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when you are stressed you think about having a drink. when iâm stressed I think about killing myself. we are not the same.
This is the newest addition to my little family â€ïž her name is Pixi and she's 4 1/2 months old. She can't wait to meet daddi when he comes home next week! It's taken her quite awhile to warm up to me and her big sis Stormi. They get along, for the most (just like any other sisters do) she likes to stay where she is comfortable, but when feeling brave will take a little adventure into other rooms. She loves to be pet to the point she doesn't care what hour of night it is, if your alarm is going off in 10 minutes, or if you're trying to put socks on, she will rub on you till you rub her back... I guess she sort of takes after her mommi đ #pixigrams #stormilovesher #sometimes #babiprincess
Today my Babi is 1 years old! She's gotten so big. She's finally filled out with all her personality. She loves to sit in sinks, play in empty bathtubs, cuddle every night, dream about chasing birds outside, and playin a little game called fetch. She's a handful but I wouldn't want any other kitty to call my Babi girl đ my Turdi butt and my little love bugz đđœđ Happy Birthday Stormi! I promise I will get you some yummy yummy treats once mommi gets paid đ
Before band camp vs after band camp.. Thank you Pasco High school for allowing me to even out my foot tan while continuing my passion, the activity that gave me it in the first place. Also.. I just noticed that the bottom on the circle is right at my sock tan, so my drum corp tan LINE will forever be with me #AGEOUTRAGEOUT Also, I got a pedicure today and hav pretty toes now đ đŒ I guess I can also take this time to explain my tattoo to those who care... I chose to get the compass rose not only because it's the Oregon Crusaders corps symbol, but also because colorguard in general has always given me a DIRECTION in life. It's a huge part of who I am as an individual. There is also a little meaning behind the body placement for this piece... Wait for it It's on the inside of my ankle because in 'turn out' you hav to show the audience what? The inside of your foot. Yup, I did that. But wait there's more.... It's on my left foot because.... What's the first thing you learn in band camp? How to March... Aaannnddddd what foot do you step off with? Your left. Your welcome. #colorguardtat #finally #number4 #tattoos #youngwildfree #noragerts
Drum corps gothic
The caption head keeps saying âone more timeâ. Youâve lost track of how many times heâs said it. The sun is rising.
The bus pulls into the housing site. The drum majors get off to go find the sleeping areas. They do not return.
This gym seems familiar. They all seem familiar. You canât tell them apart anymore.
You enter the field. It is silent. There is a crowd, but no noise. There is no announcement. The drum major counts off.
Your tech tells you to go touch the fence. You keep running. You never find the fence.
The water doesnât taste right. It is dark and tastes gamey. You think you see something move in your jug.
The vets say that you wonât hurt after three weeks. They were right. You canât feel anything in general now.
Staff says you should get five hours of floor time, but as soon as you close your eyes, the gym lights come on.
The gym lights are motion sensored. They come on and you sit up. No one is moving.
Things disappear in the bays. Then under your seat. You worry that whatâs sitting in the seat is next.
You feel your seat partner lean against you in the night. You look over and they are asleep in the aisle. You close your eyes and donât open them until you arrive at the housing site.
The showers are dimly lit. You all stick to one side because you swear something is on the corner.
You have pasta for dinner, but it tastes like pb&j. Your cereal in the mornings tastes like pb&j. Your water tastes like pb&j. Everything tastes like pb&j.
âWhat state are we in?â No one can answer. No one knows. Staff wonât tell anyone.
A cloud is almost covering the sun. It does not move for the entire block.
A field judge is in front of you. He follows you for the whole show. He has a tape recorder, but doesnât say anything into it.
You get home. No one recognizes you. You can no longer sleep on your bed. You still hear the distant clicking of a metronome everywhere you go.
The feels tho
It's amazing the results you get when put forth the effort. About 4 years ago I started the journey of loving myself. This is one of the hardest things to do but the absolute best thing you can do for yourself. This smile on my face is genuine, it's real, and it's true happiness. This smile on my face I have never seen before. This is something new to me that I've seen as more results with continued effort. Love isn't easy but it's worth it. If you don't already, learn to love yourself. It's the best gift you can give to you, to the people around you, and to the world you live in. It's a tough road to walk down, you will fall and you will even crawl before standing back up. But if you keep pushing forward, you will get to your destination, even if you don't quite know where that is. Believe in yourself, because some roads you will walk alone. Have faith things will get better. I can not say it enough, but trust me, everything happens for a reason. You will see. Keep crawling you little caterpillar, you don't even know what the future holds yet. đ
Poem
Ever wonder what itâs like to be truly confused? Ever felt like your brain was abused? Ever wonder what itâs like to not know whatâs going on at all? Breaking down almost to the point where you wanna ball? Ever wonder why it doesnât make sense? Like life is covered by a foggy lens? Why canât it all make sense here? Why does it have to shroud me in fear? Why do you all seem far away? When I havenât lost you along the way? Why is my character fleeing? And my personality depleting? So many things I do not know. From here I donât know where to go. This uncertainty I donât like. As if my consciousness took a hike. If sense this does not make. So confusing my mind canât take. I want everything to be clear. I want to understand everything here. Life is full of mysteries. Some new and some history. What happened to who I was? Did I give up without a fuss?
#bodybydrumcorps I only lost about 8 lbs but I've dropped a pant size or 2, gained hecka muscles, and lost a ton of fat. I am not at my goal but I am a lot closer than I think I've ever been. Also that tan tho đâïžđȘđŒ
I found my home in you.
(via vollkommen-allein) @vescuvius â€ïž
I'm sitting in the bus with only a few more hours left till I'm home and my summer comes to an end. It doesn't feel real. I don't feel 22. I don't feel like an age out. It feels like November auditions are just a week away and I'm ready to do this all over again. I have had the best summer of my life. Something I don't have the chance to experience again. Something I will forever be grateful for for having the opportunity in the first place. The Oregon Crusaders has always been my family and I am so lucky to have been a part of the organization. To be a part of something great in the making. I chose this picture because this is a moment I will never get back. We were rained out of our rehearsal and had to sit under a roof after being soaked while air flagging our drill sets. These are 2 out of 37 wonderful beings I will not have the chance to spin with again. 2 out of 151 talented individuals I will never have the chance to march with again. A lot of people may think we are crazy but drum corps is the best activity a person can put themselves thru. There are so many things I will take from this and use for the rest of my life. I hope all my fellow brothers and sisters who have more marching years ahead of them, take advantage of the time they have and continue pushing themselves. You may not be able to spend your summer in swimming pools, or at the beach, or at themes parks with friends, but you get to spend the summer with hard working people with the same goal as you. To be the best you can be and put a great production on the field. You come out a stronger person, both physically and mentally. If it were not for color guard, drum corps, or OC, I dont know what kind of person I would be. But I know from my experiences in this activity I am who I am today because of it. #AGEOUTRAGEOUT #findingpeaceinthisposition #lizardpose #flaglineswagline #meatloaf #5hoursattheplasmacenter
It's amazing the things you can accomplish when you don't give up. Learn to love yourself first. Learn to love others second. And never ever give up on people who just need a little encouragement. Spread positivity and move on from negative thoughts. Life is a journey, stop tracking in the mud and go explore the mountains. Ive ever been happier in my life than I am today and that's because I kept going and never gave up on myself. I became my own personal encourager and learned to love again. It's been a long journey but I wouldn't go backwards for anything. I love life and I love myself. The hardest things to say and truly mean. đ
Life is beautiful, even if you are blind
Things always get better. You may feel lost. You may feel alone. You may feel nothing at all. But the sun always, always comes back after the darkness. The hardest, but most rewarding thing you can learn is how to let go of the past and not let it define you. People change. You change. And that's ok. Never stop finding yourself and never stop loving yourself when that happens. Every day is a page in your book and stories are constantly changing. Be open with the world and the people around you. Enclose yourself when needed. And always keep moving forward! Life isn't a race to the end. Take your time, enjoy it while you can.
Smile
When one turns on their smile, happiness seems to spread for awhile. Like a rainbow it will glow, everywhere you go. When life seems full of gloom, just like a rose bud it will bloom. By grinning everywhere, upbeat spirits fill the air. Such a joyful sight to the eyes, a thing no one can despise. Where the face seems to enhance, almost seeming in a trance. With no given quarter of depression, offers only admission. To this wondrous place of remission. For when the day ends, only begins to trend. That which is best known all the while, as just mere but a smile.Â
- Matthew Roberts
After midnight thoughts
No body wants the phone with the cracked screen. No body wants the room with the broken window. No body wants the car with a missing stereo. And no body wants the girl with a broken mind. But someone wants the phone that makes calls. Even if they can't read every text they receive. Someone will find peace listening to the howling wind at night coming thru the cracks of their window. Thankful for the roof over their head. Someone will appreciate silent car rides to allow themselves to think and not just repeat what's already been sung. And somebody will come along who is just as broken as you are and will be the only one who understands your pain. Life isn't meant to be understood, it's meant to be lived.
Today is important â€ïž @ddlovato book #StayingStrong #365daysayear Allow others to live the life they want to live, always be an encourager for a positive path. Even if it's something you don't agree with, find the good in it and understand why it means something to them. You would want the same in return.
I just want to take a moment and put into perspective how much Stormi has grown in the past 7 months I have had her. She is now 8 1/2 months old and is still growing! I first got her at just 4 weeks old and she fit in my hand, as shown on the left. Now, as I lay here with her cuddled in my arms, I glanced down and realized she is now the length of my arm!!! Even tho she is a small kitty and will stay a smaller cat, she is huge to me đ but she will always fit in my arms đ» Oh and don't mind her shaved belli, the hair hasn't fully grown back yet đč #growinkitty #myteenkitty
Maybe weâll meet again, when we are slightly older and our minds less hectic, and Iâll be right for you and youâll be right for me. But right now, I am chaos to your thoughts and you are poison to my heart.
(via bl-ossomed)