Road to life

i prefer to be called by the first two letters of my name, Ju .

[jdysng]

So funny how you can go to Manila real quick without any hesitation but not in Tarlac which is just 1hr and 15 minutes away. 😅 Therefore, Ju? You are not a priority.

[jdysng]

You left me when i needed you the most, and the saddest part is that you don't even know.

[jdysng]

Just right after being out of the hospital room where lolo is being confined, tears had streamed down my face. I can't hold it back anymore, t'was so hard. Seeing him in so much pain. And I cannot do anything about it. What hurts me more is that i am not yet ready to face the inevitable, because i still want to give him a happy life. Something i had promised to them when i was a kid with goals and dreams. I love you so much lolo. 8/14/19

[jdysng]

I truly appreciate people checking up on me. I appreciate a quick message, I appreciate those who ask if i'm okay. I appreciate every single person in my life who has tried to brighten my days. Because this is what i really need to endure but since the day i was engulfed with sadness you, the person i thought would always be by my side, is not there. I tried to reached out but you kept on rejecting me. I'm drowning but you are so excited to party so i let you go. And this is where you left me question everything about love. Maybe this is where you lost me.

August 10, 2018. You are busy partying just in case you might forget and this is the day i'm crying.

[jdysng]

I didn't go home today because i know my tears will betray me once i got home then they will ask why and i don't know what to say because i myself don't know what's happening in my head :(

[squareclocks]

I fucking hate it when you’re in such a fantastically giddy mood and then you see one simple little thing that makes you think, “oh” and then you just get this empty feeling in your chest and you get nauseous and the world just crumbles and you want to just lay under a blanket and close your eyes and fall asleep and never wake up. 

[fakingitdarling]

[depression-healthy-carrier]

my dna 

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[please-make-it-stop-please]

“She told you she was down, you let it slip by. So from then, she kept it on the inside. She told herself she was alright, but she was telling white lies, Can’t you tell? Look at her dull eyes. She knew she was depressed, didn’t want to admit it, didn’t think she fit it, everyone seemed to miss it… she carried on like a soldier with a battle wound, bleeding out from every cut her body consumed..”

“Her Last words”- Courtney Parker

[absent-mindxd-deactivated201912]

the worst thing about depression is waking up thinking you’re better, feeling maybe a little bit happy for once! then all of sudden feeling sad again, with tired eyes and a heavy heart, questioning yourself if you’ll ever feel happy again 

[to-be-dead-or-to-be-deactivated]

Someone: I don’t feel like existing today

Me: I don’t feel like existing in general

[lexxgrant-deactivated20190521]

Instagram:Lexx__grant

[jdysng]

For months now 🙃

[jdysng]

2018 is all about sadness and loneliness.

[jdysng]

"People tell you all these romantic things. You know, ‘I’ll always be there for you.’ ‘I’ll walk the earth for you.’ Whatever. But then you need a ride home from work or someone to talk to on a Tuesday night and they’re too busy. I don’t want anyone to walk the earth for me. Not unless I can come too.” -Mikel Jollett

[vilesuggestion]

i dont want to do anything. i dont want to be anything. let me rest

[thelovejournals]

Well, let it pass; April is over, April is over. There are all kinds of love in the world, but never the same love twice.

F. Scott Fitzgerald, “The Sensible Thing” (via wordsnquotes)

[jdysng]

Love is Love is something that is undefinable And surely it is something also unfathomable From the first time your eyes meet To the bedtime stories shared underneath the sheet Love is something that is so beautiful Something that will always make you feel grateful. Beautiful because it makes you feel your fleeting with the clouds Or because you heard your heart popping so loud But what if it does not? Can we still call it love? When those fleeting on the cloud feeling made you feel they are now already raining? And yes that rain pours unto you. And before you knew, You already feel like theres a thousand feelings inside you that made you feel blue. What if that person who shared those bed time stories with you is now on the other side of the bed, turning his back at you? And you there, wishing things were just like when you were just new. Can we still call it love? When things don't run smoothly like you planned? When you are now seeing the imperfection of that person and all you can do is to look at your hand? Telling yourself is it time to give it one last shot? Or just let go the other and have the line cut? Love is not about giving up when you cant get the result that you want Or is it just you making the hunt. The hunt for mistakes to throw to made you feel you've done your part And letting the other feel like they did not. Love is not about just being together at the good times Or keeping the list of crimes. Crimes that the other commit and them being sorry for doing it. You know it is love when imperfections came and you embrace it, Telling the person it is fine to have it. For we all do have imperfections but those made us unique And that is also the reason why you made a perfect fit. Love is when it rains but instead of hiding you pull each other hands and dance together. Knowing that rains wont last forever And before you knew a rainbow will surely came Showing you that you grow strong because in the rain you dont shame. Yes! You are not ashamed to accept that love stories that last dont remain the same But flexible enough to accept the things you don't even aim. Love is acceptance. Love is not about the standards you set but how you adjust that standards to meet the other person half way. Love is simply loving when the other is unlovable. Love is taking courage to stay even if everything is not okay. 💌 Marjorie Adorna