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[jellyhyun]

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[jellyhyun]

you: im hoping to be very active! :) you: never posts again

Fuckin true!!!! I’m an ugly rat!!

[jellyhyun]

Crush/Bestie! Jae

A/N: I’m finally out for Summer!!! During the week days I have the MOST free time I’ve ever had so I’m hoping to be very active ::)))

Deep breathe in. Hold it. Deep breathe out. This has always been what people have told me to do when I felt like everything was getting to be too much. Does that ever really help?

When I first caught sight of the love of my life, I instantly felt overwhelmed. I couldn’t exactly identify which emotion I was feeling in that moment. I tried the deep breathing thing, but nothing could bring me back into that moment.

We met through a mutual friend. It may have been June 2016. Johnny had come to my house and asked if I’d like to go on a walk. I accepted and when I had gotten to the edge of the road, I’d noticed a quite familiar face.

Jung Jaehyun. That’s who waited for us at the corner. I’ve always known of him, but we’ve never actually talked. We had plenty mutual friends so I’ve always thought it was pretty strange that we hadn’t formally met sooner.

As soon as that walk began, we instantly clicked. We spoke about all of our mutual friends and about how things were in school way back when we were children. I felt like I had known this kid for years.

I don’t think anyone would’ve guessed that eventually he would become one of my best friends. For the next two, almost three, years I would come to him with my little problems. He’d be there for my ups and my downs. The feeling I had from the beginning needed to be suppressed. That’s my best friend. I couldn’t put everything in jeopardy for a little fling.

“Is everything okay?” A hand on my shoulder pulled me out of my flashback making me jump. I looked over at who had come over to me, the same man who had captivated my thoughts was now standing next to me.

“Yea, Yea. Just thinking.” I smiled, shrugging his hand off of me and standing up from the park bench.

“What were you thinkin about ladybug?” He brushed the dirt off the back of my knees. The nickname that stuck this entire time bringing a smile to my face.

“Something.” I couldn’t tell him I was thinking about him. That could make it too obvious and jeopardize everything we had built together as best friends.

“Well if you don’t wanna tell me, I guess I can’t make you.” He shrugged but still stared at me with those puppy-like eyes. He pulled me in for a warm hug. God, he smelled so good. “You seem sad though, so remember I’m here.”

“Yea, I will.” I smiled weakly and hugged him tight. Maybe one day this would happen the way I’m hoping for it to. Right now, we were going to get ice cream like we planned!

[jellyhyun]

Me: “I’m back from unexpected hiatus”

Also me: *posts twice and leaves for a month*

Haha sorry again y’all. I’m not really in a good place at the moment!! I’m bombarded with school work oof !! Im currently working on something and it may get put up during the week!!! I get out of school on the 24th so from that day on expect me to be a lot more active :)

[jellyhyun]

Open Letter

A/N: Hello!! It’s me!! I’m back yet again!! This means like hella shit to me so if y’all could like BLOW this tf up id be like the happiest girl in the world !!!! Anywho I haven’t written for the dreamies in forever so I’m prolly gonna do that next!!! Send me requests oof!!!

Dear Girlscout,

I know what you’re thinking. This isn’t my real writing. This isn’t the part of me you were hoping to see. Well, this is on my most popular blog and I did write it on paper first, so it’s real. Shush. I needed a way, a platform if you will, to get out my real thought about you without sounding like a dumb awkward fool.

You sometimes ask me “why do you love me?” And sometimes it breaks my heart just a little bit when I hear it. How can you be so oblivious to your amazing qualities? I guess that may be one of the things that keep you so humble (another thing I wholeheartedly adore about you). Was that weird to read? If so, buckle your seatbelt because this ride isn’t quite over yet.

I can’t believe you don’t think you’re good looking!! You’re honestly so ethereal. Every time I see you, my breath is instantly sucked from my lungs and I struggle to get it back. Do you every catch me staring at you intently? Yanno, like with that big dumb smile on my face? Yea I’m not a weirdo!!!! You’re just cute!!! Who goes to an art show and doesn’t observe the pieces? Annoyed kids whose parents forced them to attend. I showed up willingly and you’re the only thing that caught my eye.

I know these topics are changing at such a speedy pace. I just want to cover as much as I can in my limited supply of paper. If it weren’t for my lack of paper, who knows how long this could be. I could fill fucking notebooks with every nitty gritty detail of how much I love you and why. Even if I did do that, the words contained inside of them still wouldn’t be enough to bring you even remotely close to knowing just how much that I actually do.

I’ve never met anyone in my whole life that knows me the way you do. Of course, you’re the only one out here that ever seemed to put up with me or get to know me like that. Don’t get me wrong, I’d never change it for the world though. You’ve always seemed to be able to put up with me and still have patience afterwards (except when you were tryna show me how to crochet lmfao). You’ve always seemed to be able to help me, you know the boundary between closeness and needing space and just how to fit those two together. You even let me just sit here and bitch if I start to or just make weird noises which sometimes you join along with. I really don’t think you’ll ever understand the impact your hugs or kisses has on my mood !! I go from like “...” to like “!!!!!!!”

Wow. I’m bursting at the seams!! I woke up to you’re smiling face this morning. That’s the best way to wake up. That was a little over 7 hours ago. That means even at 5:30 in the morning when you’re half awake, you’re still brighter than the sun at the hottest point of the entire day. That being said, I miss you. Even thought I’ll see you just a little bit later.

One more thing, I’m sorry. I’m sorry for every single mean thing someone said to you that I was silent about. I’m sorry for all the things I was never able to say to you before. I’m sorry for not saying anything sooner. Finally, I’m sorry for making you wait so damn long.

So, Thank you. Thank you for putting up with me. Thank you for being the first person that I actually feel something for when I say “I love you.” Thank you for making me happier than I’ve been in years. Thank you for being my best mf friend!!!

This has been my four page rant about how much I love you and there’s still so much more I could say. I really do hope I make you just as happy as you make me. Until next time, I love you sososo much!!!!

~Alyssa (4/30/18)

[jellyhyun]

Announcement

I wanna be super annoying so...... I’m gnna be posting a lot this week.... gotta whole list ready....y’all get ready... I’m gnna post an open letter too so don’t even FRICKEN bully me !!!! I would show him but I’m not good at bein too gushy irl yanno?!?

[jellyhyun]

post this n ill kill you

[jellyhyun]

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[softheartedsuggestion]

you’re not selfish for wanting to be treated well

[jellyhyun]

I just yelled at this kid Bc he claims he so

Smart but said he had bad grades. I was like maybe it’s Bc ur on ur phone all class period Bc ur rude and disrespectful and he was like it’s not like I’m ruining anyone’s life and I was like ....ur grades....can get teachers....fired.. you’re mom is such a sweet lady I can’t believe you were raised this way oof

[jellyhyun]

Y’all. This girl I barely know came up to me and asked me where my boyfriends was so I told her he went to work this morning right? She then got rlly close to my face and was like you know I dated him right and I was like yea lol and she walks away talm bout how short he was then. Oof the people at this school are so fuckin weird and idk why I’m annoyed by this. Like idc e****!!!! I don’t even like you stop talking to me!!!

[jellyhyun]

After School

Characters: Reader x Lucas

A/N: I’m back to dumb titles!! Also first Lucas scenario on my blog!! I’ve been planning one for Jungwoo forEVER but I lost it oof but stay tuned for more!! I love you guys!! Thank you for staying with me!!

“Lucas!” I called to him, but he kept walking away. He strode out of that building so gracefully, without speeding up or slowing down. He just kept a constant speed.

My hand flew to my forehead as I realized what had just happened. He must’ve mistaken me for another crazy fan, I really should’ve sent him a warning text instead of just showing up. I took a deep breath in and decided to sprint and catch up with him.

He didn’t get very far, so about a minute later I had made it right behind him. “Yukhei~” I said it really sweet and innocently, so I was hoping that’d get him to turn around, but he didn’t. “Why’re you being so cold?” To this I also received no reply, but I was expecting it that time. I figured I’d have no other option to get his attention from back here, so I reached out for his shoulder.

As soon as we made contact he spun around, a shocked expression appeared for only a second. It quickly turned into a warm smile and quickly took out his earbuds. “Y/N! What’re you doing out here?” He wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me to the side of the curb out of everyone’s way.

“Well, I got out of class early. So, I thought I’d take you out. I had to chase you down first though.” I laughed and lightly rugged on his earphone cord.

“Oh, I’m so sorry. The funny thing is, I swore I heard someone yell my name, but I figured it was just a fan. I’m not super in the mood to deal with them and I don’t wanna accidentally say something mean because of it.” He took one arm off of me to rub the back of his neck nervously.

“You’re fine. You should take one of these out or atleast turn it down while you’re walking around. You could be putting yourself into danger.” I ran my hand through his hair and gave him a soft kiss on the cheek.

“Yes mom.” He grumbled, teaching into his pocket to pause the music blaring from the tiny speakers.

“I was going to treat you, but now I’m not so sure about it.” I sighed, backing my way out of his grip.

“I was kidding!” He pulled me right back into it, but only for a brief kiss.

“Okay, well in that case. You can pick where we go.” I smiled and grabbed his hand. Out fingers interlocked.

“Thank you! I love you!” He had already begun to drag me away before I could answer. I’m sure if he turned around he could see the happiness I was feeling and that could’ve been my answer.

[jellyhyun]

What I Love About Sundays

A/N: I wanted to make this NCT related, but like I didn’t know which member would really fit this scenario. I guess I wouldn’t know Bc this is an experience and I could only really Imagine it with one person. Please feel free to imagine your bias tho ^^ ((this is honestly purely experimental))

My hand sprawled against his chest, my head resting in the nook between his neck and shoulder, and the tiniest hint of daylight flittering through the blinds. This is how Sunday morning were intended to start out.

I tilted my head to the side slowly so I could see his face and then sat there motionless, listening to the sound of his heavy breathing. I felt his chest rise and fall at a steady pace as my hand moved right along with it. I tried my best not to move around as it could wake him up, disrupting the beginning of my own little personal heaven.

Before I knew it, his eyelids fluttered open. His big, bright eyes darted around the room for a second before he looked over at me, a warm smile spreading over his face.

“Good Morning,” the words escaped my mouth with a sickly sweet tone. I couldn’t control it. His smile grew bigger and he stretched one of his arms out in front of him.

“Good Morning baby,” He slowly turned his head to the side so now we were facing each other. We then sat there, staring into each other’s eyes for a minute with the dumbest grins on our faces.

I don’t think I’ve ever woken up to something more wonderful. I lowered myself down, giving little wet kisses around his neck. I trailed them up to his cheek and then all around his face. My final destination being his lips.

[tenslee-deactivated20200923]

NCT LITERALLY SAYS ONE-TWO-SEVEN IN ENGLISH WHAT MORE DO U GUYS WANNA TALK ABOUT ASJFIOJA

[jellyhyun]

I hate history and I rlly should’ve skipped today Bc

I actually have no fucking clue what I’m doing at all.

[jellyhyun]

Oof so I came back to school and uhhh I got a hundo on my form and a shit ton of missed work 👊👋

[jellyhyun]

hI U H IVE MISSED U THANK U N I LOVE U

THANK YOUU!! IVE MISSED YOU TOO AND I LOVE YOU 💕💕💕