#1 victim of broodparasitism

22 | she/it | white | EDS/POTS | Account #2 I'll kill you on this hill.

[fleshengine]

No kids, we're 18 and up here.

I like talking about sex and drugs and stuff. Scram, it's not for your safety, it's for my comfort and I want nothing to do with children.

Hello! Hi! I'm fleshengine, you can call me Flen. I’m your famous mutual’s famous mutual. I won't bite, unless you ask for it.

This post got long, here's this break for you if you're desperate to start reading my silly little posts or something.

I'm a 21 year old writer/english major trans woman from Washington State. I'm also a spidergirl, idk if I'm a furry or therian with it, but it's pretty neat. I'm also a shambling pile of vat-cloned meat in the shape of a human. I'm also an ominous blue eye starin' at you on your dash, but don't worry it's cuz I love you. Idk, identities are hard when you're trans, and have a dissociative disorder, and have an illness that causes chronic pain. I could list all the labels that apply to me but I find microlabels exhausting, I'm a cool gay girl, I use she/it and you're welcome to figure the rest out yourself.

DMs are open (I think?), the ask box has anons on. You're welcome to talk to me, as that's what I'm here on tumblr for. Be careful tho, talking to randos on the internet is how I ended up in a throuple with two beautiful women, so watch out.

This is a personal blog, first and foremost. I'm going to be stupid and gay with my girlfriends, I am going to shitpost, and I'm going to occasionally make longer form posts about things I'm passionate about. Those things can be anything from MTG, to kink, to philosophy. If you follow me for one of these things, and don't want to see the other stuff, tough shit! My tagging system sucks ass and I don't even use it all the time.

If you follow this account, you will occasionally see untagged porn, kink, violence, gay sex, magic the gathering, and existentialism. If you want solid tagging go to my art blog @terriblearmoire or my gimmick blog, which no one knows the name of.

That said, here's my tags I use. #smoochuals - something a mutual posted or added in a reblog #posts that make me gurgle - I thought this post was hot and wanted to be able to find it later. #wowzers - often coupled with the above tag, I arbitrarily use one or the both of them. #revving the engine - thoughtpieces, anecdotes, rants. really any sort of long form text post. #pilfering my old corpse - posts I've stolen from my old, dead, account. #meatqueuedator - queue post tag. it's a really obscure reference. #I have an art blog btw - something I'm reblogging from my art blog, self explanatory I guess. #relic - an old post from pre-2018. I like the way tumblr recirculates old things, I want to be able to find them later. #resourceposting - any kind of resource, something useful I want to come back to. #boob update - talking about breast development from E and prog #prog update - talking about physicaly developments from progesterone, often overlaps with boob updates. #spider - There's an image of a realistic spider that may trigger arachnophobia #spiderposting - I myself am a spider, and I'm talking about that. #girls of interest - newest tag, to refer to my lovely girlbuddies turned girlfriends, @apfsds and @numbersareimaginary #mtg - I'm actually consistent with this one for some reason. It's self explanatory #losers - a tag I stole from Mordred, something I append to people who are being annoying

Last updated: May 1st, 2025

[hyenaswine]

you can just say "person with ovaries." "an AFAB" makes literally no sense here, in addition to being grammatically nonsensical. sorry but this bleet has been pissing me off all day but i feel like if i reply to it i'll get it trouble.

[hyenaswine]

a trans man who hasn't had any ovaries for 25 years isn't going to experience perimenopause in his mid-40s, so why include him based on a gender assigned to him as a baby? like... he was a baby.

[hyenaswine]

like why bother acting like you want to be trans-inclusive if you're too lazy to recognize that sometimes, trans bodies aren't going to be the same as they were at birth when they got handed their baby gender

[maidthings]

people dont realize how grim the actual statistics are, by the time they're calling "GUARDS", 94% of princesses wind up in some kind of panel 2 scenario

[maidslime]

Person came onto my post saying words like "transmasc" and "transfeminist" but when it was time to talk about trans women as an identity said "mtf"

I do not trust like that. Get outta here.

[threegendersinahoodie]

Hey can anyone help me with my phone bill it’s past due and normally my aunt pays it. I just need $40

PayPal : sophielikescats

Venmo : darkskull

[onedollopofsourcream]

emergency food help 7/16/26

anybody have $10 for a family of 7 (2 kids under 15) to eat now and later please help us get like anything? liu is out for the summer and will eat her meals here. We have no way to get to the store please help me a autistic disabled, lesbian and family survive this month also we're still overdrawn

p3ypal: avatarerin

c3sh app: $avatarpyler

v3nmo: skiesofperiwinkle

k0fi: gothkittygalore

gofundme

[doyoulovethewayzeylily]

it's more than a little irritating when tumblrites get all precious about 4chan. the only reason you think this place is better is because of the people you follow. please keep in mind that tumblr has a thriving TERF community, staff only banned the #reichblr tag this year after a trans woman made a fuss about it (they ban her at minimum once a month), kiwifarms uses the place as a hunting ground, etc etc.

tumblr is a suburb and it shows

[doyoulovethewayzeylily]

it's very obvious to me that it comes from a desire to go, "oh, I'm nothing like a 4channer, all the horrible bad stuff happens somewhere else and has nothing to do with me". and then you scroll past posts talking about anti-Black racism because they made you feel uncomfortable.

[digitaldiscipline]

tumblr wasn't created as a right-wing psyop slash grooming habitat for the worst people in the world.

hope that helps.

[doyoulovethewayzeylily]

hello I was on the internet when 4chan was created, it was made by a bunch of upper-middle-class teenagers as an anime fan forum. I will put this into words you can understand: 4chan is and was just as much a part of "fandom" as tumblr, livejournal, wattpadd, any of it.

it's very obvious to me that it comes from a desire to go, "oh, I'm nothing like a 4channer, all the horrible bad stuff happens somewhere else and has nothing to do with me".

[doyoulovethewayzeylily]

the guy who owns this website wrote an apologist article about Scott Adams when he died.

Distributor, newspapers drop 'Dilbert' comic strip after creator's racist rant

The comic's creator, Scott Adams, said a recent opinion poll changed his mind about "helping Black Americans."

there are reasons I'm here and not twitter but like. come the fuck on

[doyoulovethewayzeylily]

#does it matter why 4chan was created though #like what it became is/was horrible and spawned shit like kiwifarms #and was instrumental in the rise of gamergate and the internet alt-right movement #tumblr is shit but it's had comparatively little cultural impact

prev I have been called a groomer, a pedophile, a rapist, and many more things on this very website in the last six months alone. I've seen so many wonderful, kind, sweethearted trans women get subjected to an endless two-minutes-hate. kiwifarms uses this place as a hunting ground, do you imagine that's because nobody there has a tumblr account?

I reported this in early June, I have heard nothing back. you can go see for yourself that this person is still posting without issue.

you are the strawman here.

[doyoulovethewayzeylily]

#also like just point of order gamergate primarily started on 8chan and reddit #gjoni was laughed off 4chan when he tried to shop his story around there

no say that!! average tumblrite thinks that 4chan did QAnon, no ma'am that was 8chan. I knew that things were going to hell because my dad started posting 4chan screenshots to facebook, when he started posting 8chan screenshots? I started preparing for current year.

this isn't an apology for 4chan, I just need you all to stop reducing social movements to websites. 4chan is not a vibe it is a website, real human people were there and it has a history that you can understand.

[fleshengine]

Like yea /pol/ was started shortly after the guy met with Jeffery Epstein, and that's where a bunch of stuff started, or found a userbase.

And yeah /b/ is a toxic cesspit, /r9k/ isn't much better, and these three bleed out into the rest of the site. But that doesn't mean the rest of the site is always like that 24/7.

There's still discussion about anime, there's a travel board, there are porn boards, video and traditional games. It's just a weird old social media with a bad rep because of some of its users. A lot of people are just there because they like the anonymity and lack of censorship.

[comeinsider]

[avakkins-alter]

#Yidhari | Hyuk

[fleshengine]

My problem is that I need a haircut but there's so many things the affect the kind of haircut I want to get that I can't every find one that works for me.

Like I'd like to to be above my shoulders so that it doesn't catch on the gorgets we wear at swords. But I also need it to look definitely feminine because I need every scrap of femininity I can manage so I can pass consistently. But I also need it to look queer so that other queer people will know I'm one of them. It can't be too short, I kinda want bangs, my hair is only a tiny bit curly (like a very tiny bit you can only see when it's short and washed correctly) so it doesn't have a ton of volume, and also I'd like it to be low maintenance because I'm bad at keeping up with personal grooming and stuff because I'm depressed.

Do you understand why it's hard for me to get a haircut yet?

[maidslime]

The thing about the "trans women are capable of harm" type posts and blogs like transmascvoicesproject is that on a daily basis trans women are told that we are predators, that we are violent, that we have the rape organ, that we solely exist for fetishistic reasons and that makes us dangerous to be around. Society never lets us forget this. Cinema never lets us forget this. Terfs never let us forget this. Political parties on either side of the spectrum never let us forget this. These people post like they live in a world where trans women/transfeminine people are shielded from the consequences of our actions by our identities, but that's a fantasy. We are not only held accountable for our actions, but responses to our mistakes and transgressions are often extremely worse than that of other people. Not to mention, a lot of trans women are lied about, marked rapist/pedophile/abusive by an abusive, transphobic ex, and then isolated and removed from friends groups for the crime of coming out as trans. This is so, so, so common.

We do not need you to remind us we are capable of harm, trust me when I say we fucking know.

[fleshengine]

Every trans girl I know is too afraid of being seen as a predator to allow herself to be intimate with someone else. It takes years of understanding ourselves as something outside of the common archetype for us to get over that.

But go ahead. Tell me again that I'm capable of harm.

[foxxgirlsblog]

I'm probably going to be single for the rest of my life, I could spend the rest of my life without having my fucking genitalia being called "The Rape Organ".

Is that enough penance for the crime of "having been born with a penis"? No?

As if AFAB people aren't capable of being rapists. As if they aren't capable of being abusers.

I tire of this bioessentialist rhetoric..

I assure you, some of the most abusive, misogynistic people I've ever had the displeasure of meeting have been trans men.

Its got nothing to do with a Rape Organ, and everything to do with toxic patriarchal conditioning and dog eat dog socioeconomics.

[sapphling]

fun thing about advertising data is that last night i found out that while me and a thin friend have been listening to the same podcast only i have been getting bombarded by glp-1 ads during it lmao

[fleshengine]

Those boar hunts that medieval nobles went on were basically larping pre-civilization hunter gatherer groups hunting megafauna.

[fleshengine]

*booting up Signalis* boy oh boy here I go, remembering our promise again

[fleshengine]

Why do I derive enjoyment from achievement hunting. Seriously what the hell is wrong with me.

[fleshengine]

*booting up Signalis* boy oh boy here I go, remembering our promise again

[transmascvoiceproject]

A transfem did 9/11 😔

If anyone has any details that would lead me to tgirl bush, PLEASE let me know

[fibrefox]

Paused King of the Hill on an interesting frame

[xintract]