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"Because you've always been pretty hard to read to me," Jamie replied. "Plus I figured it would be fun, but if you're uncomfortable, we could just talk. We haven't hung out in a while either way."

#c:orion

closed starter - jamie & stella ( @jamiehighmore )

Jamie massaged his swollen knuckles, barely have written much since he started hanging out with Stella as she painted. "Hey, do you wanna take a break?" he deflected. "Maybe go grab some lunch?"

#c:stella

"You're my friend, you have to say that." Erin pointed out. "Hmm... you could try to learn a new language? I don't know why, or which one, but you could. Or maybe you could go travelling more?"

Jameson let out a small laugh. "I have to say that? Have you met me? Have I ever said something that I really don't mean?" He raised his eyebrows lightly. "Learn a new language? I mean, I guess I could add another one to my repertoire, but I don't know, it might make me annoyed. My RA and the meds have kind of been messing with my memory lately, and I try to avoid a lot of travel for the same reason."

"Admittedly I've always been fascinating by aurologists," Trinity replied with a smile. "I suppose it makes sense that it's difficult to explain what you guys do however."

"You should see my friend, Lyra," he said. "She's amazing at it, but she is also great at auras period. She's seriously like a natural at the job."

"Just because they don't make sense to you at this current moment in time doesn't mean they won't eventually," Trinity pointed out to him with a smile. "You don't need to be well versed in astrology for your job. But I suppose it could help greatly when you're studying auras among other things."

"It's more of like picking up vibes I guess than like reading the stars?" Jamie replied. "Honestly, I still don't know how to explain what I do."

⭐ - our muses come up with new years resolutions together @jamiehighmore

“Have you managed to come up with any?” Erin queried. “I spent ten minutes trying to think of some and all I’ve written down is ‘don’t be a dick’, and I don’t know if that counts.”

"I feel like that still counts," Jameson replied. "Though, I'm not sure if that would be very hard for you, you're already not a dick. Although, you have more than me, I've been staring at the blank page for like ten minutes."

elaramacmillanbcnes

"Oh wow, yeah- I think I definitely need to catch you up if that's your question." Elara couldn't help but chuckled softly. "Mamma Mia is still going strong, I don't think it'll ever not be there on the West End, but I'm no longer in it." She told the other. "I actually auditioned for a revival of Legally Blonde a few months ago which was terrifying, decided to branch out and go for something other than just ensemble." And she was thankful really, the experience of running through rehearsals had really strengthened her acting and singing abilities, even if they weren't large parts. "But I got the role, so I'm part of the ensemble, but also one of the understudies for Brooke and then they through a curveball at me and told me I was also one of the understudies for Elle- which, sort of hoping that day never comes because those are huge shoes to fill. "

"Elara, that's great though!" Jamie said. "I mean, you'll rock it if you have to go in. You'd be a perfect Elle."

#c:elara

"If only," she snorted lightly. "It may not feel like it makes sense to you now, but I'm sure it will eventually. I think we all learn to appreciate them somehow," Trin considered with a shrug. "6, 8 and 10 are coming up. 62 and 44 as well."

Jamie nodded slightly, though he still had a look of slight confusion on his face. "Yeah, finding out my numbers didn't help me understand this more. You'd think I'd know more of this stuff considering my profession," he replied with a laugh.

"Yeah, I get that. I mean, I'm not the oldest, but looking out for younger siblings, especially Max,that I understand." Erin replied with a nod. Although their circumstances were very different, she could relate to what Jamie was saying. Erin never tended to put herself first either. "Okay. Easy." She gave a quick nod. "Just say the word and I'll apparate to your door with some coffee and cakes."

"I'm just... I don't know," he replied. "Struggling, I guess? I mean, I've always been so good at certain things, especially remembering things, but now I'm just not. Sometimes I feel like sometimes it just all took something from me, and what makes it better makes my brain so foggy sometimes. I have to admit, I'm surprised that Jules hasn't tied me down and demanded I tell her what's been up because I feel so different."

juleshighmcre

"We were," Jules replied, her arms crossed across her chest. While she was annoyed because she barely felt like she got time off work these days, she was mostly concerned for her brother who was acting different to usual. "I picked up a sandwich for you on the way here, and we're going to sit down and you're gonna tell me what's going on with you, 'kay?"

"You're a life saver," he said. "I'm so sorry." Jamie opened the door to let her in more. "I wouldn't say anything is going on with me, I've just been stressed from work and everything." It wasn't a total lie, he was stressed, but it wasn't the full truth either.

#c:juliet

closed starter - jamie & elara ( @elaramacmillanbcnes )

Jamie didn't hang out much with his older cousin, having been closer with Stella since they were little, but that didn't mean he didn't care. "Oh, how's that show you're in going? It's still going on, right?" he asked. "I feel like we haven't hung out in so long. You'll have to catch me up."

#c:elara

closed starter - jamie & juliet ( @juleshighmcre )

Jamie opened the door to find his sister, and the realization hit him. "Oh my God, we were supposed to go to lunch today," he said, while he felt a little better with his joint, his brain was so foggy. "I am so sorry, I totally forgot, Jules."

#c:juliet

kierreras

CHRISTOPHER BRINEY as CONRAD FISHER the summer i turned pretty | s2e02 «love scene»

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"It also says here that 'the rest of your month will be filled with various obstacles and challenges that will force you to change your perspective in ways you didn't expect'," Trinity read off the horoscope for the other passionately. She knew damn well most didn't believe in the stuff but she'd always had an affinity for it. "Do you want to know your lucky numbers as well?"

"Great, more obstacles. Do you think I can change my star sign?" he replied with a slight sigh but a smile to show he was mostly joking. "Uh sure, I don't think I've ever had lucky numbers before. Maybe I'll go gamble with them."

"Geez, Jamie." Erin frowned. "It doesn't make me feel better, actually. You mean you've just been suffering in silence, for years? Why? Why haven't you told anyone?" She asked. "Tell me about it. What I wouldn't give to just be a carefree kid again." Erin said sadly. "Okay, well then what can I do to make things easier for you? We don't have to come out all this way for coffee, is there somewhere closer to your place? Or maybe we could catch up at your place instead?"

Jamie shrugged, "I don't know, at first I didn't say anything to my family because Juliet was going through a hard time and my parents were worried about her, and I'm supposed to be the older brother, y'know? I know it sounds so dumb, but I've always had a hard time putting myself first, when my parents expect other things from me, or at least it feels like they do. Then, it just got hard to like mention and say anything when I didn't for so long," he replied. "Honestly, this is probably good for me, just getting out a little bit. I guess it's more so understnading that some days, if I cancel or something, it might be easier to meet at my place instead."

luluabbott

"Ah... Maybe it's just that I'm a pretty wild individual. Maybe I just fit in a little too well in that environment." Lulu admitted with a gentle shrug of her shoulders. "I think we all have places that suit us and make us feel at home. That place is my home." And given how rocky her home life had always been, she'd clung to the experiences that made her feel included and wanted.

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#c:lulu

"Sounds like you're somebody who is very self-aware," she said in response. "That's honestly half the battle. Then you can work on respecting the boundaries others set and keep building from there."

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