Day 22 / 23 Confessionals
We merged, and on some level I’m happy but there’s also just a level of frustration right now, kind of like that sad gray raincloud just hovering over my head right now.
The plan was for us to send Jack to Exile so his idol would be neutralized at Selwyn’s Tribal and that Emma, Andrew, and Mikey would ban together and vote out Owen. WELL, this plan was CONTINGENT on Nicole using her TWO letters to write to Andrew, telling him that the returning players are just using him, which they are, and Emma, telling her to work with Andrew and Mikey and she can flip to us right after the merge. Well it turns out, Nicole sent NEITHER of the letters, and Emma gets voted, we accomplished jack shit (no pun intended) and dig ourselves into an even bigger hole because before, we had options. If we merged, we would’ve just needed to flip one person, out of three, Andrew, Mikey, and Emma, that’s it! So we wanted to have the most options on the table just in case it turned out that Emma was actually working with Jack and Owen. Well it turns out she WASN’T. And all we would’ve had to do was send her to exile, save her, she would’ve flipped at the merge, we would’ve had the numbers no problem. We are so STUPID. We overthought it WAY too much, and now, our game is contingent on Andrew flipping on the returning players. So basically, we let Jack get a free pass to the merge, with an idol, so now we have two idols to worry about, one from Jessica and one from Jack.
The problem with getting Andrew to flip is that he wins the plaque for ‘Most Complacent Player’ of the season. I feel like he’s fine with getting fifth or sixth place, like he’s okay with that, I feel like. It’s like trying to flip Natalie Tenerelli, things like that don’t happen. And Mikey is just floating along, probably just doing what Andrew wants so not only are we dealing with Natalie Tenerelli, we’re dealing with Ashley Underwood and we have to flip both them to our side…. (moment of silence).
The only upside, literally the one patch of sunlight in this whole scenario is that it makes sense for Andrew to flip. you know, Nicole has proof, she has chats of the Jess and Katie talking about using Andrew and then discarding him so that right there should be enough for him to hate those guys and come onbard with us, especially with someone he likes, like Nicole. So all in all, it’s greener grasses, like the As Told By Ginger Theme Song. But then again, it made sense for Andrew to vote with us on Selywn, considering OWEN BLINDSIDED HIM IN HIS LAST GAME, but not only did he not vote with us, he RATTED US OUT TO OWEN. So this is not the person I would like to have to rely on as swing-vote to pull a big move.
A few days ago, Nicole actually showed me the letter Andrew sent her about wanting to work with the returning players and use Mikey and Wan as free votes, which basically spelled out his true loyalty to the returnees, at this point. So what I did, and Nicole doesn’t know this, is go right to Wan and showed him that letter. Why did I do that? To make sure that Wan has more loyalty to me than he does to Andrew. And it’s worked, Wan actually wants to take out Andrew now, but we have to talk him down to it, but it just goes to show that all Wan needs is proof in writing, and he’s sold, as he should be.
Owen actually came up to me, and it seemed like he might’ve had this attitude, this air of arrogance and asked if I wanted to talk to him about the Greg vote. And I told him straight-up because I do not care, I was like I’m not stupid, I knew you and Jack were going to run straight for the returning players come the merge, and take me out once you had no further use for me, like I’m not an idiot. And his response was gold, it was “well I won’t confirm or deny” which is basically him confirming that I was right! So then, he has the audacity to tell me that I’m going to be one of the first jurors. What? Who does that? He must be feeling really confident in his place in the game to openly tell me I’m in trouble. My take is that he thinks he has Jessica/Jack/Andrew/Mikey/Wan with him for a majority. In reality, Wan is with us, and he’s not budging and we’re going to give Andrew and Mikey a really great reason to flip, so his place isn’t as secure as he thinks, in my opinion.
This game is never over. Things look pretty bleak right now but, you never know in this game how big a difference a day makes. I think it’s going to be absolutely possible to flip Andrew and Mikey, it makes sense for them to flip. From a completely objective, unbiased POV they should flip. Because why are you settling for 5/6/7th place when you could win? That trio of Jack, Jessica, and Owen is airtight. Our alliance has some wiggle room for them, and I think they could realize that.
If we could get Andrew and Mikey to flip, we have 6 to 3& 2 idols. We could split our votes 3-3-3, and have a really good shot at being able to flush an idol or get rid of one with a power player all together. It’s just all going to depend on the willingness of Andrew and Mikey to make a big move so… I’m excited, I’m nervous, I’m on the edge of my seat. It’s truly time to start playing SURVIVOR, and I’m all game.
This week is making my head spin. I'm sad to see Katie go, but in reality, she wasn't going to make it to the end anyway. I know Katie, that's not what she wants to do. She wants to help the people in her alliance, and that's what she did and I love her for it.
This twist with Exile is kind of alarming. The game can go any way now. If Selwyn wins, it's the better situation. As of right now, we want to send Wan, so Jessica plays her idol, and Nicole/Foxx/Dylan will play their rules idols, flushing the rules idol. That's what I want to do. People may think I'm a selfish bitch, but that's because I am a selfish bitch. At the merge, I want to have the only idol on the island. I'm just that greedy. I hope Foxx goes, only because I like Dylan and Nicole more. I never really wanted to turn on Dylan in the beginning, but he was influenced too easily not to trust me, which was the worst thing he could have done. I love Dylan, he was definetly my favorite out of the 3 who turned on me. I hope he found the rules idol and makes it to the merge, because if it's Foxx who has it, I will be disappointed.
Now, this whole week can go to hell if Galladon wins. Knowing how "power hungry" Dylan, Foxx, and Nicole are, I know they will send Emma to Exile, to try to break up the returning guy players, where our alliance has become very obvious. If that situation happens, Mikey will have to be cut, and Wan will definitely not come back to The Mentagon, join with the 2 Gargoyles and Medusa. And to top it all off, there is the possibility Emma will flip. It will be Emma, Foxx, Nicole, Dylan, Wan against the rest of the Returning players. Something I do not want to happen. I have to go on an immunity streak at merge. I know it's not possible, but I can try.
Whoever wins immunity tonight could change everything. If Selwyn wins, depending on the highest scorer, Jessica can be exiled and our alliance will be forced to turn on each other. Otherwise, we cod be facing a potential Idol. I have no idea if Jessica has the Idol or not.
If we win and someone other than Jessica has the highest score, we can choose to send either Jack or Emma yo Exile. Sending Jack neutralizes the Idol and mayhaps could lead to an Owen boot.
If we Exile Emma, the pairs of Jack/Owen and potentially Mikey/Andrew could be forced to oppose each other. Consequently, an Idol could be played and Emma will be safe to potentially join our foursome, giving us a majority.
It's safe to say I am in a very tenuous position. If things work out, I can potentially be the singularly most powerful person in this game. That's the payoff.
If I make the merge I will show Andrew the chats from Jessica in which I managed to trick her into revealing her boot order. With this information, I can potentially crush the returning players' alliance come merge.
I have a lot of resources at my disposal and I need to know how to best utilize them. I've had people on my tail since the first Selwyn tribal and I've been able to storm it. I want to calm the storm, please.
I want to win; I want to win perhaps too much. I probably won't have much friends after this, unfortunately. Kinda sucks because I seriously don't want to hurt people's feelings unnecessarily. I'm a nice guy; I just want to play a game, yo.
Right now there 10 people left, 2 tribes of 5. There are seven men and three women.
Overall, I like my tribemates. Here is a summary of my opinions in them.
Dylan-A pretty cool guy. I trust him and I think he trusts me. We've been allies since Day 1 and we just shoot the shit, make jokes, and strategize with each other. He's a huge threat in this game: he's charming, strong, and smart, but overall I'd rather have him on my side than not. I like him.
Wan-He probably gets along better with me than anyone else and he seems to trust me, moreso after the last vote. While he can be very nervous and indecisive, he's a super nice guy.
Nicole-She is really nice and a good ally. She has a nice sense of humor and seems to be a savvy player. Plus, she's cute. :)
Jessica-While she obviously dislikes her current position, she has been a very good sport and has being genial to everyone before and after her blindside. If we were in different circumstances I'd love to work with her.
I 'm curious about what the other players think of me. I don't have much of an idea. I don 't think I've been especially objectionable to anyone.
*When asked about Emma's Role in his plans*
me, jack, and owen were just talking about that omg. basically the game as of right now consists of two alliances: the mentagon and the terrible trio reincarnated. the mentagon is me, jack, owen, mikey, wan (we're assuming), and jessica is an honorary member (like galladon just voted her out so she's obviously gonna come with us you feel) and the terrible trio is nicole, bradley (foxx) and jake b (dylan) that leaves emma tbh. like she has zero ties with nicole, dylan, and foxx so she is probs with us, but we tried to vote her out at one point so like???? personally, i have no idea where she stands or how she'll fit into the game, but i'm thinking she'll add an interesting dynamic to strategy later on, down the line. i'm thinking she'll probably come in 6th or 7th, but idk tbh we'lL SEE
Weeeeell even though the last time i submitted a 2 am confessional it turned out to be embarrassingly wrong, I’m doing it again because why not!
Also I was cast as a villain previously because I was a strategic villain, not a social one. Not so much the case anymore and if people get offended reading this down the line, too bad. If you want people to submit nice confessionals about you, maybe don’t vote them out twice in a row and lie to their face, hey? I feel like this is stupid to include because clearly any decisions/opinions I make are game not personal (you’re voting out the player, not the person, right?) but a lot of them have never played this game before so I understand mixing up the two.
this is more fuelled by general annoyance at everyone than anger but whatever, it’ll do Katie justice :D
First of all: literally what the fuck. Why do so many people want to vote out Katie when she has explicitly said multiple times that she will step down at fourth place and let everyone else in her alliance go to the end? Like, are people stupid? Putting her fantastic loyalty and great friendship aside, she is literally the perfect ally. Yet time after time, people keep voting her out and it’s like ???what. yes let’s vote out the one person who WANTS FOURTH PLACE like are you mentally deficient KEEP HER AROUND. Unless you also want to place fourth, there is literally no reason to vote her out if you’re tight with her. *cough* NICOLE *cough*
Secondly: Foxx. This guy is fucking unbelievable. Like I actually thought we had a decent connection - not best friends or anything considering as neither one of us wanted to include the other on the vote but we were decently getting along, I told him I didn’t plan to vote for him over the next few tribals and genuinely meant it when I said I wanted to keep him around. Then I go to him after the first round of votes, kindly asking why he did that and could he please not vote me out and he sends me this rude as fuck message that’s like “u told me you had an alliance with the other tribe!!1”. Yeah okay buddy except no. My legitimate loyalties were to Katie, Nicole, and Wan, with Foxx being secondary but I still sort of wanted to try and turn the other guys against each other before voting him out because incase you didn’t know, I don’t take the fucking easy ride to the end. Hopefully he’s out ASAP so I don’t have to deal with that anymore.
Then you have Dylan who immediately runs and complains that I was kept in the game and how it’s “not fair”. Suck it up, maybe you should’ve thought of that when Katie said she would quit if y’all didn’t vote to keep me in. If you don’t like that it’s “unfair”, then you can quit and make my life a whole lot easier.
Next is Wan. Wan, buddy…. what the hell. I was actually pretty honest with this guy, I didn’t tell him absolutely everything but I had a plan to save him and he goes and votes me out. Then when I’m like “hey can you please keep me, I really did want to work with you” he fucking votes for me again! Like sweetie no. Again, someone who I would’ve given an idol to if they needed it and now that bridge is burnt.
Then okay let’s look at the tribe chat. You have me going to Foxx and Dylan, saying I’m not bitter/angry (which despite the copious swearing in here I swear I’m honestly not and in all fairness, I was targeting Dylan) but they aren’t even responding at all. “Hey guys i’m going to play my idol next tribal so one of you is going home maybe you shouldn’t have voted me out twice, anyone want to strategize since I’m a free fucking agent???”. No response. “Hey guys just thought I’d lay out my strategy so y’all can know what was happening and we can all be on the same page and maybe work together as a team moving forward???”. No response. Like hello what are you doing, someone is trying to make amends and you’re putting in no effort? Maybe the passive agressive bitchy smiley faces I put in weren’t enough to hide the fact that I’m not impressed with these guys
It kind of sucks since it’s an absolute last resort, but I guess come merge, I’m working with the returning guys. I don’t mind it as much now because it’s not me taking an easy ride to the end (which is what I reaaally wanted to avoid because that’s boring as fuck) but I would have rather played the game with Katie, Nicole, and Wan. Nicole now wants to do like some “secret alliance” or something moving forward which honestly could work but like girl you gotta earn my trust back first, you don’t vote someone out two fucking times in a row and then say “hey yeah let’s make a final 2 deal” like it takes a little more than that :p
Yeesh okay I’m not even halfway done, this is really season 5 style confessionals
Okay. SO. Moving on from the fucking fiasco that was tonight, things are not looking so bad for the foreseeable future. Katie is gone, which absolutely sucks because she’s the one person I’ve played with who has never lied to me and that I’ve never lied to but it’s so incredibly sweet of her to quit rather than have me gone. I feel like Tyson now in BvW, I have to win for the both of us or else it was all for nothing!!
If we lose this challenge, I don’t really care, because I think anyone on the other tribe (except Emma) would send me to exile to be safe. I’d prefer if Dylan or Foxx went out on that vote but it’ll probably be Wan or Nicole which sucks but I’m not too sympathetic at the moment :p If Nicole hadn’t just turned on me, I would have 100% given her my idol to make sure she was safe if this happened but now it’s like nah girl you’re on your own.
After this vote, I am fairly confident we’ll merge at nine people. If the other tribe loses, hopefully Emma gets voted out because again, I don’t think she’ll work with me, but really as long as Jack is safe then I think I have a fighting chance.
I’m tired of getting blindsided, I’m tired of people lying to me and backstabbing me before I get them. Time to go back to Season 5 style Jessica and prove to these people why you don’t fucking do this shit
Just as the true Chaos Queen once said, “I’m not fucking sweet”
So I'm really nervous because I pushed for Emma to be exiled so she can work with us post-merge, but the logic for sending Jack was sound enough so as not to resist. I can live with any other boot target but if Emma is safe after tonight she would have reason to organize with us to take put the Returning Players' Alliance.
It's not the end of the world if she's gone, but I want to keep all my options open and have ways to counter them.
I cannot comprehend why Nicole sent me to Exile, but thank you. Exile Is My Home, so I'm glad to be back. But why? I would assume that she would send Emma, so the guys would have to vote someone out. Then the returning guys would vote out Mikey, and Wan would stick with The Gargoyles and Medusa. And then possibly Emma could flip, and it would be the end for the returnees - Nicole. Once we make merge I would love to find out why they sent me, because I am definitely not working with Galladon.
hobo licker??? FUCKING HOBO LICKER LAURE??????????????????????????????????????????????? I’m giving you gold in my confessionals here and you pick ‘hobo licker’?????????????????? you’re clearly just mining for silver [flirty pouty emoji]
jk though hobo licker yeah that sounds like fun go for it #episode5
ok so bbcan has made me notice that a lot of reality show casts have that one token asshole named andrew and that may or may not be me for this season
so we really thought we were gonna win immunity! like forreal we seriously expected to bring home another win but you know. mikey and emma got more than half of the questions wrong in the before/after challenge so i mean….. life
so then nicole got to exile one of us, and i honestly expected every single person on galladon to exile emma if we lost bc like that’s their best chance of getting an extra number on their side??? we just tried to vote her off last time we went to tribal??????? so she exiled jack and idk i mean the vote should be pretty straight-forward; me and owen shouldn’t be going anywhere, and mikey is loyal to our alliance so he should be staying, and emma is *most likely* on her way out. i’ll personally be voting for emma bc i’ve promised loyalty to mikey and i would die before i voted for owen tbh, and i just don’t feel like i owe anything to emma. i have a hunch that if she makes the merge she’ll try to stir some shit up with a newbie alliance like she already tried to do (with me, michelle, and mikey) so she probably isn’t actually pulling for us in the game like she says she is. but the tricky part is that i somehow convinced myself that emma is finna whip out an idol and that she’ll really be voting for owen or i and then we’ll be out and like……………………………………………………………….. kill me like idk what to do. i think the way to go is that we tell mikey we’re voting emma, emma we’re voting mikey, and then owen and i split our votes b/n the two of them just in case emma gets funny and votes for one of us and plays an idol, that way we won’t go home and we can try to vote out mikey in the revote. i hate everything
i s2g if i get voted out premerge fucking AGAIN i will shit a brick laure like i’m not fucking kidding i need to make the merge this time >;3
but like yeah! i just started talking to owen and he wants to vote out mikey. idk how i feel about that bc i think mikey will always be loyal to us while emma might try to start shit against us down the road. also before jack was sent to exile he was like “such an easy vote, dont frick it up” and i mean he was probably talking about emma. and i feel like if owen and i frick it up then he won’t trust us as much. beyond that, if we vote mikey out, then the mentagon will be in shambles and wan would probably not come back with us either. emma, on the other hand, doesn’t have any real loyalties to either side bc she doesn’t know them and we kinda tried to vote her out, so i mean. i would be an asshole to think that she would just come along with us to the end of the game and not try to break our group up. BUT if we all vote for emma and then she pulls out an idol, then that would mean the end of the game for one of us. me and owen are conflicted as hell.
what i plan to do as of rn is that i’m going to use my letter that i won in the reward to send jessica a message saying “if you have the idol post [message A] in the tag, if you don’t, post [message B]” bc wan sent me a message saying that jess has the idol (which i’d like to believe but he might be lying like idfk) and if she posts that she does have the idol, then we’re obviously gonna pump emma up and vote her out. if she doesn’t? idk murder suicide sounds good
idk i can just taste the merge and the jury and alllllll these possibilities that come with this part of the game, and if we fuck this tribal up then owen and i might not get to experience it, or experience it briefly and be voted out right after everything starts. that would be really disappointing and i just hope nothing horrendous happens
The last tribal was phenomenal. I kinda betray jess and jess literally come back into the game after 4 votes cast on her. It was crazy! So unprecedented in all survivor history. I mean I’m glad jess is back in the game since i voted her off was because they never explain to me their real plan and put my name in the vote. However, its still crazy. Katie loyalty was even crazier. If i ever meet any people who have the same amount of loyalty as katie is i would flat out marry that person. BOOM!!! No question ask. However, in this game? Really? Wow. I manage to talk to jess and clear things up but who knows whether or not she’s gunning for me? Women scorn, helloo… But i need to give the benefit of the doubt. Why made an enemy if you can make them your friend right? Right? Yeah, still nervous. I send my letter to andrew since i want them to have the impression that i still want to work with them. That way i can keep my option open and have info feed in to me. Besides, if we lose the challenge i want them to save me by maybe sending me to exile since i told them that jess have the idol. Lucky me fox ask me if he can use the letter and while i was asking laure, laure told him that i already send the letter. Now he was like distancing himself from me and even in the chat he was like serious all the time. Somehow we win and nicole was given the opportunity to send one people to exile. Surprisingly she send jack eventhough fox, dylan and even her keep saying that they want to send jack home. WTF? Isn’t it better to send emma and wait for the boys to kill each other? At least we maybe can see the idol being played.After this i’ll know what kind of relationship the selwyn tribe is having right now. Another boomshell, dylan told me that nicole got a letter from andrew and andrew is trying to coax nicole in flipping with them in a 6 person alliance of returning player. Not that surprising, beside whether its true or not is still unknown. How can all this happen when i’m going for my graduation convocation where the place have shitty to near zero internet connection?
so owen and andrew have both told me that keeping me was good for their game and even owen has approached me with a final 2 and even jack wants to keep me around till merge but now with jack being exiled thats a vote that i dont have on my side but i really feel like i could convince either owen or andrew to vote out the blind puppy that is michael and if i get both of them too thats amazing but even if it ties i feel safe
The tribe: We’re so awesome! I love everyone!
