Speakfromtheheart

23. Indiana. Not into labels. I love the acoustic guitar . I write poems, it's my way of coping with things. .

[real-lesbian-thoughts]

I hope that other girls that are into girls hope that I’m into girls when they see me.

[wildermouse]

where my lesbians at?

like or reblog this is you’re a lesbian or wlw, I need more gays in my life

[jen9412]

Hey hey

[jen9412]

New poem

Mindful thoughts Trying to catch my breath Don’t like being sensitive Im not sure what game im in But everyone has two faces Im probably getting played Just like always Everything tells me to run Im better off anyways My defenses are higher than ever But depression is a bitch Knocks me down when I least expect Just when im ahead of the game It knocks me down and ruins everything All I want is for once to catch my breath Feel the oxygen fill up my lungs And let out that peaceful breath I’m waiting on

[jen9412]

Fuck it by Jen Pate

I think to myself I know I’m strong People say I’m too nice I know this to be true But I know what it’s like to Be treated like shit To have someone make you believe you’re not and that they care Only for it to be a facade Hell they believe it themselves They tell lies to make it seem what they did was ok To make their reputation stay intact So I know how fucked up it is To let it happen time and time again To make excuses for them Only to get taken for granted For the person I am I won’t stoop to the level of those Who know they did me wrong And pretend nothing happened Even though I have proof and I can destroy them To destroy their reputation The only thing they hold onto But I don’t, I keep it to myself So yes I’ve been dealt bad hands From people I thought were friends To people I thought cared So just because I am kind Because I am a rare breed That puts others before themselves every time Doesn't mean I don't have a breaking point You want to ask why I’m distant I don’t want the person you are Coldhearted and a liar who manipulates To be a person I associate with You don’t want to see me angry That person I don’t want to become That person is someone I never want to meet and either do you So it’s best if distance is kept Before hell breaks loose

[jen9412]

[culturenlifestyle]

Whimsical Trompe L’oeil Street Art by David Zinn

Michigan illustrator David Zinn is known for the composition of his quirky site-specific illustrations, which playfully integrate adorable animal figures into the cracks, hidden treasures and abandoned sidewalks of the playground and street. Since 1987, Zinn has been composing whimsical chalk or charcoal work which take us into daily adventures.

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[jen9412]

I just want a love that is happy Someone who knows I'm not easy That's its ok if sometimes I'm too quiet That knows there is just a lot on my mind Who takes me in their arms And just holds me Holds me until I feel ok Who lets me fall asleep My head on their shoulder Listening to their heartbeat Someone who is patient Because I am guarded And I am cautious To crave human contact Just that closeness Knowing I'm a safe To wake up and look over To see an angel sleeping peacefully That's all I want someone to love me the same

[jen9412]

Newest poem

Losing I wish I could turn back time Should have listened to my intuition Instead I push it aside I wouldn't have learned this lesson It being amplified Fighting to hard to be accepted Am I being tested? Can the damage be justified? Or is it the end Has my fate been verified?

[breatheinpoetry]

I. Healing doesn’t follow a linear pattern. It’s not “all uphill from here”. But it’s not only downhill either. Some days will be absolutely brilliant. And some days will give you a real taste of hell. But know the hells will slowly be spaced farther and farther until their taste will only linger on the smile of your lips.   II. There will be days that feel like you’ve hit rock bottom again. Sometimes it’ll feel like you’ve hit even lower. But that’s okay. It doesn’t mean you’re starting over. You’ve still made the progress you’ve made. And your good days will only come faster. You just have to make sure you don’t relinquish hope.   III. Sometimes moving on will mean getting out of bed and taking a shower. Sometimes it’ll mean passing an exam, or talking to an old friend. Sometimes it’ll mean just being able to live another day. Take it one day at a time. They’ll each redefine moving on. And as long as you follow that day’s definition towards healing, your one day closer to your happiness.   IV. Give yourself the advice you’d give a close friend. We are often far crueler to our own selves than we would be to anyone else. “You’ll get through this” to a friend becomes “Why aren’t you over this already” to ourselves. Why give yourself words that will only hurt you more. Be kind. At times you’re really all you have. So please be kind. You will get through this. You keep telling yourself that. Until you really mean it.   V. Irrational people make irrational decisions. It won’t make complete sense why she hurt you after all you did for her. It won’t make complete sense why he cheated. It will never make complete sense because it doesn’t. And no, you didn’t deserve it. So why keep dwelling, why keep asking questions you’ll never get answers to. Sometimes understanding hinders acceptance. Do not prioritize the need for clarity over the need for moving on. It will only hold you back.   VI. Give yourself the time to grieve, but don’t dwell on it. Allot yourself a certain amount of time to think about it then try to distract yourself. Thoughts are good. They give you understanding. But at a certain point, you know what you know. And you have to just learn to live with it. And that takes a lot of practice. It’ll be in the back of your mind, but it’s better there than blasting in the front.   VII. It will hurt. It will hurt so much. You will move through some days and even weeks with a pain in your chest and an empty expression. And sometimes you will feel so alone. But know you are so much stronger than this pain. Know that somewhere in the world someone has felt your pain and has chosen to live and is happier because of it. Know that you are still infinitely loved even when you don’t feel infinitely understood.   VIII. Don’t be alone for too long. It’s okay to not want to talk about it with someone. But sometimes it’s nice to have someone there, sitting with you in your silence, than to be alone knowing there is no one besides you to be quiet with. They’ll understand your silence. And maybe that understanding is worth all the words in the world.   IX. Pick the right people for the right moods. Some people are good listeners. Some are good at distraction. Some have a knack at making you laugh. Some keep you focused in school or give you a shoulder to cry on. And that’s okay. You are loved by people, even if they don’t fit your every mood. It’s not selfish to pick and choose when you’ve hit a low. Don’t neglect others, but don’t forget to focus on your own self too. Don’t exhaust your little bit of energy on creating a facade for someone when you don’t have the right disposition that day. Don’t use up your remaining stamina fighting battles with the outside world when you should be focusing on the one inside yourself.   X. A loss doesn’t have to mean sitting in front of the T.V. with a bucket of ice-cream. Give yourself some time to grieve, but don’t ruin your health because of it. Your health comes first. You won’t feel good if you’re feeding yourself trash. Filling yourself with junk is only fighting your own body. It’s hard enough pushing through without having to deal with jeans that won’t shut and an upset stomach. Move. Exercise. Eat well. And when the pain goes away, and I promise it will, you’ll be left with a healthier, stronger person, physically and emotionally.   XI. Every single time in the past you were convinced you couldn’t move forward, you did. You’re here. You’ve had your hells and you’ve made it through. And this one’s just the same.

Meriam BHT, eleven things to remember: and this is how you heal (via breatheinpoetry)

Yesssss

[jen9412]

Ugly truth

I know I must being dreaming We are no longer speaking Moments we had are playing On an endless loop of repeat There’s a remote that is sitting by me But I think it’s toying with me I try to hit rewind But I hear, you can’t turn back time silly If only if only I could go back to when Things were just right Back to the first time I saw your smile Or when I knew your heart was mine Pause and stay there for awhile But I hear something in the distance It jerks me awake And I see You’re not here next to me So am I still dreaming Or living a nightmare endlessly

[avoiding-the-parentals-deactiva]

Reblog if you're gay, lesbian, bisexual, pansexual, asexual, transgender or a supporter.

[jen9412]

This should be reblogged by everyone. Even if you’re straight, you should be a supporter.

Damn right I support it.

[jen9412]

Inside my head

My quietness is just a bluff So much goes on inside my head I put my headphones on Close my eyes and just listen The words bring my soul to rest Gives me peace for just a second I hear the voices of my closest friends Concerned looks on their faces I know I'm not alone This they convince me I don't throw the word around I love you all I really mean it.

[jen9412]

[jen9412]

Promise

On the days I don't feel good enough The time slowly trickles away I feel so out of place I'm on the outside looking in Everyone has someone but me Then i see your face Saying hey it's going to be ok Convince me you're here to stay I will try to believe the words you say Not let doubt invade the space Between our hearts beating We both been through to much Our quietness is just a bluff A pedestal is not a place for you I can see you're hurting too Just don't run away If you promise your heart I promise mine

[jen9412]

I just want to be good enough

[jen9412]

dear friend

I can see the pain you hide It shows in your eyes You don't always have to be strong We are human we break Our hearts give out after long When the world is to much to take All you need is a song Turn it up drown out the noise May your soul finally find rest If you ever find yourself in a dark place I hope you'll confide in me We can sit and talk Or if silence is all you need I hope I can help you find peace Don't ever think you're problems are more than mine That you're a burden to me No needs to carry extra weight I promise the light will come The clouds will part The birds will give you a new song to sing You shouldn't have to get use to the rain You don't have to worry If your heart is ever to heavy Please come find me I will help carry the load So you don't go through it alone I want you to be happy You're my friend You mean everything I know you'd do the same for me

[jen9412]