Jess

25 yo she/her ce: 154?lbs

[jesskinnyb]

I’ve been off tumblr for two years and I believe I’m ready to come back.

I fell in love in November 2024 and ever since, I’ve been gaining love weight which I desperately need to get rid of.

So this is me, 25 yo, 5ft3, 150ish lbs trying to go back to the 120s.

I’m back for good.

[jesskinnyb]

Okay so... There's this guy that I used to talk about several months ago. I've been feeling like shit since we stopped what we had. But... I don't know how... We agreed on seeing each other again.

I'm over the moon right now. I want to scream out of happiness.

However... I've gained some weight and wanted to see him until Saturday cause I'd planned to fast throughout the week, but he wants to see me tomorrow!! I most definitely won't be eating anything for the whole day of tomorrow so I get to look descent.

Will be updating soon.

[jesskinnyb]

I forgot to update. Everything went pretty well tbh. And I'm in a good mood now. The end. :)

[jesskinnyb]

Okay so... There's this guy that I used to talk about several months ago. I've been feeling like shit since we stopped what we had. But... I don't know how... We agreed on seeing each other again.

I'm over the moon right now. I want to scream out of happiness.

However... I've gained some weight and wanted to see him until Saturday cause I'd planned to fast throughout the week, but he wants to see me tomorrow!! I most definitely won't be eating anything for the whole day of tomorrow so I get to look descent.

Will be updating soon.

[jesskinnyb]

A couple of nights ago my sister was venting on me on how “fat” she’s getting bc she can’t stop eating out and just eating a lot. She’s still skinny but she does have a bigger belly now honestly. And she began comparing our bellies and said that I’m skinnier than her now and blah blah.

Now she knows how I’ve felt for most of my life, but it hurt to see her struggling for the first time in her life cause I’ve been there and I don’t want her to go through all the shit I have. I understand how easy it is to gain during the first year of college and how hard it is to stop.

I even gave her tips and kind words cause she looked so sad and made my heart break.

On the other side… I’m Internally celebrating that I finally look skinnier than her, it’s been on my motivation list forever. However, I wanted it to be because I’m losing not because she’s gaining. Still, she can now know how it feels to be out of control and that it’s not easy to gain it back.

[jesskinnyb]

I’ve been off tumblr for more than two months and it feels good to be finally back.

A lot happened during this couple of months. First I got my wisdom teeth taken out and got to my lowest weight ever which was 121lbs. Second, my parents found my vape and got me grounded, and couldn’t go to my best friend’s birthday party and her parents are mad at me lol. I got a new vape just three days ago haha. Third, went back to college from mid year vacation and everyone complimented me on how skinny I’ve gotten. I still don’t know how to react to people telling me I’m skinny.

And well… Those are the most relevant events of this break.

Recently I have been eating really bad and got back to 126lbs, so I made this past week a fasting week and today I’m back to 124lbs. I’m just 10 pounds away from my ugw and I’m planning to drop at least half of that in two weeks (bc I’m going to the beach with my family on the 15th) and get to a new lw.

Might be updating in a week or so.

(09/02)

[cherrrycals]

revenge skinny >

[jesskinnyb]

Honestly getting a vape has helped me a lot on curbing cravings for sweets.

[jesskinnyb]

Was talking today with two of my male friends and mentioned that I'm fasting right now. We were basically talking about losing weight in general and they said I don't need to lose weight since I look pretty good as I am now.

That convo actually made me feel great about my body, but also gave me even more motivation to let them see how better I can get my body to look.

[jesskinnyb]

I guess I'm getting into my walking era again.

Walking in circles in my room till I hit 10k steps, let's see what happens

[jesskinnyb]

Before and after bc:

Right is from March 2022

Left is from May 2023

I don't have a more recent bodychecks and I know they're not the same type of picture.

Anyways, I think the most noticeable change is that my ribs are a bit visible now.

[jesskinnyb]

Update on my life since I've been gone for over a month.

- I finally dropped to 123lbs, however I've been eating a lot more lately so I haven't had the courage to check my weight again. I feel like if I check I'll see 127 o 128 again and don't want to get discouraged by that.

- This past weekend I went to a baby shower and saw one of my cousins that I hadn't seen since May of last year. She pointed out how skinny I've gotten and my only response was a nervous laugh (I don't like thanking that comment since it's not a real compliment) but then she said I look really pretty. That made my day tbh. It's good to know that people are noticing my progress 🥰

- Also, my parents were overseas for almost a month and some days after they had returned told me that my grandma was mad at me because I rarely eat breakfast. Now they are probably suspicious. Later they asked if I have dropped the weight by fasting, so now they know and did not mind that much. I guess I can continue to fast without a problem.

I guess that's it at the time.

Currently I've been fasting to look nice on a dress for a party this coming Saturday.

(June 6th)

[jesskinnyb]

I said wasn't going to weigh in until it was Wednesday becauseIhad been on vacationfor a week and had eatenway toomuch. However I weighed in on Monday night because I had only eaten around a quarter of a sandwich. I was at 132-133 lbs. So I decided to fast for most of the week. Even reached the longest I've fast in years which was 26hrs.

Today I weighed in at 127lbs! I'm happy because it's my birthday and since 2021 I've managed to weigh less than the past year for each of my birthdays.

[jesskinnyb]

I'm finally back home, meaning that it's time to go back to not eating.

My birthday is this week on Friday and I want to look decent that day.

The plan is to fast as much as possible and to walk/exercise as much as my body resists. I need to lose the weight I gained during this week, but I'm not gonna weigh in til Wednesday.

My 20hr fast ends tomorrow at midday, hoping to push it as much as my willpower allows me.

That's it for today :) will update tomorrow

[jesskinnyb]

I can't wait for this week to be over and go back to normal and not eat as much and fast most of the days.

I'm turning 22 next week and I feel like I'll look like a whale in every picture. Why can't I ever look okay for my birthday?

Oooh this reminds me of my sixteenth birthday, I almost started crying because I didn't want pictures of me to be taken and my parents got mad at me, and basically told me that it's my fault if I don't like how I look and well... they were absolutely right about that.

[jesskinnyb]

So I'm on a vacation trip right? Well I've been eating terribly and can't seem to take control over that. Also, it seems like I'm constipated and I look sooo bloated and sooo big.

Status: I hate and wanna unalive myself rn

[jesskinnyb]

Since I’ll be staying home all day tomorrow, the best thing I could come up with was to take a lax. I might be taking another one a bit later when no one is watching. 

Wish me luck for tomorrow, the day is gonna be rough.

[jesskinnyb]

I’ve been eating terribly for the past three days and I’m going on vacation on Tuesday, I dont know what I’m gonna do by then, there’s no way I can lose almost any weight by then considering that tomorrow both my parents will stay home so I won’t be able to fast as long as I do on normal days at college.

Also today my mom bought me an early birthday present which is a new smartwatch. I haven’t been able to measure my daily calories burnt since my fitbit died back in December, so starting tomorrow I’ll be able to take control on that again.

This watch can tell me my body fat percentage and muscle weight too. I’m announcing that even though I am at a decent weight, my fat percentage is terrible, it’s on 29.9%. Now knowing my stats I’m able to work toward a specific goal.

And... To finalize, my dad finally offered to pay the gym for me again, so I will most likely start lifting weight 3x a week and running at least 2x a week. I want to be able to run 10km easily again and shed all my body fat off.

(04/02)