It was about a year of uncertainty and an absolute strain on my heart. I felt stuck. I looked around and saw people engaged, married, had kids, or were just on another chapter in their lives but were in the same age range as me. For awhile it shook me. I let overthinking and timing of what I thought was my time, get to me. Worst of all during this time I became very agitated with my situation and felt inconsistent. Due to my inconsistency I lost a lot of relationships, friendships, and overall just had to move on. I started to feel like I didn’t deserve the future I always imagined myself having. I almost let the crazy get to me. I am just giving a brief summary of what happened. However due to the fact that I do not dwell or cannot stay wallowing, I found myself doing things for myself. I pushed my limits and truly did things that made me happy. I started to just not respond to negativity about things that use to frustrate me. Instead I would sleep or try to see if I could get over a situation without a reaction. I took trips by myself! I gave myself nice things I wanted! I spoiled myself. The outcome out of all of this has been unfolding beautifully. I have had to stop myself the last few weeks to realize it’s all real. For once in my life I can truly feel that this is my time and where I am meant to be. Never would I think I would get so lucky to be doing what I am doing this week. Good things do come to those who wait... but more importantly those who change their mindset will achieve their true vision. Work hard! Focus on your dreams and make them goals. Make time for yourself. Remember that you control your happiness. Not every single bad/negative reaction needs your attention. So thankful to be able to finally feel; solid, happy and sure of the future ahead. Hard work will pay off. Trying my best, to grow in grace.
