jammy

22.

[jjjampong]

Gago. Ang sakit paden tuwing binabasa ko to?

HAHAHAHAHAHA

Kelan kaya ako magiging enough?

[jjjampong]

For the longest time, gusto kong magbalik loob ulit sa tumblr.

Gusto ko ulit magsulat.

I was contemplating kung gagawa ba ako ng bago, pero here i am.

Hindi ko talaga magawang burahin tong account ko na to.

Sobrang daming memories.. i can't let go.

Tho, ang lungkot ko noon hahahaha

Ang saya ko lang kasi I can say na mas strong na ako ngayon :)

I just wish my younger self is proud of me.

[spanish-mami-deactivated2019091]

I’m actually really insecure. I feel like I’m always gonna fuck things up or people will lose interest in me cause I’m too clingy or too passionate or too much of some other trait that bothers them

[misteristupido-deactivated20151]

[misteristupido-deactivated20151]

Someday, I will give my heart to someone who truly deserves it. 

I won’t let myself find for that true love, I’ll let that true love find me. I’ll be waiting here patiently and if that true love comes, I’ll be happy.

I won’t let myself be trapped in the past. I won’t cry myself to sleep because of those people who trashed me. When I met someone new, I will leave the pain, the hurt, and the heartache just where they should be.

When I give my heart, I’m seeking for a long lasting relationship. Where we’ll be walking in the isle and being witnessed by our God saying our I do’s.

I won’t let someone break my heart. I will love myself first, for me to know who truly deserves my love.

[daaamnpaolo]

autumn i told you i was falling summer it’s overwhelming spring it’s growing winter you’re too cold but i’m burning

[asking-jude]

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[blackcardmotel]

how to tell if I'm sad again

•I don’t respond to your texts for days

•I don’t respond to your texts for hours

•I don’t respond to your texts at all

•I respond with short answers

•I sound disinterested in our conversations, texting or not

•I don’t eat/drink/talk as much as usual

•I stare out into space more than often

•I stay in one place/a few places for long periods of time without moving v much

•I lose track of time

•I rub my head/eyes as if I have a migraine

•I talk more quietly than normal

•I don’t talk abt myself at all

•I make cynical comments, especially abt my existence

•I sleep too much or too little

this is not just me, though. these are common signs/things to be aware of and look for in people/friends/family members struggling w depression. stay safe, and stay aware.

[jjjampong]

Hoy sobrang namiss kong mag tumblr :((((((((

[jjjampong]

I wake up tired

I do nothing

Yet I still feel tired

And then i will sleep still tired

It seems like it's this never ending cycle of me feeling tired

I can't do anything about it

And i want this to end

[jjjampong]

[jjjampong]

A lot of things have changed But I can't keep myself from coming back to where and who I used to be.

[vegaaskies]

the problem was, i thought i was special. someone who was an exception among your kind of ordinary; someone whom you saw as something more. but i suppose, i was just being smitten with the idea. my thoughts were just playing with my feelings because the heart knew what it really wanted.

[anonnotsoanon]

I Turn Myself Into Poetry

I turn myself into poetry every night, Like a caterpillar ready for change, Aiming higher, flying rougher, In a world full of unknown circumstances.

I write words that describe me, Knowing the right words that Could make me feel better, When all I do is surrender.

I turn myself into metaphors and personification, Scaring myself for reality, Escaping bits of it, But still knowing that it exist, I write phrases that may break me, Knowing the truth slashes a piece of me, I write phrases that made me, Knowing the real purpose of turning myself into poetry.

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More photography here

[jjjampong]

I'm proud of myself not because i managed to keep myself alive, but because i survived

for the past few years of my life, i can’t even remember myself being extremely happy for a long time. yes, I’ve been happy, but not that ‘happy’ happy, if you know what i mean. I’ve struggled so many times. I’ve fought so many monsters inside my head. Depression isn’t fun. Depression is not a joke. you can’t just sit there and talk fucks about how depression is just in a persons mind and how pathetic people is when they tell how cruel depression is. I can clearly remember how every night i cry myself to sleep, how many times i told myself I’m giving up, how many times I’ve self harmed and how many times i just spent my whole night crying. It’s funny how people like myself, are so good at hiding things that no one can really even notice. I don’t need marks to show people how much i wanted to die. I don’t use metaphors to make people read between the lines. One second I’m fine and another second I’m not. it’s not that i wanted this for myself. This is not a choice i made. But i can’t be forever stucked in here. I can’t be beaten down by my depression and my anxieties. I know I’m more than what i think i am. And i know i can survive. And I am. My tears have already dried up, and my feelings too. I know sooner or later, maybe I’ll have the time and courage to write again. And I hope, by that time, i can surely say I’ve done it. And i know one day I’ll be happy, for real. I’ve never talked about these things before. But there’s just things inside i needed to let out. And i don’t know where i can share it with, so I’ll share it here. Where it will be buried down as time goes by. I won’t even remember this night i wrote this post. But atleast i tried.

[jjjampong]

maybe if my heart stops beating, it won't hurt this much

[jjjampong]

Noon pag nagigising si mama ng maaga na gising din ako, ang tanong sakin.. "Oh, bat ang aga mo nagising?" Ngayon pag nagigising si mama ng maaga na gising din ako, ang tanong sakin.. "Oh, bat di ka pa natutulog?"