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death? did that. didn't agree with me. [jasper luna, 23.]

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yuuki !

“O- Oh.” Yuuki paused for a moment, her arm loosened around his yet she still didn’t pull away because she didn’t want to feel as alone as she did now. “My husband and I would go to every different ice cream place in every town we would visit.” She said with a small smile on her face, looking down at the ground so that the taller male would only be able to see the crown of her head. “Especially when it was our anniversary. Since we were always on the road we always had ice cream every time we were on the road on our anniversary which was pretty much all the time. We didn’t really have a home.”

She had paused for a brief moment as she anxiously rubbed the back of her neck. She was nervous and her eyes had screamed for help even more as she didn’t dare to meet his gaze. She had no idea what to do with her hands so her solution was that she had started talking with them– always a bad habit of hers. “But my husband is dead now and today is our anniversary.” She had finally admitted as she nervously let her fingers intertwine with each other. “I guess I just don’t really want the tradition to die. I know, I guess it’s stupid but this is my first year here without him.” 

“didn’t really have a home, huh?” jasper questioned, remembering back to the years he lived as an act of a traveling circus. “yeah, yeah i get that. you just kinda…make a home wherever you can, with whoever you can.” that was a nice thought, that she had a husband who essentially was her home. was that how he was with all of the people at the circus? technically, wherever they went, he went, and that was just home to him. the circus was home.

and then she let the bomb drop. “o-oh,” he said, feeling as though he was invading on them. “i’m…i’m sorry.” he suddenly felt bad, like it was unfair that he was alive while people like the woman before him has been left alone for a year, maybe even longer. jasper thought about it for a moment, chewing his bottom lip slightly. “i’ve got it. how about we eat as much ice cream as we can to honor him? we can try to have every flavor until we puke, how’s that sound?”

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ace !

“She left me there letting me think i would die there.” He said, spitting out the words like venom. “And I’m not about to deal with you. You clearly have some issues of your own. And I can feel you using your nullification on me and I suggest you stop because just because I can’t control you don’t mean I can’t move. Besides, nullification is the power of someone who can’t actually fight.” He spit out, pulling a knife from his back pocket and flipping it open. “She was acting like a cunt so I called her a cunt. And now you’re acting like one. Threatening people for no reason, giving them no way to fight back. You’re meant for eachother it seems.” He want about to deal with this, not again. “Fuck off, asshole.” He rolled his eyes. “And you even move your arm to try to throw that at me, and I’ll throw this blade right in your eye.” He said sharply. “And trust me, I don’t miss, and I can’t throw faster it than you can throw that thing. Yeah what about me? I didn’t do anything to her, I defended myself and all I did was give her a little headache to get her out of my head. You act like I deserved to be pinned to a tree and left there to die, even if I didn’t. There’s nothing to say about me because I didn’t do shit to her.”

“oh, please,” jasper rolled his eyes. “i’m trying to get you to calm the fuck down. you’re hot headed, getting yourself worked up over this pathetic bullshit. you said it yourself: touching someone will get their heart to stop. judging by your antics, you’re not in full control of yourself. my prevention of you using your powers will keep something bad from happening to both you and i.” he rolled his eyes again. how many times had he been threatened with a knife? “what, do you wanna try it? i’ve died once already.” he didn’t mention that his mother’s resurrection had done… something to him already that prevented him from dying, and there was no way he was going to tell this guy that. “like you’d die from being pinned to a tree. someone would’ve seen you and gotten you out, dumbass.” jasper shook his head, closing his fist. he placed his glove back onto his hand and stared into the boy’s eyes. “don’t bother us again. either of us. or i promise that you will be in the exact same place i was in before.” with that, he turned on his heels, shoving his hands in his pockets as he walked down the hall, off to where he had originally been planning to venture to.

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fraser !

“You’re welcome. And in case you have anywhere else to go, just ask someone. Always better than the map,” he nodded at the other and waited in case he had any other questions for him. It wasn’t like Fraser was keen on directing people on where to go and what to do, but that his job kind of entailed ensuring that the people didn’t wander off to places they shouldn’t be wandering off to. Jasper. Why did that name sound so familiar ? It can’t be. Even if there were only so many mutates, that still didn’t mean more than one of them couldn’t have the same name, right ? “I’m Fraser, one of the guards around here. And I figured. Are you settling in alright ?”

“solid advice,” jasper replied, nodding his head as he folded the map back up, slipping it into his back pocket. he figured that he’d be better off asking people, anyway, but there was something about ‘self reliance’ or…whatever. “yeah, i think so. i almost forgot what it was like to be around this many mutants,” he replied, remembering all of his lost friends. “there used to be a whole circus of us. i traveled with them for years, it was…the best thing to do if you were a mutant and didn’t wanna be hunted.” he laughed slightly, more at the expense of himself because that was exactly what happened, in the end. “they’re all gone now, though, so.”

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ace !

“I did not. She invaded my mind, my privacy. She attacked me. All I did was give her a tiny little headache to get her out.” He spat back, not wanting to explain himself again. “I didn’t do fucking anything to her! And then she wouldn’t even let me fight back against her crazy ass! She nullified my powers for giving her a headache that only lasted a second to get her out of my head. I don’t know what happened to her before but I didn’t do anything to her. She was yelling about me touching her and the funny thing is, I don’t touch anyone, not unless I want their heart to explode. She didn’t even know my name before she left me there and let that tree fucking consume me.” He said spitefully, his blood coming to an angry boil. “Your girlfriend is a self righteous cunt.” He said, deliberately and angrily, eye glaring at the man. “Anyone who hurts someone with no real reason is a cunt.”

jasper let the boy say his piece, trying to calm himself before doing something that he would regret. doing something that would inevitably get him kicked out for. "it consumed you?" he asked curiously, "really? is that why you're standing here today?" he could understand why he had pissed her off, now. even he was getting annoyed by this guy and his victim complex. "a self righteous what?" jasper asked, his voice lowered as he began to use his nullification on the boy, removing one glove from his hand. "you think she's what?" it was rare for him to get mad. beyond rare. it was a good thing, too, because if he were volatile and constantly filled with rage, there was no doubt in his mind that hundreds, maybe even thousands, of people would be dead by now at his hand. "see, that's funny. you saying all this about her..." a dark swirl began to grow in his palm, larger and larger, filled with nothing but death. jasper stared him down as he continued to speak, the orb he was creating in his hand surreptitiously siphoning energy from the boy ever so slowly, to the point that it would be impossible to detect that anything was happening to him at all until hours later. "but what about you?"

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yuuki !

“How do you forget what ice cream tastes like?” Yuuki asked looking at him rather surprised– yet somehow even through all the pain, she had somehow smiled at his last comment before she had linked arms with him– not really thinking about her actions and at last, she was back to her usual self, yet her heart had still ached for her husband. The man that she had missed so much. The man that she would give anything for to bring him back. 

She was just glad that she wasn’t alone right now. She wasn’t sure what she would do if she was and for a brief moment the room was quiet and Yuuki’s eyes had looked sad once more as she stared straight in front of her not daring to make eye contact with Jasper. “Ice cream is like my go- to comfort food. Did you like not have a childhood or something to forget what it had tasted like?” She asked grinning slightly as her gaze had met his. Her visage had acted like nothing had just happened. Yet her eyes had screamed for help as her gaze met his. She had needed help. She had needed to get over her only love so that she could love again herself. No matter how hard she had tried to hide how broken she was– what had just happened, her eyes had ruined everything. Taking a deep breath she glanced down at the ground nervously playing with a strand of her hair. “We can have an ice cream tasting then. Of all the flavors they have available.” She had suggested as she hummed mindlessly next to him, always a bad habit of hers.

“i guess i just haven’t had it in forever,” jasper laughed gently, glancing down to keep an eye on where her hand was moving when she linked arms with him. he was just being cautious. the downside to having the abilities he had was that he had to always cover every inch of skin on his body around others, but it wasn’t too troublesome during the winter. it was just times like the summer when it was especially bad. that, and the constant questioning of his outfit choices.

he tried to think about her question, only to come to one conclusion. “my childhood wasn’t…typical,” he began. “my mom and i didn’t have much back then. after my dad died and abuela disowned my mom…we just had to buy necessities. ice cream never was a necessity.” he stopped talking as he looked back at yuuki, finding that her smile betrayed the sorrow in her eyes. she wasn’t okay, he knew that, but he couldn’t pressure her to open up about something she clearly didn’t want to, and that was okay. he would listen if she gave him the chance to, and he would keep his distance from the truth if that was what she preferred. “sounds like a plan.”

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ace !

Ace stared at Jasper with a Stoney look on his face. “Your girl is a bitch.” He repeated, his blood growing hot under his skin. “She pinned me against a tree and left me there just because I gave her a little headache. Told me I was an asshole white boy for no reason. She’s a fucking cunt.”

"so what, you attacked her first?" jasper questioned, trying to make sense of the situation. "obviously she's gonna fight back." even he would fight back if someone manipulated his body to do something. there were times, not as frequent as before, when she would go intro a spiral. she didn't trust white men because all they had done was hurt her in the past, and that was exactly what this guy had done. "trust me, there's a reason," jasper had said, "but you wouldn't understand." at the boy's last sentence, he could feel it. he could feel the calling, the pull to remove his gloves and use his powers, but he decided to just clench his fists instead. "i don't think you should say that again."

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ace !

“Power mimicry? Yeah….I’ve met her.” He said with a irritated tone and a grimace. Astra…he hadn’t gotten her name at the time but that was the girl who yelled at him for no reason after invading his mind and then pinning him to a tree with branches. “No offense but your girlfriends a bitch.”

he was taken aback by that remark, his smile dropping as he knit his eyebrows together. “excuse me?”

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yuuki !

“Of course there’s ice cream here.” She said standing up taller, finally looking like she was over just breaking down crying mostly because she didn’t want to look like a complete mess around him. Though her heart was still aching– everything seemed to be aching lately but she had simply hidden it with a small– weak smile as she glanced over at the other male. “I’m sorry that you caught me at a pretty shitty time.” She had said finally as she stared in front of her, not daring to make eye contact with him as she led the way to the kitchen.

“I am usually not like this.” She said anxiously tucking a strand of her dark locks behind her ears and stood up tall for a woman that has lost so much. “It’s just that….” She had paused for a moment wondering if she should tell him anything. “I guess I’ve been a little homesick lately, it’s strange being in a place like this, y’know?” She had lied, but it was also somewhat of a truth as well. She had only been here for a small amount of time and it was hard to learn to trust people in this place. “I guess I’m just not used to everything around this place. It’s a little hard to take in all at once.” She said with a shrug as if it was no big deal. It wasn’t really. She didn’t want to tell him the truth, she really didn’t need to. “I hope they have good ice cream flavors tonight, though. The other night was pretty weak.” 

that was a plus of the facility, then. free ice cream? he hadn’t actually had ice cream in…well, he couldn’t even remember the last time he had ice cream, that was how long ago it was. definitely before he died. before joining the circus, too, so that put him back about five years, give or take. "hey, it’s okay. i’ve had my fair share of shitty times.” he understood that all too well.

“i would hope not,” jasper said as he followed after her. it would suck to be sad all the time. must be exhausting, too. he couldn’t imagine it. “homesick, huh…” he could see where she was coming from. it was odd, being plopped back into a life with mutants around at every corner once more, but it was different because everyone wasn’t a huge family, as the circus was. back then, everyone was friends with everyone, but here? well, the place was so huge that he could barely imagine making friends with everyone, as he had at the circus. “it is a bit overwhelming,” he agreed, shoving his hands into his pockets. it was, in a way. there were all these people, and unlike at the circus, where everyone knew everyone’s powers because they were basically written on their forehead as a result of their exhibit name, you just never knew who had what unless you knew each other already. there were so many people who could have been dangerous, like him, and he would have never known it. the thought of that was just a bit scary. “I think i’d like any flavor, to be honest. i haven’t had any in years. i think i’ve forgotten what it tastes like.”

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sorbello !

Sorbello found herself lost in the music, feeling the sound’s vibrations beating progressively in her headphones as the long stem was connected to her iphone in her pocket. Step by step, foot dancing in rhythm, the hallway were totally ghosted and it wasn’t until a unknown figure was walking her way. Taking one earpiece off, it seemed he had something to say and it wasn’t unlike her to ignore the needs of someone who seemed deeply troubled about something. “Oh, cafeteria?” Sorbello bit the corner of her red lips and tried to remember the direction in which she came from. As a lightbulb went of in her head, she pointed behind her quickly. “It should be down that way, then take a right and then a left. There is like this big sign that should say “Worst Cafeteria Food on Thursdays,” She giggled, trying to inform him on the ideal meals he’d have. 

the girl seemed peppy, to say the least. okay, at least she’s not rude or a downer. that would’ve sucked to run into someone who just brushed past him without a second thought. he wasn’t sure what he’d do in a situation like that. “ohhh, okay,” jasper nodded gratefully. “thanks a lot.” he paused for a moment, thinking about what she had said. “is that true? does the food really suck on thursdays?” better yet, was there an alternative place to get food?

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ace !

“Really? What’s her name?” He asked, “although I don’t know too many people here anyways so I may not know her anyways.”

“astra,” jasper said, “her name’s astra. ‘bout yay high, crazy smart. she has power mimicry.” he still felt proud to introduce her, as he always had back in their times of the circus, when things had been so much simpler.

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fraser !

“Uh… Yeah, sure, why not.” The fact that he had to even contemplate helping the new guy out must have been a straight give away of his annoyance, but Fraser’s annoyance had nothing to do with him at all. “You’re too storey’s off. Try the second floor, it should be on the west wing. If you get to the hospital or hear gamers cursing in the tech room, you’re heading in the wrong direction. And I’d suggest losing that good-for-nothing map.” It confused people a lot more than it actually helped them. STEMA really needed to invest more on directing residents properly, around here. 

the guy who was giving him directions was nice, being thorough in his explanation; enough for jasper to understand, anyway. “thanks!” he smiled, laughing at his remark about the map. “yeah, it’s a bit confusing. i’ve never been good at directions, anyway. usually just followed where the others were going.” he had no idea why he was saying so much, but he figured it didn’t matter much. it was a new beginning here; one where no one knew him or what had happened to him. “my name’s jasper, i’m new around here.”

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astra !

“Don’t be dumb,” Astra waved him off. “You dying wasn’t even hardly your fault.” She knew that because it had been her fault that he had died anyway. If she hadn’t ran into the crossfire, she would’ve never gotten shot, and he wouldn’t have had to swap life forces with her, which wasn’t fair at all. “How are you still so nice to me?” Astra asked the perpetual question she had always asked at the circus. She had joined the circus after her departure from Eugene, and she hadn’t been expecting to make any friends at all. And yet he was the first. The first to extend a hand of kindness in all her times on the streets, since she was revealed to be a mutant. He was the first to accept her, even when she was rough and full of edges. He was the first to love her in a world where there shouldn’t have been love to give. And even now, even though everything was different, even though she was different as a result of him dying and everyone else dying… “Did you still wanna be with me?” she wondered aloud. “Even after everything?”

“hey, but it wasn’t your fault, either,” jasper said, knowing that she would undoubtedly blame herself. hell, she probably h a s blamed herself all of this time. he probably would have, if the roles were reversed. actually, he knew that he would have. he would have never forgiven himself. “it’s not your fault because i did it. and i did it because i wanted to. i had to save you, i wasn’t gonna live in a world without you in it, as selfish as that is.” it was incredibly selfish, if he was really thinking about it, but still. everything was happening so quickly at the time, he had just acted on impulse, as he usually did. “why wouldn’t i be nice to you? i’ll always be nice to you.” he had always tried his best to be nice to everyone, and she was no exception when she first came to the circus. although she had been cold, and wanted nothing to do with him or anyone else, really, he had always extended a hand towards her, and he always would. “astra, you…you were – are – the love of my life. you always have been. if you would let me, i’ll always be with you.” he thought about it, then snapped his fingers together. “‘til death do we part again.”

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yuuki !

Yuuki had frozen at his questions. Everything was moving too quickly for her. She was tired of having to keep up with everything– having a smile on her face all the damn time. But there was no way in hell she was going to tell him anything. Rubbing her eyes vigorously to get rid of the excess tears, she had stared at his extended hand. Why was he wearing gloves when it has been so nice out recently?

Slowly she had grabbed his hand and stood up, wrapping her arms around her silky nightgown that had stopped just above her knees and she had let her head drop to the ground. “Yuuki.” She had said finally of what seemed like forever of not talking. “But I don’t have to talk to you about anything. You’re not a therapist and I barely know you.” She had said– her voice monotone, mostly because she was in shock. Her gaze had wandered over to the telephone where she had wanted to dial the number so badly– just to hear his voice again but she had resisted. The widow had finally met Jasper’s eyes, there was something hallowed and cold in her eyes that really now one could really quite describe unless they had lost someone also. “I was just about to head to the kitchens though to get ice cream– if you want to join me.” 

her reasoning made sense, and there was no harm done by it. if he was being honest with himself, he wasn’t even sure if he’d be able to speak with someone else about something that had made him upset. but few things so rarely did make him upset, so he figured that to be a blessing in its own right. he’s just learned to not let things get to him. he was just glad to be around other mutants again.

he noticed yuuki glance over to the phone that she had put back in its place, leaving him to wonder who she had been calling. maybe she was homesick…? or, wait, what if someone had died? wait a second… his eyes met hers for a moment and there he saw it: a flicker of loss and pain. she had lost someone, that much was obvious. he could tell in the way she held herself, guarded and warded off, in a way. was it someone close to her? probably, if she was crying in the middle of the night over it. maybe she just got the news about it. maybe this was a state of shock. was that how astra was…? he wondered momentarily before yuuki spoke again. “there’s ice cream here?” jasper asked, his attention now fully on what she had said. “yeah, yeah, i’ll join you.”

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ace !

“Yeah well it seems nice enough. Girlfriend? Well that’s nice little romantic get away.” He laughed softly at the joke, “is she here with you then?”

"beats getting killed again, any day." that was where it got tricky, though. he wasn’t sure how to explain that, either. “uh, well i’m not really sure if we’re still…together. i just learned that she’s been here for,” jasper blew out air from his mouth, “she’s been here for a while, actually. you might’ve met her already.”

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astra !

She snorted at hearing what he had said as she pulled away from him. Yeah, that was him. It was him. There was no way that it could be anyone else. “I would hope that getting killed wasn’t apart of the plan,” Astra said, an actual smile growing on her face for the first time in forever. The tears were still there, of course they were, it’d be nearly impossible to get her to stop crying now, but they weren’t ones of sadness. Not anymore. “I missed you,” she said, chewing her bottom lip gently. It was true, she thought about him everyday, and even then, there were the continual thoughts and memories and flashbacks and nightmares that she had that served as a reminder of what had happened, of why he was gone. They would always remain there in her head, probably. But it didn’t matter, now, he was here, and he was real, and she’d rather die than let him be taken away from her again.

time apart truly did make the heart grow fonder, jasper decided then and there. their time together had been short, but it felt like a life time. and their time together itself seemed like a life time ago. it felt like it, at least to him. maybe that was because he died. he wasn’t sure anymore. “you know that i missed you, too,” jasper said, holding her hands together as he raised them to his lips, kissing them gently. “i’m sorry for everything. for not finding you, for, for dying and leaving you alone…”