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@jesse-cw-blog
What redeeming qualities do I have? I don’t have any. I’m a wildfire and if you get close to me I will burn you through my self destructive ways. If you never knew what hell was like before meeting me you will soon know. You will wish you were in hell instead because I am far worse. Save yourself while you still can.
This has been a warning to the future people that will walk into my life-(t.i.f.)
text ✉ thing two ♥
Jane: And if you don't, you'll carry it with you for the rest of your life. Just, consider that.
Jane: That's not true. I, for one, am going to be very sad if you left Telluride without even saying goodbye.
Jane: You have never been a burden to anyone.
Jane: You're part of my family.
Jesse: I think I'm good with that..
Jesse: You'd get over it. You'll realize that you're happier without me.
Jesse: We both know that's not true. It's why I was put up for adoption in the first place.. because I'm a burden..
Jesse: I'm sure if it was just you, she would have kept you..
Jesse: I know we're family but.. they aren't..
text ✉ thing two ♥
Jane: What kind of feelings and thoughts?
Jane: If you don't want to be home, don't. All I ask of you is that you don't shut us out.
Jane: Don't say that. It's not fine, or whatever. It's also not true. We're family, we care for each other. We miss you. I miss you.
Jesse: I don't wanna talk about it.
Jesse: If I talk about it, it will become real and not just all in my head.. and I just can't..
Jesse: Everyone is better off without me, Jane.. I'm not Elijah... people aren't going to be sad when I'm gone..
Jesse: I know I'm just a burden. I'm nothing like them. I'm not a part of this family, or any family...
text ✉ thing two ♥
Jane: You also told me you're crazy.
Jane: What did you mean by that?
Jesse: Nothing... I don't know what I meant by that...
Jesse: I just have feelings and thoughts that I know I shouldn't have. That's why it's better that I'm not at home anymore. It was making it worse.
Jesse: Besides, it's not like anyone actually misses me. They probably don't even know I'm gone, or care that I'm gone.. It's fine... whatever...
text ✉ thing two ♥
Jane: Don't tell me what you think I want to hear.
Jane: Tell me what's really going on with you.
Jesse: ...I already told you.
Jesse: I just needed to go. I can't be there anymore.
Jesse: I don't belong there, Jane...
text ✉ thing two ♥
Jane: You don't have to lie to me, Jesse.
Jane: Your well-being matters to me. /You/ matter to me.
Jesse: Right...
Jesse: I don't know what you wanna hear then.
text ✉ thing two ♥
Jane: You said some concerning things back in the shop.
Jane: I am.
Jesse: Well you don't have to be concerned about what I said. I'm fine.
Jesse: Worry about things that matter instead then.
text ✉ thing two ♥
Jane: You weren't. You stormed out of the shop. Then ignored all my calls and messages. Until now.
Jane: I'm worried for you, Jess.
Jesse: It means that I wanna be left alone.
Jesse: Sure you are...
I hate this feeling. Like I’m here, but I’m not. Like someone cares. But they don’t. Like I belong somewhere else, anywhere but here, and escape lies just past that snowy window, cool and crisp as the February air.
Ellen Hopkins, Crank (via wordsnquotes)
text ✉ thing two ♥
Jane: I think it's about time you stop ignoring me and talk to me instead. Don't you?
Jesse: I thought I was pretty clear last time.
shiloh-c-walker:
“Aw, Jesse” he frowned in a animated manner before giving the other a playful hug. “I’m sure you’ll still make your dreams somehow. What are they? To live in a shack with no people whatsoever nearby?” he asked. “What can I say i’m a sucker for a Dr. Pepper”.
Jesse pushed Shiloh away as the boy tried to hug him. “Personal space, Shiloh. You should learn to respect it sometime!” he snapped, taking a step back to distance himself from his brother. “No, actually it’s not, but that’s okay. I don’t expect you to know what my dreams are. After all, I’ve only been painting ever since I was able to hold a paintbrush. I can see how they could easily be missed.” he hissed, voice dripping with sarcasm. “And that figures. You were always kind of a Sprepper.”
Closed starter // @lakewoodgents
As Jesse put the key to his house inside the lock of the front door, he was surprised by how calm he was. He knew that there was a possibility that his parents were home, as well as Jane and his other siblings, but it didn’t seem to matter to him. Maybe it was because he was really over his family, or maybe there was another reason. Either way, he stepped inside of the house not feeling anything in particular, except numbness. It was quiet inside and there was no sign of his family members being around. Slowly he made his way towards the living room, where his art supplies where indeed piled up next to the fire place. All his expensive brushes, paint, canvasses and even some of his finished paintings. Jesse just stared at the items that once meant the world to him, his escape from reality, yet for whatever reason even his precious belongings being damaged or destroyed didn’t make him feel any type of way. It felt like what was happening wasn’t even real, almost like he was watching a movie, and he didn’t move until he heard a familiar voice coming from behind him.
bernardxdreyer:
“They must be thoroughly disappointed with me.” Bernard gave a quiet chuckle, lightly shaking his head before leaning forward to grab the poker and tend to the fire.
“You don’t need to kiss ass, I already said you could stay.” Rising back, he reached out and gently pushed at Jesse’s head, “And I’m not old.”
“I mean, this I can’t argue. They probably are incredibly disappointed.” Jesse chuckled before taking another puff from his cigarette. He was starting to feel more at ease, and he wasn’t sure if it was the smoking or the atmosphere in the room. Perhaps both. “Unless of course, you also invite them over to to smoke pot in your cabin. I’m sure they’d easily get over missing out on cougars if you did.”
Jesse furrowed his brow. “I’m not kissing ass, dude. I’m serious. I don’t know a lot of people who would let some pothead brat inside their house, let alone let them sleep on their couch.” A grin spread across his face when Bernard gave him a gentle push at his head. “Right, sure you’re not. Forty is the new thirty, at least that’s what my dad always says...” The smile on his face quickly faded as he mentioned his father. “Then again, he says a lot of bullshit...”
☆ Favourite movie?
Mainstream answer: The Perks Of Being a WallflowerActual favorite movie that I’m sure you’ve never heard of: C.R.A.Z.Y, it’s a French-Canadian movie that you should definitely check out sometime.
☆ Do you like your adoptive parents? If not, who would you prefer?
Sure, I like them. And I don’t know how to answer that question? They’re the only parents I’ve ever had, so I have no idea.
What's with you and Johnny?
Nothing, aside from the fact that he’s apparently trying to take my title of most fucked up person in the family. The psychotic dickhead threatened to burn my art supplies, in case you missed that, Greyface.
Clearly I don't. I'd be happy to be with a family that chose me. A family that picked me out of all the other kids rather than ones that that gave birth to me then abandoned me.
Well good thing for you that you never had to experience what it’s like. That being said, how about you shut up about things you have absolutely no knowledge of? You don’t know me, you don’t know anything about my life and you have no fucking right to judge me or criticize me for how I feel. So, just fuck off already.
