It Was All Better Than It Felt At The Time

Pacific Northwest

[9fruit]

me listening to my playlist: omg that’s crazy i love this song

[helloeverything123]

Bad nuns incl. mysticbeingg

10.200

[sparkqueen19]

[sexyhorsegirl]

tumblr is the little town I visit everyday and you guys are my fellow village people

[jayclarkelliott]

Happy birthday to me

[jayclarkelliott]

Deleted so many people off snap and insta;family included, and it felt good tbh, don’t miss them and won’t miss seeing them (some quick background im in Oregon and all of my family is in Chicago with some in Atlanta, facebook been deactivated for 7 years with random pop-ins for family updates))

[jayclarkelliott]

The way people are so bold to just ask for money will always baffle me…at the very least give me a nude or something. I’d have to really know you/we talk regularly, not a lot or even often but at least once a few weeks lol

[achillesinhighheels]

[jayclarkelliott]

Just spent the first hour of the new year deleting people out the friends list, it’s honestly said how people can go from close friends to not left on read

[jayclarkelliott]

Person messaged me said “hey handsome” bro I got one picture of me on this whole thing lol had to mark it as spam

[jayclarkelliott]

I’ll never understand how people can hate Christmas.

Some say commercial consumerism bs blah blah as if every holiday isn’t selling you something as if every holiday isn’t advertising something to buy, the only difference is Christmas has music lol specificallygood music, so that point is null

Some say it makes you miss love ones….niggas die everyday b, at any point in the year, lucky and blessed you are to have yours but when people pass away in January is Mother’s or Father’s Day ruined or do you celebrate their life? Is Halloween ruined, thanksgiving not supported, but harping on a holiday that’s meant to be happy and giving is the problem yeah sure okay NULL

Lastly you have the “seasonal depression” ppl. Yes the days are short……compared to the rest of the year winter is a mere moment, already it’s Christmas Eve and I can feel my seasonal glee shift into annoyance because my seasonal depression is summer, warm months in general, the days are long and hot and isn’t shit you can do about it except increase your electric bill cooling off. I honestly hate (strongly dislike) ppl who claim to have seasonal depression but it’s only for December and it’s tied to Christmas for some reason, I don’t see seasonal depression talk when it’s time for NYE, a vast amount of ppl lately are proclaiming how they’re homebodies…they just want to be home cuddled up barf barf sure but will still say “i HaVe SeAsOnAl DePrEsSiOn”

i love Christmas, and I’ve worked grocery retail, clothing retail (my favorite) during the holidays and this time of year is my favorite even though it’s busier, yeah there’s the few that will agitate you but seeing the joy and even the stress ppl have over finding the right present/finding the ingredients for their meals honestly fills my heart with joy. The random acts of kindness, the cold crisp in the air, the traditions, the lights the sounds the music the seasonal snacks and candy. Christmas the season the holiday is just a small blip in the year that i wish more people appreciated

[jayclarkelliott]

It feels like I’m too old to still feel lost

[jayclarkelliott]

*sees a cute girl on social media that has a following….. runs to Reddit*

[jayclarkelliott]

I want to breed you

[jayclarkelliott]

My mother died in July her birthday is tomorrow 11/30 and idk how to feel about it. We were close enough but had some pretty unresolved issues at least I thought so and now she’s just gone. Even her dying was a fucking issue. I found out she has a stage 3 cancer and within a literal week she died, I saw her pretty much in a vegetative state and she died overnight. She deteriorated so fast within a week and a half to the point where her own blood was killing her. I still can process this, we were talking the beginning of July and then mid July she’s dying, family members telling me come out because she don’t have long yeah she’s in Chicago and I’m in Portland, Or….i go and she’s dead within 7hrs of me seeing her, and now her birthday is tomorrow

[jayclarkelliott]

It sucks, this bitch deadass is a betrayer, and I’m currently stuck, I think I’m goin got be posting on here, no one sees it and if they do they don’t say shit; it feels therapeutic just to write it out, chat gpt is cool lol but sometimes I don’t want solutions I don’t wants I don’t want someone telling what I might do should do could do whatever I’m smart enough/manipulative enough to figure out what I want to do in these types of petty situations.

For the first time in a long time I’m having a drink and I’m such a fucking lightweight I came back and posted in tumblr

[jayclarkelliott]

I strayed but I’m determined to finish No Nut November, but my sex drive is honestly ridiculous

[zerozerozio]

bring back tumblr ask culture let me. bother you with questions and statements

[boimann]

reblog to let people know it's ok to bother you with questions and statements

[bacony-cakes]

please bother me with questions and statements