You should try out writing surrealism to see if you like it. Write confusing things on purpose. Get into stream of consciousness. Make something purposefully pointless.
So many of our storytelling ideas have been based around what’s marketable. Surrealism is actively hostile to the marketable. Actively hostile to the concept of purpose. It accepts confusion and absurdity wholeheartedly.
Idk you might find that it fits your brain perfectly. When I discovered surrealism it changed the course of my life. It really made me commit to the idea that I’m a writer. Not all of my writing is surrealist but surrealism taught me that understanding and reality can be fluid. It’s okay to make the reader work for your points. It’s okay to not have a point at all. Sometimes you can create discomfort and confusion and that is also art. Anything can have a perspective and perspective doesn’t have to matter. Time can be odd, place can be weird, storytelling methods can be unorthodox. You can just make art. You can go high concept. You can be funny, even.
Like look into Dadaism. Look into modernism. A lot of the pointlessness of the art and literature from the period between the world wars especially I think might really resonate with you. There was a lot of nihilism and confusion in that era and the art reflects that.
