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Someone help me..

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I wonder what its like to have someone love you with everything that are....I guess i will never know...

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I know no one will see this or even give a shit about me but last night I took my belt and made a loop with it. I put it arpund my neck and pull it tight. Hoping it would end my miserable life. But it didn’t. Maybe i should hold it longer. Or try something else. I don’t want to make a mess. That would be rude.

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I know someday you'll have a beautiful life, I know you'll be a star in somebody else's sky, But why, why, why can't it be, can't it be mine?

Pearl Jam-Black

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Do not spoil what you have by desiring what you have not; but remember that what you now have was once among the things you only hoped for.

Epicurus Greek philosopher (341 BC - 270 BC)

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Love

I see all these pictures on instagram, facebook and tumblr….i just want someone to love me like that… Love me that as i love them…why cant i have that…

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Thoughts

I hate the thoughts in my head…they keep telling me that bad things are happening or gonna happen….it makes me anxious nervous and sick…i hate myself for this…why does this happen to me…how do i get these negative thoughts out of my head…please someone help me i think im going insane…

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Pathetic

Why am I so pathetic…I cant help but to text her while shes with him…I wish i could turn off my feelings…i wish this sinking,sick feeling would go away…im so pathetic…

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Someone?

Someone please talk to me….

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Hurting

Everytime I think about what going on between us, it feels like a dagger was jabbed right into my gut and I feel sick to my stomach. Everytime…when i say everytime thats translated to every other minute or so. Its all I think about these days. How I did the things I did, how i hurt you. I wish I could restart and make things better. Everything is my fault. I wish i could have been a better person for you…Im sorry…I hate myself every minute of everyday for this…Everytime I think of you my heart bleeds..my gut aches as if I have to throw up…but in the end all I have is myself to blame for everything that has happen to us…Im sorry for eveything…

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I am so sorry

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And I guess that’s how you know you love them: when your heart aches; when your stomach drops; when your lungs feel like they’re caving in, just because of the thought of them with someone else.

An extract from a book I’ll never write #1 (via idktorn)

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I’ll miss you forever