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Joyce. 19. One of the gays.

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I'm so torn i don't know what to feel anymore

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Hindi ko na alam. Paano ba mabuhay? Hindi ko na alam.

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Diverting to disastrous day real quick 9815

Hindi ko alam paano na magblog pero gusto kong ikwento ganap kagabi pauwi. Yesterday, I went to Val with my friends kasi wala lang, kwentuhan at kain lang. I really had fun, feeling ko mas naging close ko sila Yen at Coleen. (Fast forward) Umuwi na kami around 6pm kasi baka matraffic ako sa edsa...and teden! Sobrang traffic nga! Hahahaha. Kasabay ko si Coleen pauwi hanggang Cubao then ako na lang mag isa. Natulog ako may bandang Shaw for 1hour, paggising ko akala ko nasa may makati na kami, YUN PALA WALA PA KAMI SA BONI STATION 😭😂 sobrang badtrip ko na. Sama sama na yung gutom, pagod at antok. Good thing di ako lowbatt at kausap ko friends ko. Thanks guys sa moral support! 😂 Kahit ang sungit sungit at naiiyak na 'ko kagabi pinagtyagaan nyo pa rin ako at hinintay ako makauwi. Si Raymond na kumakain pa lang nasa Guada na 'ko, nakarating na sya ng guada at lahat lahat NASA GUADA PA RIN AKO. Thanks sa pag offer na ihatid ako sa terminal ng pateros, pero di ako bumaba ng bus kasi natatakot ako mag overpass mag isa. Hahahaha. At sa pagsasabing wag ako umiyak kasi di naman ako makakauwi sa pag iyak ko 😂 Si Gat na kahit bwisit na bwisit ako todo pa rin sa pagjojoke para lang di ako umiyak. Kahit na puro rants ako kagabi kinakausap pa rin ako para di ako lalo maburyo sa byahe. Si Treya na hindi natulog kahit pagod hangga't di ako nakakauwi ❤ Si Obang na kahit tampo sakin kinakamusta pa rin ako habang nasa byahe ako, gusto pa magpadeliver ako ng pagkain sa gitna ng traffic 😞😂 Hahahahahaha Sa dalawang pulis na kasabay ko maglakad sa upper kagabi, di ako masyado natakot maglakad kahit 1230am na non. Sa mga stranded sa edsa, nabuhayan ako kasi mas maswerte ako sa kanila dahil nakasakay na 'ko at komportable upo, sila hindi pa rin makausad dahil walang masakyan. Kayo po ang naging inspirasyon ko. 😂😂😂 Sobrang lala ng kaba ko kagabi pero keri nakauwi ako ng buhaaaay! Sobrang swerte ko sa mga kaibigan ko ❤ I feel so loved. Thank God! I SURVIVED WITH FLYING COLORS!

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"There’s so much more to life than finding someone who will want you, or being sad over someone who doesn’t. There’s a lot of wonderful time to be spent discovering yourself without hoping someone will fall in love with you along the way, and it doesn't need to be painful or empty. You need to fill yourself up with love. Not anyone else. Become a whole being on your own. Go on adventures, fall asleep in the woods with friends, wander around the city at night, sit in a coffee shop on your own, write on bathroom stalls, leave notes in library books, dress up for yourself, give to others, smile a lot. Do all things with love, but don't romanticize life like you can’t survive without it. Live for yourself and be happy on your own. It isn’t any less beautiful, I promise." - Emery Allen Thank God I saw this one, it made me feel better.

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Im so blessed to have this guy who still cares and looks over me after all the things happened between us. I'm glad I didn't lose you at all. I want you to know that I'm happy because I still have you (and you still have me), even just a friend.

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Stop choosing someone who would never choose you.

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If you leave, please stay gone.

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Be with someone who won’t stay mad at you, who can’t stand not talking to you, and who’s afraid of losing you.

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*GF called her BF*

GF: Pauwi ka na ba? Saan ka na?

BF: Dito ko sa hospital.

GF: *cried* Anong nangyari?

BF: Babe, nurse ako diba? Sabog ka ba?

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Didn't expect this tho 😄☺😂 cutie! 💕

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Ang sakit na naman! Putangina this!

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You never know how proud I am that you’re my bestfriend, the bravest and strongest girl I’ve known. I know you’ve lost someone and it hurts. You cannot control the depth of a wound another soul inflicts upon you. Which is why I am not here to tell you tomorrow is another day; that the sun will go on shining; or there are plenty of fish in the sea. What I will tell you is this; it’s okay to be hurting as much as you are. What you are feeling is not completely valid but necessary because it makes you so much more human. And though I can’t promise it will get better any time soon, I can tell you that it will; eventually. For now, all you can do is take your time. Take all the time you need. Remember that I’m here for you whenever you need me. I love you always, my girl.

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Please be clingy with me. Get worried if I don’t text you back in ten minutes, blow up my phone, when we’re in public you better hold my hand and kiss me, get mad when other girls look at me, tell me that you miss me or love me all the time. But also I want you to trust me. If I’m dating you then it means that I’m all for you. I don’t want a relationship that will last a few days. I got into this because I saw something with you. I am yours, you are mine. End of story.

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Note To Self: Do something today that your future self will thank you for.

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What I say: you're cute.

What Im thinking: You are the most amazing, stunning, sweet, caring, gorgeous, adorable, funny, perfect fucking human being in the world. I love you to death and your existence in my life warms my heart. And I want nothing more than to curl up in your arms forever.

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Worst part of it, you've been hurt by the person na akala mong hinding hindi ka sasaktan katulad ng ginawa ng iba.