Daimon Masaru: (n.) Big Trouble

Indie RP blog for Daimon Masaru of Digimon Savers. Read the "READ ME." It's just a post, tagged "rules." Easily accessible on mobile. Mun close to 40, please explicitly state if you are under 20. Follows from @orenonahaichigoda, a Bleach RP blog. Se habla Español/日本語でどうぞ

[orenonahaichigoda]

PSA Because I've Got Some New Followers

Do *NOT* use broken Japanese with me, EVER.

I welcome RPers who play with me in actual Japanese, as long as you're fluent, and not using Google Translate, which is a joke in the polyglot comm for good reason.

I am Japanese American.

I'm actually New First Gen. This is the only reason I speak Japanese.

Speaking Japanese, only if it was your ancestral tongue, was made ILLEGAL in WWII during the Concentration Camps ALL Japanese Americans, even children, were put into. If you were NOT Japanese, it was 100% legal. Not to mention, you'd be wanted and paid handsomely by the military.

This is why most Japanese Americans don't speak a word of Japanese. It was STOLEN from my American-raised community members.

I have faced up to and including PHYSICAL VIOLENCE by everyone from classmates to TEACHERS to PARTNERS for speaking Japanese. The most recent blatant attack on Japanese speaking specifically, a whole coffee house including a group of people whowere holding a group of "how to help immigrants during trump regime" GANGED UP ON AND SCREAMED AT me and a friend of mine for BEING IMMIGRANTS AND SPEAKING OUR NATIVE LANGUAGE in SoCal.

Not to mention xenophobic violence, along with queerphobic violence, happens to me daily where I live, everything from threats, to slurs, to physical, and right now, we're in quarantine,and I am barricaded in my dingy shoebox of an apartment afraid to even go outside for air.

Not to mention co-workers love to do everything from 'joke' about me "speaking Asian" to throw Burmese and Thai speakers at me to help because of their racism.

When you"decorate your boring human default English with weird, exotic Japanese," you SPIT UPON the violence and other racism and xenophobia I face DAILY. You SPIT UPON that our language was stolen from much of my community.

This is much of the argument against cultural appropriation in general. See approptiation of Native American cultures, which are also treated as if "all the same."

It fills me with absolute rage.

So for both of our sakes, at least don't do it when speaking to me, although ideally, you wouldn't do it at all.

Consider this my Golden Rule, to not do this. Any "my fetishisation/appropriation" as well as "stealing from Japanese artists on Pixiv" those are hard, HARD limits for me, and trying to sell them as "love/respect/appreciation" is as overused to Asians by non-Asians as "once upon a time" in fairy tales, and is a red flag the size of a Canadian province.

It's 2020, and you can bet your boots I see the fandom not lighting up to protest Covid violence against Asians. I see absolutely no one concerned about gentrification since the 1940s, long before anyone else experienced it, killing off Asian American communities.

Now we deal with remaining businesses folding as people don't shop but take day trips to Asian neighbourhoods to beat us up for Covid.

I also see every one of you not giving a hoot about the protests being today's excuse to completely trash those communities facing both decades of gentrification and now Covid violence.

I see your behaviour towards us. I see that you really would rip off our skin and wear it if you could. I see that you just want to "capture and own" an Asian, any Asian will do because Asianness is our only trait. I also see you validating this by asking some guy that has never lived anywhere but Nara his entire life and has no idea what's going on, and then use that to silence us.

I see the behaviour of 98% of fandoms that say they "LoVe AnD ReSpEcT uwu" and no you don't. Racism is systemic abuse, and abusers are not welcome here.

[orenonahaichigoda]

What Would Your Muse's Impulse Reaction to Walking Into a Pillar Be?

Ichigo would probably square up in defence, thinking someone was attacking him.

[late-stagechosen]

Ken would apologise to the pillar before he realised it was an object

[japanstopbrawler1992]

And Masaru would tell and turn around to deck the pillar before realising it was a pillar.

[japanstopbrawler1992]

@cpirits

Masaru arrived just when he wanted to--a half-hour before swing shift, before anyone would really be floating around the break room.

Still in his school uniform, his book bag was expected to be with him.

"Boss..." Agumon whined from inside the digivice.

Masaru shushed him and went to work.

He drew out a bag of salt from his book bag and placed it on the counter.

He emptied what was left in the sugar container next to the coffee maker into the sink, and washed that thoroughly down the drain.

Then he opened the salt and emptied it into the sugar dispenser.

Putting the lid back on, he set it in place before sitting down at the break room table.

He considered pretending to do his homework, but that was too conspicuous for him--it would look suspect.

Instead, after realising Agumon and tossing him an apple from lunch, he pulled out the sports magazine he kept to read in science class, sitting down at the table as he waited for people to come in.

Agumon chortled, "they're gonna be surprised!"

"Unless you spill the beans!" Masaru urgently whispered back, a finger to his lips. "Act natural."

"Oh, right," Agumon agreed, and set to eating his apple

Masaru couldn't wait for the first victim's face.

[orenonahaichigoda]

80s Song Title/Lyric RP Starter Meme

I'm an immigrant from Japan and like many Japanese listeners, am not constrained by language of song. So even your parents may not recognise some of these. I translated everything that wasn't originally in English, though. Here we go

"Go back to being as you were back then"

"It's just a shame, that's all"

"1,2,3, that's the keyword"

"Let us sing!"

"You've got to believe in your star"

"You've got some tracks to erace"

"We're just dancing in the dark"

"Nothing but shattered dreams"

"Don't cry alone, show me that smile"

"It's not that I don't understand"

"Summer is over"

"I don't care anymore"

"We're just talkin', talkin'"

"Let the music play"

"Close your eyes and come to me"

"I get your dream"

"Stay with me, babe"

"Let's make lots of money"

"Turn the lights on in the room now and then"

"You don't know what it means to be with you"

"I threw the revolver on the dashboard into the sea"

"People need some reason to believe"

"You can do magic"

"You were always so lost in the dark"

"Were we just too young?"

"Cut the strings that control you"

"Even if the world turned its back on us, I wouldn't let go of you"

"Let me sleep well"

"Honestly, it would be nice to touch you"

"I have five or six...or seven or eight.... things to apologise for"

"Don't you turn me down"

"I gotta do it my way or nothing at all"

"You know I still love you"

"What have I done to deserve this?"

"It's a put-on"

"It'll always be this way"

"It's just another day"

"Is it okay if I start liking you?"

"For a little while, I was falling in love"

"Hello,yeah, it's been a while"

"I just called to say I love you"

"Sure as the sun will cross the sky, this lie is over"

"I'm still standing"

"I just called to say how lost I feel without you"

"What a spectacular morning"

"No one notices me, here in the dark"

"Never give up on a good thing"

"Give me the reason to want you back"

"We'll be dancing in the moonlight"

[characterdevelopmentasks]

Hi!

Some of you have already been in the first round–but to make it brief:  this account is a semi-automated question generator that asks random blogs random questions about their muses!

The point is:  reblog this post to get yourself added onto the list, to show me that you’re ok with receiving questions, and to get even more people aware of the process.  I’ll still seek out blogs on my own, but you can do this to expedite the process!

Multimuses, in the tags, you can list the muses you want questions directed to in the following format:  (muse1-muse2-muse3) and so on and so forth.  If not, it just won’t be directed to anyone!

Thanks and happy developing!

(In which I realize you can’t put commas in tags.)

[japanstopbrawler1992]

Masaru actually makes a great home cook.

Home recipies are done with feeling--he won't measure out the seven pepper powder, but he can "add mirin until it tastes like Mum's"

That being said, he's horrible at baking. Baking depends on precise measurements for chemical reactions.

... maybe it's best he doesn't try. I don't know if a neighborhood constantly having the fire department called lowers property value, but...

His cooking is also somewhat inconsistent, so he wouldn't be too good at a restaurant, either. Same reason. His food would come out better some nights than others.

He would have to get over his tendency to do things like "cooking for 150C for 30 minutes is the same as cooking at 300C for 15!" (Which, to be fair, I had to learn not to do that, too)

The one thing is he would be more *creative* than Touma would if he actually had to cook and didn't have personal staff. A fridge with cabbage, eggs, sausage, and yoghurt could, with rice to go with it and spices, yield a delicious omelet over rice with a creamy sauce. This is actually something I made the other night (unsweetened, plain yoghurt)

There's no such recipe, and those ingredients are completely random, but not sticking to recipies can be beneficial in that type of situation.

Actually, Touma's cooks are likely to stick to recipies, too, if even ones they made. They're still professional cooks. It's really only cooking at home that allows you to "whatever" it and "feel" your way into a good dish.

Of course, it would take years to develop this sense. There were plenty of rubbery greens, chicken charred on the outside with a raw centre, and boiled catfish curry incidents along the way for me.

Masaru's fist few years of cooking, even if he watched Sayuri like I watched my granma, unless she specifically instructed him thoroughly, would still be a disaster.

And I also don't think Masaru has the paitience to be slowly instructed over many years, so he'd probably learn by experience...

... just hopefully not by experience of being scolded once inside the ambulance....

[japanstopbrawler1992]

Yeah, Masaru would definitely drill this one up until his ears rang.

[japanstopbrawler1992]

Touma walking in on Masaru rocking out www

This is probably about as down-tempo as Masaru would go

[japanstopbrawler1992]

Masaru would totally shadow box to this one.

For all the confused people in the '80s metal tag, this is a Digimon Savers blog, but run by someone old enough to remember this stuff.

[japanstopbrawler1992]

More music if Masaru was or knew someone with similar taste a bit older.

The lyrics might be kinda melodramatic for him, but let's be honest, it would probably be fine because it sounds good.

[japanstopbrawler1992]

More music I think Masaru would like if he were my age or introduced by someone older.

I typically don't post the PVs, but this one? Considering Masaru has Touma in his life? Too good to resist.

[japanstopbrawler1992]

So, I'm not gonna comb through 2000's metal trying to find something that doesn't sound awful to me that I think Masaru would like. So the next few posts are gonna be music Masaru would like if he was my age or shown it by someone my age. Tag will be "mp3 collection," because Masaru would be in high school around 2008-2011

[japanstopbrawler1992]

Masaru would definitely have a hard time processing and handling things like grief or other extreme sadness. This is actually a plot point and turning point in the project I keep talking about.

Masaru seems to also feel compelled to shoulder some of Sayuri's emotions. Remember the scene where he's trying to make her feel better and assure her he'll find Suguru and fix everything?

But he turns tough situations into challenges.

This is generally a good thing, but he doesn't strike me as someone who's terribly equipped to deal with things he *can't* fix.

Moreover, his way of fixing things, again, is with his fists. There's actually a similar arc in my Bleach project, where Ichigo becomes very depressed because one person cannot fix systemic bigotry, particularly with a sword.

But if it came to a hopeless situation, something that can't be solved, Masaru would really need someone willing to share the burden. And that he's willing to let share the burden. Chika is a younger sibling, and he treats Ikuto like One as well. Agumon is his underling/follower; they don't have an equitable relationship. And I don't think Masaru would *let* Sayuri take the burden from him.

[japanstopbrawler1992]

Crossovers

As previously mentioned, I have plans for fusing a huge Digimon fic project with a even bigger Bleach one that already has some prequels up.

Other than that, I don't really have a solid idea of what a crossover would look like, but I'm willing to entertain at least any animated media.

That being said, I'm likely to not actually know the media. Save Digimon and Bleach, the bulk of stuff I've watched has been Japanese detective dramas (Furuhata Ninzaburou, Aibou) or American sitcoms (Friends, Fresh Off the Boat, Mary Tyler Moore Show)

Even as a kid, I preferred stuff like original Kikkaider and Himitu Sentai Goranger to cartoons. My dad was the cartoon nerd.

So you'll more likely than not need to explain your muse to me a bit.

I'm willing to at least try with fictional live action muses, but I may not be able to get over it looking in my head like Who Framed Roger Rabbit or that one Paula Abdul PV.

I don't entertain real people muses.

[japanstopbrawler1992]

I've already said Masaru's the muse that is least like me (and Bleach's Ichigo is so much like me, in my project I may end up just giving him my career)

But I do get enough to want to play him.

Of course, uh, well, anyone who knows me can tell you all about my difficulty with modern technology. Although I'm really handy with analogue tech, to the point I still mostly use it and can do basic repair on most of it (though, like me, it's all ageing and showing problems it didn't used to, at which point, I seem to become Tim Taylor...)

One of the things I do get is the basic feeling of anger. Mine is related to racism and queerphobia to the point of being an abuse survivor because of it. This is why my triggers are rage triggers, and they're things like "dressing up my human default English in exotic Japanese" and other "racism against certain groups is empowering uwu" kinda stuff.

Masaru's is maybe not as easy to point out, although his seems to be directed towards things that either endanger loved ones (Masaru v. Piyomon), hurt feelings into anger (Masaru v. Touma the second time, after he gave Touma his trust) or things that just violate his ethics code/are cruel (Kurata)

Also, feeling looked down on (Touma at first, ostensibly the motivation for the people he regularly fights with, who mostly look older than him), but I think that's probably most people.

And of course, violence is the first resort and something he regards as a moral imperative rather than something he does only if he must (conversely, Ichigo seems to fight regretfully when feeling forced into it, and Ken, well, the moment he realised he was being violent to living beings, that was horrifying enough to break him of control, and probably scar him for life. Will be upset if he's totally well-adjusted in Kizuna)

But I still get the anger, even if mine's through 23 years of acquiring CPTSD (and my understanding of trauma is why I said the last thing in brackets) and his is more just kinda how he's wired.

Will it ever calm down? I kinda picture there having to be an event to really bring home that he's gotta stop defaulting to violence. The anger, you know, that might even end up getting worse.

I used to solve the problems I could with fighting because I just didn't see another way. In high school, once the Japanese side of my family was all deceased, and it was the racist side and a bunch of racist Southerners, I quickly realised I had no school staff or any authority figures on my side, and all I was left with was my fists.

But when I turned legal age, I didn't wanna end up in prison, and I already knew the law only accepts self-defence if you're white. And you have to be monoracial white to be white. Those both being obvious, I became afraid to fight for myself.

I have even in recent years, rushed headlong into fights to protect others, but I'm trying to get the victim to safety, not take on the attacker. Honestly, joint degradation at this point means the latter wouldn't work, anyway.

One thing I can so easily see Masaru sharing with me is, even after all these years, I never figured out how to protect myself without violence.

I recently got pepper spray. Literally three days ago. I'll see what happens. The problem is I've been taught so hard to fear consequences of protecting myself.

But Masaru would still have two things I do, even if for different reasons.

1. He would not know how to effectively stand up for himself or his loved ones in the absence of violence being a viable route. Being ineffective would further fuel anger.

2. I think he'd be prone to worse buildup of anger once he can't let any of it out in violence. As he ages, things like insomnia, stress-related vomiting, and high blood pressure might be very real problems for him.

When you use your fists to solve problems, but you aren't an abusive person, you eventually submit to that not being a reasonable answer, and you end up with a "what now?"

And even a couple of decades after losing the option of violence, I still don't have an answer. People say "don't let it get to you" or "let it roll of your back," and that doesn't make any sense to me. I'm not that type of person. I'm not capable of that. And I don't think Masaru is, either.

Breathing excersises, walking meditation (you focus on chanting, not emptying your mind), knowing the one kind of person who actually is beneath me (I see all people as just that, people) is a bully, I dunno. I just think it's very hard for someone who once relied on violence to find something else that works. Bottling it all up keeps you from dealing with cops, which dealing with cops is never a good idea in America, but actually getting rid of the anger, if I haven't found that by 2020, someone so much younger than me is unlikely to have.

Sure, he has living family and people that are good fighters themselves, and let's be real, Touma deals with bigoted family hating his guts. He also duelled Masaru early on. He gets the satisfaction of violence.

So he has more possibility to be taught various ways to maybe somewhat mitigate the stress at one point, but his gut reaction will probably always be rage, and frankly, probably Touma is the only one who has a chance of knowing a way to help diffuse the rage after it's there.

That being said, Touma has other failsafes. He does look down on other people. He's got access to an ivory tower of loftiness, if you will. He's the one most likely to understand how Masaru feels, but he has his own background and viewpoint that Masaru doesn't have an equivalent. And let's be honest, Sayuri, and what we know of him, Suguru, don't really have that anger.

A lot of people I work with don't have that anger, either. They can let people calling them monkeys or "joking" about the Holocaust or calling ICE on them roll of their back. And they tell me to, and I just can't. So I don't feel like Sayuri or Suguru have the rage necessary to help Masaru cope once violence is no longer a viable route. I've come to realise that feeling rage is a fundamental type of person, just as Sayuri's apparent lack of an anger drive.

I think Touma comes closest to it. But I think he'd have to have a better answer than "know you're better than them." Masaru doesn't have that kind of high horse. In fact, he seems to at first, readily agree with and be angered by Touma being of upper class and accomplishment as well as his arrogance.

But as much as there's just got to be a solution to deal with the rage, which Masaru has in spades, I am currently unable to even concieve it myself. So as Masaru gets older, yeah, I think he'd have not-insignificant health problems related to just all that anger sitting in him.

[japanstopbrawler1992]

Masaru was definitely like Bam- Bam (Flintstones) when he was small.

I think most kids actually don't know their strength, but it kinda took more for Masaru to become conscious of it.

It actually took the existence of Chika as a tiny, frail newborn.

That being said, generally trans people are at a disadvantage in strength. For Masaru, he would have degradation in the ability to build lower body strength, and he would never be as disposed to building upper body strength as if he were cis.

So he's worked on it really frigging hard!

That being said, he's fully aware of it. With things, yeah, he's rough on things. But with people he cares about, when he's trying to be gentle, he's really good at being incredibly gentle. If he wasn't, he would've crushed Agumon's egg running around with it.

[japanstopbrawler1992]

Masaru doesn't actually play video games. It puts him pretty out of step with most of his peers, but anything more complicated than Pong, and he just can't work it.

PC gaming is especially bad. He sends the computer so many simultaneous requests, the whole thing just goes blue screen.

He can do basic things on a heavily locked-down feature phone, but it's got a cracked screen, it's been replaced because he dropped one in the sink when it was his turn to do dishes, and he keeps downloading whatever and it's full of malware.

(Actually, this would be a really fun thread to do with a Touma now that I think about it)