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Your house always felt safe and comfortable when Hyunjin was there . When he was painting you would usually sit beside him while his brush licked the easel, sometimes on your phone, sometimes sitting there admiring him. He came over so much that you made a space in your house just for him to paint. That day he was on the couch he was sketching something inside his sketchbook often muttering, âthatâs not itâ his determination made you chuckle.
âBaby?â Hyunjin called from the couch. âYea jinnie?â You answered, searching the cabinets for tea bags.
âdo you know where my new charcoal sticks and colored pencils are? I think I left them here.â He asked
âI donât know, I did a little bit of cleaning.â You paused for a moment dropping the bag into the tea, âcheck my closet I mightâve stuffed it in there.â
Hyunjin got up and wiped his charcoal laden hands onto a cloth. The floor squeaked as he walked over to your room at the end of the hall, humming the song for the next comeback. You stirred your tea and walked over to the sofa where Hyunjin had been sitting. You pulled out your book and began reading snuggling into the sofa listening to his humming and breathing in his scent on the sofa. All of sudden his humming abruptly stopped as you heard the sound of something wooden and heavy moving across the floor.
âHeyâŚy/n can you⌠come here for a second?â He asked, you shouldâve known something was wrong the moment he didnât call you by a pet name, the way his voice sounded cold and hollow. You set down your book and slowly walked down the hallway you stepped in the doorway and your heart dropped to your feet as you covered you mouth.
Hyunjin was bent down on the floor staring at a crate, you knew that crate so well. That crate was your old container where you would keep your stray kids merch. A few years earlier you were a stay loving the group and everything to do with it but after you met Hyunjin and listened to his fears about people only seeing him as an idol not a person, you decided to stop stanning the group. On top of that when you met Hyunjin you didnât see him as idol Hyunjin you saw him as the genuinely nice talented man you met at a painting class.
He picked out a photo card of himself out of the box it bent under his harsh grip.
âyou told me.. you promised me you werenât into boy groups⌠that you only knew about girl groups. You said you didnât even know what stray kids was!â He spat
âjinnie it was a long time ago baby you have to understand, when I met you that didnât matter!â You responded
He shuffled through the box each piece of merch making him tense up more. He let put a bitter laugh and slid the crate away, he turned to you his eyes dark and furious.
âyou knew.. you knew how much I was afraid of being with someone who didnât want ME Hyunjin they wanted stray kids Hyunjin!â He took a step closer, your hand gripping onto the door frame so hard your knuckles were white if you didnât you would fall and curl into a ball. Tears pricked your eyes your hands shaking.
âWeâve been together for 2 fucking years! TWO! What was this relationship to you?! Was it just a sneak peak into your biases life! A vip fan meet experience!?â He shouted, the veins in his jaw bulging
tears slipped down your cheeks even faster your lips quivering fighting back a sob. You reached out to brush his cheek, but he flinched away like your hand was fire.
âI swear to you itâs not like that baby! I love you for you! I love you jinnie!â You confessed.
He paused and stared at you, âwhat the fuck is wrong with you! Is this one of your little manipulation tactics?! I find out the stalker freak you are and you say you LOVE me?â
A choked sob escaped your lips, tears falling like it was a meteor shower.
âyou are the most manipulative crazy fuck I have EVER met! I never want to see your face EVER AGAIN! You and me this is over! You never even wanted to be with ME you wanted to be with the guy from the screen. Iâm done with you.â He spat.
He pushed past you and you slid down the frame sobbing your hands shaking violently. The front door slammed so hard your surprised it didnât break. You hit your hand repeatedly on the ground wailing. His car pulled out quickly and roared down the street.
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His hands tightened around the wheel his knuckles as white as snow. His eyes stung he blinked it away quickly, he refused to cry over some stalker. He arrived at his house stomping over to the door slamming it behind him. As he loudly walked over to his room Changbin peeked his head out from his own room.
âWhatâs up with you?â Changbin asked, Hyunjin glared back at him his eyes glassy clearly not in the mood.
âahhh is it something with y/n?â All of the boys knew about you especially Changbin, you would always drop by at Hyunjin place to clean it when he wasnât there or to of course hang out. Hyunjin flinched at the name stopping as he held the doorknob.
âohh it is isnât it.â Changbin said slowly coming out further, âdont even say her nameâ Hyunjin grumbled.
âwhat couldâve happened that you donât even want to hear her name?â Changbin asked
âit turns out she was just a manipulative stalker bitch and was a fan the entire time. Pre planning where we would meet and knowing everything about me before we even met!â He shouted
âOh.â Changbin paused, âsorry man.. I didnât think she was that kind of person but.. you never knowâ Changbin slid back into his room.â
Hyunjin slammed his door and flopped onto his bed and turned onto his side. Hot angry tears slipped down his face which he tried to quickly wipe away but they kept coming. He tried to act like he didnât care but if he was being honest to himself he fell in love with you, but to think that entire time everything was fake. He wouldnât be surprised if everytime his location was leaked so crazy fans could ambush him it was you behind it.
He rolled over to the other side of the bed and that only made it worse. It smelled like your sweet vanilla shampoo, you always laid on that side of the bed when you were at his house. He sighed and rolled back over pulling out his phone.
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He unlocked his phone clicked on your named and blocked you. He then tossed his phone to the side, a new round of tears threatening to spill over. He got out of bed and pulled himself over to the shower, as the warm water kissed his skin he brushed his hand over your hair and body care. He noted to himself that heâd have to throw that away soon.
He hopped out the shower, water dripping all over the floors as he draped a towel over himself. The mirror was fogged Hyunjin swept his hand over it. He stared at himself, his red puffy eyes and face so wet he couldnât tell if it were tear streaks or water. As he put on his pajamas he tried to occupy his mind with other things like his next comeback. He muttered the lyrics under his breath.
As he opened his bedroom door to the living room he saw his best friend Felix sitting on the couch scrolling on his phone, as soon as he saw Hyunjin his face lit up.
âHey!!â Felix said to him, he examined Hyunjins face. Hyunjin looked down he felt embarrassed by how he must look.
âI heard about what happened with.. y/nâ Felix said careful with his words, as if one little thing might set him off, he patted the spot on the couch next to him.
Hyunjin plopped down next to him with a tired sigh.
âThese kind of things happen sometimes. Thereâs billions of girls out there and Iâm sure thousands of them who genuinely like you.â Felix explained, patting Hyunjin on the shoulder.
âI didnât think she was like that lix, Iâm not lying when I say I thought we were serious, I could imagine starting a-â Hyunjin paused turning his head, blinking away tears.
Felix patted him on the back, âitâs ok mate I understand. Being an idol isnât easy, I know that. Tell me exactly what happened.â
Hyunjin explained to Felix what happened, he listened slowly nodding.
âSounds like some lousy excuses, you should talk to her when youâre not as upset, let her explain a little more?â Felix proposed.
âI probably wonât. What if she leaks the location and Iâm bombarded by crazy fans?â
Felix thought for a second, âyouâre right, I would do it just for closure, but at the end of the day itâs your relationship.â
âanyway, stop being all droopy and sad letâs watch I movie, I ordered some sushi.â Felix declared, Hyunjin let out a small smile at Felixâs insistence on making him feel better.
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That day in a fit of anger you threw away every single piece of merch then cried yourself to sleep that night, and the next, and the next. A few days later you decided you had to explain yourself to him. That day at work you could hardly focus on anything, thinking about what you would say to him.
You worked for a childrenâs art class, you taught them how to paint, draw, and harvest their creativity.
That night it was raining the roads slippery and traffic heavy, but you were determined. You started your car, rain pounding down on the windshield. You cranked up the radio playing music loudly, you werenât afraid of driving in the rain but it wasnât your favorite. You turned the knob the wipers flicking rain off the windshield with a loud squeaking noise.
About 10 minutes into the drive you noticed the guy to the side of you, swerving in and out of his lane. Honking didnât work he just turned over and laughed or just flipped you off. It didnât help that you needed to take a 15 minute long highway to his house, and the heavy rain only made the drive slower.
As you looked to the side the man next you seemed to be drinking something. âHe couldnât be drinking could he? Not in this weather right?â You thought to yourself.
He kept swerving further and further into your lane, no matter how much you honked he wouldnât listen. The rain got heavier and your honking for frequent and the swerving got more violent. In a split second the car swerved and slid over into you. In a second your car slid over to the other side of the road and the last thing you heard was the sound of metal being destroyed and crunching glass. Everything went black.
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â- and Iâm telling you it was crazy I thought I was going to die for a second! Iâm not afraid of heights but that zip line.â Felix said retelling a story from Australia. Hyunjin chuckled stirring his drink with a straw before taking a drink.
âhonestly I think youâre being dramatic it couldnât have been that bad.â Hyunjin replied in between sips. The waitress came over with their plates of food, they both gave their thanks as they dug in.
âsays the king of drama!â Felix shot back giggling.
Hyunjins phone rangâŚ. an unknown number. He didnât usually pick up calls from unknown number, it was usually some crazed fan asking to marry him, but this time something was telling him he needed to pick this up.
âsorry, let me get thisâ Hyunjin said to Felix, drawing the phone to his ear.
âhello?â An urgent voice at the other end of the line spoke, âyes this is him?â The voice continued speak rushed and his eyes widened, âo-ok Iâll be right thereâ he said ending the call already grabbing his jacket.
âWoah! Hey! Slow down where are you going?â Felix asked concerned and confused.
âItâs the hospital theyâre saying that y/n got in a crash on the highway and that Iâm her emergency contact!â Hyunjin said hurriedly, âIâll zelle you the money for the bill! I have to go!â
Hyunjin ran to his car in the rain, not bothering to open his umbrella. He didnât care about the fight not right now, because it had only been days he still cared for you and deep down still loved you. He had to make sure you were ok.
He started his car quickly and raced out of his spot to the hospital. He didnât care if he was being an ass to everyone on the road and breaking almost every traffic law, he had to make sure you were okay. Tears tickled his eyes daring him to blink so they could spill.
âwhy am I getting so worked up over this? She didnât even love me!â Hyunjin thought to himself, but the car kept moving.
After what seemed like a thousand years he arrived to the hospital, doing a sloppy parking job. He pulled a mask and hat on quickly, opening the door and sprinting down the parking lot as if the quicker he got there the sooner youâd be better. He finally made it to the front desk an annoyed woman stared at him with her hair in a lazy bun.
âwelcome to the ER what is your problem so we can get you in queue.â She asked in a bored voice.
âMy girlfriend!â The word slipped out of his mouth, it was a habit. âShe was in a crash the hospital called me because Iâm her emergency contact!â
âMmhm..uhm⌠full name please and can I have her name too?â
âmy name is Hwang Hyunjin and her name is y/n!â He replied hurriedly
âokay. Be seated over there and the doctors will call you over when you can see her.â She said
âhow long will it be?â He asked worried
âDepends on the injury but most likely a few hours.â The nurse replied already sounding irritated with how long he was taking.
âhours?! I need to see if sheâs okay please.â He begged
âsir I canât break hospital protocol you will have to wait until the doctors call you!â The woman repeated
Hyunjin sighed as the woman pointed to a seat, he sank into the chair, head in his hands wondering if she was okay. He wondered why he cares this much he broke things off with her, because sheâs a crazy stalkerâŚright?
After what felt like eternity but was really 2 hours and nurse came over to him and asked if he were Hyunjin. After he had been seated in the ER he asked the nurse to tell the other nurse not to call out his name as he was kind of popular. He shot up and the woman led him a hallway. A few feet away from the room the nurse paused and pulled him aside.
âBefore I take you inside the room I need to prepare you for what youâre going to see. Your partner was hit badly on the side by a driver under the influence. She has suffered a mild concussion, and some whiplash so she will be in a neck brace to protect her spine. Her left arm and left leg have both broken. She is right now in a temporary splint until surgery which will happen in about an hour. There is some blood on her face from cuts, but brain scans are clear. She is under heavy pain medication so she will look very drowsy and will most likely not be talking in a comprehensible way. I need you to be strong for her, hold their hand, and be very soft when you speak. Are you ready?â The nurse warned.Hyunjins breath caught, his stomach dropping with every description. He was expecting for you to look like hell in there. The nurse pushed open the door slowly and there you were on your bed. Your eyes looked glazed over and tired. Your face was bloody, lip busted open.
âMs. y/n your boyfriend is hereâ the nurse told you. Your eyes turned to Hyunjin tears immediately rained out of your eyes. Hyunjin didnât even realize it but there were tears slipping down his face too. The nurse pulled a chair beside you so Hyunjin could sit. He sat there face lowered not even wanting to stare at you. He felt stupid for still being mad when you were bleeding on a hospital bed, but he was. The nurse quietly slipped out the room.
âDonât take this the wrong wayâŚweâre still not..together.â Hyunjin stated but the tears slipping down his face made his statement feel less real. 2 years together doesnât go away that quickly, not with just one fight.
âI-Iâm just here because Iâm your emergency contact.â He continued voice wavering. He couldnât pretend no matter how much he tried to push it down, he still had a part of him that loved you and that didnât want to see you in pain.
After ten minutes of you mumbling what seemed to be gibberish and you being frustrated every time he couldnât understand, and silent tears, the nurse came in saying that they needed to prep you for surgery. Hyunjin hesitated for just a moment then was escorted out of the room by the nurse
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As they rolled you into the or there were still tears sliding down your face. You wished you couldâve explained everything better to him and told him that you really meant it when you said you loved him. Now you didnât know if heâd listen he must be still furious at you if he had to mention that he hated you in the hospital. That was the only thing you could think of as they put you under anesthesia and everything faded to black.
When you woke up the bright lights stung your eyes and made you feel nauseated your head hurt, not as bad as before the medicine, but like a horrible hangover. You realized Hyunjin was at the side of your bed sleeping. You ran your hand through his hair, blinking away tears.
âjinnie?â You called shaking his shoulder. He stirred and woke up staring up at you then he straightened up.
âyour awake⌠how do you feel?â He asked awkwardly.
âI-Iâm fine.â You paused âjinnie please I just want to explain everything.â Hyunjins brows furrowed and he looked away irritated by the conversation. â y/n no I already know-â
âNo! You donât know anything because you wonât listen to me!â Hyunjin sighed his mouth opening to argue, â Iâll admit it a few years ago I was a stay not a big one though, a causal listener and I bought some albums as decoration. I was a fan of you because..â you looked down embarrassed âI thought you were handsome.â
Hyunjin scoffed, âbut I swear on my life jinnie when I met you it wasnât pre-planned it was by chance. Every vulnerable moment we had together do you really think thatâs a level you couldâve gone to with a crazy fan?â Hyunjin thought for a moment
âwhen I met you I didnât see Hyunjin from stray kids, I saw Hyunjin the artist, the most genuine person ever, someone I trusted with my life, some IâŚ.loved!â You explained pouring everything out to him.
Your lip quivered and an entire ocean of tears had fallen from your eyes. Hyunjin looked in your eyes, they were genuine, he knew when you were lying.
âIâm sorry.â He replied voice cracking, âI shouldnât have overreacted! I know you wouldnât do something like that.â
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A light drizzle came down as Hyunjin helped you into his car. The drive back was silent, you were exhausted the past few days it had been raining and the sound made you not want to sleep. You were fast asleep by the time he made it home so he decided itâd be easier just to carry you into the house. He rang the bell and Changbin answered opening the door wide.
âwoah so you guys really did make it up that quickly.â He said slightly surprised, but joking.
âshut up!â Hyunjin whispered, âcanât you see sheâs sleeping?â He said so annoyed it was funny. He looked down at you lovingly, almost like he was proud to have a girlfriend like you. He laid you on the bed and thatâs where you spent most of your time that week
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Hyunjin was in the bathroom taking a shower when the sky grumbledâ a storm. You were in bed when you heard it, and froze. A cold chill went down your body and your throat when dry as rain fell down in heavy sheets from the sky. You didnât know why but a feeling of dread came over you. The moments before the crash replayed itself over an over, you lowered your head and gripped it as if it might ease the thoughts. Tears poured down onto his covers as the shower stop.
A few minutes later Hyunjin came out in a robe and saw you.
âholy shit baby are you ok?â He said rushing over to your side.
âI keep seeing it.. itâs happening over and overâ you explained sobbing. He held you massaging your head and planting soft kisses on it ever so often.
âyour fine Iâm here, itâs all going to be okâ
after 10 minutes the rain eased and so did the sudden wave of fear.
âI donât know what that was, Iâm sorryâ you told him,
âyou donât need to be sorry baby this was expected to happen, the doctor said you might experience ptsd after the accident. Itâs okâ he explained.
you burrowed further in his chest, âthanks jinnie, I love youâ
He blushed slightly, flustered âI love you too baby.â
ok this was way longer than I expected..but the inner writer in me told me not to rush the story sooo. Tell me what you guys thought itâs my first try at something angsty sooo.
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