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I just reada really good fic but halfway through I realized "oh shit this is really familiar.... didn't I write something like this once?" And as I kept reading I kept predicting what happened next and the further I went the more convinced I was that they'd ripped off my story-

like, copied the ENTIRE plot and re-written it, just better than I had? The characters were more fleshed-out than mine were, and the POV was more interesting, and the pace made more sense- but it was MY STORY?

So close to the end I was like "holy shit.. do I message them? Ask if my story inspired theirs? Should I be angry? Flattered?" Cause their tags and description didn't mention me AT ALL, which, sure, it's fanfiction to begin with, but if you're using my work than at least credit me as inspo, right? Just to be courteous?

But I get to the end of the final chapter, and it's not finished, and I'm kind of disappointed cause I never finished my story and I was really immersed in their version now and had been looking forwards to seeing how they tied up my loose ends- so I scroll to the bottom to leave a comment, and.

It's MY URL.

IT WAS MY STORY THE WHOLE TIME.

THE ONE *I WROTE*.

In *2013*.

And FORGOT ABOUT

BECAUSE I WAS SO INSECURE ABOUT MY SLOPPY, SHALLOW, AMETEUR WRITING

And I'm just sitting here now staring into space thinking about every shitty story I've ever written now like

IT WAS ALL GOOD?

IT WAS GOOD THIS WHOLE DAMN TIME??

I'M A GOOD WRITER?????

seven-oh-four

you didn't ONCE think to check the url?

teaboot

I WANTED TO FINISH READING IT FIRST

chestersbraincell

Here it is, the belated acursed birthday gift

Happy Birthday Orlam 😈

just-a-carrot

never fear all

now all my game projects are backed up and synced on github 😎 (and since i keep all my extra art in an aptly named "Extra Stuff" folder within the OW main folder, all my art will be backed up and synced too)

now i feel much more secure and have less to worry about in case of computer issues! ✨

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genuinely wondering what orlam’s taste in men, women, and non-binary people are like. like I KNOW he is attracted to Iggy but I need to know if this dude got a type for any gender or if he’s just a Freaky Freaky Man who gravitates towards anyone who makes his eyes bulge outta his skull

but also I wonder what about them caught his eye in the first place that made his eyes cartoonishly bulge outta his skull in this first place…………🤔🤔🤔

anyone he can pamper

/hj

LOL i kid a bit but like hmmm...

i think aesthetically just from a "thinking they look nice" point of view, his tastes vary wildly and he can be attracted to a lot of different people. but when it comes to "actually wanting to pursue something with them" it's more of a personality and how they behave type of thing. i feel like orlam loves the chase and loves going after people and slowly opening them up/learning more about them/discovering more about them even when they try to hide it, that type of thing. and i think he gravitates towards people who don't mind if he kinda takes control of things, have his way about things, pamper and compliment, treat nicely and fawn over, etc. like he very much will be instantly turned off if someone comes on too strong and is overly flirty and aggressive, or if they want to be the one in charge of things, etc. he likes the other way around where a person might be a little shy and/or emotionally unavailable but he's able to get them to open up and take care of them (i think i also said this before once but orlam very much likes to be the one to make the first move; it can be a turn off to him if someone else makes the first move)

having said all that, orlam just generally likes people, so he's quite flirty and chummy with anyone he finds attractive even if he would not want to actively pursue them

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I like 2 think that cecil actually does care about/for orlam a good amount even if it…..Does Not Always Look Like It

like, it’ll manifest in different ways like Cecil folding his laundry for him when Orlam didn’t ask him too, cleaning his room, etc. All under the guise of “someone has to keep this place from getting infested with rats since you can’t seem to do it yourself.” (cleaning things for someone is 100% a way cecil shows he cares)

or just something like…cecil making orlam tea from his personal favorite box of his favorite flavor when he sees that orlam is clearly depressed or stressed about something

like, he had to have started an on-and-off thing with this guy for a reason. I don’t think cecil would do this for just anyone (except maybe gidget)

orlam “rizzmaster” brewbacher 100% notices btw, but for once in his life chooses not to say anything about it, because he knows if he teases cecil for it too much cecil will get discouraged and stop, and orlam kinda really likes getting pampered by this cute emo british guy who he swears he wants to make his personal butler one day when his companies REALLY take off…..

live laugh love ceclam 🦅🦅🦅

hahaha that sounds pretty legit. cecil is not the type who actively shows his feelings or affection or tbh any kind of affinity at all for anyone, but you'll be able to catch it if you look closely at the things he does, especially the things he does only for certain ppl and not for anyone else (even if he then subsequently complains about it LOL) 😎

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hit new BL dropping... 🤭/j

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I have been thinking about and obsessed with Genzy as Beauty and the Beast so o so much and for oh so long (month or two at least). Picturing them in my head :)

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sometimes i like to imagine orlam finally succeeding in getting iggy to go to a club with him and he dances with iggy to this song and just totally goes to town cutting the rug everywhere and flinging iggy around and iggy is so overwhelmed tears in my eyes don't mind this post lol

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whoops...

just some doodles lkdjfalksdfa

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going sicko mode in my brain rn thinking about orlam and iggy never marrying (in the traditional sense) because orlam WOULD be that sap who’s like “why would I need some piece of paper to prove you’re mine when you hanging on my arm wherever we go shows just that?” and he says this while doing that thing that where orlam takes him by the chin and makes iggy so flustered and gets him so weak in the knees,,,,,,,,,,they could be together for 50 years and orlam would still find new and creative ways of making iggy blush so hard he nearly implodes,,,,,,,,,,.,,,,,

live laugh love orly 🦅🦅🦅

SOB this is such a cute mental image... i love when orlam makes iggy flustered it makes my heart go brrrrr ldkjfasdfa

also fitting as i've always imagined orlam as disliking the idea of marriage in general so i've always thought he would never get married or want to get married (but that doesn't make his love any less vibrant lol 💕 just that he hates the idea of 1. needing a piece of paper to express his feelings, and 2. how claustrophobic the whole idea feels)

"they could be together for 50 years and orlam would still find new and creative ways of making iggy blush so hard he nearly implodes" --> this is so real and true 100% 🦅🦅🦅

sashasparrow

not doomed by the narrative but saved by the narrative. yeah i know you'd rather die than keep suffering but the story doesn't actually care what you want. you have to keep going, even when it hurts. even being erased from existence won't stop you from being salvaged from the wreckage of un-being. get up. keep pushing. keep bleeding. keep living.

chestersbraincell

cred for inspo: @pankakeperformer

demolition-lovers-forever

Mr. Crocket is like a mix of a million different things into one movie but I really do like it.

There’s something about the theme of normalized abuse, the step father who yells and threatens his wife’s son at the dinner table, the woman at the funeral who tells Summer she needs to start beating her child to “get him to act right” hours after burying his father, Summer struggling to be patient and perfect as a single patent with a child who isn’t even understanding his dad died and is acting out. The fact even Mr. Crocket himself was a victim of abuse at the hand of his father.

This TV show being a literal escape only for children who are in abusive and neglectful households is interesting. This very relatable concept for a lot of us who used music or video games or tv to escape parents screaming in the next room or to try and forget abuse or bullying we experienced.

This idea of escapism not always being the best route how avoiding and disappearing isn’t the coping mechanism to get through these things. That these kids all needed real help and ways to work through what they’re feeling, Crocket causing more harm than good by making these kids as violent as he became. Possibly dooming them to become abusers the same way their fathers were.

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I am giving genzou a hug rn I think he deserves it

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I like the idea of iggy being orlam’s little passenger prince in orlam’s expensive ass car that orlam 100% bought with his business money post-arc 5

like they’re out and iggy curled up in a blanket in the passenger seat with the seat warmers on munching on a whopper from burger king that orlam bought him bc iggy was slightly hungry and orlam would rather put a gun to his head than let a cute boy (HIS cute boy) be minorly famished for more than a millisecond.

one of orlam’s hands on iggy’s knee caressing his thumb tenderly against it while the other controls the steering wheel. the music playing is a shuffle mix of both songs iggy and orlam like and it’s just. iggy receiving the princess treatment the entire time because why have all this money if not to use it to spoil your Iggy? :3

(also they’re autism4autism to me and I may make a separate post stating what Flavor Of Autism I think they would theoretically have because I think about it a LOT anyways live laugh love orly I love making iggy maxwell kiss boys 🦅🦅🦅)

THIS IS SO CUTE??????

you've flooded my mind with this mental image now sob I love this so much... I want to draw it but as more than just a doodle lol tho I'm not good at cars weep I'll need to practice... 🤣

this dynamic feels so perfect and sweet for them 💕 I especially love the idea of just like. orlam handling everything and just being so smooth about everything because he wants Iggy to just remain blissfully oblivious because Orlam loves being in control of things and feels, for lack of a better word, like a king when he's able to take care of ppl like that and shower them with niceties, particularly Iggy because something about the way Iggy loves him and the way he shows his affection is different than anyone else Orlam's ever been with and it makes him feel very homey (even though he'd never admit this kyjhugh)

weep now look you've made me ramble 🤣

fr tho this was extremely cute GAH I am smiling so much at this whole scenario... 🥺