Janet-Jackass

Livy. 34. Married. Imaginary. This is where I ruminate. 🦷 Send me your teeth 🦷

[chubb-e-cheese]

[noahverrier]

My oil painting of a grilled cheese sandwich

[frontmansdog]

there’s a t-shirt that says “I survived a bad day and all I got was the rest of my life” and yeah I still think about it

[janet-jackass]

Binch-worm —> Janet-Jackass

[janet-jackass]

So I decided on which meds to get and which to leave behind.

and my card still got declined even tho my husband swore it wouldn’t

And I felt like an ass and I cried in public

And at this point guys I think I’m actually done

I think im really done now because I just have nothing left in me.

All I can think of is driving my car as fast as it can go into a big wall or off an overpass into highway traffic. Or jumping in front of a train.

I don’t want to be here and. I haven’t wanted to be here in a long long time

I’m sad heavy sad and I’m empty heavy empty and I have love in my life but I couldn’t feel more alone

[janet-jackass]

Social security wouldn’t give me my social security statement :)

They said I have to get it from

Headquarters :)

[janet-jackass]

God my mother is such a racist, classist asshole. And it makes no sense like how you gonna be classist and homeless, you bitch?!

[janet-jackass]

Can’t afford my medications so I’m choosing which ones to leave at the pharmacy.

Can’t afford to do all the laundry so I’m choosing what clothes I don’t want to wear.

Can’t afford gas so I’m choosing places I don’t want to go anymore.

Can’t afford bills, can’t afford groceries, can’t afford anything really.

I just don’t really understand the point of all this. I just don’t really understand the point of living this way.

I honestly just want to eliminate myself from this cruel and unusual contest. I feel like I’m on some fucked up reality tv show that only rich people get to watch and only poor people have to compete in. It’s a humiliation ritual day after day.

[janet-jackass]

My only client of the day canceled, so I guess there is literally nothing stopping me from going to the social security office today except my own dread.

I’m gonna do it 😒

Wish me luck! Please cross your fingers I don’t lose my shit!

[janet-jackass]

Some nights, if I pretend things juuuuust right, I can snuggle up and get the best sleep of my life.

[janet-jackass]

I don’t even like me without weed.

[janet-jackass]

What do you think would happen if I took cat gabapentin

[janet-jackass]

I feel that I’m a very self-aware person.

I value self-awareness in others. And I find myself having little to no respect for people who have poor self-awareness. And I don’t think it’s my job to tell people how poor their self-awareness is when it is damaging our relationship.

[berdyayeva]

being an executioner used to be an inherited job. imagine dealing with teen angst and also job shadowing your dad the town’s torturer

[trangoldin]

[janet-jackass]

Needs:

Internet bill $108

Cat cans $20

Human food ???

Pharmacy meds $148 🫠

OTC meds $20

And I have 🥁🥁🥁🥁🥁 $35 😔

[janet-jackass]

So my husband took care of the cat food and the human food but we still need the internet bill, the pharmacy meds, and the OTC meds. I can buy the OTC meds. So we really just need $256 for internet and meds.

I just love (hate) how being disabled is literally very expensive, and yet people think we don’t even deserve poverty level benefits. Like I didn’t ask to be sick. I don’t want to take 29 pills a day. And I don’t want to spend half my paycheck on meds. Yet here I am.

[socalledmixtapelife]

Good morning world, let’s do this…