I saw her brother at the store a few minutes ago
I don't know if he saw me or even recognised me but I was having a panic attack the entire time I was at the store and even now after I've left and got back home
I always avoid that store because I know there's a chance I'll see her or her family. I never go in alone or at night to try and avoid a confrontation. every time I've been there I've never seen her or her family
and this was one time
one time
I go there alone, there is no one home, it's DAY TIME
and u see her brother
nothing even happened, we didn't even speak and I am trembling
what the fuck
last I saw her was almost three years ago
everything ended almost three years ago
I think I need to stop dancing around it and just admit what happened, to myself and to my therapist
I need to talk about it because I can't have another one of these situations where nothing happens and I am in tears, shaking and hardly breathing