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actually im doing really well except for the fact that everything makes me sad and the things that dont make me sad make me angry. but other than that im fine

me and t are official today <333 going out for a friend's birthday tonight and i made red velvet cheesecake brownies for her and made the box super cute. so excited to go out and have a great time. i feel like for the last year i have had so few moments of feeling content so it's weird to have felt so good for a full month, but t just makes me really happy eeeee

#jordanbakes

mini egg cookies with milk and white chocolateee

#this are so spring time #made for the many people in my life who love mini eggs #i'm not really a fan but they're nice in these #weirdly they don't actually taste like mini egg #so i need to do them again and add more mini egg #jordanbakes

all the things i made since fridayyy, i baked the cupcakes in advance and kept them in the freezer and got them out ready for my friend's birthday for saturday. the pink ones are vegan vanilla cupcakes with vanilla buttercream, and the brown ones are non-vegan chocolate cupcakes with chocolate buttercream. everyone at the party loved them, i was so happy watching them all eat them!!! on the saturday before the party i made these gooey cookies for a family thing i had the next day. made chocolate muffins today bc realised i'd bought the milk for it and it was about to go out of date so quickly did them, and then my nan dropped off a massive box of fruit so i used the strawberries to make strawberry jam (my first jammm, not hard at all just long) which i will use to make cherry (strawberry) bakewells yayyy

#really enjoyed all of these #jordanbakes

hm it is an annoying day i am annoying today

#i think i am bothering quite literally every single person i talk to today #hm bad time #bad brain time #can't sleep and i have to get up early #big day tomorrow #gonna be very tired getting my tat #but the pain will be nice #not in a sh way in a grounding way #yeah brain has been struggling since The Realisation #i'm in the tags and have way less followers here i can say since the autism realisation #been masking way less since i realised and it's weird kinda seeing like what feels like my real personality for the first time #like it's freeing but also weird and sad #and i keep feeling like people won't like me like this #idk #big mess

outsideee

#really nice woman stopped next to me in her car while i was walking #said she'd been in the dentist waiting room with me and asked if i had far to walk #it was really lovely to be asked #fortunately i was just walking literally one minute to where i was getting picked up #but it was just very nice #and it was a sunny day and my appointment went well and was easy #just nice #me

vegan cupcakes and vegan gluten free cupcakes :)

#all is well guys #got the new ones baked and they came out looking way better so that's good #and made some that i needed to make for another order next week while i had the oven on #so they're now in the freezer with the non vegan ones ready to be decorated next friday #all i need to do for those now is make the buttercream ready and colour it #so yay #i am tired #jordanbakes

omg i'm gonna kms i got my sponges and cupcakes out of the freezer so they can defrost for me to decorate them tomorrow and the lid on the cupcakes was faulty so now i have to make a new batch RAHHHHH

#i already made raspberry filling and white chocolate ganache today i'm TIRED #i already cleaned the KITCHEN #and tomorrow i have to spend at least three hours DECORATING #and i don't know if i have enough buttercream for my DAM #and then i have to get everything into their BOXES and make it look NICE #and i forgot i have to make INGREDIENT LABELS #and i can never remember how to spell LABEL #and i have to make the boxes look PRETTY #and then on saturday i have to get up early to get a tattoo which i'm excited for #but then in the evening i have to take the cakes over and set them up #and do sound check for some songs i'm playing #and i am just so tired #so no i do not want to make more cupcakes

baking of this week, gluten free vegan cupcakes, muffins, crinkle cookies, and chocolate cupcakes (also the moment i realised i didn't have enough batter for all my cupcakes so i had to make more)

#jordanbakes

baking of this week, gluten free vegan cupcakes, muffins, crinkle cookies, and chocolate cupcakes (also the moment i realised i didn't have enough batter for all my cupcakes so i had to make more)

#jordanbakes

how i'm baking rn in february bc i get so hot, unseen is the door open and my fan on lmao

#also unseen is my Knee Brace 😎#bc my knees are weird #i need to get a better one this one is bad #but it does help so it stays on if i'm gonna stand up #jordanbakes

omggggg you guys so like i had a few orders this month for baking and i just do it for friends not like proper, but by the time i get paid for my upcoming one people will have paid £90 for my bakes!!! 10 for the horse cupcakes i made, 5 for some cookies i made for a family friend, 25 for 24 cupcakes for a friend's birthday coming up, and FIFTY for a proper 8 inch birthday cake and 12 cupcakes. most of it goes on ingredients but it's amazing to have any go to me at all and it makes me feel sooooooo good about myself

#i need to add up how much of it actually goes to me

hiii i have been so antsy and like mad lately, for like over a month i'm just mad all the time, so i'm baking a lot to try to get it out. on i think saturday i made gluten free vegan cupcakes for one part of an order i have, and then i made muffins while they were in the oven bc i was worried they weren't gonna work out lmao gluten free vegan is super difficult in baking bc baking isn't like cooking, it's very scientific and specific and if you do one thing slightly different your whole thing can be bad. but yeah they came out well, the texture is a little gummy but that's bc i couldn't use flour (so no gluten) or eggs so i had to use xantham gum as the bonding agent. they tasted good though thank god. i'm kind of thinking about trying a different recipe because i just really want them to be good.

then today i baked the sponges for a birthday cake which is the second part of the order, it's a raspberry cake and when you're adding anything to a sponge you need to toss it in flour so it doesn't all sink to the bottom, but i think the raspberries were a bit heavy so a lot of them ended up lower down. i'm gonna flip the cakes upside down when i assemble and call it a feature lmao. there will still be raspberries in every bite, so all is well. it'll be my first time whipping chocolate ganache and covering a cake with it, and my first time needing to do what's called a dam on my sponge because there's a raspberry filling i need to put between layers. the dam is done with stiff buttercream and is there to support the sponge on top and stop it weighing down on the less stable filling and causing it to all smush out of the edges. i think i've researched enough about it for it to go well, but i'm still nervous. but yeah lots of baking, making some cupcakes tomorrow or the day after for a different friend's birthday then cookies at the weekend for a friend's daughter. it's nice to be so busy.

#just Chatting #bc i can't sleep and i've been trying for a couple hours #just been endlessly scrolling reddit #tempted to just get back up tbh #don't have anything to do tomorrow so it's whatever #just very very bored #just realised i didn't put white chocolate chips in the cake fuckkkkk #it's fine i'll put some in between layers and maybe on top #love talking about baking #feel like it's like 40% of what i talk about lately

everythinggg hurtssss todayyyyyy i love having a chronic illness 😎

#going to hang out with friends though so that's nice #took some codeine bc Nothinggg Worksss #but i had a shower so i am all clean and nice #gonna put my feet products on bc it makes me feel pretty having soft feet

you guyss my mum showed her friend who was a professional baker my flower cupcakes and she wants to order some from me! normally i price super low bc i sell to friends and even though i'm quite skilled i don't feel like i've been doing it long enough to price higher, but i think she might wanna pay me more for it because she's done it and she knows what goes into it which would be amazing bc i am so skint lmao. regardless of how much she pays though, the fact that an ex professional baker wants to buy my stuff is so flattering like she said they looked really professional and it's like eeee i'm really improving.

i'd love to go to pastry school tbh and learn everything properly with a teacher but i have me/cfs and i just would not be able to handle the physical and mental intensity. so i will keep learning at home. i put so much time into it you guys like i am always watching videos explaining techniques and showing ideas and recipes and i just got this book on how each ingredient works and what it does in the recipe so i can get better at substituting on the fly. i'd really love to be registered as a business, maybe set up by the end of the year? i drew a little logo idea the other day which was super cute. i need to think of a name for it. i know i won't get many orders but it would just be so nice to be able to officially do this for work, and i can do it from home and choose my work load. idk just excitinggg

#like maybe a business will never happen #or maybe i'd have it for a little bit and it just wouldn't be financially worth it #idk i just love baking

the characters in season four of You are genuinely insufferable and that's why it's lower in my ranking than season five

#actually painful to sit through this season i don't know why i'm doing it #love quinn i miss you forty quinn i miss you #blaire i miss you paco i miss you

i wonder how many people have unfollowed my main bc i just post so fucking much lmaooo like now that i'm aware someone i know irl is looking at it i'm like. god i post a fucking lot i counted and just today there were twenty, including reblogs, not including ones i reblogged to my secret blog

#and it would be entirely fair i've unfollowed people for it #i guess if it's posts you like it's okay #i really need to start posting the non sex stuff on here lmao

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