she died as she lived: Doneā¢ļø and stanning jaime lannister
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unfortunately, this fall I ended up facing very heavy medical expenses for more than 1k euros which will spike soon because now teeth issues added to the whole thing. Sadly, due to covid, I canāt currently earn any extra money, so even if I didnāt want to ask for help, Iām opening fic commissions [janie_tangerine on ao3].
Please, as.. I really need this still, if you canāt commission, consider reblogging this post!
the prices will be 10 euros every 1k words up to 10k words;
15 euros fixed extra for explicit/NSFW;
there is no extra charge if I go overboard (as in, if you wanted 5k and then I write you 7k you donāt have to pay me the extra 20 euros);
my carrd is here;
if youāre interested please email me at itriedtograspastar at gmail dot com or use the tumblr chat;
you can pay me either via ko-fi or Paypal (ask me in private for info if choosing that);
if you donāt want whatever youād like to commission published on ao3 or anywhere else just tell me and Iāll send it to you only;
also, as ko-fi has just introduced discounts this month, if you click on this linkĀ when commissioning or use the code JDEAN10, you can have a 10% off any commission until July 31stĀ - of course any extra is still free of charge (and anyone who has commissioned already but paid the full price is most likely going to get a bit more extra wordcount <3) - if youād rather pay through paypal Iāll apply you the discount when calculating the price.
thank you very much if you consider it. *drops post and runs*
I love your agreeable and amenable and flexible nature and how none of your wants and needs ever get priority and how nobody even knows what they are to begin with and how you never start or engage in conflicts and never express even mildly unsavory opinions and get along with everyone from every conceivable group, thatās so trustworthy. hey quick question. do you happen to have an enormous pressurized reservoir of rage and resentment you feel like you canāt ever analyze or express because that would break the rules for the kind of person you are and if so, do you think a lifetime of squashing it down might ever backfire?
Transphobia is about to be signed into law in the UK. We can fight this.
I am begging the UK trans community and its allies to attend the Mass Lobby at Parliament on June 25th, 11am-4pm, organised by Trans Solidarity Alliance.
Last year we broke the record for an LGBT+ mass lobby of Parliament. Will you help us break it again? Join us on 25th June 2026 to demand be
The new EHRC Code of Practice pushes trans people out of toilets, hospital wards, and community spaces. It normalises gender policing based on appearance and stereotypes. It becomes statutory guidance in the UK by the end of June.
Trans people are now legally their assigned gender at birth and must join gendered spaces accordingly, but if they are perceived as their lived gender, they can also be ejected from those spaces. The guidance says: either break the law, or donāt pass too well.
A mass lobby is where you invite your MP to discuss your concerns with you in-person. Ask your MP to:
Demand full parliamentary scrutiny, debate, and use their free vote on the EHRC Code of Practice.
Support any motions rejecting the EHRC guidance. As of June 4th, Labour MP Nadia Whittome has submitted a prayer motion - Early Day Motion 240.
Write to Bridget Phillipson, the Minister for Women and Equalities about our concerns
Your MP does not have to be an ally, they do not have to respond to your email for you to show up and greencard them (details below the cut.) What matters is that as many people as possible show up.
I cannot stress this enough: Showing up in person matters. It is much more effective than petitions, emails, and letters.
It is a horrible, stressful time, and I am so sorry if you're trans and live in the UK. But I was at last year's mass lobby and the line for greencarding alone stretched around the back gates. It was a record breaking mass lobby and made us impossible to ignore. Let's do even better this time. Details under the cut:
Worried about what to say?
Bring your personal worries about transphobia being signed into law, and trans friends being excluded from public spaces. You are a living person who deserves dignity. Remind your MP of that. You will also get guidance and brochures from Trans Solidarity Alliance that outlines our demands. This is mine from last year.
Money issues?
Trans Solidarity Alliance provides a travel bursary that you can sign up for via the link.
Got a refusal or no response from your MP?Ā
Come anyway! You can request a same-day appointment with your MP through a process called greencarding. They will come and see you if theyāre already in Parliament. Even if they donāt, theyāre made acutely aware of your cause because you showed up in person. This is my greencard from last year.
Here is the EHRC Code of Practice in full. It's a tough read, but some highlights are:
Organisations canāt provide trans-inclusive, single-sex services, or they risk being sued for discrimination.
e.g. domestic violence support for women including trans women, menās rugby group including trans men (12.68).
Trans people will have nowhere safe to pee.
If youāre a trans man, businesses can't allow you to pee in the men's, and you can also be ejected from womenās bathrooms if youāre perceived as a man. Vice versa for trans women. EHRC suggests a āthird spaceā bathroom, which is discriminatory and unworkable for most businesses. (13.130-133)
Sports organisations must exclude trans people from single-sex competitions (13.73).Ā
A womenās only sports competition must exclude trans women because of their biological advantage or face potential lawsuits (13.74), but a trans man who has undergone testosterone treatment can also be excluded based on fairness rules (13.81).
Trans women are stripped of the legal definition of ālesbianā, and therefore no longer have legal protections if theyāre discriminated against on the basis of sexual orientation. (2.50, 2.92).
Here is the Good Law Project's better explanation of the EHRC Code.
I have also made a PDF printout of QR codes for the government petition, email your MP tool, and mass lobby link to pass around your communities. DM me and I'll send it to you.
I Sexually Identify as an Attack Helicopter was one of the best works of sci-fi of our generation and one of the best works of transgender fiction ever written, and there are world renowned authors who still have successful careers after they publicly assassinated the nascent woman who wrote it. I don't think they should ever know peace.
I think this constantly and then I get angry for thinking it, because trans women should not have to be martyrs or saints to animate our politics and our art. that work should have been her debut, not her epitaph. I should be moved by her career, not her absence. I could spit.
āFall was a trans woman who, in publishing her story, was fielding the idea of whether womanhood would be right for her and whether the world could accept her as a woman (thus the short bio and the lack of other published material). Based on the public response, Fall made two decisions: the first being to check herself into a psychiatric ward, and the second that womanhood was not an option for her, and that Isabel Fall would never exist again.ā
The then-SF president, Arinn Dembo posted her "public apology" on Patreon. Cowardice.
Source: Dembo, Arinn (July 12, 2021). ""A Public Apology to Isabel Fall"". Patreon. Archived from the original on April 17, 2024. Retrieved April 17, 2024.
ā¦ I scrolled the notes after reading this and I didnāt see anyone mentioning it so since everyone else pointed out the restā¦ congrats to miss fell for having foreseen a specific thing wrt the use of ai while choosing military targets that was on the news all the time at the beginning of this year and then we say scifi doesnāt predict the future /s
shoutout to slow growers, late bloomers, people whose plans got derailed by circumstances beyond their control or their own choices, people who never had a plan to begin with, people who have had to start over when theyre too old to feel like theyre supposed to be where they are, people who cant pretend theyre built for the environment theyre in, and everyone who's not living the life they thought they would. im proud of you for making it this far and i hope you keep going until youre happy ā”
U can watch Star Wars so many times and it doesnāt prepare u for how dumb Star Wars is. For one thing I think we gloss over how kenobi (who has definitely been at the club. Please.) describes the mos eisley cantina as the worst most villainous place ever and then u get inside and itās a pack of muppets vaping
25 years ago an unknown Chinese protester stood in front of a tank in defiance of the government. No one knows the identity of the man but he was given the nick name āTank Manā. This is one of the most iconic photographs of the century.
Itās actually been 27 years now since the incident known as the Tiananmen Square Massacre occurred.
The picture above, famously referred to as āThe Tank Manā was actually taken on June 5, the day after the massacre.
(Which honestly makes him the one of the bravest person, to go back and stand up to a regime after such a terrible event transpired)
So what happened?
Iām gonna give the TL;DR version:
April 15, 1989. Hu Yaobang, a former Communist Party Chief dies.
Many people, includingĀ workers, laborer, students and some officials come to mourn. You see, those protestors were originally there to mourn, not protest.
Time passed and there were some hunger strikes, and protests, and a call for accountability and reform from the government.
Eventually, things went south, because the communist party doesnāt have time to deal with these sorts of ādemandsā and grievances.
Keep in mind, the people wanted not the end of the Communist Party, but for the party to stop with the official corruption, rule of law, and the gross monopoly of information and power.
Incidentally, China still suffers from all of these SAME problems to this dayā¦
June 3, 1989. The massacre started at night to disperse the crowd. Many were shot, wounded, and killed.
June 4, 1989. Some of the parents of the protestors who never came home went looking for them. It was still total mayhem.
June 5, 1989. The iconic image of the tank man was taken. To this day, no one knows what became of this person.
Content Warning for video: blood
āTell the worldā¦ā
I cannot stress how important it is that people remember and know about this event.
Do you know how China responded? With lies and censorship.
Even now, in 2016, we do not have an official death toll on the Tiananmen Square Massacre, the Chinese government doesnāt even acknowledge the event as a āmassacreā. And they weaves these cover stories of ācounter revolutionaries trying to overthrow the governmentā. Therefore, the violence was necessary to ~protect~ the people. (Or some bullshit like that)
The amount of lying and censorship in China is, quite frankly, scary amazing.
Tumblr, which somehow managed to fly under their radar, found itself being blocked in that country.
After all, tell a lie often enough and it becomes the truth.
And those who remember the incident in China?
ā¦ā¦ā¦ā¦well, you tell me.
Please at least REMEMBER this tragedy. Untold innocent lives were lost, and a nation has been fed a lie for almost three decades now from their oppressive af regime.
Tiananmen Square happened when I was seven, and letās just say children have a really interesting way of interpreting information.
I just remember thinking it was a happy event, because all these people were out on the street, and at first the army were interacting with these people. And it almost looked like a festival because people were singing and talking, and hopeful. And then tv coverage for the events got cut off.
The blocking of the live coverage had all the adults anxious, nobody said anything for ages, I just remember my grandmother saying, āJust be glad your father isnāt in China, now.ā
And that stuck with me to this day. Because yeah, if dad had been in China then he would have been in Beijing studying, he would have been on those streets with those other students.
It was the first time I knew that something horrible had happened to all those people I saw on the television. I donāt even remember how I knew that the army must have shot at the civilians, I just knew. Because when you grow up in China, especially in the 80s you knew there were things you donāt say, that you canāt express in a public forum, because that can get you and your family in trouble. You just knew, and it didnāt fucking matter if your were a child or an adult.
To this day I donāt remember how I found out what happened in Tiananmen Square, because the news covered it up, but people found out. My grandparents knew, my uncles and aunts knew. Extended family visited my grandparents, I remember people telling my mother not to mention my fatherās name because my father was a Chinese Beijing University graduate, who had gone overseas. Because there were people who died in the protests that my dad knew.
And it was all just so frightening because nobody was telling me directly what was happening, but I just knew that all the people on the streets was probably dead.
Looking back on it, Tiananmen Square instilled in a me a life long distrust of governments, but especially the Chinese government. Iām ethnically Chinese but I never want to return to China, not even for a holiday, and this has been my attitude even before Xi Jinping took power. Because Tiananmen Square was a peaceful protest that ended up with the army using heavy artillery against their own people. How can you trust in a system, in a government like that? Because if my dad had delayed further studies overseas by two years he would have been one of those students, one of those fucking kids on the streets that would have died.
And you know, when the Umbrella movement was happening in Hong Kong I was deeply panicked and just anxious because I kept on thinking all those people, all those kids are going to be killed. And when that didnāt happen it was such a relief.
When I found out years later that Chinese people a few years younger than me didnāt know what happened in Tiananmen Square I was so fucking angry. I canāt even articulate the rage and the sheer tiredness of it all.
Dad and I talked about Tiananmen Square a few times through the years, broadly, politically, and at times with sheer rage on dadās part. I donāt even know what I wanted to say, but just fuck this fucking regime.
I was In Hong Kong when Tiananamen Square Massacre happened. Hong Kong was still a British colony then and had full freedom of press, and its reporters were there recording live footage while trying to stay as long as possible when tanks rolled in and shots were fired, when students lay in blood and their fellow students piled the injured bodies on those wooden plank carts to get them to the hospitals, while asking the Hong Kongers who were there to support the movement to please remember that night and spread the story of the massacre far and wide, because they already knew they would be silenced, if not imprisoned or murdered.
That night, and in the upcoming months, Hong Kong was in perpetual tears, and in literal shock.
i could rant for an hour about how stuff like the car commercial plaguing my news commercial breaks with the dr*co actor from terf wizard movies ends up driving a car whose steering wheel chose him guided by a ginger lady who looks like the carbon copy of terf supreme joanne happens because people still give that godforsaken ip enough advertisement that people make commercials referencing it and itās just really fucking bad but i have 0 force of will to rant about that shit so just please fuckās sake make the hbo show tank let this ip die i canāt with knowing how much money is going to joanneās political enterprises and it should not get THAT much extra cash
every other note on this post is someone going "am i allowed to use paper maps?" yes. obviously. i did not say "without a map", i said without your electronics. And to the like, 20% of people saying "of course, i would simply take the train" that is definitionally not a road trip. i love trains too, but that is a rail trip. a road trip requires taking a trip on the road.
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Jaime slapping Red Ronnet indicates that he has not yet mastered his worst impulses and that even his golden hand can still be used to cause harm. In that sense, yes, I do think the moment connects to Jaime as the Valonqar.
It also shows his possessiveness over the people he considers, on some level, to belong to him. And I will give you this: I do think Jaime sees Brienne as āhisā in some way. Not necessarily romantically, but in terms of loyalty. That is why he is irritated when he realizes he was not told about her betrothal.
To me, the scene is meant to show how Jaime behaves when he loses control. It foreshadows what could happen with Cersei, because his relationship with her is also defined by his possessiveness, his violence, and his lack of emotional control.
I ship Jaime and Cersei, but I am fully aware of how twisted their relationship is. I have never expected them to have a happy ending. That scene is about Jaime as a character, and it is absolutely tied to him and Cersei.
LMAO Iām sorry but thereās so much bending over backwards breaking your back reach happening here that I donāt even know where to begin. But letās give it a try.
First of all, Ronnet exists in that chapter almost entirely as a Jaime/Brienne narrative device. He is there so Jaime can pry into Brienneās past, react to the man who rejected and humiliated her, and show how drastically his view of her has changed. This is the same Jaime who spent most of their journey insulting Brienne in his own head, calling her ugly, stubborn, stupid, a wench, etc. Now he hears another man speak about her with that same contempt and he cannot stand for it. He demands respect for her when she is not even there to hear it. When Jaime slaps Ronnet, heās also slapping his past self. He wonāt be another Ronnet to Brienne. Thereās a reason why past that scene, he doesnāt think about her in any insulting terms ever again.
Second, calling that scene proof Jaime āhas not mastered his worst impulsesā is such a fundamental misunderstanding of Jaime in general but especially of that scene specifically. Iām paraphrasing oomf here, but in the Ronnet scene, Jaime is not out of control. He is actually very controlled. He does not attack Ronnet immediately, he leads Ronnet exactly where he wants him to be. He questions him. He pulls information out of him. He manipulates Ronnet into revealing what happened between him and Brienne. He controls the entire conversation. And when he gathers all the information he wants, he acts. Even the slap is timed.
Third, thereās an awful lot of projecting Cerseiās traits onto Jaime here which just tells me yall truly donāt understand Jaimeās character at all, I donāt even know if you guys actually like him or just the fanon interpretation that you came up with to suit the narrative you like best (ironic, since this is very much what Cersei does as well so ha). Cersei is the possessive, violent, emotionally uncontrolled one in their dynamic. She is the one who cannot tolerate Jaime having emotional loyalties outside of her. Who murdered her childhood best friend because said friend had a crush on her twin again? Wasnāt Jaime, last I checked.
Fourth, Jaimeās reaction to Ronnet is about him seeing Brienne as a woman worthy of defense even in her absence because he cares about her yes, but also quite honestly letās stop bullshiting around it, itās about his romantic feelings and jealousy of her ex lol. Itās a romantic trope as old as time: guy is in love with girl, guy meets girlās douchebag ex, guy pries for information about them cause heās a bit jealous of it and wants to know more, guy punches douchebagās ex for disrespecting the girl he loves in front of him. This is a trope for a reason. The trope isnāt āguy is obsessed with his twin, so he meets ex boyfriend of another unrelated girl, punches him for talking shit about this unrelated girl her, feels possessive over this unrelated girl but like in a platonic way, but in reality this is all about his twin and not this new girl at allā. Because itās convoluted and also it doesnāt make any fucking sense. Thereās nothing platonic about the scene. Itās probably one of the most explicit romantic moments George wrote for them, outside of you know, dreams and jumping into bear pits and boners and mooning over pretty eyes.
Honestly, Ronnet is probably the worst example to use if youāre trying to argue Jaime is still defined by possessive violent jealousy over Cersei, because in the same book Jaime literally comes face to face with Lancel. Lancel tells him he slept with Cersei, and Jaime does not beat him. He does not go into some murderous jealous rage. He pities him. He tells him to eat. He tells him to stop being a fool and to not make the same mistakes he did.
Meanwhile, Brienneās ex insults her and Jaime breaks his teeth.
I think itās on par with Jaime burning Cerseiās letter and refusing to come back to her vs Jaime abandoning his army and leaving with Brienne the moment she asks for his help in the hall of worse scenes to ever happen if you ship twincest.
Idk man, at his point yall are one step away of saying that Jaime is going to valonqar Brienne when he finds out Hyle proposed.
it will never stop astonishing me how people are so bent on misreading jaime lannister aka the relevant pov in this series thatās like most straightforward to get if you take davos and sam out of the equation and who is in the top five most reliable narrators in these books, and the one thing heās deluded about is just in book three but for the rest his narrative is so transparent i just. why. why.
in case you didn't know, you can type "-ai" after your search terms in google and none of that gen ai shite at the top of the page will come up + you save that bit of water and power + you go back to being misinformed by google the old fashioned way: with pages of rigged SEO results ā¤ļø just to reiterate you can bypass/filter out the gen-ai results google search tries to shove down your throat by typing "-ai" after each search.
hello fellow artists. google has fallen. pinterest/duckduckgo AI filters don't work. do not despair; here is a list i made of places to find reference images without having to sift through piles of worthless garbage. (for future editing convenience i am just linking my blog post on dreamwidth.)
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Wow, this also really puts onto perspective why google sucks as a search engine now too. Taking away the tools to do it yourself through shittification.
