i love you forever

i love you in every lifetime

[leofwines-deactivated20250831]

there’s nothing wrong with me plus i don’t have any wants or needs plus i don’t feel or think at all

[clownzinferno]

look at my cafe workers bruh i am NOT getting my coffee 😔

[luzon-dove]

Ivan • anhedonia • Till

[asoftepiloguemylove]

LOVE TO THE POINT OF DESTRUCTION // IVANTILL

Richard Siken A Primer for the Small Weird Loves // VIVINOS Alien Stage; "Round 6" (via youtube) // Mitski Crack Baby // VIVINOS Alien Stage; "Round 6" (via youtube) // Tom Stoppard The Invention of Love // VIVINOS Alien Stage; "Round 3" (via youtube) // Duncan Sheik The Word of Your Body // VIVINOS Alien Stage; "Round 6" (via youtube) // unknown // VIVINOS Alien Stage; "Round 6" (via youtube) // Richard Siken War of the Foxes // VIVINOS Alien Stage; "Round 3" (via youtube) // Sylvia Plath Dialogue Between Ghost and Priest // VIVINOS Alien Stage; "Round 6" (via youtube) // The Marías Heavy // VIVINOS Alien Stage; "Round 6" (via youtube) // Pablo Neruda 100 Love Sonnets // VIVINOS Alien Stage; "Round 6" (via youtube)

[lofeel]

@mokyofuckyo’s archive

[lofeel]

@04vante’s archive

[wakeshimas-deactivated20120628]

[pigswithwings]

Empty Houses / Empty Stomachs

Sources: Kitty Horrorshow, "Anatomy" 🏚 Josh Quissy 🏚 Wikipedia (Abandonment - Legal) 🏚 Ashe Vernon, "Love Disorders and Other Heartaches" 🏚 @/churchrummagesale 🏚 Kitty Horrorshow, Anatomy (Transcribed by @/a-missing-ache) 🏚 Kitty Horrorshow, Anatomy 🏚 @/churchrummagesale 🏚 Wikipedia (Desire) 🏚@/churchrummagesale 🏚 Wikipedia (Hunger - Physiology) 🏚 Wikipedia (Desire) 🏚Emma Rebholz, “No Good Bloodsuckers" from The Misanthropy 🏚 @/zegalba

[tourdion]

listening & learning

[heavenslittlemachine-deactivate]

yknow, i used to be vers. a vers bottom, even. sure, i'd flip fuck every once in a while *crowd raucously cheers and claps* -- thank you, yeah, thanks -- but the catcher's mitt was my home turf, know what i mean ? that's where the magic happened. but nowadays -- now that, yknow, nobody wants to work anymore -- i happen to be a vers top. that's how the cookie crumbles, folks. i tried to take it slow, changed my grindr profile to Vers, but yknow what happens when you tell people, when you put it out there to, yknow, these puppygirls and catboys and all them, that you're versatile, you say you swing both ways, and all they hear is Top. they say there's a top shortage, right ? *crowd boos and sneers* that's right. so i don't even bother anymore. what they don't tell you, alright -- what they don't teach you these days is that it takes some real vulnerability to be the top. yeah, that's right. when you're a bottom, you think, yknow, this is as vulnerable as it gets, right? to have someone inside of me ? *crowd erupts with laughter* but through that same mechanism, the bottom experiences desire internally, that's the secret. and for the top, it's external-- the top has to extend desire, has to make desire known -- to reach out there, hands exposed to the void between hearts, and say: i want you *crowd gasps, shuffles nervously in their seats* and that's it, folks. that's all she wrote. tops- topping, from that precipice, is the endless enumeration of ways to want. and that's why nobody wants to do it anymore.

[asoftepiloguemylove]

LOVE TO THE POINT OF DESTRUCTION // IVANTILL

Richard Siken A Primer for the Small Weird Loves // VIVINOS Alien Stage; "Round 6" (via youtube) // Mitski Crack Baby // VIVINOS Alien Stage; "Round 6" (via youtube) // Tom Stoppard The Invention of Love // VIVINOS Alien Stage; "Round 3" (via youtube) // Duncan Sheik The Word of Your Body // VIVINOS Alien Stage; "Round 6" (via youtube) // unknown // VIVINOS Alien Stage; "Round 6" (via youtube) // Richard Siken War of the Foxes // VIVINOS Alien Stage; "Round 3" (via youtube) // Sylvia Plath Dialogue Between Ghost and Priest // VIVINOS Alien Stage; "Round 6" (via youtube) // The Marías Heavy // VIVINOS Alien Stage; "Round 6" (via youtube) // Pablo Neruda 100 Love Sonnets // VIVINOS Alien Stage; "Round 6" (via youtube)

[lucidloving]

All images: VIVINOS, Alien Stage // Rixa White // Cassandra Clare, Clockwork Prince // S.K. Osborn, "A Hunger Like No Other" // Sing Shong, Omniscient Reader's Viewpoint // Sylvia Plath, "Dialogue Between Ghost and Priest" // Park Byungdae, STUDIO LICO, Yongsu Choi, & Manju—Cure // Renée Vivien // Tina Tran, "Until I started choking on our memories" // Mary Ruefle, "The Cart" // Jenny Slate, Little Weirds // Pablo Neruda, 20 Love Sonnets and a Song of Despair // Hozier—Francesca // Richard Siken, "Saying Your Names"

[asoftepiloguemylove]

BUT WHO COULD LOVE ME? I AM OUT OF MY MIND // IVAN & TILL

pinterest // VIVINOS Alien Stage, "ROUND 6" (via youtube) // Anne Sexton Complete Poems of Anne Sexton, "The Papa and Mama Dance" // Fall Out Boy Hum Hallelujah // VIVINOS Alien Stage, "ROUND 6" (via youtube) // Ernest Hemingway The Garden of Eden // Florence + the Machine Grace // Elliot Wake Black Iris // The National Daughters of the Soho Riots // VIVINOS Alien Stage, "ROUND 6" (via youtube) // Mitski I Guess // Adam Silvera They Both Die at the End // Lorde Writer in the Dark // VIVINOS Alien Stage, "ROUND 6" (via youtube) // Margaret Atwood Cat's Eye // Chris Abani Dog Woman // VIVINOS Alien Stage, "ROUND 6" (via youtube) // Warsan Shire Souvenir, "Our Men Do Not Belong to Us" // VIVINOS Alien Stage, "ROUND 6" (via youtube) // Louise Glück Faithful and Virtuous Night

[letsbelonelytogetherr]

— Louise Glück, "The Burning Heart"

[asoftepiloguemylove]

LOVE TO THE POINT OF DESTRUCTION // IVANTILL

Richard Siken A Primer for the Small Weird Loves // VIVINOS Alien Stage; "Round 6" (via youtube) // Mitski Crack Baby // VIVINOS Alien Stage; "Round 6" (via youtube) // Tom Stoppard The Invention of Love // VIVINOS Alien Stage; "Round 3" (via youtube) // Duncan Sheik The Word of Your Body // VIVINOS Alien Stage; "Round 6" (via youtube) // unknown // VIVINOS Alien Stage; "Round 6" (via youtube) // Richard Siken War of the Foxes // VIVINOS Alien Stage; "Round 3" (via youtube) // Sylvia Plath Dialogue Between Ghost and Priest // VIVINOS Alien Stage; "Round 6" (via youtube) // The Marías Heavy // VIVINOS Alien Stage; "Round 6" (via youtube) // Pablo Neruda 100 Love Sonnets // VIVINOS Alien Stage; "Round 6" (via youtube)

[getosugurusbangs]

alien stage - she had the world by panic! at the disco

[asoftepiloguemylove]

BUT WHO COULD LOVE ME? I AM OUT OF MY MIND // IVAN & TILL

pinterest // VIVINOS Alien Stage, "ROUND 6" (via youtube) // Anne Sexton Complete Poems of Anne Sexton, "The Papa and Mama Dance" // Fall Out Boy Hum Hallelujah // VIVINOS Alien Stage, "ROUND 6" (via youtube) // Ernest Hemingway The Garden of Eden // Florence + the Machine Grace // Elliot Wake Black Iris // The National Daughters of the Soho Riots // VIVINOS Alien Stage, "ROUND 6" (via youtube) // Mitski I Guess // Adam Silvera They Both Die at the End // Lorde Writer in the Dark // VIVINOS Alien Stage, "ROUND 6" (via youtube) // Margaret Atwood Cat's Eye // Chris Abani Dog Woman // VIVINOS Alien Stage, "ROUND 6" (via youtube) // Warsan Shire Souvenir, "Our Men Do Not Belong to Us" // VIVINOS Alien Stage, "ROUND 6" (via youtube) // Louise Glück Faithful and Virtuous Night