honest, admitted i screwed up and begged Her to forgive me. When She did i had tears in my eyes i was so grateful. Even now i'm tearing up thinking about it... Literally had to stop and dry my eyes...

2. We trust each other. Being honest is important but trust is a little different. You can't really have one without the other, but need both to have a solid relationship. One of the first tests was when She wanted access to my email and twitter. I'm pretty fanatic about my privacy and security and NEVER share my password. Until then. She has access to all of my social media accounts, my paypal account, my "online" credit card, amazon etc. Even more She knows my real name. It would take Her less than a minute to find out everything about me. In my vanilla world, my social presence is super important. I manage my online presence like any other part of my business and i am very public. But she has trusted me with the same level of information too. It's why i feel so strongly that this is a "real" relationship not just a Goddess/Slave fantasy. Don't get me wrong when we were at lunch and She told me to give Her my wallet, i still frowned a bit, but i did it. She held onto it during lunch, asked me which credit card to use and paid the bill with it. I did not ask for the wallet back. I trusted Her completely and that includes all the other information that is in there. The funny thing is if i asked for Her purse She would give it to me too. I'd never ask, but I have no doubt She would let me do the same. Though some of the stuff She keeps in Her purse might traumatize me. I've already seen a leash, paddle, whip and ball gag come out of there...

3. We respect each other. There are some things i don't want to do. There are some things i can't do without causing serious problems to my other life. While She pushes me on some things, I know i have the right to say no, and She will stop. Likewise if She has stuff going on, I respect Her time and try not to be needy. Not being needy is really hard for slaves.. Literally I check my email, twitter, Her amazon wish list probably 80-100 times before She even wakes up. Other than work and Her i have no life or hobbies. I'm working to get some, but it's hard when She is my life, but She has Her own life too. I try to respect that though.

4. We truly care for each other. When i'm sick She makes sure i get rest and make sure i get better. She actually has a tweet of Her at the hospital with one of Her other slaves. To me that means a lot. When She was sick i sent her a Panera gift card for soup. I was in London during the London Bridge attack. She was supposed to have come with me, but it didn't work out logistically. If She had come with me we likely would have been near there. It was 1/2 mile from where i was staying and has good restaurants. We talked about it that night and She mentioned that could have been us. I told Her "I would absolutely give my life to protect Her's" but She said the same thing. I think her words were "And I'd die protecting You too, that's what we do". Luckily we haven't been tested and i hope we never are, but clearly we care for each other.

5. She really meets slaves and owns them in real life. I've served a lot of dommes but I've only met 3, 2 for sessions one for a cashmeet. I've also served dommes that promised to meet then every time cancelled. (Literally for years). The fact that She was willing to meet me was a big deal. The fact that She is also willing to let me serve online when we can't be together is huge. This month she is "near" me. It's actually a 5 hour ride, but close enough i can meet Her for lunch. I skipped prepping for a presentation in London to see Her and then skipped my birthday with family because i wanted to spend it with Her. We are planning a 4 day trip together while She is here. I'm nervous but can't wait. We are going to fetcon together in August so we have had a lot of real time. We've talked a little about what happens when we are apart and can't meet every few weeks (or every week) and the truth is i worry about that. I miss Her already and i saw Her 3 days ago. I'm not sure how we will make it work, but i know we will. I suspect Skype and either Her flying to me, me flying to Her or us travelling together someplace nice every few months. 

6. What I want to give is what She wants to take. I love working. I enjoy what i do for work. I'm good at it and i don't mind working 70 hours a week at it. My boss is cool, and work doesn't get in my way of serving Goddess. I make good money at my full time job and i make good money on my side jobs. I've never really taken a vacation, well maybe once 15 years ago when i went to visit my father and we did a 3 day cruise. Other than that i work... I sometimes post that we have a perfect relationship. I earn, She spends. People think i'm kidding, but the reality is i love that. I love seeing Her in something i bought, or relaxing at the spa while i'm working. Lately She has been texting me and making me take a break to order Her and Her friends lunch or dinner. I love it. It truly makes me so excited when She does it. It makes me glad that i can make Her life a little better. For us it works and we are both happy.

7. It's not just about the money. Sure She is a findom, and i'm a paypig. I mean clearly money is a part of our relationship. But She knows right now i'm a bit tight on cash. She told me She wants to see me anyway, money or not. That means a lot to me. She always gives me gifts too. Our first session She gave me a pair of panties to take and worship any time i can. I keep them in my laptop bag and have them with me almost always. She bought me a camera so She can watch me and we can chat while i'm travelling. She bought me a butt plug at our second session, and for my birthday i got several gifts from Her. Don't get me wrong, i always give Her all my money, but it's not just about the money. I truly feel like a valued pet, not a paying customer. For me that's almost a deal breaker...

8. We do love each other. We always say this to each other, and we both mean it. I mean yes She has a real man who is Her boyfriend, and i have no illusions of replacing him. That's not my role in Her life. But that doesn't make our love diminished. I'm loved like a favorite pet and i love Her like a dog does his owner. Sure it's not a traditional relationship but it doesn't mean its not as strong as a "normal" married couple...

Even Her friends treat me like a human. I've served some dommes and their friends, even other dommes, treated me like shit. I didn't like it. I mean i understand i've got some fucked up fetishes that people might find hard to understand, but Her friends treat me like one of the group. We can have a normal conversation about travel, politics, food or cars and it feels relaxed. I don't feel like someone is going to say "Shut the fuck up freak" like i've felt other times. 

There are a lot of other reasons why i'm sure She is the one for me. I'm sure i'll have other posts that get into more detail over the years and i'll find other reasons too that prove to me She is the one... My owner, my love...