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@jasonmydreams
I've matured as a person and will be abandoning this blog. I'll leave it up as a reminder to myself of my own growth and because I don't want to pretend it didn't happen. I learned a lot from running this blog. But I feel like there's too much to fix so I'll have to just start over. It's been lit.
harold, they’re lesbians
people are gay, steven
i’m a lesbian, carl
don’t be a transphobe, chad
we support the gays, david
i’m not jealous, flavio. i’m gay
ah, the extended edition
Love these
This is the best thread ever.
Y'all
I just wanted to let y'all know that I am currently in Colorado, getting blazed off my ass legally. 420 BLAZE IT MOTHERFUCKERS.
Nobody:
My brain: *Plays one singular line from a song I fully know every lyric to on endless loop in the background of my thoughts for a full week*
*or from a song from which I only remember that particular lyric.
My brain did that to me with Psychosalad. "Yummy yummy yummy yummy yummy-
I DID MY TIME
AND I WANT OUT-"
That was the whole thing. Over and over.
You ever have someone try to say something to you but literally all you hear is alphabet soup
Nobody:
My brain: *Plays one singular line from a song I fully know every lyric to on endless loop in the background of my thoughts for a full week*
that adhd feel when you have audio processing issues and cant tell what someone said because it sounds like they spoke russian but when you say what did you say they say something like “how was your day”
I’ve mentioned before that RSD doesn’t even need actual rejection/ criticism.. even the perception of rejection, whether true or false, can cause pain. And we can even cause ourselves to feel rejected.
Mental health issues in general can warp our perceptions. For example, depression and anxiety can twist things into looking darker and bleaker.
Perception is subjective; two people can experience the same thing and have vastly different experiences because of it. Our perception dictates our reality.
I failed a lot of my undergrad but have managed to bring it around and have been doing better currently in my Masters. In a recent assignment, I found out I got an A5. However, I wasn’t happy.. because I found out someone else got an A3.
I should be happy that I am getting As again, yet here I am comparing myself to others, feeling bad despite getting an A. Felt weird when I realized it.
It’s necessary to check our perception from time to time. Its necessary to appreciate our struggle and growth from time to time.
me: i think i’ll listen to this song :)
song: *ends as soon as it starts somehow*
me: wha- how? *restarts song*
song: *is over without me registering that it even played*
me: what have i been doing the past three minutes?
Me: ok we have to finish the work by tomorrow
My brain:
[ID: John Mulaney standing with a microphone. The caption reads, “Tomorrow? That’s not a real day.” End ID.]
I wanted to make this a tiktok but I’m lame so instead here’s a list of hopefully relatable™️ situations when you’ve got adhd
“Bro you don’t have adhd” being said to you. Just straight up denial
“Did you take your meds today?” Deadass don’t ask this unless I tell you to bc this phrase mixed with my rsd makes me read it as “you being your full self is annoying, and I like you better when you’re so focused on schoolwork that you forget to eat”
Explaining what a hyperfixation is 5000 times to a family member only to have them still ask “why do you do X so much?”
If your hyperfixations are mostly arts and craft stuff like mine are, what you hear constantly is “didn’t you used to do __? Why don’t you anymore” oh don’t worry Karen I will but it’ll be after I drop this current medium that I spent $500 dollars getting supplies for and have been doing non-stop
As an addition to that; holy FUCK do I have all the supplies and then some when a younger sibling or cousin needs to make a project for school
Someone asks about your hyperfixation so you start talking about it passionately but you notice they don’t look like they care or are paying attention so you apologize and they go “no keep going” so you do but they stop caring and paying attention again
To stop from fidgeting with literally everything your face looks like shit bc you just rip up your face as a fidget
Starting a new Med that doesn’t work and you go to class and halfway through when you realize your notes are covered in doodles and there’s not a single word on the page and you want to scream
Explaining my adhd to someone and they reply with “that seems like add not adhd” Karen they’ve meant the same thing for years now also my medical diagnosis says adhd
Actually having memory issues but someone who knows this constantly says it’s just an excuse to get out of doing things so when you actually DO remember something you feel like a liar
Tinnitus
Taking a few too many (a lot) of your sleeping pills designated for adhd hyperactive brains and when you’re out the next day sometimes your hearing just cuts off
Feeling so great and accomplished when you get something memory-wise down only to realize everybody else in this class memorized it two weeks before it was assigned
Rsd making you read somebody using a period at the end of their sentence as passive-aggression
Still loving your og hyperfixation but haven’t actually actively been involved with it so when you get back into it people new to it know more than you and it feels bad
Getting so into a hyperfixation that your body turns to stone and then somebody comes to tell you dinner is ready and you’re like I’m not hungry but you go to eat anyways and ur tummy goes OOOOOUGHHHH AAAAAA OOOOOHHHHHHHHH HUNGY
Constantly called distant and antisocial as an insult by people who literally tell you to shut up/if you took your meds when you try to share your hyperfixations
People not realizing that YES I DID do this thing for 48 hours straight without eating yesterday but my brain decided actually we’re doing this other thing now
Being jealous of people’s cute color coordinated rooms that are minimalist and spotless when yours is actually hurtful to the eyes
Your “organization system” that you were forced to use in elementary school didn’t work neither do 500 folders neither did a thick binder for every class MRS MAGERS FUCK YOU WHORE
You realize you haven’t eaten all day. You get up you go to the kitchen. You make ramen. As it is cooking you get a water. You drink some of it then put it down. You sit on the couch. The microwave goes off. You take the ramen out. You want your water. You put the ramen down. You go to get your water. You pick up the water. You aren’t thirsty why did you need this. You put the water down. You go to your room. You did not eat anything this entire process.
Someone cleans your room and expects it to stay spotless and how they put it. Not only can you not find anything if yours that you need, but in 20 minutes your room somehow looks exactly how it did before it was cleaned. You were sitting on your phone this entire time. You’re not sure how the mess happened. You get yelled at
Getting yelled at in general
“Ok I need to bring X to the place today. Gotta remember” when you arrive at the place you realize there is no X. You didn’t bring it.
I had to get up to leave the class I wrote this post in and I know I had more points but I forgot them all which I think is a pretty fitting ending
I don’t think people without ADHD realize the sheer amount of work it takes for us to compensate for our inability to keep track of time. I don’t know about the rest of you, but I know I have to to do a ridiculous amount of planning just to be able to get to a place at a specific time.
Like, today I’ve got a dentist appointment at 2:15. To make sure I’m there on time, I have to leave the house half an hour before then. I have to shower before I go, and my hair needs at least an hour to dry. I need to make and eat something resembling a meal, and then thoroughly brush my teeth. I have to choose clothes to wear, then get changed. I need to make sure my headphones are charged, and should probably download some new music before I go. And I also need some extra time to try and unwind, because I’m extremely stressed about this dentist appointment, and if I don’t relax I’ll probably have a meltdown.
So accounting for all of this, and giving myself some extra time to be safe, this means that I set my alarm for 9:30 AM. I have literally scheduled five hours to get ready for a dentist appointment. This is normal for me.
Somebody showing me something: why is it taking you so long to read ??
Me, adhd:
a human being: *shows any slight sign of disapproval*
me and my rsd:
