I like talking about sex and drugs and stuff. Scram, it's not for your safety, it's for my comfort and I want nothing to do with children.
Hello! Hi! I'm fleshengine, you can call me Flen. I’m your famous mutual’s famous mutual. I won't bite, unless you ask for it.
This post got long, here's this break for you if you're desperate to start reading my silly little posts or something.
I'm a 21 year old writer/english major trans woman from Washington State. I'm also a spidergirl, idk if I'm a furry or therian with it, but it's pretty neat. I'm also a shambling pile of vat-cloned meat in the shape of a human. I'm also an ominous blue eye starin' at you on your dash, but don't worry it's cuz I love you. Idk, identities are hard when you're trans, and have a dissociative disorder, and have an illness that causes chronic pain. I could list all the labels that apply to me but I find microlabels exhausting, I'm a cool gay girl, I use she/it and you're welcome to figure the rest out yourself.
DMs are open (I think?), the ask box has anons on. You're welcome to talk to me, as that's what I'm here on tumblr for. Be careful tho, talking to randos on the internet is how I ended up in a throuple with two beautiful women, so watch out.
This is a personal blog, first and foremost. I'm going to be stupid and gay with my girlfriends, I am going to shitpost, and I'm going to occasionally make longer form posts about things I'm passionate about. Those things can be anything from MTG, to kink, to philosophy. If you follow me for one of these things, and don't want to see the other stuff, tough shit! My tagging system sucks ass and I don't even use it all the time.
If you follow this account, you will occasionally see untagged porn, kink, violence, gay sex, magic the gathering, and existentialism. If you want solid tagging go to my art blog @terriblearmoire or my gimmick blog, which no one knows the name of.
That said, here's my tags I use.
#smoochuals - something a mutual posted or added in a reblog
#posts that make me gurgle - I thought this post was hot and wanted to be able to find it later.
#wowzers - often coupled with the above tag, I arbitrarily use one or the both of them.
#revving the engine - thoughtpieces, anecdotes, rants. really any sort of long form text post.
#pilfering my old corpse - posts I've stolen from my old, dead, account.
#meatqueuedator - queue post tag. it's a really obscure reference.
#I have an art blog btw - something I'm reblogging from my art blog, self explanatory I guess.
#relic - an old post from pre-2018. I like the way tumblr recirculates old things, I want to be able to find them later.
#resourceposting - any kind of resource, something useful I want to come back to.
#boob update - talking about breast development from E and prog
#prog update - talking about physicaly developments from progesterone, often overlaps with boob updates.
#spider - There's an image of a realistic spider that may trigger arachnophobia
#spiderposting - I myself am a spider, and I'm talking about that.
#girls of interest - newest tag, to refer to my lovely girlbuddies turned girlfriends, @apfsds and @numbersareimaginary
#mtg - I'm actually consistent with this one for some reason. It's self explanatory
#losers - a tag I stole from Mordred, something I append to people who are being annoying
Something that always tickles me when it comes to Halo is how people talk about Scarabs. They talk about them like vehicles, things that you can get in and pilot around. Which does happen in the games, you can hop on a scarab and fight the guys chilling inside. But those guys aren't piloting it. They're manning the guns, and telling it where to go, but no one is driving a Scarab.
For context in Halo, the enemies you fight are usually a group of aliens called The Covenant. They're a bunch of different alien races organized in a religious hierarchical caste system. They have some classic normal lookin aliens, there's the big monkey men, the crafty avians, the tall noble warriors, etc. But they also have some weirder ones in the mix. Hunters are these enormous balls of armor with a gigantic cannon and a shield they're more than happy to slap your shit with. They look like this:
But it's not just a normal alien guy under that armor. It's a bunch of worms. See Hunters are made up of colonies of Lekgolo worms. Each Hunter has a gestalt intelligence made up of all the worms that also make up its body. As part of creating a hunter, the colony of Lekgolo are actually split, and half is growth into one hunter, and the other half is its brood brother. They are raised together, fight together, and literally are each other's other half. Those two in that pic? They've known each other their entire lives
Back to Scarabs. Uhh, you'll notice how they're not named to the usually naming conventions of Covenant vehicles? Covenant dropships are Phantoms, and Spirits. Their tank is called a Wraith. Small personal attack vehicle, that's a Ghost. Static defense turrets get called Shades. You get the deal. Their vehicles are named after spirits of the dead. Scarabs, are not named after spirits. Sure, scarabs are associated with the dead, given how much ancient Egypt loved scarabs. But they're not spirits, and very much a living kind of bug. That's because Scarabs are made of the same stuff as Hunters.
This thing right here? That's not a vehicle. That's A GUY made of worms wearing highest tech mobility aid you have ever seen.
People make jokes about "imagine drunk driving one of these mfs" with a pic of a Scarab, imagining it would be like driving a car, when in reality it would be much closer to how every few years you hear a news story about some drunk guy letting his horse take him home because it knows the way better than he does. Except in this version the horse crushes your house and slags half of your neighborhood in frustration.
Like. Why did I need to call to solve this problem? I was on hold like three minutes? That's enough time for the pharmacy tech to tell the pharmacist what the issue is and for the pharmacist to press a couple buttons on a computer. Could this issue not have been solved without me needing to call? If so, tell me I need to call! Tell me "hey we need confirmation" or whatever the hell. Or better yet? Just give me my fucking meds.
Saying this as a non-Christian and as someone who doesn’t believe in an “afterlife” of “judgement”
I’m like 90% sure that the white disbelief in anything, mixed with the overwhelming cultural Christianity (that they often pretend they aren’t afflicted by) is in part because of a latent terror that they’ll actually face some sort of final judgement for the crimes of white supremacy after death. A supernatural Hague, if you will. They can’t face Judgement for their willing or accepted actions or inactions if there’s just Nothing There.
I forget who phrased the original concept, but the surest proof that ghosts/the dead have no power to terrorize the living beyond their own stories is the fact that between Indigenous folks and Black folks, our ancestors haven’t killed the majority of the white population in the US.
At this point Ralsei could turn to directly face the player in Chapter 6 (who she knows to exist), stare directly into the camera, and say "I am transfeminine, I want to transition and be a girl and I want to be referred to with she/her pronouns from now on" and over half the Deltarune fanbase will just go "well maybe he's still figuring it out, I don't think we can reasonably assume he's transfem because I personally still read him as a [slur for transfems that originated as a porn category]"
eating rice, there's definitely an upper limit to how much you can eat, but thinking about it in abstract? when filling a plate? it's hard to conceive of it. that's what makes it so dangerous
you can just say "person with ovaries." "an AFAB" makes literally no sense here, in addition to being grammatically nonsensical. sorry but this bleet has been pissing me off all day but i feel like if i reply to it i'll get it trouble.
a trans man who hasn't had any ovaries for 25 years isn't going to experience perimenopause in his mid-40s, so why include him based on a gender assigned to him as a baby? like... he was a baby.
like why bother acting like you want to be trans-inclusive if you're too lazy to recognize that sometimes, trans bodies aren't going to be the same as they were at birth when they got handed their baby gender
people dont realize how grim the actual statistics are, by the time they're calling "GUARDS", 94% of princesses wind up in some kind of panel 2 scenario