but just for a moment. How so much time has passed. It will soon be 10 years since I left home. How I’ve experienced truly living and figuring out myself.
I actually started feeling blue because apparently I have access to one of my old Gaia accounts that I made because of some dumb ass guy I met (idr how tbh) but it was so cringy in retrospect. But anyway, he was a total liar and he had me wrapped around his shitty ass finger. Pinky. Whatever people say. But yea, that account, I had written some journals. Latest one was 2016.
Some things I mentioned was how my sis was going to graduate and join a beauty school. She never did because of costs, but she managed to open her own Etsy shop and has grown and learned so much. She’s done a really great job if you wanna check her out and maybe share her stuff to others you think would like her handmade items! I’m glad she’s doing something she really enjoys. I’m really super duper proud of her.
I mentioned baby Hoshi, cuz he was babi to me, and how saddened I was when his time came. It was such a heartache to see him slip away. I ugly cried to where the acquaintance’s bro creeped in in scared and worried like “Is....everything okay?” I didn’t mean to scare anyone haha. But I could not bring Hoshi with me on the move to Arizona. Glad I didn’t or his urn would have probably busted open. We got a 24′ moving truck cuz that was the smallest they had. Stuff was all over the place when we showed up. My Hello Kitty drink dispenser got scuffed black and idk HOW that even happened.
I was also reminded how I miss a certain someone because they were essentially the turning point in my life. So even though they no longer exist in my realm I can certainly relate to the peace I finally managed to reach. It took for fucking EVER but I got here. Also if you’re not catching my drift, play Florence. It’s a short and sweet game. Only played it once but I want to return to it eventually to play more. I can relate to the ending I got in it. Chaos and then the view after the dust settled. I wish we could have remained friends.
At this point in my life, the goals are to pay off some cards thanks to C-19 and having been unemployed for sometime because of health reasons. We were set back for 6 months not being able to find jobs. Will got one at a grocery store and I had gotten one at UPS for a seasonal position. Once UPS didn’t call anymore (on-call sorta job) I landed another seasonal at Target. I am still a little sour they never called back the day they said they would after we were let go. They said Monday late December. They called @ weeks into January. Like come on HR. You have our emails. Send emails! It’s faster and less work for you. Work smart not hard. So because that happened I was like okay I didn’t get the job, then I get a voicemail and I called back like 7 times and left 2 or 3 voicemails with no reply. It was good pay, but if the communication isn’t there, why bother to work there anyway? For a person like me to grow up and not know how to comfortably communicate with others, it really is key for me now. It’s important.
During this time (ish) Will left his grocer’s job and works at Geico, because he’s had background with insurance, so he was gonna bite the bullet of talking to angry customers over the phone to have better pay to move back to Texas faster. He scored 100% on all 10 quizzes/tests. He’s so smart...insurance wise. On that note, I took his job hahah. It’s not too bad. My time did get better for shopping, but it dips when customers stop to ask me things and I’m in the middle of looking for an item.
Well, that’s about it. I really hope to leave this place sooner if possible. For now, I’m just going to enjoy my day off.
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