the rainbow connection 🌈

he/they 🏳️‍⚧️, am drawer, holds clothes

[jammyjortskin]

Hello there, why are you here? Call me jammy I guess, idk, here's my introduction.

He/They pronouns 🏳️‍⚧️

AuDHD and OCD (I do some advocacy stuff sometimes but I'm bad about posting it online because I don't really use social media often. I forget I have it tbh)

I'm working on a story! Maybe I'll post updates on @corvus-series .

Drawing and writing aren't just hobbies, but are core personality traits of mine. Alas, I have some outside interests:

🎶 Music! The Beatles, Queen, Led Zeppelin, Mitski, Cavetown, Will Wood, SOAD, and MCR

Current Top 3 Songs 🎶

1. "Love Me Like There's No Tomorrow" by Freddie Mercury

2. "My Heart is Buried in Venice" by Ricky Montgomery

3. "Strawberry Fields Forever" by The Beatles

📚 Books! Currently reading: "Dracula" by Bram Stoker, and "Bleak House" by Charles Dickens

I've fully read and loved: "Good Omens" by Terry Pratchett and (REDACTED)), "Flowers for Algernon" by Daniel Keyes, and "Giovanni's Room" by James Baldwin. I read "Frankenstein" by Mary Shelley as well and that was decent imo.

📺 TV shows! Lost, House MD, Bob's Burgers, Parks and Rec, The Office, Good Omens.

🌻Miscellaneous! EPIC the Musical, history (anywhere, any era), 70s media/culture, writing essays, Tomadachi Life: Living the Dream, medicine in general, Almost Famous (the movie), Heathers (movie and musical).

Thanks 4 reading. 👍

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Tried my hand at digital art again with my finger and phone. Looks fine aside from the hair eating half his face and that the app I use only has four good brushes ever.

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Actually, I fixed some stuff really quick. I like the new one better.

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Tried my hand at digital art again with my finger and phone. Looks fine aside from the hair eating half his face and that the app I use only has four good brushes ever.

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Quick-ish watercolor page :)

I think it turned out decent.

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Probably Lukewarm Lost Take: Idc about Jack. He's subpar. He pales in comparison to the many other superior poor little meow meows (Sayid, Sawyer at times, Jin, Kate, Juliet). He has so many storylines. I understand what a main character is and it's an old show. But it's I cannot find it in me to care about him as a character past a certain point. Especially after that episode. Y'know the one.

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I haven't water colored in a while but I finished the book Good Omens a bit ago (hearing about season 3 made me worry a bit about getting into the show but ik the horrors because I look up spoilers like an evil guy)

Interesting results.. 🤔

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I'm 84 pages into Dracula and here's my two (probably) kelvin zero takes:

-Mina and Lucy gotta kiss already. Or, they for sure already have. Unforch, it's the 1800s and they have zero level of autonomy outside of plot this far. They seem to be (as in they definitely are) a vessel for Stoker's era-common misogynistic "anxieties" about the "new woman." Actually, scratch that, just women period. Sadly, it's the 1800s. It's a cow farm, there's gonna be cows. Doesn't matter. They're wuh-luh-wuh now because I said so.

-This book would be drastically shorter if Dracula just confessed to Jonathan instead of falsely imprisoning him. Seriously. Although I doubt a healthy relationship between them could've happened by that point because Dracula is.. himself.. so you'd have to drastically change his character. But, there's something queer about those two.. hm..

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I hope every person that blows on their hot food meets their other half who halfhwhahaffahs after putting the hot food in their mouth.

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tumblr

tamblr 🥀 (I finally checked my inbox after almost a whole year)

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I've noticed that many MTF creators talk about how they went from a gay man before coming out to being a lesbian woman. I've noticed that with myself in the opposite direction.

I came out as lesbian a bit before transitioning (FTM), however, I'd hesitated saying I was absolutely lesbian despite believing I only was attracted to women and not being able to see myself in a romantic or sexual relationship with a man. Because hindsight is 20/20, I now believe that my hesitation using the lesbian label, the fact I identified as aromantic for years prior to coming out as lesbian, and my inability to see myself with a male partner was because I was imagining myself as a girlfriend or partner of a person.

But, now that I've been out for nearly two years as a trans man, it's easy to imagine myself in a committed relationship in the future regardless of the gender of my potential partner because I'm not picturing myself as someone's potential boyfriend.

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RANT: Autism isn't just social-emotional.

I've noticed a lot that the representation I see in media of ASD (Autism Spectrum Disorder) of an autistic adolescent or adult character heavily focuses on either overstimulation or social-emotional difficulties. I believe the focus on these specific things is in part because most mainstream media representation is written by allistic writers who aren't writing from lived experience. As these writers lack lived experience, they often reduce ASD to the parts of the disorder that are most apparent to themself (meaning meltdowns, shutdowns, or obvious differences in socialization) or are most discussed online. They also likely base their writing off already existent autistic characters who were also written by an allistic writer.

Most canonically confirmed autistic characters are written with traits such as the flat effect, literal thinking, obvious difficulties reading social cues, abrupt endings, and pointed observations (Think Shaun Murphy from the Good Doctor*); these are all traits that are immediately apparent to allistics.

When ASD is depicted in characters in early childhood, representation is often once again depicting the autistic traits most immediately apparent to allistics. And, the autistic character's storyline is centered around the allistic main character - teaching them how to "react" to an autistic peer (Ex. Sesame Street, Daniel Tiger, Arthur). I am not arguing that it's not vital to teach allistic children empathy for autistic peers, by the way, but rather just saying I have noticed a pattern.

Why am I even pointing this out? Well, it's because it simply irks me. It irks me that canonically autistic characters are so often written to be stereotypes because they're written to be identifiable as autistic to an allistic audience. So, there is minimal representation/exploration of impacts of ASD on the autistic individual themselves. There is next to no representation of fine and gross motor skills issues because they mostly affect the autistic person experiencing them and may not be immediately obvious.

I couldn't tie my shoes until I was ten. I couldn't skip until I was eight. To this day, I still struggle with tying knots, using zippers, or buttoning buttons to the point of emotional distress at times. Unlike communication differences and meltdowns, those struggles aren't immediately apparent to those around me.

*I'd like to note that the representation of autism in the Good Doctor and the representation cases I discussed after this in the early childhood representation portion are riddled with so many other problems that have been talked about in-depth repeatedly over the years.

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How watching Lost the first time felt:

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Idc about childhood flashback Daniel Faraday. It's MY consumption of the media and I say that he's a trans man because... Uhhh.. I say so. I can say so. What are they gonna do if I wanna project and not fully follow the cannon? Feed me to the polar bear?

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Sometimes when I'm lonely I sit and think about him.

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RIP Charlie Pace, you would've loved Will Wood. 😔 🥀 💯

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I haven't posted in forever but here's Charlie Pace I guess ok bye homie.

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One year progress :0