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I am jorgeacostajr, a solo artist. Here's a little about how I see the world... musician, poet, producer, geek, hacker, lover of life, giver, singer, songwriter, guitarist, magician, peruvian and dog lover. I enjoy the world and I enjoy people.

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Breathing and Dying

Breathe all night

yet I don’t feel like I get enough of it

I breathe

and yet I feel exhausted

I breathe

and yet no air can suffice

tired

wandering aimlessly

everyday

is a haze

in a daze

of confusion

and the illusion 

that things will get better

but I fret her

I fret and regret

and everyday that I wake up

I feel as if I have been awake all night

no slumber

just lumber

from day to day

oh yeah

I breathe

but doesn’t relieve

no reprieve

I forget

little things

and major things

I forget and forget and forget

tattoos in my brain

they remain

to help me remember

the december from year past

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VR

I live in a world where people prefer to live virtually

then reality

people would rather read words on a screen 

then talk face to face

people would rather use their fingers to type a message

than to user their mouth to communicate

i lie in a bed all day

with my goggles on

my physical body doesn’t go anywhere

it just lays there

while my caretakers put on my goggles and i live a virtual life

I don’t know I am living this life

to me it all seems like it’s real

I touch

i laugh

i smell

i taste

i love

i hurt

i fall

and feel no pain

and feel longing

and tension

and happiness

and laugh until my insides hurt

i can run, but I don’t get tired

walk

jump

sing

play an instrument

this virtual world seems to be better than my former life

my parents told me that they had to walk everywhere

they had to actually, physically endure life

I don't have to

I don’t grow physically tired

what’s weird is that in this world I don't have to age

or I can stop aging

but mentally, after decades and decades in my older years

I feel slower

I feel lethargic

I don’t feel as quick

it’s weird

not sure why

they horror 

is that you wake up and you see your physical self

and you are not the young self you think you are

but you are an older version of yourself

not that being older or old is bad

but I didn’t expect this outcome

I expected to be younger

younger looking

no greys

what’s wrong with this world

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UX

User

xperience

I allow myself to be used

by the experience

and if I don’t

then I will have no choice

death comes to us all

and the way this experience goes 

day in and day out

we need to use that experience

to either lift us or not

enlighten

brighten

or darken

darken it all to the point of blindness

the usability of my life

the usability of my love

the usability of my hate

the usability of disdain

and humor

and joy

I would rather relinquish all that i feel inside

and allow myself to be a/b tested

yes 

let’s run an a/b test

in a lab

or let me a/b the sound around us

it’a ll just gibberish

gibber

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Bless the Dead

so much death

you feel powerless

you feel alone

you feel like a herd of sheep

you feel like I heard nothing

and try to say something

but nothing really comes out

i try to shout

and try to run

but nothing really happens

I was at a viewing today

viewing of death

viewing of a dead body, person

someone I once knew

someone I once saw as strong and young

now just lifeless

and unyoung

it’s so bad

it’s so sickening

for people to die

some people show up

some don’t

and I won’t

give in to pissed offness

I won’t give in to the lostness

I won't give in to loss

I feel we are lost and at a major cost

to my life and yours

we are all lost 

we have all lost

somehow, the world went and grew up in a hurry

somehow, the world lives in a hurry

we don’t take the time to really listen or acknowledge each other

all we do is like and comment

we look and say nothing

we look down

it’s a look down world

head down

focused on a bullshit phone

smartphone

it’s really 

a dumb phone

we are mute

it’s absolute

fuck this

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Bullshit

life bullshit

music bullshit

food bullshit

earth bullshit

ozone bullshit

drama bullshit

work bullshit

school bullshit

politics bullshit

parking bullshit

eating bullshit

talking bullshit

walking bullshit

coffee bullshit

tv bullshit

movie bullshit

school bullshit

teenage bullshit

middle age bullshit

plant bullshit

bills bullshit

legal bullshit

bullshit

bullshite

bull shit

bull sheet

billshit

boolshite

boolsheet

so much bullshit

little bullshit

tons of bullshit

i hate bullshit

you hate bullshit

violence bullshit

internet bullshit

too much bullshit in the world and how do you get a handle on it

such bullshit

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WTF

WTF

WOW

WHaT

Wah

Why

Won

Where

Wore

Whore

Where

WBS

When

Who

Web

want

weather

whether

wet

wetter

wheat

whither

white

whiter

whit

wit

won

won’t

will

willed

while

whiled

whilst

whistle

whole

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Mother

Gave blood the other day

and in that moment, the very moment of the needle piercing my skin

I remembered my mother

reminded me of the time she spent in the hospital

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(via https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3n1T3HxHd7Y)

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(via https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lZKqMVPlDg8)

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I want to be

I want to be radiohead

I want to be bohemian rhapsody

I want to be pink floyd

I want to be a great movie

or a great song

or a great son

or a great father

I want to be an note

a note that plays on

and plays on

and plays on

I want to be a Beatle

or the Beatles

or I want to be a man that can play piano

and not only guitar

I want to be a singer

in a famous band

or a famous band to my friends

that all live in my head

and my thoughts

I want to be a moon

and a sun

and a sunrise

and a long September morn

and a Sunday morning

or an ebony or ivory piano song

yelling and screaming

for the people around me

for the ones that look on and wish for enjoyment or laughter

I want to be playing a piano right now

as opposed to a keyboard with letters

letters to the people that I miss

the ones that I once knew

and now are gone

long gone

either by distance

or by memory

I hold on

and I want to be a famous guitar

a gibson

or a fender

or a boss pedal

or just the boss of this destiny that I wish to emancipate

and live through the moon beams of the night

and sing the song of songs

and sing to myself

or a song of thyself

let me be Marvin Gaye

or someone like Jeff Buckley

or a siren

that’s it

a a cerati

or a yorke

or a lennon

or a man that can play guitar, drums, piano, horn

or just feel like a kind of blue

and enlighten

delighten

that’s it for now

that’s it for now

prancing in my mind

dancing in my mind

that’s it for now

that’s it for now

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#pomegranates growing nicely this year

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#yeahyeahyeahs #hollywood #teamone #production #agile (at Hollywood Bowl)

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#hydration after some all day #agilation #agile #scrum (at Wheelhouse)

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Yesterdays #milesdavis #jazzmaster #kingofcool #smokefilledroom

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Gabriel enjoy himself with a bit of discovery around very corner #discoveringlife #thegoodlife (at Discovery Cube Los Angeles)