jane

missing body, leaking heart

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the face you make when you hate a man everyone tolerates

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i feel like i barely use tumblr these days :(

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i want a boyfriend, i just want to know what they taste like

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me in the streets

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life starting to feel like this

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and i just took it

i have fallen victim again to the touch of a man

i wanted to be embraced in a way that only a father can soothe

he left a gaping hole there

one i fill up with grotesque hands

grope me, pull me in, and spank me

you are a stranger to me but your hands known my body for eternity

it’s yours to keep

it was always yours to have

and there is nothing left for me

i want to cry because that’s not who i am

but i bent over and just take it

again and again

running into this mistake like a friend

I don’t like it but i continue to move my body up and down to the speed of sound

nullified fruition

fulfillment earned but gained easily for you

you just take while i’m being took

common themes repeat themselves every so slightly

that i have changed into a being in a world that is not like me

is this who i have become?

nothing?

i am a cup in your hands

chipped and cracked

it’s time to throw me in the trash

my pristine details fading when your lips touch my neck

cuddle and hold me, i just want to be your number one for tonight

my white nightgown maintains my remaining innocence

something i can only see from a distance

my tears write out a prayer

i suck at revenge

too tired to lift the knife, it falls in my eye and leaves me blind

i still feel the sunshine, burning the holes in my face

kill me, sweetie

i can take the pain

it’s all i have been doing anyways

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some older selfies <3

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this is how you're supposed to spend coachella weekend, with a beer in your hand and a song in your heart

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some proofs from my project 🧽

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snow white 😴

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late night, just finished watching some musicals :p

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missing feathers but it's almost my birthday 🪽

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Tommy february6 Lyrics: Tommy Feb Latte, Macaron. (トミーフェブラッテ、マカロン。)

English translation and romanization below the cut.

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i love tommy so much, she is an amazing lyricist

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post valentine's day blues

and i'm realizing that i don’t have to be the best

i sat here and i cried out to mary 

i asked her to save me and show me the way

i failed and failed and failed after trying for three days

i came to the realization that this is not for me

i can’t learn like this 

i can’t think like this

it’s such a shame because i wanted it to be this way

i thought you were supposed to be simple

you were supposed to be so easy

i have taken your words for granted

there is virtue in your demeanor 

your heavy load and beautiful pose 

has opened my eyes

i don’t have to be the best for you

i idolized you

kissing the ground you walked on while the gravel scratched my lips 

my teeth shaven from never looking up

I want the best

I deserve it

Take it easy

I’m becoming human

And it’s tough to know, I’m weak

But I will let all my desires fulfill me

Rain, please come and make me clean

Wash away my fears 

Tired of choking on my tears

I cried in front of you

A sign of great sensitivity 

Perhaps that’s what I need to calm my needs

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i miss you freddie mercury

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