synopsis : your first interaction is nothing more than a few strange glances exchanged while waiting for your guys’s acai bowls. uncomfortable. slightly annoying. completely forgettable. or at least, it should’ve been. but when you keep running into each other everywhere you go, irritation starts turning into familiarity, and familiarity into something neither of you are ready for.
content warning : a little bit of jealousy?
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notes : i hope you guys are still seeing the vision of where im going with this😭
⭒ IN WHICH you’re a music columnist trying very hard to become a real journalist and your roommate won’t stop trying to promote his best friend’s mediocre band — 5 seconds of summer. the lead guitarist keeps showing up on your timeline looking annoyingly good, meanwhile, their other vocalist just so happens to be your ex-boyfriend.
⭒ pairing: rockstar!jay x reader x rockstar!jake
⭒ genre: social media au (smau), love triangle, strangers to lovers, bit angsty, rockstar au, jay and jake are bandmates, jake is reader's ex
⭒ status: ongoing! (started 05/16/26)
⭒ playlist: that's what you get - paramore | try hard - 5 seconds of summer | break your little heart - all time low | oh well, oh well - mayday parade | cheatercheaterbestfriendeater - nevershoutnever | say you like me - we the kings | too close to comfort - mcfly
!! warnings: profanity, sexual jokes, weed consumption, alcohol consumption, cursing, ignore timestamps please!!! it's all crack zero braincells kinda au (again), occasional smut scenes
CHAPTERS
profiles: y/n's crew + 5 seconds of summer
001. night rafting
002. ping of kop
003. male gossip night
004. the lightning mcqueen edit
005. a thread
006. haunted linkedin post
007. cinnamon roll bet
008. larping
009. the interview
010. [...]
more chapters to be added...
taglist is open!! just comment down below <3
ronnie's notes: hi guys 🫶 i know i stopped being active here and said i was leaving for good and everything but honestly i really missed this hobby in my day to day life 😭 i know i don’t need to be here to write and all that but i still missed it a lot especially making smaus. i genuinely don’t think i’ve ever been as happy writing something as i was when i wrote nicest guy lmao and now i’m back with this new fic with jay and jake and i really hope you guys enjoy it 🫶 this time i’m not abandoning it hdjsjd i actually wrote a LOT of it before posting so i was basically working on this fic during my hiatus from here. so yeah i guess this is me saying i’m back 😭 and i really hope you guys like this story because i’ve been having so much fun writing it. it’s also a theme i really love especially considering i kinda work with this stuff in real life too lol anyway i’m happy to be back!! i hope you guys enjoy it and treat me kindly 🫶
would u guys be interested if i wrote small drabbles or smaus of enha and the theme would be any random song from my playlist? so like it covers all au and genres hehehehe but if u want a specific song lmk!
where your new boyfriend, jake, is the perfect man for you. he’s everything you’ve ever wanted, to the point that he feels almost.. familiar.
pairing: jake x f!reader (ft. ex jay)
length: 5.3k
warnings: copycat au, manipulation, jake is unwell af, smut; masturbation, both oral, dom!jake, unprotected sex, multiple orgasms, cum eating, mouth spitting, nasty shit.. 18+ MDNI
notes: hey… lil quickie to get me back in the writing groove #makeitwashed
YOU THINK YOU’RE GOING TO MARRY JAKE SIM.
never did you see yourself experiencing a love like in the movies. the red string of fate, the twin flame, the soulmate – all concepts that were fictional to you. you got really close, once, and was humbled so badly that you had sworn off of love. you wouldn’t search for it, or even try for it ever again.
but that’s the thing about love, isn’t it? it happens when you’re least expecting it. you don’t find it, it finds you, and pulls you under so quickly that there’s no time to resist. to you, heartbroken and hopeless you, this took form in the sudden presence of the boy called jake.
jake had always been around – he’s a friend of your ex (he who shall not be named). not a close one, but one you still saw often at hangouts and parties. that one smiley, golden retriever boy with the bleached blonde hair.
he was always such a gentleman with you, at least in the fleeting interactions before your ex would interrupt or steal you away. you still adored those brief moments with jake, and if your ex wasn’t so cutthroat about being the only man in your life, you might’ve found a good friend in jake.
none of it could’ve prepared you for what you ended up finding in him instead.
love. real love, pure love. a love that didn’t keep you waiting, that didn’t have you terrified of it vanishing. a love that was gentle and sweet and understanding. a love that you know you didn’t deserve, and yet a love he fought tooth and nail to give you.
after your messy and very public breakup, jake swooped in like some type of guardian angel. one harmless text of him checking up on you later, and you found yourself attached to his side quicker than you could start missing your ex.
he comforted you through it – held you in his arms when you were ugly crying, cooked meals for you when you couldn’t take care of yourself – and all he asked for in return was to continue being by your side.
once you finally mustered the strength to leave bed after a week of rotting, jake was there to help clean your room of any traces of your ex. he then chucked all of his belongings in his car to drive to the dump, just so you didn’t have to be around the stuff any longer.
jake is a million dollar man. a once in a lifetime man. he is every bit the man that you wanted your ex to be, and better. because jake has none of his flaws. in fact, you’re not sure if jake even has any. he’s so perfect for you, and somehow, he feels like deja vu.
you’re convinced he was a lover in your past life, someone you’ve reincarnated with to find in every reality, with how familiar he seems, how in tune he is with your needs.
you’re so helplessly in love, and you know that someway, somehow – he loves you even more.
—
not a day goes by where jake doesn’t think about marrying you.
you don’t even have to do anything and already, he’s picturing you walking down the aisle, your belly swell with his child. patience, though. he needs enough for both of you. he’s been very intentional in restraining from going that far with you yet. he’s not prepared enough. but he will be, soon.
he smiles to himself as he heart-reacts to your cute little ‘take your time handsome :)’ text, in reply to him apologising for being a few minutes late to come over. he had to wait for the dryer load to be done so he could wear his grey sweatpants – jay’s sweatpants.
every time he wears these, without fail, you go crazy over him. the first time was a carelessly stupid mistake – you’d called him in tears, and in his rush to drive to your place, he’d thrown on the first pair of pants he could find, which he hadn’t realised was from the pile of your ex’s clothes.
by some luck, or perhaps by design, it had worked in his favour. your tears had quickly dried when you saw him walk in with those loose sweats hanging from his hips, and not long after you’d had him pressed to the couch, your lips devouring his. it was the first time you kissed him since the breakup, and it would’ve been your first time having sex since, if only jake hadn’t stopped things before they could escalate.
you’re too affectionate for your own good. it will get your heart broken one day, and it did. but you never have to worry about that happening again – not after you handed it over to jake’s hands.
jay may not be in your life anymore, but bits and pieces of him never really left. you don’t even realise it, but it’s why you fell for jake so hard and fast in the first place.
jake pockets his phone into jay’s sweats. he throws a hoodie over his shirt – also jay’s – before spritzing on a layer of jay’s favourite cologne, then popping a stick of jay’s favourite gum in his mouth. referencing the polaroid taped to his mirror, jake styles his hair, just like jay’s. you first met him when he had the bleached hair, but once he’d heard the news of your breakup, he didn’t think twice about dyeing it back to black.
jake slides the insoles into his sneakers before putting them on, matching jay’s height as he stands up. he clips on the watch around his wrist from the same brand as jay’s.
jake gives himself a once over in the mirror, and clears his throat for one last practice before he leaves. his reflection talks like jay, walks like jay, perfectly mimics his loud laugh and his shy mannerisms. only when jake doesn’t recognise himself anymore does he feel satisfied, and texts you a quick ‘On my way cutie <3’ before grabbing his car keys from the pocket of jay’s jeans he wore yesterday on the floor.
jake hadn’t thrown out a single possession of your ex’s like he promised you. that day he drove them to the ‘dump’ to end up in a heap of landfill, he’d actually just taken them right back to his house, where he’s since been studying them harder than his college finals.
every handmade gift that he can recreate better, every love letter that he can plagiarise and whisper into your ear. he’s even tried learning some of jay’s homemade recipes, and bought a guitar to practise jay’s scribbled songs. he wears some clothing from jay’s closet each time he sees you. he analyses photos to pose like jay, videos to act like jay – every second of every day in his head is just jay, jay, jay. jake thinks about him so much you’d think he was in love.
no part of jay is unknown to him. he wants to know exactly the type of man you fell so deeply in love with, so he can do it all better.
what you don’t know is that jake wanted you first, from afar – from passing by you in the halls and sitting behind you in class. all before jay just swooped in and bagged you like nothing.
you don’t even remember jake’s existence before you met him as jay’s friend. he wasn’t memorable enough, not worthy enough. so, he had to become the man you wanted, the man your broken heart longed for: jay.
and it’s worked better than he could’ve ever imagined.
yesterday, while he was over, you’d shyly (adorably) admitted to jake that you used to journal. you lost motivation to keep up with it after he who shall not be named.
“you should start again,” he had suggested to you, rubbing your arm as he held you under his shoulder. “it’s a healthy hobby to have.”
“i only ever wrote when i was upset.” you looked up at him with eyes full of hearts. “i don’t need it anymore.”
so today, he has an objective.
jake had treated you to a date night-in. he’d cooked a big, hearty meal using one of jay’s recipes – including all the fucking expensive exotic ingredients – then popped a fine wine to share over a binge of the james bond movies. jay loves them, and jay complained about how you’d fall asleep whenever he put them on.
drinking wine and watching a movie that bores you, jake hadn’t expected you to last long. and yet you’d hardly done either with your tongue down his throat and your hand palming the front of his pants.
jake had excused himself to the bathroom before he could embarrass himself, furiously jerked off into your toilet, and by the time he returned you were knocked out on the couch. fast asleep, just like he’d planned.
your sweet, unassuming boyfriend had tip-toed into your bedroom and gone straight for the bottom drawer of your dresser, hitting the jackpot.
diaries. a whole stack of them. licking his lips, he pulled out his phone and opened up the first one, pressing record as he began to flip through each page.
all of your thoughts from your relationship with jay, perfectly preserved in writing. every time he upset you, hurt you, every time you fell in and out of love.
he moved quickly – since there’s no telling if you’d miss him in your slumber and wake up to realise he’s gone – so he could only skim the words as he flicked through, feeling his chest stir and pants tighten with the excitement. he’ll be watching the video back later anyways, when he’s alone and has the time to read it like his own personal bible.
as much as it kills him inside to turn you down each time you’re both hot and bothered, practically fucking already through your clothes, the sole reason jake has been waiting for is this. he needed to know exactly how jay did it, how you liked it, how he kept you with him for so long. he needs to know the right steps to ensure you’ll never want to leave him. and now he’s got it, in between the pages he flicks with his finger, every word captured on camera. fucking jackpot.
“jakey?”
the diary nearly falls from his hands as you call out to him. it fumbles in his grip, and he holds onto it before it can clatter on the wooden dresser. blowing out a breath to calm himself, he responds right away, “yeah baby?”
“where’d y’go?” you drawl back, audibly still half-asleep.
“just getting the bed ready,” he continues to flip through the diary under the sound of his voice, recording the last few pages he needs. “i’ll carry you in, okay?”
“m’kay..”
jake waits for minutes, putting the diary back and periodically inching the dresser shut, right until it quietly sets back into place. like he was never there.
yeesh, not even james bond could understand the panic that just coursed through jake’s body. he did it though – he fucking did it! he’s gonna make you his for life.
—
two pages in and jake thinks he’s scarred for life.
he already knew you were easy.. he can tell how desperately you’ve wanted it since you’ve started dating, and he could tell throughout your entire relationship with jay.
not just from jay’s own word of mouth – loudly bragging about how you were always down, how he ‘didn’t know how to handle all that’ – but from jake’s own ears too. he’d walk past locked bathrooms at house parties, recognising the pitch of your moans in a heartbeat through the thin walls. they’d be playing video games over discord calls, and your voice in the background of jay’s mic would disappear, his breaths growing suspiciously heavier.
being around it happening implicitly is one thing, filling the blanks with his imagination as he fucks his fist is another – but this… this is far worse. you really leave nothing to interpretation.
you slept with jay on the first date – or rather he fucked you, so good and thoroughly that you had no choice but to keep coming back, whether or not he wanted to put a label on it you didn’t care.
here jake is, playing the long game like a fucking idiot, when you were drunk off jay from one sip.
he’s helpless to do anything but keep reading though, turning to the next page while it turns his guts inside out. like a car crash he just can’t look away. he needs this knowledge – he needs to know precisely how you want him inside you, so you have no choice but to believe he’s made for you.
he memorises the words jay used to talk you through it. the details of how his hands and his mouth worked at you expertly. the nitty gritty of how he took you from behind and plowed you. how he was so rough you couldn’t do anything but scream and take it, and yet you loved every second of it. you loved him, and you would’ve let him do whatever he wanted if it meant he loved you back.
hm.
jake peaks under the blanket, eyes falling on the tent in his (jay’s) sweats. there’s even a few dark spots on the grey fabric. picking his phone back up, he starts reading where he left off, sighing in relief as he grips himself through the pants.
who would’ve thought.. reading everything jay did to your body and envisioning it in his head, would have jake this hard.
shameless, he pulls the waistband down to grip himself properly, wincing as he gathers pre on his palm before coating it over his length. jake whimpers, wrapping his fingers tight and jerking his wrist fast, forcing his eyes open so he can keep reading.
that time when jay forced your legs apart even though you were overstimulated, how he filled your pussy to the brim with cum and ate it out, spat it in your mouth then fucked it down your throat–
jake moans pathetically as he coats his hoodie in a sudden spurt of cum. his hips kick weakly into his fist, his eyes fluttering shut as he still attempts to read what happened after jay plugged your mouth with his dick.
with his clean hand, he checks the timestamp on the video, and groans when he sees he’s not even halfway through. he hasn’t even reached the first rough patch (of many) in the relationship, where there’s sure to be copious hate and make-up sex stories awaiting him.
he’s in for a long night with his right hand.
—
“jake, what are you thinking?”
jake licks his lips, tasting your spit coating them, as he buys himself time to reply. his hands run up and down your sides, squeezing the curves in his fingers as his length states his exact thoughts where it twitches below you. you chuckle as you feel it, running a hand through his tousled hair, the light scratch of your nails enough to have him whimpering softly.
honest answer? jake’s thinking about how he spent the last 24 hours reading your diary front to back, how he memorised every single time jay fucked you throughout your entire relationship, how he tired himself out by jerking off to it all night and into the early morning.
he’d surprised you today by coming over unannounced, capturing your lips in a kiss before you could even greet him as you opened your front door, walking you back into the couch where you’ve been buried in each other’s mouths since.
somewhere during your needy gropes and whiney kisses, you’d taken the initiative to climb into his lap – and where he’d usually stop things before they could go further, jake had let you rut against him. desperately grinding against the sensitive heat of each other’s bodies, months worth of bottled tension finally let loose.
“jakey,” you cooed, ripping him from his thoughts as you slowly rolled your hips against him. “what’s up?”
he huffs a laugh. “me.” you roll your eyes, quickly distracted by how his hands guide you to grind harder, earning a shudder from the boy below you. “nah, i’m just.. i still can’t believe you’re real.”
and he means that more than you could know. he’s spent years yearning over the view of the back of your head or your blurry figure in the distance, and now you’re on top of him, when all it took was fitting the mold your ex left behind. in every way.
his breath hitches, length giving another harsh pulse beneath you, and you throw your head back with a frustrated groan, “urgh, i’ve been waiting so long, jake.”
“i know,” he stifles another whimper, trying to keep a cool, collected composure as he praises you. just how you like. “you’ve done so well, baby, i’m proud of you–”
“just let me sit on your dick already!”
jake stammers, completely taken aback. he mentally cross-references how you’re behaving with him right now to how you wrote about jay. you enjoyed intimacy best when jay guided and talked you through it. you liked being manhandled, you loved being fucked, and yet you’re.. bossing jake around?
this isn’t going how it should be…
“i want you in me, jake.” you utter, breath fanning his lips as your hand wedges between where your bodies connect. “i wanna ride you.” his eyes flutter shut at the feel of your palm gripping his length, while you grind yourself against your own hand, too worked up for how slow he’s taking this. “let me?”
shit, he almost did. he lost himself for a moment there – slipping back into the fumbling, awkward mess he is and not the stone-faced dominant man that he’s supposed to be right now. he needs to be jay for you.
“you think you can tell me what to do?” he sneers, grabbing your ass with a slap, hard enough to make you gasp. he pushes down the swell in his chest that feels bad for being rough. “that’s no way to get what you want, baby.”
“jake–” you squeak out, gasping again louder as he pushes you down by the hips, hard enough for his length to dig up into you with a roll of his hips. your eyes widen, from his size and from this new side of him. “i– i’m sorry..”
he hums, unconvinced. “you use your manners when you ask.” jake commands, not even recognising himself from this foreign tone of voice. he’d bet he sounds exactly like your ex with how your body turns to putty under his hands.
you gulp, your eyes glazing over with something he doesn’t recognise. submission, must be. “please?” your voice comes out barely above a whisper.
jake pokes his cheek with his tongue – something jay did that drove you crazy – and watches the effect it has on you in real time as your hips grind on him once more, needy for some damn relief. jake’s grip on you tightens enough to make you pause, and he tuts at you in disapproval.
“please.” you almost whine. “jake, please, i’ve needed you so bad. please let me ride you, i’ll be so good.”
the sweetest girl he’s ever known, reduced to a begging mess because of how perfectly he embodied your ex. he almost loses it again, almost gives in and lets you ride him until he sees stars, but jake locks back in with a reminder: what would jay do?
he runs through each verse of your diary he knows by heart at this point, and after coming to a conclusion of how jay would proceed – jake chuckles in your face.
“nah.”
within a blink jake’s got you off his lap and on your back, pressed into the couch by his chest on yours.
“we’re doing this my way,” he talks you through it as he tugs down your pants, unsurprised to find an absence of underwear. easy. “what you need, baby, is to get fucked.” you whine as his teeth nip at your neck, his tongue licking the sting. “then maybe, if you’re so good, you can ask again.” he almost cries out as his fingers find your pussy, wetness coating the tips. “nicely this time.”
“ah, jake–” you moan loudly for him, two fingers running through your folds before settling at your clit, rubbing digit eights over the throbbing bundle of nerves.
“you’ve been waiting so long?” jake scoffs, quick fingers circling your clit as you writhe beneath him. “baby. you have no idea about me.”
“a-ah! i’m sorry!” you babble, to jake’s confusion. your big, glossy eyes find his, your puffy lips from all his kisses trembling. ah, you must be deep in it. this is seriously too easy. you’ll really get off on being talked down on by jake, just because your ex did it first?
not even a few seconds later you’re clamping your thighs around his wrist, mouth dropping open in a moan, and it takes him a moment to realise you’re cumming already. that took.. nothing. he makes sure to rub you through it, and even a little after until you’re pushing at his chest, whining that it’s too much.
jake’s dick throbs in his sweats, the grey sweats, diary passages flashing in his mind of you writing about jay getting you off. how you’d daydream about the sex for weeks after because of how well he worked your body, how obsessed you were with it. jake almost cums in his fucking pants just thinking about how well he’s doing in mimicking your ex – and you’re drunk off it, you don’t even realise that you’re about to get fucked by the exact same man.
jake rips off both layers restraining him almost painfully at this point, tugging them down only to his knees before he’s back on top of you, lining his cock up with your sopping pussy. you just whimper, too far gone to even beg for him anymore.
with one thrust, jake slides all the way in, the tight fit airing out every thought in his brain. you try to hold onto him with shaky fingers, and he softly shushes each of your whimpers, wrapping his arms around your shoulders. trying to comforting you, even as you’re gripping him like a fucking vice. everything he’s ever wanted, everything he’s sacrificed his entire identity for, gripping him. wet and hot and perfect and so fucking worth it.
he’s able to hold back on cumming solely because of all the recent jerking off to your diary. he sucks in a breath through his teeth, forcing himself to speak, to keep you under his spell.
“you feel so perfect, baby,” he kisses your forehead, and you stare up at him with that dazed look still in your eyes. “i’m gonna fucking wreck you.”
jake snaps his hips, roughly pushing every inch in, and you break off into helpless little moans as he starts to fuck you properly. he bites his lower lip, keeping all of his own in so he can stay the picture of the cold, dominant man you want so badly. he only lets you adjust to the fit while he’s fucking you, your pussy fluttering around him. it must sting, it must be pain mixed with pleasure right now, and yet you’re taking all of him without protest. because that’s just how you like it.
once you’ve adjusted enough to stop sucking him in, jake tilts his hips to angle his thrusts up, hitting that sweet spot that has you whimpering his name.
“yeah, baby?” he almost taunts you as he pushes himself all the way in, soiling his balls in your sticky arousal as he grinds forward, tip nudging your cervix. jake laughs through his sudden rage of jay having this under him everyday and still breaking your heart. that’d be the one difference between them – jake won’t be that stupid. “feels good huh?”
you can’t even get his name out, let alone words anymore, as you lay limply beneath him, heat blooming in your gut as he rubs his length along your g-spot. your eyes roll back into your head, lips stretching in a silent moan, and jake cusses as he realises what’s happening before you clamp down on him, too tight for him to pull back.
you cum again, overcome with twitches through your body and around his cock, and jake just watches in bewilderment. of course you wouldn’t lie in your own diary, but.. you really are too easy. you’ve popped off twice and he’s barely gotten started.
jake runs his hands over your body as he waits for you to come back to him, sliding his palms under your shirt to pinch and twist at your nipples. you whimper, so sensitive.
“c’mere, baby, you’re doing so well,” he pulls your chin into a sweet kiss, right before he slides back into jay. “you’re gonna take more for me. right?”
you nod. pliant, fucked out, so so perfect.
jake smiles, thinking of where to even start with the things he wants to do to you, before remembering that one story in your diary he kept coming back to, the one he came hard to like none other. the one you said was the moment you knew you’d fallen in love with jay.
he wants to see it happen for himself.
jake pins your thighs down to the couch cushions, pries your legs apart, and fucks into you like a madman, like a dog in heat. he’s chasing nothing but his own release as he pounds you into the couch, and he can’t help the soft whimpers he lets slip as the aftershocks of your orgasms has your pussy fluttering around him.
jake’s vision whites out, his ears ring, as pure bliss floods his body, his hips kicking rapidly until he’s spilling out inside of you. he’s so possessed he doesn’t even stop fucking you, not fully registering that he came with how in his head he is. what would jay sound like? how hard would jay go?
“ja..” you try to say his name, trailing off halfway.
he opens his eyes – not even realising they closed – as he looks down at you. you’re even more gone than he is. do you even realise that it’s not your ex fucking you stupid right now?
with a perfect face like that under him, wrapped around him, how is he ever meant to stop?
jake hisses as he pulls out abruptly, leaving a quick kiss on your lips before he crawls down, latching his mouth around your pussy. you scream for him, shoved way past overstim as his tongue ravages you, the mixture of cum gushing onto jake’s tongue.
“j-ja–! ja– ja–!” you stutter, too weak to even get his full name out. jake’s groan rumbles on your clit, his cock leaking into the cushions as it hardens again, realising that his stuttered name sounds like you’re saying jay.
j-jay! jay– jay–!
he’s done it. he succeeded, he won. he became jay.
“keep on saying that, baby,” jake manages to huff out while he laps at you feverishly, the taste of your shared love lighting up his tongue as he eats the cum out of you – right until you’re letting loose for a third time, moaning that broken version of his name through it and driving him fucking insane. jake lets it all flood into his mouth, sucking his lips until he’s releasing your clit with a wet pop.
he lifts himself up again until he’s at level with you, parting your lips with his thumb and waiting until you meet his eyes before he spits the mess of fluids directly onto your tongue. your lashes flutter, and he can see it as you sink even further into that floaty state of mind.
“hold it.” he tells you, rising on his knees and shuffling forward, holding his cock by the base as he directs it to your mouth. “open, baby.”
you do as told, of course you do, letting jake bury himself to the hilt in the wet heat of your mouth. the underside glides over the cum still warm on your tongue, and jake shudders above you, feeling faint in the head from just how fucking hard he is for you.
“you gotta return the favour, yeah?” he only hopes you don’t notice how breathless he is, how he’s just as much of a mess as you are. if he wasn’t putting on this whole jay persona, he’d be a fucking embarrasing bitch for you right now.
you nod, and jake pulls out before pushing back in, tip bumping the back of your throat. he moans unabashedly, fucking the hollow of your mouth, feeling how you constrict around him. how you gag yet make no move to push him off. easy. perfect. just like jay made you, just like you are for jake to have now.
jake snaps his hips ruthlessly until his abs tighten, his cock pulsing until he’s shooting out down your throat. he stays shaking above you, sweating all over, until slowly pulling himself out. he catches your throat bob in a gulp, and he thinks he’s ready for yet another round.
before he can even put a thought to it though, a sudden sob from you has his entire being seizing in panic. tears burst out from your eyes, streaming down your face as you try to cover it with your hands.
“oh no, no, hey,” jake pulls you into a hug, what jay would do the last thought in his mind as he instantly worries he took it too far. he reminded you too much of him, you caught on to his act. “baby, did i hurt you? did i–”
“no, jake,” you cut in, and he pulls back, his brows pinched in confusion. “you didn’t do anything. it all felt really good, you were really good, i just–” another sob chokes up your words, and he just shushes you as he cradles you to his chest, relief flooding all the worry in his system.
what you don’t tell him, what you chose to keep to yourself, is that you thought of jay. when jake was eating you out, and you’re sure you must’ve even said your ex’s name a few times as you came, too deep in subspace to realise what you were doing. to realise that it was your boyfriend and not the last man who’d put you there.
everything jake was doing and saying, it just.. reminded you of him, so much. you don’t miss him, you don’t still love him. it’s just hard for your body to unlearn the ways that someone else has already hammered into them.
“i’m so sorry,” you sniffle. “jake.” you tack on, as if trying to remind your body who you’re with.
“no, no.” he shushes you, stroking your hair. “it’s okay, there’s nothing to be sorry for.”
he really is too perfect for you. you don’t know how you’ll ever deserve someone as pure as him.
“i love you.”
jake pulls back, eyes flitting around your face as if searching for any sign that you’re not serious. “wh– you.. you mean that?”
“i do.” you smile, and he mirrors you, lips stretching wide. “i love you, jakey.”
it’s the first time he’s heard it from you. it might be too early, but you don’t care. nothing’s too early if it’s all fate, all meant to be.
“i love you more.” he rocks you in his arms, pressing a kiss to your forehead. “more than you could ever know.”
your body stiffens as you’re suddenly transported back in time – living out a once fond memory with jay, how he’d said those exact words back after you’d said you love him first.
jay– no, jake, just holds you tighter, snapping you clean out of your silly rumination. you curl into your boyfriend, forcing your ex out of your mind where he had no business hanging around.
jake wasn’t him, he’d never be him. what were you tripping for?
⸺ IN WHICH a little fight with your boyfriend ends up with him climbing your window
﹙1769﹚ bf ! lhs 𖹭 𝒻em. reader — 2000's au established relationship a little toxic hs being a bad boyfriend ℳORE ❜
the summer has just begun, and your favorite thing right now is sitting on your boyfriend's porch as you eat ice cream while talking, but...
“nah, i told you hee, it was pink!” you said, licking the ice cream from your spoon. your legs were in his lap.
his sunglasses slid through his nose as he kept reading a random comic you didn't even know the name.
“yeah, sure, baby,” he mumbled under his breath, obviously very focused on his lecture.
you sigh, tasting the flavor of your favorite ice cream flavor. shaking your head because of your boyfriend's little attention for the last fifteen minutes.
“i was thinking about going to the mall later, you wanna come?” you ask a few seconds later. heeseung finally parts his eyes from the comic to look at you. he stare back at you for a few seconds—unsure, before answering.
“sorry babe, i have practice with the guys. maybe next time?” you sigh dramatically, looking away as you keep eating your cone.
your boyfriend breathes out a laugh, letting the comic on his lap, before caressing one of your legs with his hand.
right, his band. the group of guys your boyfriend stood you up for at least three times.
“why are you frowning?” you know that teasing tone of his. so you don't look at him, just ignore his words and hands. heeseung keeps dragging his fingers along your leg until your knee, bothering you.
“babe,” he insists, tilting his head, trying to catch your eyes. his burgundy bangs cover part of his. finally, you sigh one more time, looking at him with an annoyed face.
“you never have time for me. you spent all day with your band or whatever,” your tone came more annoyed than you thought. he smirks.
“but i spent all day with you, it's 3 pm,” he hums, still caressing your skin with his palm. you turn your head like a possessed woman, and his smirk fades off.
“so you're saying that i annoy you? that you are tired of me, heeseung? because it seems like it,” you scoff, taking your legs off his lap. your blue flip-flops make a loud sound against the floor.
“what are you talking about, babe?” he shakes his head with his hands in the air, then he lets them fall to his lap.
“now i'm not gonna see you in like three days, and you're not gonna answer my texts,” you talk, ignoring his words. heeseung furrows his brows, with his mouth mid-open.
“when did i do that?” he groans, putting his sunglasses on top of his head. you finally meet his shiny eyes. you scoff before eating the last spoon of ice cream.
“a month ago? two weeks ago? all the fucking time since we've been dating three months ago,” rolling your eyes, you lick your lower lip with annoyance as you put the bowl next to you. heeseung goes quiet for a couple of seconds.
because it was true, of course it was true. and he knows it.
“i don't want to fight right now,” he tries to avoid the subject, and you know that very well.
“you're right, me neither,” you say, and he sighs in relief. but then you stand up, making the chair make a loud noise as you fix your flip-flops and your shirt. and after giving him a glance, you start to walk away.
immediately your boyfriend stands up, following you, almost tripping in the process as he rushes behind you.
“wait, where are you going?” he tries to grab your hand, but you yank it away, not saying a word. “baby.”
“don't call me that.”
heeseung bites his lower lip, not knowing what to do as he keeps walking behind you.
he know that you were right about being mad. he sometimes didn't answer your texts and kept staying late in the night practicing with his friends, and getting lost in time. he was kinda a shitty boyfriend, you both know that.
“go away, you have practice.” you didn't even look back at him. he sighs as he stops walking.
and as you thought, he went to practice, and didn't text you in two days. as always. you didn't do it either.
you went to the mall that day and bought a cute red nail polish that you couldn't wait to use. you wanted to show your stupid boyfriend, but you remembered that you didn't want to talk to him.
“yeah, i haven't talked to him since then,” you said through the phone on your ear as you kept looking at your nails.
your friend on the other side of the phone gasps. almost as offended as you.
“how an idiot,” she murmured and you didn't say anything, just nodded as you kept painting your nails. “i had kinda a fight with sunghoon the other night too.”
“huh, they are connected or something,” you murmured, too focused on what you were doing.
“yeah... i mean, he's not even my boyfriend. but whatever. let's stop talking about them.”
and just after that, you started talking about random things, like the new movie that just came out a week ago.
but just five minutes later, you heard the ring of the doorbell. and since you were alone, you had to open, so after saying goodbye to your friend, you sighed before walking down to the front door.
when you opened there it was your boyfriend, standing on the porch with that smile that you clearly loved, but right now you didn't want to see.
his bangs were covering his eyes, and he was wearing his usual jeans and a black oversized jacket. he was all the same, looking and standing there with his stupid 'please, forgive me' smile.
so just when you saw his face, you rolled your eyes, closing the door in his face. he couldn't even speak.
and when you turned around, he rang the doorbell one more time.
when you open again, he puts his hand on the doorframe.
“baby, can we talk?” he was using that tone. you know that tone. he uses it every time he screws things up.
“i don't want to talk to you, heeseung. and you clearly didn't want to talk to me for the last two days.” your hand was still on the door. “and i won't let you in.”
you look away, still obviously upset.
“i thought that you needed some time alone, that's all. i didn't want you to be mad at me,” you slowly turn your head in his direction. he's almost frowning. the audacity.
“so you thought that i wouldn't be mad at you if you didn't talk to me for days, just right after i told you that i hated it when you did that? are you kidding me?” your brows furrowed more and more on each word that came out of your mouth.
he open his mouth just to close it. he didn't know what to say.
“exactly.” you nod one time, before taking his hand away. “now go away.”
and just like that, you shut the door on his face one more time.
he didn't ring again, so you stomped to your room again, putting away your nail polish and grabbing a magazine you had on your table.
half an hour later, you heard a noise outside and then a knock on your window, making you jump in your place.
when you look in that direction, you catch a glimpse of your boyfriend's eyes. the sun was hiding by now, so all that helped you to see him was the light from the street behind him.
you stand up with your brows scrunched, coming closer to the window.
“go away,” you hiss, without opening the window. your boyfriend makes a signal to you to open it. he looks kinda silly right there.
sighing, you open it. this was very common. he did it all the time, even more when you were mad at him.
“can i come in?” he smiles a bit, and all you did was take a step asaid to let him in. you were mad, but you didn't want him to fall.
“it's a little cold outside,” he chuckles nervously, putting his hands in the pockets of his jeans as he looks around your room—as if he hasn't been here a thousand times.
“what do you want?” crossing your arms over your chest, you look at him with an arched brow, stepping away from him.
heeseung clears his throat, standing straight.
“i came here to... say sorry,” he blinks two times and takes a few steps closer to you. his cologne invades your nose immediately as he leans a bit, making you look up at him.
“because...?”
“i was an asshole,” he murmurs, fidgeting with a string of his jacket.
“and...”
“i wasn't being a good boyfriend, and i'm sorry for not answering your texts and for not texting you back these past days...” he takes one of his hands, making you lose your grip over your chest. his fingers are cold over your warm hand. and you just noticed that his nose and ears are bright red.
“those are a lot of sorrys,” you say, trying to sound nonchalant. but your body betrays you when you squeeze back his hand as he intertwines your fingers with his.
“yeah, i know... and that's not good,” he groans, letting his head fall. “i'm really sorry, babe. it's not gonna happen again, hm? i swear,” heeseung looks up, tilting his head as he stares at you. his bambi like eyes were a crime.
squinting your eyes in his direction, you hum, still looking at him with the same expression. fighting yourself to grab him by the cheeks and kiss him because he was looking extremely cute right now. not like the always cool heeseung you saw every day.
“then you'd better do your best to be a good boyfriend from now on. if not, i'm not gonna let you in one more time.” your stiff posture relaxed, and you grabbed back his fingers.
a smile appears on his face as he brings you in a hug between his arms, exhaling.
“promise,” he nods. his cheek against your hair.
“you better,” you say, wrapping your arms around his torso, squeezing him.
then he leans back a little, staring at you for a couple of seconds, grabbing your cheeks with both hands.
“i love you. i really do.”
“and i love you,” he kisses you. “when you don't make me mad.”
heeseung chuckles a little before kissing you again.
𝙖𝙡𝙩𝙚𝙧𝙣𝙖𝙩𝙞𝙫𝙚𝙡𝙮— enhypen’s hyung line has a big, happy family !
welcome to caseyverse 🩷 this is just a small master list so you can understand better who i thought they would have as children and where to find the fics that contain small family interactions.
i also thought that maybe i could write some drabbles on this, lmk! 🫶
⟡. 𝐇𝐄𝐄𝐒𝐄𝐔𝐍𝐆
JIA is the only daughter of the lee family and she’s around 4 years old. she’s kind but has also a fierce personality, heeseung calls her ‘tin soldier’ while she calls him ‘captain hamster’.
WHERE can you find her? in ‘how i met your mother’ this fluff & crack oneshot is based on heeseung telling her his love story with you.
⟡. 𝐉𝐀𝐘
HANA is the eldest daughter of the park family. she is around eight, she’s smart and has a very lovely personality.
HAILEY is the youngest and she’s around four. despite her young age, she has a sharp tongue and a strong character.
WHERE can you find them? they had a small cameo at the end of ‘still into you’ (fluff and angst) but hana was nameless and hailey was in the womb.
⟡. 𝐉𝐀𝐊𝐄
JAMES, korean name jihoon, is the first born of the sim family and he is seven. he has a very playful personality and likes to tease his father. but he’s also protective of his sister.
JANE, korean name jiheon, is the second born and she’s two. we don’t know much about her personality, but she’s very energetic and loves strawberries.
WHERE can you find them? in the parent-hood themed oneshot i wrote called ‘brisbane’.
⟡. 𝐒𝐔𝐍𝐆𝐇𝐎𝐎𝐍
HANEUL is the twin girl of the park family. she was born with a little complication but she grew up as fierce as a lion.
YOHAN is the twin boy. he is shy and quiet, he’d rather be on his own but can’t because his sister won’t leave his side.
WHERE can you find them? in the smut oneshot i wrote called ‘mon amour’, they have a small scene at the beginning. and in the parenthood-themed oneshot called ‘double trouble’,
