after years of secrets, teasing, flirting and denying every single feeling towards his bestfriend, he does anything and everything to distract himself from the constant reminder she doesn’t like him back, or so he thought?
warnings! angst, slight fluff, arguing, swearing, kissing, pet names (sunshine, mama), use of y/n, suggestive smut, mentions of sex, fighting, bad family past mentioned, making fun of family past, mentions of panic attack
jj had dirty knees, sunburnt cheeks, scrapes all over but the biggest smile on his face as he plays around the playground with his bestfriend, john b.
“hey watch where your goin!” a squeaky little voice came from behind him as he fell onto someone.
“sorry! didn’t mean to fall on ya, sunshine” he said, teasingly as he turned around, making eye contact with a girl who seemed to be the same age as him, now on the floor with dirt now all over her face and a frown playing on her lips.
he takes him little hands and wipes it off her face “see? all better now, i’m jj” he says as he sticks his hand out to help her up from the ground. the girl rolls her little sassy eyes before looking down at his hand then smiling “y/n” she says as there dirty hands shake together.
“jj? who’s this” another little voice said from behind jj, he came into view, he had a red cap on, one of his front tooth missing, scraggly brown curly hair and even more sunburnt cheeks.
“is our new friend john b!” he says with a big toothy grin as he slings his arm around both of your shoulders “y/n, john b, john b, y/n!” he says as he leads you guys towards the swings “hi!” she says with a big smile as she waves her little hand as he does the same “hello!”
and that’s the moment he realised he was in love before he even knew what the word meant
i groan as i toss and turn on the pull out couch of the chateau as i squeeze a pillow to cover my ears. i can still hear the moans and squeaking of john bs old bed jjs occupying seeping through the pillow as i groan into the couch. i’m used to this now, jj coming home after every party, bonfire and kegger bringing a girl and fucking her, it’s his usual routine.
i don’t think it would make me as irritated if i didn’t have the fattest crush on him since i was 5, and hearing him pounding other girls on the regular wasn’t very pleasant to hear.
“jj! shut up can you moan any fucking louder!” i scream from the couch. i hear a girly giggle i recognise not to be his but don’t pay too much attention as its probably just one i heard at the bonfire the night prior. boy was i wrong.
i don’t get a response but the moaning and slapping sounds getting even more louder proved that i didn’t need a verbal one. i groan as i get up, taking the blanket and pillow with me and storming out the house and onto the dock.
i wake up to the sunlight beaming on my face and the sound of waves crashing under me. i make my way into the chateau as everyone’s still passed out except for jj sitting on the couch.
“another touron?” i tease as i flick his forehead before sitting next to him. he snickers as he pushes your hand away “none of your business mama” he teases as he smiles.
“why so secretive maybank? you always tell me about your little hookups after i have to sleep on the dock cause you can’t keep your fucking noises down” i say as i roll my eyes before i mimic his moaning and slapping noises by clapping my hands on my thigh.
he throws a pillow to my direction hitting me square in the face as he smirks “jealous?” he teases teasingly as he takes your leg into his lap and trails his fingers over your thighs. “crazy of you to assume that, can’t a girl just get some sleep around here?” i say as i shake my head and tsk. but the truth was i was jealous, really fucking jealous.
“seriously shut up i do not wanna hear about jjs hookups” pope says from the pull out couch as he rolls over and burys his face into a pillow.
it was now around 6pm, the sun setting, leaving a beautiful pink and orange hue over the north carolina sky as pope parks john bs beat up boat as it had started to pour down with rain, really bad.
“what the hell happened to summer?!” kie groans as she hops off the boat, her brunette hair dripping water onto her tan back as she carry’s a towel over her head. “mother nature feeling really bipolar” jj says as he holds his hand out from the dock for me to take, his tan abs shimmering from the water gliding down his chest to his swim trunks.
“after you ma’am” he says as he helps me off the boat “thank you sir” i say with a giggle as i walk in front of him, holding the case of beers that are now drenched and falling apart in one hand then putting it back in both hands after i’m on the wood of the old dock. “stop flirting and get inside” john b snickers as he pats jjs back. “shut up man” jj says as he pushes him playfully with a grin, no force behind the push.
i roll my eyes as i walk in front of him, next to pope as he rambles on “i told you so” about how he predicted the weather as jj stares at my ass in that turquoise bikini as the water droplets fall down my back and how the bikini pushes up my tits right that he didn’t even realise he had a growing tent it his pants till john b shoves him “your drooling” he says as he pushes his wet brown hair back as shakes his head. “am not!” jj says as he snaps out of him trance and wipes the back of his hand on his mouth to see if he actually was, he in fact was.
i walk into john bs room, dripping and wet as i open the draw that has me and kies shared clothes we keep when we stay here. i slip on a shirt as before i find pants my eyes lead to on top of the draws, as i see a unfamiliar bag, a really expensive bag. i snicker as i dig through it as the only persons it would be in jjs touron hookup from last night. i rummage through it, pulling out the wallet with a grin as i click it open, swiping the money before my eyes catch the drivers licence as my face drops.
“indi fucking jackson?! are you kidding me!” i shout as i storm back to the lounge room of the chateau where all the pogues are. all there heads snap towards me as i say the name of the girl who put me and kie, especially me through literally living hell. “is there a reason to curse the house with that name?” kie says as she rolls her eyes from the couch. i walk towards jj, shoving the bag in his chest “i don’t know, jj? why are we fucking out sworn enemy’s now?” i say as i shake my head, hurt painted all over my face.
“y/n, i swear it’s not what it looks like” jj says as he reaches for my arm as i shrug away from him. “fuck you.” i say as i storm out of the house but before i could get anywhere i feel his strong arms tugging me toward him, leaving us on the steps on the porch, in the rain “im sorry- please just, look at me” he says as he moves his fingers to move your chin towards him. “what is there to say jj? that she was the only one who wanted to hookup with your sorry ass?” i say as a single tear slips down my cheek, getting washes away by the rain as i try to continue walking away but his grip is too strong.
“no! it didn’t mean anything i swea-“ he says as his heart breaks at the year that falls down your eye before i cut him off “do you even know how i feel? every weekend you bring a new girl home and fuck them and it just- you know what it doesn’t even matter, you don’t deserve to know” i say as his grip loosens before i shove him off me storming towards my car “what- what do you mean?” he says in a soft voice as he follows after me, reaching for me as i open the already unlocked doors, slamming them behind me, as he’s pleading through the closed windows before i roll my eyes before speeding away to my house, hot tears falling down my eyes.
“do we really have to go mom?” kie says in a annoyed voice. “yes! do you know how hard i’ve worked to get into this club?” she says as they continue arguing as i tune myself out of the conversation, flattening the silk orange dress her mum got me, matching with kies as i fix the flower crown that’s sat onto of my blonde hair until kie taps me on the shoulder with a scowl on her face, “let’s go.” she says. i smile as i take her hand as we walk towards mrs carreras car.
“there’s so many… kooks. why did u invite me again?” i say as i roll my eyes as i face her, a hand on my hip as we enter midsummers. “because your like my only girl friend! and i don’t wanna have to deal with them alone!” she says as she pulls me towards where everyone is. i roll my eyes as i let her take me wherever she was going.
there were kooks left and right, annoying us all night before we finally had enough and booked it towards the bathrooms. we’re sitting on the counter talking about how much we despise kooks when i hear a familiar voice, “is that my bestie i hear?” the voice teases as indi jackson comes into view.
i look up at my ex bestfriend as i scoff, “come to steal more boyfriends indi?” i say as i stand close to her. she giggles as she twirls her brown locks around her finger “only the ones that came to me first” she says as she batts her long false eyelashes at me. “fuck off, no one wants to see you here” kie says from where she’s sitting on the counter as she hops off, “seriously when can you take a hint, leave. us. alone.” i say as i push her back as she stumbles on her baby pink heels as she gasps softly
“that’s rich coming from you. weren’t you the one not leaving me alone when your mama left you and your drunk ass dad?” she teases as she walks closer, her signature smirk on her face. a scowl leaves my lips as she walks closer to me “bet your dads gonna leave next” she teases, before use all the force in my 15 year old body to land a punch square in her nose, “uh oh ruined your nose job” i say with a fake frown as she clutches onto her nose as a screech leaves her lips before coming closer “your just like your batshit crazy mother” she yells in my face before storming out of the bathroom, her minions waddling behind her.
my tough facade slowly fades as i slide down the bathroom walls, hyperventilating as kie rushes to my side “i’m gonna kill her one day” kie says before pulling me into a hug.
i sit on my bed, sniffling as i hug onto my knees, a blanket wrapped around me, my tears soaking my pyjama pants. i hear a tap on my window as i turn my head towards the sound. standing there was jj maybank, soaked on my fucking balcony. i scoff as i walk towards the window, opening it “what are you doing!?” i say as i look at him, his wet hair sticking to his forehead and his clothes sticking to his tan skin, fuck he looks so hot.
“please just listen” he says as he climb into your room. i groan as i leave the room, slamming the door behind me before coming back shortly after with a towel and new not wet clothes. “i don’t want to hear it jj” i say as i shove the clothes and towel into his chest. he smirk as he grabs it and starts rubbing his hair with the towel, “oh yeah? why’d you give me the clothes then?” he says with a grin. i try to hide my smile as i slap his arm “seriously what are you doing here jj” i say as i roll my eyes, sitting onto the edge of my bed.
he sighs as he looks at me “what did you mean ‘how do you think i feel?’” he says as he looks down at me softly before slipping his shirt off and putting on the dry one which is also his that i stole. i look up at him, opening my mouth like im gonna say something before changing my mind “it doesn’t matter jj.” i say. “it does matter!” he says, frustration all over his face as he bends down so he’s face to face with you, his hands on either of your thighs. “the only reason i did tha- listen mama, i know your gonna think im fucking insane just please, listen and don’t interrupt, please” he pleads as he looks at me with those gorgeous blue eyes, how can i say no to that?
“fine!” i say as i look up at him. he sighs before he looks everywhere expect me “i just- y/n, im in love with you.” he says as he finally looks at me. i raise my eyebrow “w-what?” i say as all the air was taken out of my lungs by that one sentence . “im fucking in love with you and that’s why i fucking bring girls over every weekend cause i know you don’t love me back and im just trying to forget the feeling and all the flirting and teasing about how much i love you are all real and all that stuff the pogues say about me wanting you is right and i just- i can’t keep it a secret anymore and i know you don’t feel the same-and i thought fucking indi would make me stop liking you but- it just made me feel even worse and-“ he rambles on before he stops as he feels a soft hand on his cheek “im in love with you too jj, that’s why im so mad about every girl you bring over.” i say as i look into his eyes and as i open my mouth to say something else he smashes his lips against mine.
i melt into the kiss, moaning slightly before pushing him away slightly “you still had sex with indi tho” i say with a smirk as i look at his already fucked out daze. “im sorry sunshine. im so so so so sorry” he says as he plants little kisses all over your face before lingering mere inches above your lips “please, mama just… just let me make it up to you” he says with a smirk before placing his lips against yours. he mutters little ‘im sorrys’ into your lips and while he thrusts in and out of you.
aha hey! lowkey first post kinda shit but anyways 😽 also not proof read so if there’s any spelling mistakes just scroll past it pls 😛