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Tinadhanang Sumulat. Pinagpalang Manunulat

[joshmongol]

TUGMAAN NG MUNDO

Madilim na buhay

Yan siguro ang akala ko’y isang bagay

Isang uri ng buhay na ibinigay

at permanenteng kakampay

sa panay panay na agos ng buhay

isang buhay na akala ko’y walang pakay

sa mundong nilalakbay.

  Ngunit sa pag-agos ng panahon

Na kasing bilis ng kahapon

At kasing layo nang tugon ng mga ibon doon

Oo, doon ay may isang pangalan

Na madaling hulaan, madaling tawagan

Kahit di mo alam ang daan, ikaw ay kanyang hahawakan

Sasamahan, ang mga luha mo’y pupunasan

kahit pa sa mundo ng kawalan,

 ikaw ay sisimulan.

 Sisimulan sa tunay na pag-ibig

Kahit ika’y di nakikinig

Sa daigdig na puro yanig

pintig ng puso ay maririnig

  Mahal Kita.

Higit pa sa mga nilkha kong mga planeta

Mahal Kita.

Higit pa sa mga salita na binibigkas ng makata.

Mahal Kita.

Isang pagmamahal na hindi naibebenta

Ngunit may magandang resulta

Mahal kita.

  Di mo pa man naididilat ang iyong mga mata.

Minahal na kita.

Di mo pa man naisasambit ang mga unang salita

Na lalabas sa iyong bunganga.

Minahal na kita.

  Pero ang malaking tanong

Na gumugulong sa libo-libong taong

Naka kulong sa mundong sulong lang ng sulong.

  Ay kung kailan? 

Kailan mo sisimulan ang unang tayo sa serbisyo

Na kanyang dinesenyo para sa iyo?

Kailan mo bibigyang oras at bibigyang lakas

ang mga pusong matigas na magiiwan ng bakas

 para tumakas sa dating buhay at tuluyang magwakas.

  Ang pangalan Niya’y Hesus

Hindi man minsan tugma ang pananaw ng mundo

Sa kanyang perspektibo, pati narin sa mga tao

Hayaan mong yakapin mo kung ano

kung ano ang nais nang sumulat sa buhay mo

kung ano ang nais nang tumanggap sa iyo

kung ano ang nais nang gumabay sa iyo sa una palang ng buhay mo.

  Ang pangalan Niya’y Hesus

Na minsa’y nagkatawang tao

Para tubusin ang kasalanan mo

Na minsa’y nasaktan dahil sa mundo

At gusto lamang ng bago

Bagong ikaw, ayaw nang mababaw

Ikaw ma’y maligaw, makikita mo ang kanyang ilaw

  Ilaw na magliliwanag dahil sa sinag nitong di maipaliwanag

Kaya’t sana’y bago matapos ang tulang ito,

Nakabuo ka sana ng isang realisasyon

Na para sa iyong nayon

 at hindi tungkol sa relihiyon ngayon,

 ngayon ay ang oras para mangarap/

 sa kanyang harap

 kahit mahirap.

  Na ang mundo ay hindi tugma sa kanyang gusto

 na gayunpaman, handa siyang itono

 ang puso mo, ang mundo, ang siya, ang ikaw

 ang tayo, ang sila, ang kami kahit pa ordinaryo.

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CAUTION: Resting is not the best option.

     Other people say that resting is one of the essential things that a person can have in his/her life. It will help him/her to recharge and relax. It demands satisfaction on your physical body. Yet, there is a kind of rest which is not satisfying, enjoying and significant.     

     A long span of time had passed already but I can still clearly remember when I had my “rest” and/or “pause” from serving the Lord. I was ministering before on my previous church as a Sunday School Teacher. As time goes by, even though I went to church every Sunday, teaching and sharing the love of the Lord to the children, I always feel empty. I don’t feel any impact at all on the things that I was doing. Yes, I do raise my hands, I dance, and I even sing songs for the Lord but I can feel that there is no light shining upon me and I was lacking of a burning passion inside my heart to continue and to strive more for the Lord. I remember that I was only doing these things because I have a job to do and to accomplish. And this time came when I have no willingness and great attention for what I am doing so I decided to stop and to rest for almost six months, No church every Sundays. There is no time for me to open my bible and even to pray and to talk to God. I follow what the world wants me to follow. I felt drought. I have no encounters. Yet God is beyond great. It was August 2014, that was the anniversary of our church. When the praise and worship team started, I raised my hand and I cried to the Lord aloud. I asked for forgiveness for all of the wrong things I’ve done to Him. I felt the warm embrace of the Lord that time to the extent that it really touched my heart. From then on, I promised to my God that for this time I will give my all out for His calling, for all the things that He wanted me to do, and for the kind of person that He wanted me to be. I waited for my time. I started attending church every Sunday while I am joyously giving my endless praise and extravagant worship for the Lord. I attended different church events and encounters that truly helped me to know God more and learn what my real purpose is. I started to dream again, to dream for my time and to dream for this generation. And now, I am a Youth Empowered Facilitator handling a small group and at the same time a J12 Sunday School Teacher. I learned beyond more than I could ever imagine. I learned how to stand for the Lord for many reasons. Indeed, resting is not the best option. “Hindi kailangang mabilis, pwedeng dahan dahan, wag lang tayong titigil.” God has different plans for us, plans to prosper us not to harm us, and plans to give us hope and a better future. (Jeremiah 29:11) And once you chose and decided to follow, to use by God with no doubt, with no second thoughts, the blessings, the greatest blessings that we nowhere deserve, but, by His grace alone will overflow and will pour out on you and your family! And now, here I am Listening, Encouraging, Sharing and Serving – L.E.S.S. OF ME. And More of Jesus. #TLWI – Tuloy lang Walang Iwanan     

     Psalms 133:1 “How good and pleasant it is when God’s people live together in unity!”

[joshmongol]

My Failure, My Teacher

          Every individual here in the wired world that we are existing right now has its own values, talents, personalities, strengths, flaws and weaknesses given by our God alone. But do you know what’s one of the greatest gifts given by the Lord to every individual here on earth? It is our free will to dream for ourselves. Everything starts with a dream and everyone hopes that their dream will turn into a reality which comes on God’s perfect timing.     

         Since I was on my elementary days, I dreamed of becoming an educator yet I am a person whose dreams are boundless. I dreamed beyond what an educator would be. I wanted to be an educator with a burning passion inside my heart, an educator who will inspire young people to have a thirst for learning and an educator who will not just teach lessons but a moral that can be the key for their dreams and success. I asked my teacher before, “Ma’am, is there a school where great teachers came?” And my teacher answered me saying, “Yes. It’s the Philippine Normal University”. When I went home, I researched about that university and that’s the day when I started to dream for my school that I am going to study someday. Years passed by, I am already a fourth year high school student, and it was the time for me to take my entrance exam in the said university. My classmates were very busy on preparing their requirements too for the universities that they wanted to study on. On the other hand, I was very confident that time to take the entrance exam in PNU. I borrowed books from my classmates to review some general information. My mom and dad supported me from the day of preparations until the day of examination. I am blessed, well prepared and equipped that time. After two months, the result came. It was January 2,2014, four in the afternoon. I opened my computer and started to scroll the page. My heart beats aloud, I was uncomfortable on my seat, and I was shaking. To my surprise, I didn’t see my name in the passers list. I cried a bucket of tears and I hugged my mom saying, I failed the examination and I considered it as one of the lowest points in my life. I cried to the Lord saying, God, Your will for me is beyond more than I could ever imagine. You are the very large portion of my body and soul, I submit my life to you and let your plans be upon me. After that day, I took different examinations from different universities. I believed that God is with me and His will for me will always prevail. Honestly, I lost my hope as I lost my dream for myself yet I believe in God alone and there is no room for self centeredness. And now, I am a second year college student taking Bachelor Secondary Education Major in English at Cavite State University- Main Campus. After the Lord proved to me that the struggles is indeed real, I learned a lot. I’ve grown already and it is because of my God who helped me for who I am today. Because of that failure, God taught me to see the big picture of my life and He taught me how to embrace His will through waiting.

          We all have different dreams in our life and maybe we are giving our best, our great effort to achieve that dream. But have you ask God on what’s His dream for you? Is your desire aligned on what is God’s plan for your life? Our life is a learning and learning is a continuous process. Life is about winning or learning for the Lord. Remember that there is no failure. There is only a delayed success. We will learn in every situation that we are facing today and it is true that our temporary downs in life will be our teacher to rise above the negative circumstances in our life and entrust to the Lord everything we have today and everything we will have tomorrow.