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If you somehow found yourself here, welcome my fucked up head/life. Enjoy.

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09/11/2018

First off, rest in peace to the victims of 9/11. Second off, rest in peace to Malcolm Miller. I didn’t want to believe it man. It’s crazy how much I could relate to a lot of your music. You’re actually the reason I’m back on here...your death showed me that no matter how successful I become, if I’m not right within..none of that shit matters. I’ve been telling myself that I need to go to therapy, because I am terrible at opening up to people. Even the simple shit like “how was your day”. I just usually feel like people really don’t give a fuck so why am I wasting my time telling you? But yes, Mac you inspired this post because I am realizing that I NEED to get these thoughts/emotions out of me. Because the longer they stay, the more they develop into demons...and Lord knows I have enough of those. 

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I just want a beard.

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Sometimes I wonder who the fuck I am. 

[aintnojigga]

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Rest up my guy. You’ve made your mark on this world.

[bey0utifulsoul]

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my SHIT. Future really flowing on this hoe. Need this same flow on every project from now on. 

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Went to the beach last week! So peaceful...mostly. Makes me really want to own a beach house one day. Hopefully that day is not too far away.

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Figured I may start putting up songs of the day whenever I make posts on here. Today’s song is Twenty Eight. This came on my shuffle on my way home from work and played it probably three times on repeat. I forgot how much I loved it. 

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6/25/18

Man I just want to brag on my family. When I say my family I don’t mean just my blood..I mean everyone that is around me, that is there for me, that builds me up. Nothing brings me greater joy than to watch the people around me succeed and more than that..be happy. 

You know when people would ask when you were little..what do you wanna be when you grow up? And you and your friends had all these elaborate things you wanted to do/be..the innocence of a child is so calming...but I said that to say that I’m at a point in my life where I’m literally seeing everyones life path unfold before them and it’s truly beautiful. It’s amazing to see someone find their purpose at just the right time in their life...just like God planned...and it’s even more amazing when those are people that you have love for.

Meanwhile for me, I’m still waiting on that moment. That “aha!” moment. That moment when it all makes sense. I know God will do His part, I just have to hold up my end of the deal. But until then, I know my family will hold me down. 

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6/20/18

Today I vouch to start recording my life more. I’ve found that I hesitate do document or share my experiences and/or thoughts on social media in fear of what people may think. I’m a people pleaser and will always say or do what someone wants instead of what I truly feel (unless it’s my very very close loved ones; backwards, i know). 

But no one will see it here, so fuck it. 

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Miami shit. #OffWhite #Vapormax #YeahIGotAHoleInTheBackOfMyPants #FightMeHoe

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Finally added to the collection. #Yeezy #Zebras