crowley

they/she/he

[jeans-jorts]

told my friend that i want(ed) to become an author and i feel so silly about this??

I fear I am clinging onto a passion that I can merely call a passion let alone talent. For someone that calls writing and journaling his hobby I am surprisingly uninterested and not commited to all of this. I cannot focus on one genre, everything I "write" is basically a more elaborate form of my diary, formatted to fit the tumblrl or substack layout. I lack emotional depth to write complex stories, I don't have a SINGLE own character let alone anything original. I do not even care enough about creating an OC. Somehow it has never felt necessary or something I find enjoyable. I have deleted drafts from my earliest writing process when I was around 12/13. I can never seem to finish my fanfiction and somehow stop when I don't find the motivation anymore or when I run out of ideas.

Like, boy, what do you even WANT to write about?

[jeans-jorts]

NEVER ask a good omens fan how they are doing because generally - we're never alright. But now that GO S3 -aka the movie because we never got the series- is less than two weeks away....brother in christ.

This might sound so silly and stupid because "it is just a show bla bla". No actually this has saved me on multiple levels and I don't know who I would be without all of this.

The rewatch of S1 is going great btw if anyone wanted to know...I know have to bear the pain and euphoria that is S2 before I can try to get ready for S3

[jeans-jorts]

Fandom so small i recognize the people on tumblr and on ao3 like the lunchladies at my uni

[jeans-jorts]

Gender/sexuality in a nutshell

Aromantic in a way that I don't understand traditional relationships and the idea of longterm commitment like marriages frighten me but I can develop romantic attraction towards people and crave some form of connection (either in a QPR or something else);

Asexual in a way that I can never engage in sex in any form but I fully understand why people engage in it - it's just not for me

Bisexual in a way that I like people on multiple levels, often with different types of attraction (aesthetic, romantic etc.) between different genders.

Genderfluid/Agender in a way that I don't understand the concept of gender all together and I am not really bound to one certain gender and I wish I wouldn't be perceived as any gender at all but rather as a concept.

Gender envy in a way that I want to be handsome like tall men with big fucking egos have and pretty and confident like women - all while being naturally androgynous so I could easily switch up between being a man and a woman.

[jeans-jorts]

The energy between me and a vague undefinable feeling of attraction on a non-physical level to both a man and a woman at the same time is unmatched.

Like yuhh girl you're literally so pretty and funny and intelligent and he is well...handsome in a gender-envy way but also in a "generally attractive" type of way.

Still absolutely zero chance with NEITHER of them

[jeans-jorts]

how the fuck do y'all come up with cool names to use on the internet. because i NEED to use something other than my ultra (non) comfort character A.J. Crowley from 2019 Good Omens. Man should I start going by another name?

[jeans-jorts]

Yes my name is Jean now lol (at least online)

[thinginthedirt]

i had the idea for this last tdov but it didnt come together until now 🥖🍷 though i'm not religious, this quote is beloved to me

prints available

[to00fu]

happy birthday gojito

[jeans-jorts]

top ten most humbling feeling was realizing that I am in fact bisexual and unfortunately still find some men attractive

[jeans-jorts]

'puter how to come out to fellow people i study with and have known for a month, ideally being respected as genderfluid while we all have completely different backgrounds and also I MIGHT be the only queer person in the whole course. No glue no borax

[jeans-jorts]

how the fuck do y'all come up with cool names to use on the internet. because i NEED to use something other than my ultra (non) comfort character A.J. Crowley from 2019 Good Omens. Man should I start going by another name?

[jeans-jorts]

Thinking about using they/he or he/they out of spite. Not because I absolutely hate she/her but because I want to sit with that discomfort for a while. Pondering about it. No one gives a shit so I might as well give that gender euphoria to myself

[jeans-jorts]

talked with my friends about a mutual from school who recently came out as trans. my cis-het friend was confused by the concept of our mutual using they/she pronouns (because why would you use ALSO she/her if your nonbinary?). I explain the concept of trans vs. nonbinary and especially the concept of trans-femmes. She seems to understand, but is nonetheless confused by the choice of pronouns. Friend #2 at the table starts using only she/her pronouns because "using they/them in german is so hard so we are being polite and only use she/her so we don't misgender them."

I laugh to myself. I know it's hard. I know it's unusual. I get it and I cannot expect you to get it right first try. But being AFAB and someone who uses all pronouns means you will never ever hear them using something other than she/her for me. And I mean your technically not wrong. But you don't get it either. Because I honestly wonder if you make an effort into trying to understand my gender identity or if you just don't get it because your straight.

[sunnydrawzzz]

Some doodles🔥❄️🌊

[jeans-jorts]

the sanegiyuu brainrot is consuming every inch of my brain and i have no intentions in changing it. finally another white hair black hair duo i haven't had one of those in (checks watch) two months (YoshiKaru)

[henstomper]

adulthood is for realizing that being gay and weird is actually really cool

[jeans-jorts]

On queer media and the summer hikaru died

so like everyone else, me and my best friend have been heavily involved in watching the summer hikaru died: we binge every new episode and then yap about it in great detail. and there is probably no greater feeling than talking about queer media with queer friends. we feed our delusions, send each other edits and a concerning amount of theories. Every now and then we hop on whatsapp and start a conversation with "I FORGOT TO TELL YOU SOMETHING IN NOTICED IN EPISODE 4!!"

And than we talk about the queer subtext merged with the horror elements. Somehow SatoSugu slips into this conversation. We exchange 6 screenshots of tweets and 25 different kermit stickers that describe our current state of mind. She calls it "The Summer I became obsessed" [with tshd]. And I think thats beautiful.